It IS possible that you may get back together with your ex, OR, you could go meet her in person, realise that you don't want her anymore and have a clean break and closure. Don't limit your possibilities.
(05-30-2017, 06:05 AM)Wharrgarbl Wrote: [ -> ]It IS possible that you may get back together with your ex, OR, you could go meet her in person, realise that you don't want her anymore and have a clean break and closure. Don't limit your possibilities.
How am I limiting my possibilities? I do not understand. All I said is that my ex in the only woman right now who gives any kind of sexual and emotional attention right now. And I don't say I want to get back with her now. I might, sure, as a boyfriend or friend with benefits or something else, but I'm not holding my horses for that. May opportunity arise and I'll follow it, my ex or not.
Look, throughout DMSI 3.1 there had been other, sure, but either they would disappear quickly, find themselves boyfriends or something else would happen. It's a shame, a big one.
Day 90 - 6 loops
Day 91 - 0 loops
So on Tuesday my ex changed her mind and finally invited me in again. I went there yesterday, stayed at her place for the night and came back home today. And it was... interesting.
First of all no, there was no sex. Partly because it would be bad idea anyhow, but immediate reason was that we were so drunk and high that when party we've made ended none on us would have strength for it. We were making out however at some point however, so very drunk and romantic...
Best part of the visit were first couple of hours when we went to the hills for a long walk. And by walk I mean something like 7 hours long with stops here and there. There was a lot of honest conversation, catching up after half a year of lack of contact and everything was going surprisingly well. In fact she was much more open than I though she would be.
We didn't get back together and I don't think we will in the immediate future. Of course I'm in touch with her again for only 2.5 weeks, so things might go fast. All I know right now is that I won't be pursuing her too hard right now, it wasn't worth it in the past and so I'd rather take things slow. And of course I will be looking for and taking any opportunities that may come my way.
Day 92 - 9 loops
I think I went over the board with this amount of loops. I feel tired and anxious, I'll try to stick to 5 loops a night for now.
Anxiety I fell now because of my ex is not dissimilar from what I felt before with other DMSI girls. I feel quite ungrounded and uncertain what will happen, and I never liked that. Which is funny as things seem to move so fast now...
Later today or tomorrow I will make kid of a summary to describe my thoughts and feelings about DMSI 3.1 and the future. And I think there are things to talk about.
Day 93 - 5 loops
Because I'll be spending this day at my parents working on my thesis I thought it would be good idea to write promised short summary of my DMSI 3.1 experiences thus far. My recent experiences with my ex gave the sub real test and so I think it is justified to do this now, after 3 months of exposure and week or so of multiple loops running.
Healing is strong. Remember that Alpha Male 6 brought me into this whole mess with my ex and DMSI 3.0 gave me quite bad depression (I might be to harsh, but those things were happening while these subs were running and they didn't help, that's what I mean). Now sure, I have some mild anxieties here and there but in the past I would be heartbroken in the same circumstances. I'm much stronger person now. I also forgave myself and others a lot.
External results are still weak. I did experienced the "bubble" recently when I came back from my ex's and not only did I see much more beautiful women than normal, they were also giving me IoIs on the streets. I wish I could make this repeatedly and control it but maybe this will come with more exposure.
Manifestations were interesting... My ex is obvious one, we made out but I really, really don't want much to be happening it this direction. Something might come out of this, sure, but I'd rather be building something new. And whenever I'm trying something new nothing comes out od this. For some reason my manifestations are notorious for finding themselves boyfriends :/
Tiredness is not as bad I'd think. I'm procrastinating hard, sure, but I don't feel overburdened, even with more loops. If anything they give me more strength and confidence. Especially now that I'm seeing some interesting results again.
Future seems bright. I tend to be impatient and angry that results don't come my way but still the truth is things are happening and with 3.2 they will be happening even quicker. I do have high hopes for 3.2 and 3.3 after that and this thought is probably the biggest reason why I don't worry too much about weak results I'm having thus far.
(06-03-2017, 03:20 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]And whenever I'm trying something new nothing comes out od this. For some reason my manifestations are notorious for finding themselves boyfriends :/
Do you mean you manifest them single and they find a relationship afterwards?
(06-03-2017, 04:07 AM)enoch Wrote: [ -> ] (06-03-2017, 03:20 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]And whenever I'm trying something new nothing comes out od this. For some reason my manifestations are notorious for finding themselves boyfriends :/
Do you mean you manifest them single and they find a relationship afterwards?
Yes, pretty much. Let me recap.
First one had a boyfriend after I manifested her, but told me about him only after we met and I asked her about her personal life outright.
Second one was single, found herself a boyfriend (she went to meet him instead of me that day), stopped writing with me because "she wanted to be OK towards him" and now she is single again but neither did she contact me again nor do I want to after how she treated me back then.
Third one, my probable long distance target was at the last moments of her months long relationship, she was single for week or two, found herself boyfriend, broke with him two weeks later, was single again for couple of weeks and now she has a boyfriend since middle of May and it seems she's going to keep him.
And, of course, there is my ex who is free but that is another can of worms I spend enough time writing about here.
Day 94 - 7 loops
7 loops apparently might have been an overkill as well. Not sure if tiredness is due to the sub or rather stress I'm under right now. Thankfully there is one recepty for said stress and it's getting back to work. I've done some good work yesterday and despite tiredness I need to do rest of it today, otherwise it will tail me and give me even more anxiety.
As I suspected nothing mayor happened yesterday. I keep in touch with my ex, more because I'm curious where this will go rather than because I care (part of me if scared and tired of her, as I said before I'd rather be building something new rather than entering the same river again). And she seems distant. I don't know what's up with that, if I were to guess she has really serious emotional problems now and she doesn't know what to do about me.
And about emotional problems I think it's the biggest obstacle for me right now. I truly don't seem to be able to make my mind on what I want when it comes to my love life. Do I want traditional or open relationship? Or no relationship at all? Do I want to get back to my ex, be friends with her or want her to disappear from my life? I wish I could answer those but I simply cannot. And so I sit here, whine how I see no results and wait for wonder :/
Right now I have more pressing issues on my hands but the day will come when I will have time to ponder them and I'm not sure I'll be ready.
(06-04-2017, 08:06 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Hey man, thought I'd share this with you: https://www.theweathernetwork.com/news/a...er-/82891/
So you see? You're not the only one. 
My ex cast a spell on entire city? I underestimated her power level
Seriously though, from what I can see I got it pretty lightly. All I got was some gentle taps on the head, not outright berserk attack o.O
Yeah man. That was some serious Hitchcock shit.
Day 95 - 1 + 4 loops
I made an interesting experiment today. Before sleep I listened to 1 loop of ultrasonic on my laptop and 4 loops of hybrid in the night. I woke up extremely tired (something which is not common for me with bigger number of loops). Good part of that could be also because I released a lot of stress because I managed to catch up with my work.
But what's important is that before falling asleep I felt ecstatic. I was filled with arousal and love, chakras firing up left, right and center. I would not call it euphory as it felt much different than the high in previous versions. I was trying to harvest that energy and target it on my ex just to see if something would come out of this. We'll see about that, for now I'll be looking more into it and see, if I'll be able to replicate that result.
Dat 96 - ? loops
I have no idea how many loops I played as music player turned off in the middle of the night. I launched it back again do I got 2 loops at least, but exactly how many I do not know. Also no experiment performed today.
Why? Because I went to a party with my friends. Or rather we made little party ourselves. Nothing of note really happened when it comes to results as there were few people there and neither of them I hold any interest in. Also hangover is bad, but I do not think I really need to explain that
One good thing DMSI related is that I learnt some things about my DMSI girls, especially my sniper target.
Lots of dreams though. I don't remember them well but I do remember for example my sniper target, my phone's etui being destroyed or my parents talking about my unwanted child with my ex. Even in my dreams my parents tell me not to gave sex without condoms :/
Day 97 - 2 + 7 loops
I might have went overboard with number of loops again. Still I don't feel too tired, a bit anxious due to how much work I have and I'm scared I won't make it all in time but that's it. I have entire day free so I hope to slowly and surely do all I have to do.
I listened to 2 loops od US just before sleep and 7 loops of hybrid and I experienced similar effect to that 2 days ago. If anything it happened earlier now, during second US loop instead of during hybrid.