(12-19-2018, 07:45 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (12-18-2018, 09:36 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ] (12-18-2018, 08:38 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Jake, I'm not convinced you will take this seriously. "Only 10 days" is "only 8 days" more than you were supposed to take off, IF it was timed correctly for an ASRB break. Otherwise it was 10 days more. So that, best case scenario, is only what, 400% or 500% more time off than you were supposed to get? Yet here you are talking as if it's no big deal. How do we classify this, Jake? Self deception, or self delusion?
When you want something, you do what it takes to get it. Do what it takes, and I'll believe you're serious. Until I believe you are serious again, you will have to figure it out without my help.
After 3years if you don't see this as me taking it serious then I don't see what will. First time I've broken asrb.
I'll plod along and hope for the best.
Jake, what I see is someone who is being self deceptive. You aren't doing this to make the changes, you're doing it to have an excuse not to. You could have had all these issues dealt with a long time ago if you had done one simple thing, but you refuse to do that one simple thing. You do everything in your power to dance around it, but you never do the one thing that would end your issues in one fell swoop: take full personal responsibility for your choices and actions.
I have been around the block many times with people on this in many directions, from procrastination to drug use to being deceptive to others and self deception and alcoholism and many others. I know what I am looking at, I know why it is what it is, and I know that at your core you refuse to take personal responsibility.
So you are looking to subs for help, but it has become a convenient excuse to stagnate and do nothing. Wait for the sub to do it, while defeating the sub and then you don't have to move while saying you are trying to. Which, really, is a lie to yourself and everyone else. And that means your real goal is stagnation and procrastination, and the lengths to which you are going to maintain the status quo is amazing. When you use the subs, it takes effort equal to what it would take to achieve the goals of the program to resist achieving them. That is intentional effort to achieve the real goal.
At this point, I think you have three options.
1. Go find something else that works better for you than subliminals.
2. Start taking personal responsibility and outgrowing the desire to stagnate and fail.
3. Use something with FRM in it.
I don't see you doing #2 anytime soon. You obviously don't want to do #1, because it might either work or cost you your excuse for stagnating and maintaining your real goal. So that leaves #3, and you're even finding excuses not to do that.
So it's the end of the road. There's nothing left to try.
Im not sure what you mean. I click and I play. Ive been doing that for 3 years on all the subs. Only difference here is that around the 80th day life got in my way.
The biggest obstacles I have are both my insomnia and my travels. My home life is very chaotic in the UK as compared to my life in europe but the travelling always messes up my already screwed up sleeping schedule and habit. This in turn becomes a dilemma for which I have always looked at solutions to over come.
In 2015 I was terribly sick for 6-9months, where my life was potentially at risk but even then I stayed with the subs I was listening to back then.
I went to europe and bought 20khz speakers and placed those around my bed there but in the Uk I had no speakers and couldnt afford it. As a mature student my money is super tight which meant I had to improvise as best as I could.
I bought Bose headphones for the purpose of listening to subs by headphones.
Sleepphones caused me major ear ache so couldnt use those.
Any time I have had a challenge and an obstacle I have faced it, and tried to find a solution. I have in that time through my struggles manage to deal with both university issues and family issues but yet here i am committed to the subs.
This time around I missed 10 days, by whichever day it was around 80th day, and I had hoped by now I would have seen results. I didnt. Sure I can be blamed for it but all I have done is cram, pass exams and procrastinate on everything else I want to do and feel I need to do - both due to insomnia and due to poor diet etc.
Yet im still here. Im not looking at subs to do anything more than what they say they will. I missed 10 days, unfortunate but I couldnt avoid it.
I cant go into details on the world wide web as im sure you will appreciate but the obstacles were unavoidable. Thats not me avoiding the subs, that me seeing life has a way of hitting when its least warranted. The same could be said perhaps of you and your cycles.
Yet here I am.
You then assumed somehow that I had lowered the volume to 0 wrong. You for the first time in 3 years have now told me to up the volume so guess what I have even done this.
As I have said before I am prepared to restart the 90days, I have nothing to lose but everything to gain but I really dont understand what you mean.
Perhaps you say this from how it comes across with the way I type, obviously you arent privy to my private life, and I can only share as much as I deem fit but I dont see how I have not been committed to the subs.
Im not executing, you say its my subconscious well I have no idea how to speak to that except through your subs so like I said all i can do is plod along in the hope that I execute.
