Subliminal Talk

Day 4

Oh my, what a day. Right now I truly don't know what to think. I feel like I have some things to do regarding some girls I know, but I'm in no position to make decisions now.

1) Today I went to the additional classes. I enrolled to expand my social cycle and meet some new friends as per my policy to find some hobbies I feel I lack right now. In the morning I felt I would meet my old love (girl I think I will long distance snipe) there out of the sudden. Of course I didn't, but I passed her on my way there. She dodged my stare. Right now I really want to write to her and I almost certainly will. We have history and she rejected me in the past, but maybe some things changed and I can ask her out for a coffee? If she agrees great, if she doesn't it will hurt but at least I will rid myself of stupid illusions I have towards her.

2) After leaving classes I met girl I dated last year. We talked for the first time in half a year and I already ask her out for a friendly drink. She agreed but now I'll have to schedule it with her, which will be problematic.

3) Later that evening I got news from my friend about my ex. I didn't want to post it here but I think I will be good to do so. 3-4 months after we definitively broke up she found herself new boyfriend, wanted to marry him but he bailed out couple of days prior for another girl and now she's alone and apparently pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I will never want to get back with her and I'm extremely happy (even if it's quite bittersweet) that I dodged this giant bullet. But I have strong urge to write to her right now and simply hurt her asking if she's glad she forced me to kick her out of my life. She could have settle with me, she picked other choice cause that would make her happy and apparently it didn't work In a sadistic way I'm glad she suffers right now but I hope I will be strong enough not to boost my own pride and bring her even more suffering.

I hope no sniper ever will target her nor my own natural evolution as I gain value will bring her back into my like. I will not suffer by this too much from this, but if she ever will want to get back to me I fear I will simply destroy any remaining sanity in her. Well, I might suffer if she decides to emotionally blackmail me. But she will suffer more I can promise you that. She hurt me enough throughout 2016.

Day 5

Another rough day, I've managed to put myself through though. I'm tired but I blame it on weather than anything else.

As for the developments:
- Nothing's going on with my ex. I hope except for getting random news every now and then nothing ever will.
- My old love refused meeting up for a coffee, just like I expected. Funnily enough she was very kind about it this time around. I'm not reading much into this, but now she knows I'm still interested with her after a year of lack of contact. I sniper is ever to hit her that might make it easier for her to reach out to me. I don't count on it though, best case scenario I will be pleasantly surprised, worst case nothing changes.
- I scheduled meet up with that other girl for Sunday (busy schedules both of us). I don't call this a date cause I don't really consider her dating material, but we'll see how things will go with her. Right now I just wanna hang up with her and catch up. Again, I would not like to get into LTR with her, but if I get chance to make a move on her I will.

Day 6

Tired today. I usually take hour long nap afternoon but today it took me 3 hours. Also I find a lot of anger in myself today, no doubt sign of healing.

I'm getting IoIs every now and then but nothing out of ordinary.

Day 7

Nothing to report today other than I found 10$ lying on the street today. DMSI has luck magnifier somewhere in its gut, right?

(03-09-2017, 11:08 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]I found 10$ lying on the street today. DMSI has luck magnifier somewhere in its gut, right?

http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-8559-p...#pid159699

(03-06-2017, 03:39 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]US/LM is in DMSI 3.1.

(03-09-2017, 11:08 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]Day 7

Nothing to report today other than I found 10$ lying on the street today. DMSI has luck magnifier somewhere in its gut, right?

BUT....

If you didn't use the 10$ to try and buy sex then I don't think DSMI is working properly!

(03-09-2017, 01:46 PM)WIP68 Wrote: [ -> ]

(03-09-2017, 11:08 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]Day 7

Nothing to report today other than I found 10$ lying on the street today. DMSI has luck magnifier somewhere in its gut, right?

BUT....

If you didn't use the 10$ to try and buy sex then I don't think DSMI is working properly!

Yeah, note to Shannon to include in the next version module that makes you invest all money you find to have more sex!

Day 9

Feeling well today, albeit tired. Beacon balls are back and I felt dazzled while I was doing my creative visualizations.

Day 11

I've met with a girl I was talking about a while back yesterday. And there are a lot of things to talk about. Before I start I just want to say that all this is probably not as much DMSI doing but rather than she's simply like that. To be honest I cannot quite get her, she's full of opposites and quite feminine in her thinking.

First of all she came late and for some reason she spend way more time than necessary explaining herself. I wasn't angry at her nor was I really asking, she just very badly wanted me to understand it was not her fault.

Next she said she has a boyfriend, but only after I explicitly asked her if she's meeting somebody. From what I can tell she doesn't cheat on him but she enjoys company of other guys a lot as they give her a lot of attention. She even said quite laughingly that she never had to look to a boyfriend and that even when she wants to be alone after a break-up someone always rolls along. Also we were talking a lot and honestly about our past relationships.

The most surprising thing for me was her telling me she's gonna have period next week o.O I mean OK, you have iron deficiency, but I don't need to know your menstrual cycle. She was also talking about maternal instincts turning on in her. Later on we were even talking about porn and about her she apparently dislikes it, because she likes the real thing more

I wish I could tell you if she was giving me IoIs or not, but on that day she had serious case of neurosis and was playing around with something the whole evening or check up the phone every 5 minutes. She was laughing a lot as well. Nothing obvious though, no touching or showing pieces of her body. If anything she told me that she behaves like that often and because of that lots of guys think she's interested.

All in all it was a fun evening and I will keep in touch with her in the future. It's been almost a year since we saw each other for longer than 5 minutes so it was great to catch up and have some laughs. I'm curious what will the future bring, I made it quite clear that I would not like the contact to cut this time and she seems to agree but I certainly don't want to break any relationships right now. Well, not unless she'll explicitly want me to, then I might help poor girl in need

Day 11 update

I randomly stumbled upon her TWICE today. I mean I knew she would be somewhere around there, but what are the odds of that? Day after a hang out and about 5 months of no contact...

Day 13

Nothing major to report. I'm getting this nice feeling of comfort and self-assurance, like even if I cannot be certain of it I know everything slowly falls into its place.

(03-15-2017, 08:36 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]Nothing major to report. I'm getting this nice feeling of comfort and self-assurance, like even if I cannot be certain of it I know everything slowly falls into its place.

This is major... Most testers are reporting this same feeling, just describing it differently!!

(03-15-2017, 08:43 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]

(03-15-2017, 08:36 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]Nothing major to report. I'm getting this nice feeling of comfort and self-assurance, like even if I cannot be certain of it I know everything slowly falls into its place.

This is major... Most testers are reporting this same feeling, just describing it differently!!

Well, that a good sign for sure

What are those other descriptions? I'm curious if I can relate to those.

(03-15-2017, 08:36 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]Nothing major to report. I'm getting this nice feeling of comfort and self-assurance, like even if I cannot be certain of it I know everything slowly falls into its place.

(03-15-2017, 08:43 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]This is major... Most testers are reporting this same feeling, just describing it differently!!

(03-15-2017, 05:08 PM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]Well, that a good sign for sure

What are those other descriptions? I'm curious if I can relate to those.

http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-8582-p...#pid161215

(03-15-2017, 06:50 AM)CatMan Wrote: [ -> ]-I still have this constant feeling of "blankness", or "detached numbness". I don't dislike it, don't get me wrong. It's just a foreign feeling I'm not used to, that this version is causing. It's peaceful. Also, feeling a form of relaxed contentment and quiet confidence in myself and things.

(03-15-2017, 07:14 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]I also feel at peace...

http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-8544-p...#pid160991

(03-13-2017, 03:54 PM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]While on 3.0.1 I developed an IDGAF attitude. That attitude is gone.
Now on 3.1 it has shifted towards, "I'm okay with that." A more calming, less stressful attitude.