(02-26-2018, 11:59 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]next time some anyone throws that at you say with a chuckle.... "haha id be too perfect for you then, good thing youre as flawed as me.." smile and relax lol
Yeah, it's a good mindset to have. However towards someone who rejected me way back when it would be more passive-aggressive that flirty :/
It reminded me though that my GF calls me "perfect" and as kind of a joke I started to call her "ideal" because of that
And she is not a person who give complements lightly.
3.2B Day 5
Not really a report but since I started running this version alcohol makes me really sick. Like 2 bears and I wanna puke while normally I could swallow 4-pack no problem. I don't know if it's "The Wall" or I have some problems with my stomach or health in general, but it's something I think worth noting.
(02-27-2018, 03:48 PM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ]3.2B Day 5
Not really a report but since I started running this version alcohol makes me really sick. Like 2 bears and I wanna puke while normally I could swallow 4-pack no problem. I don't know if it's "The Wall" or I have some problems with my stomach or health in general, but it's something I think worth noting.
Detox Module
3.2B Week 2
Funny thing about this version is I give little **** about this sub actually. I mean I listen to it daily and such but I'm not concerned with the results, I'm not looking for results everywhere, I rarely visit the forum etc. In previous versions it was much different.
And there are results. Things are slowly but steadily escalating with my GF. Actual sex is still some time ahead as she's so shy and insecure but today we played in clothes during and after watching a movie and when I went to the toilet I was dripping with precum. It was almost scary actually, it was happening to me before but not in such amounts!
Hey guys,
I haven't been to this site in a long time. I don't regret it or anything but I feel like I should come back and start reporting again every now and then. Here's my story for the last year or so.
Last Autumn I've been on Tinder a bit and there I met my gf. Cute, shy, nicest person I've ever met. Solid 8/10 if she had confidence to show her beauty outwards, but her body language, choice of clothes and overall lack of care for herself made her 6-7/10. But I took a shot with her because why not, what do I have to lose? At that time I thought she was perfect for me. A far cry from my crazy ex I lost so much sanity over. But after a year of knowing her, after me taking her virginity, after taking a trip around Europe etc. I feel empty around her. I've been drifting away from her since about July and I cannot help it.
A couple of weeks ago she broke to tears when after I didn't want to bring her to my house after a premature end of go-out with her friends. She said she needs some rest from me and that I should not escort her home. At first I was angry, she might be mad at me for something stupid but I'm a man and I'll make sure she gets home safe. But she was persistent, so I let it go. The next day she wrote in apologizing. I declined, assured her she needs this rest. Ever since I've been cold towards her. We met twice since then and I didn't even want to hug her. We didn't break up yet, but in my mind I'm single again.
I don't want to end things like that but what am I to do? With every fiber of my body I feel that's not it. Problem is she's extremely into me and I don't want to break her heart. Throughout this year I tried to improve her self-esteem and I failed, but break-up will make her much worse than she was before. Still I will not try to save her and I will let this relationship die.
All this year I've been listening to the DMSI on and off, when I felt like it. That was a mistake I think. For like week or two now I listen to it every night as per instructions again and I'm not sure if it helps or not. It surely gives me comfort though and that's important.
Before I started using subs I was pathetic, lacking self-esteem virgin. Now I'm ending relationships simply because I'm not fulfilled in them. I would have never believed that way back when! But there is still huge room for improvements, if I were to make a list I would stop right away simply out of being overwhelmed. However, if I do things slow but steady, step after step, I will find the fulfillment I seek. Lonesome or with someone by my side, that makes little difference for me right now. It's about travel, not the destination.
Thank you all for your support throughout all my runs: Alpha Male, DMSI and surely some more subs I forgot about. I'm a different man because of subs and you and I hope maybe I'll be able to give some back to the community.
(11-19-2018, 03:42 PM)blth Wrote: [ -> ]Why you felt empty?
I don't know, not truly. The huge part of why I entered that relationship was because I could, seducing a virgin and all that. But in the long run she is not fulfilling me in any way. She doesn't challenge me, she doesn't make me strife towards being someone better. What's worse I think I slipped and became "weaker" (I don't know what word to use here to be honest). I got fatter, my masturbation habit became worse despite having someone to have sex with, became more lazy and less socializing. I know these are all my faults but the point is I could do it because I felt accepted by her this way, I could slip and I could replace my own self-acceptance with her acceptance. Only in last couple of weeks I have strength and will to do something with myself and I start feeling more and more like this relationship is a dead end.
I hope what I wrote makes sense
After DMSI 3.3 is released... remember, DMSI is still experimental.
LTU - Life Tune-Up is getting an upgrade.
You may want to take a look at LTU when it gets its upgrade and decide to run it and get out of your slump!!
I believe she could benefit from listening to LTU 5.5 when it's released. It will transform her into the Solid 8/10 that you felt she has the potential to become!!
As you know, there is a reason for everything. You both met, the seductive nature of the relationship ran its course and now it is where it is at. Whether it continues or ends, you made a friend. Where this friendship goes from here... only in time will be revealed.
It makes perfect sense. It seems she wasnt challenging enough tbh
(11-20-2018, 07:59 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]After DMSI 3.3 is released... remember, DMSI is still experimental.
LTU - Life Tune-Up is getting an upgrade.
You may want to take a look at LTU when it gets its upgrade and decide to run it and get out of your slump!!
I believe she could benefit from listening to LTU 5.5 when it's released. It will transform her into the Solid 8/10 that you felt she has the potential to become!!
As you know, there is a reason for everything. You both met, the seductive nature of the relationship ran its course and now it is where it is at. Whether it continues or ends, you made a friend. Where this friendship goes from here... only in time will be revealed.
Good to know about upgrades, I've been out of the loop for some time and so I didn't know. LTU was my first sub I think before I run AM and it was quite good, 5.5 version could be actually amazing. I'll stick with DMSI for a time now, but I'll keep it in mind for sure.
As to her I don't want to introduce her to the subs. Not only I think it hard to breach such a topic, but also I find that subs are mostly help and it comes to the listener to do the push. Sadly she seems to me too passive and easy to be discouraged to do that.
BTW what about Success and Luck sub released recently? Is it any good?
With the advent of the Fear Removal Module, subs aren't what you remember anymore. USLM3 is a very different beast. If you read the forum, you'll see that USLM3 is doing things we have been trying for years to accomplish because of the FRM. And LTU 5.5G is going to have the next version of FRM in it, along with USLM and UMOP and a number of other titles as well.
(11-21-2018, 06:07 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]With the advent of the Fear Removal Module, subs aren't what you remember anymore. USLM3 is a very different beast. If you read the forum, you'll see that USLM3 is doing things we have been trying for years to accomplish because of the FRM. And LTU 5.5G is going to have the next version of FRM in it, along with USLM and UMOP and a number of other titles as well.
Hey Shannon, that sounds amazing. So, in your opinion what should I do? Like I said I've been running DMSI 3.2A on and off throughout last months and it gave me quite a lot. Should I wait for 3.3 or maybe give myself a break and try USLM3 or LTU 5.5G?
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By the way Shannon, I have this strong but not based on much feeling that something (good) will happen. Could this be because of the subs? I've had like "wishful thinking" kind of situations before and that's not it. It's more like you know you'll be going to a vacation soon, but you don't know exactly when.
(11-21-2018, 08:09 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ] (11-21-2018, 06:07 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]With the advent of the Fear Removal Module, subs aren't what you remember anymore. USLM3 is a very different beast. If you read the forum, you'll see that USLM3 is doing things we have been trying for years to accomplish because of the FRM. And LTU 5.5G is going to have the next version of FRM in it, along with USLM and UMOP and a number of other titles as well.
Hey Shannon, that sounds amazing. So, in your opinion what should I do? Like I said I've been running DMSI 3.2A on and off throughout last months and it gave me quite a lot. Should I wait for 3.3 or maybe give myself a break and try USLM3 or LTU 5.5G?
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By the way Shannon, I have this strong but not based on much feeling that something (good) will happen. Could this be because of the subs? I've had like "wishful thinking" kind of situations before and that's not it. It's more like you know you'll be going to a vacation soon, but you don't know exactly when.
LTU will have FRM v4 in it, and so will DMSI 3.3. If you like DMSI, you can stay with that if you like. I still need feedback and data, but the choice is up to you.
You ask if your feeling could be because of the subs. I would say, sure, why not? TID is a thing, after all.
I've decided to stop listening to DMSI for a while in anticipation for a new version. I remember it was a thing with earlier transitions and while I didn't find much discussion on the topic I guess it holds true. I also decided I will try new LTU once it comes out. I guess it will take some time to develop after DMSI 3.3 is out so I will have time to test it before making final decision.
Putting off DMSI was not easy on me, confidence and productivity dropped. I will manage, it's just that I'd rather have this transition phase happen some more tranquil time.
I wrote to my gf today, asking if is would like to talk and maybe come with me to the party next Friday. We ended up in argument with her claiming I don't care anymore and pretty much ending the whole relationship. Maybe it's for the better, I'm not sure if I wanted to keep with this mess but at least part of me wanted to fight to the last.
I was thinking about my fears a lot recently, mainly due to discussions about FRM on the forums. It didn't occur to me before but I still think about myself as the loser virgin I was 3 years ago. It's strange but it's something that grew on me so much that I pretty much personalize myself with now. It will take some work to get me out of this mindset.
And I'm not talking about "Oh, we broke, I won't find another gf" because I know I will, and probably plenty more of them in the future. I'm talking about this strange view of myself deep within. This needs to stop.
I hate my state of mind right now. At times I want to smash everything in my vicinity, other times just stay in my room and sleep away the whole day.
My female friend come on knocking today and it was all fine up until we started topic of my relationship and how she started saying what a great guy I am, if only I would go outside. Yeah, because I wasn't doing it before, I've never met people before and all my relationships didn't end up in the gutter.
BTW she told me her bf she's with for 2 years wouldn't **** her for 3 months straight despite living together and how she's happy with him and wants to make family with him (she's in her early 20s). I will listen to no crap from people like that.