(03-05-2016, 04:52 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]I still don't get this because, until I got into pick up and learned about AFC's and such, I completely believed I was a ladies' man, despite being a virgin, I simply believed I was too attractive. However, reality never conformed to THAT.
You have to walk your own path, and if you choose to believe that we're suffering from some delusion, then so be it. But the path I'm choosing to walk means that I have complete control over my life, my destiny and my purpose, and I personally feel more "free" than I ever have.
Look at it like this --
I grew up as a minority in a very small, racist town in the south and had a lot of things done to me that literally destroyed my self-worth. As a result, for almost 28 years, I suffered from a crippling case of constant fatigue syndrome. I spent almost all of the day asleep and was riddled with extreme social anxiety. I mean, I couldn't even walk inside of your run of the mill restaurant without almost breaking into tears. I tried EVERYTHING -- ridiculous amounts of caffeine, prescription drugs, etc. etc. Nothing worked... until I found mental alchemy. I discovered that there was nothing physically wrong with me -- my mind was simply riddled with guilt, shame and fear. You should've heard my daily self-talk -- I'd beat the crap out of anyone who talked to me the way I talked to myself. When walking into those restaurants, that voice would say: "Everyone's looking at you, everyone's going to laugh at you, look how low and pathetic you are," and I'd turn and run.
My own alchemy techniques got me to a place where I could at least function, but ONE RUN of AM6 completely turned my life around. I'll save the whole details for my upcoming AM6 Second Run journal, but I've had such a drastic change in my life that I sometimes experience cognitive dissonance because I'm literally thinking, "this can't be me."
Those faulty, traumatic childhood experiences that were deeply embedded in my subconscious manifested in the material world as "constant fatigue syndrome" and social anxiety, forcing me to stay inside and hide, where it's "safe." Now that those beliefs are being thrown out, my reality is conforming to me being a self-actualized person. I walk into restaurants like I own the place now, and always end up in deep, meaningful conversation with strangers. Just the other day, I had someone tell me: "Dude, you're the realest person I've ever met."
Hippocrates was on to something when he said all disease begins in the mind. I'm not saying AM6 can cure all things, but my first run definitely cured CFS, ADHD and ED. Who knows where I'll be when my second run is done.
As above, so below. Believe what you want.
:: Kanye Shrug ::
