Day 119 - 7 loops
Well, the world keeps on giving. While thought of me getting that scholarship was sinking in my ex offered her... help.
Ok, so the thing is I will have my MSc defense next week and while I'm more than knowledgeable enough to pass it with flying colors I'm not star when it comes to presentation. So my ex, witch that she is, offered me to send me some of her charisma. And by offered I mean she's done some pagan ritual without asking me much about it.
I'm not sure if it will work and frankly it doesn't even matter that much. As I said I'm confident enough in my abilities as it is. Still, if something changes due to her, it's gonna be very interesting.
Day 127
Sorry for not posting that often anymore, life's gone a bit hectic recently for better or worse (mostly better), my exposure to DMSI is almost random. And the results are... interesting.
Long story incredibly short I went to the concert of our favorite band with my ex. It was great, we even managed to meet the band in person, talk to them and get photos with them. Amazing experience.
What's more we kinda are getting together again. Attraction the whole day was astonishing so we were cuddling and making out all the time. Also we had some very honest conversations on how we'd like to move forward with this, which is hard due to emotional baggage we carry now. So we want to do it slow. Also none of us is bound now, so if I happen to stumble upon someone else no harm will be done. If anything she said she almost hopes this would happen in some kind of "I don't deserve you" kind of context.
We'll see.
Day 138
I've spend last 2 weeks enjoying myself here and there. My exposure was shaky, I'd rather listen to DMSI whole night or not at all. I'd say I listened to it about half the nights. Thankfully that frantic period is over and with summer vacation in full swing I'll try to start a project or two, we'll see.
I visited my family (nothing of note to mention really) as well as one of my DMSI girls for two or three days. She didn't really give me much in terms of IoIs but was so extremely friendly and kind to me it's incredible. Her boyfriend was very nice as well, he wasn't showing his jealousy but still he was keeping her close to himself.
My ex is acting like I'd expect from her, keeping me close with one hand and pushing me away with the other. This makes me quite torn but I can manage that by focusing on other issues and searching for other women to bring into my life.
Sadly there are no manifestations in my life, nothing of note to mention. Maybe it's a sign I should go back to A? I'll give it some thought.
Day 142
I gave myself a week or so of rest from DMSI, partly because I knew I wouldn't really need it at this time, partly to see how I'd fell. And I feel quite bad actually. Anxious, complete lack of motivation, you know the drill. I will need DMSI in 2 weeks so I'll be resuming it now, I'm not sure if I want version A or B though. B had been quite fun, while not necessarily in terms of results but surely in terms of confidence and very small resistance.
Day I_have_lost_my_count_long_age
I may be onto something, wish me luck tomorrow
(08-23-2017, 11:53 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]Day I_have_lost_my_count_long_age
I may be onto something, wish me luck tomorrow
Quite the mysterious post...
Good luck tomorrow!
Day 175
Ok, so I'll post an update for the last month. Last post was truly enigmatic so I owe an explanation. Most important stuff will be in the last paragraph, just so you know.
As to my usage of DMSI it's been shaky these last weeks. I've been much out from the city (I cannot amaze myself how introvert in me can cope with these travels
) and so listening to DMSI each and every day is not trivial task. Also quite frankly I'm already awaiting version 3.2 and I feel quite burned from 3.1 and so I don't feel much "need" to listen to DMSI in any regular manner right now. Take that into account while I talk about my results.
I've been here and there, including rock festival, and I saw no real results. I wasn't much going out of my way to get some so I guess I should not expect much. Still, before DMSI I could score a makeout while on the concert. Now none such thing happened :/
As to my DMSI girls... My ex is playing "I don't give a fuck about you but I'll be showing you how I can score any guy I want" kind of game, which is funny for me as playing on my jealousy is a bit turn-off for me. As to others one of them recently said she misses me and we promised to meet each other once she comes back from work in a month time. She has a boyfriend, but she hasn't met him in a couple months and she's quite bitter about it, so...
Ok, so the point of last post was I met this pretty much perfect girl for me on camp I just came back from. We talk a bit in groups and such so I got to know her a bit but I blew any chance of flirting with her as she was never alone (she's introverted and kept close to her friends) and I wasn't confident enough to approach her while in group. So I decided to wait a day and wrote to her today, I'm waiting for the reply as I write this.
As I said I don't expect much from DMSI right now as I don't play along with instructions. But there still might be interesting development on the horizon. I'll keep you posted if something comes out of this. If not, expect another update in a month
Update
She replied, she's out of the city till the end of the vacation be she'd like to meet with the beginning of the academic year. So... progress, I guess
Day 179
I just wanted to point out interesting kind of resistance I'm experiencing right now. I like curvy girls (not too thin and not too fat, just so then have nice tits, butts and legs) and that girl I've asked out is of this type. And while back on the capt I could not look enough at her body and I though she's exactly my type now there are thoughts that she might be too fat for me...
Why, now that I managed to ask a girl out for the first time since I broke up with my ex in winter, do I self-sabotage myself with thoughts like that?
Day ??
Hi guys, I'm still alive if any of you was wondering
I wasn't posting at this forum because I pretty much stopped listening to DMSI 3.1 and I'm waiting for the next version to be released who knows when. Until the release I will not resume listening to DMSI except for few loops every now and then.
As for the results there were pretty much none, or at least nothing worth mentioning. Lots of anger and disillusion recently though, at times it's hard to deal with those emotions.
Day ??
I still don't listen to the subs, however some funky stuff is going on right now in my life anyway. Wish me luck on Wednesday guys
3.2B Day 2
Ok, so I'm back using DMSI.
Since last version much has changed, most importantly I have a "girlfriend" now. I use quotation marks because we decided not to call this relationship anything and because we are going very slow. I know her since October and we've been meeting at least once a week since then. She is a virgin, which is surprising because she's very pretty girl but she's very shy and insecure. Also I don't want to rush things because of past experiences.
Anyhow slightly over a week ago we finally started kissing, still nothing major but I'm starting to push this relationship towards sex and it works. With DMSI this will be only faster. Today we went for the movie and most of it we were cuddling, not the first time though so it's not that relevant. She let me pitch her butt in public as a punishment for mean behavior so that's huge for a shy virgin!
Yesterday (day 1 I guess) I went for a drink with my female friend, one of those on whom previous DMSI versions seemed to affect. She went completely drunk and I had to escort her home to her boyfriend to the other side of the city. She wasn't exactly hitting on me but we started talking relationships as hers isn't going very well and she confessed that she likes me since the start and how she fancies me. It was alcohol talking, but I'm sure if I were to pursue her now it would go somewhere.
3.2B Day 4
I've heard a lot of people report tiredness and so do I. In fact I took day off my work because I couldn't bear myself to get up it the morning and I got up only at noon! And I'm 25! Thank goodness I have elastic working hours!
I've been to my friends for two hours or so and two girls I was hitting on were there. One of them was kind of indifferent although smiling and playing with her hair, other one was more vocal and even joked about one of my flaws "of course, otherwise he would be perfect"! Anyhow I felt a lot of resistance towards them simply out of disdain for how I let myself be treated by them.
The thing is my "GF" is treating me with so much kindness and respect that only now I realize how little I was getting of it in the past. Maybe it was just me and my beta passive-aggressive behavior, but my outlook on people has changed because of that!
next time some anyone throws that at you say with a chuckle.... "haha id be too perfect for you then, good thing youre as flawed as me.." smile and relax lol