Subliminal Talk

If I learned anything from what happened the other day, it was that my inability to control my anger is out-of-control. I saw, in my mind's eye, a future where it burned me, my wife, my son, and daughter. I've been trying to get my anger under control for years (probably since the mid-90's), and recently I've found myself dwelling on how to get some real change there. I keep thinking, "I don't want my daughter to have a father that uses anger in the ways I do, it can't happen." Looking back over my life, it's only been a destructive force-for-change. This experience shook me in a way where I wonder if I would use my anger again like I have in the past. Time will certainly tell.

But yeah, my plan is to be careful...and kind.

since anger is an issue and kindness is a goal you may find this helpful as a practice.

http://www.buddhanet.net/metta_in.htm

It feels good to do also once you get the hang of it.

(03-22-2017, 02:26 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]If I learned anything from what happened the other day, it was that my inability to control my anger is out-of-control. I saw, in my mind's eye, a future where it burned me, my wife, my son, and daughter. I've been trying to get my anger under control for years (probably since the mid-90's), and recently I've found myself dwelling on how to get some real change there. I keep thinking, "I don't want my daughter to have a father that uses anger in the ways I do, it can't happen." Looking back over my life, it's only been a destructive force-for-change. This experience shook me in a way where I wonder if I would use my anger again like I have in the past. Time will certainly tell.

But yeah, my plan is to be careful...and kind.

The Master Key for any sort of relationship you want to last: COMMUNICATE.

I forgot to mention that, as I sat on the side of the hot tub nursing my injuries (without sympathy from my wife, as she was "done" with me at the time), I had some crazy vision distortions. I even felt like I was starting to float up and out of my body. But, regarding the vision distortion, it was like the camera trick (for lack of a better term) used in Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring just before the Wraiths appear on the road early in the movie. It's a horror-movie camera technique, where everything suddenly zooms in and distorts. I've seen it used in the Evil Dead movies, as well. Anyway, just thought I'd throw that out there.

(03-22-2017, 03:28 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]I forgot to mention that, as I sat on the side of the hot tub nursing my injuries (without sympathy from my wife, as she was "done" with me at the time), I had some crazy vision distortions. I even felt like I was starting to float up and out of my body. But, regarding the vision distortion, it was like the camera trick (for lack of a better term) used in Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring just before the Wraiths appear on the road early in the movie. It's a horror-movie camera technique, where everything suddenly zooms in and distorts. I've seen it used in the Evil Dead movies, as well. Anyway, just thought I'd throw that out there.

Other people have reported this too. I think Shannon said it's a by-product of state shifting? But I may be wrong on that.

(03-22-2017, 03:28 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]It's a horror-movie camera technique, where everything suddenly zooms in and distorts. I've seen it used in the Evil Dead movies, as well.

Sounds like the classic "push-pull" technique - change the zoom level of the lens while physically moving the camera closer or farther as needed. An awesome cinematography trick when done at the right time.

Wow, my dreams are getting crazy on the multi-girl sex front.

Before bed last night, 2 loops .FLAC ultrasonic direct-to-speaker aux, -50 dB source, 15 ft. away.

Slept hard, 2 notable dreams. First was with a young blonde. We watched a movie, both of us on the floor. She had major camel toe going on, and she kept trying to pick it out, lol. Then she started moving closer to me. As she continued, she turned to face me and kept inching forward until we were touching face-to-face, hips touching, dream then ended.

Second dream, I was with 2 separate women. One mulatto, one short-haired brunette with a smokin'-hot body. Defintely had sex multiple times with the brunette, but don't recall sex with the mulatto. They both turned out to be friends with my sister-in-law (funny, 'cuz in real life she doesn't really have friends), and both told her they were with me. She came to talk to me about it, and said she wouldn't get involved in my business. These two girls became very attached. My sister-in-law then came back and told me that she told them I was married to her sister, they (her friends) were pissed at me, and that they were all telling my wife (lol). She said I would be staying with her while I came clean with everyone. End of dream.

Odd, I never dream of my sister-in-law. Last time was maybe V2.1, and I merely caught a glimpse of her naked in it. Another interesting thing is that whatever crushy feelings I've ever had for her are gone since starting V3.1.

Woke today feeling more energetic and little-to-no anxiety.

I've felt awesome all day. Dark and cloudy outside, I'm bright and cheery on the inside.

I even took my son to the Children's Museum. What a plethora of women. Didn't notice anything of note, per se, but I also didn't care. I was just there to hang out and have fun with my kid.

Wife seems to be completely over what happened the other day. It's like it never happened. (?)

Went to my wife's OB appointment this afternoon - son still had on his face paint I put on him from the museum. That garnered all sorts of attention. OB, who I've described in the past as a sexy, intelligent, hard-working doc *duh, I'm attracted* once again treated us like friends/peers. At one point, telling a story, she showed us how "flexible" she is - and then she demonstrated. Let's just say it involved her legs bending at an odd angle and pointing her ass my direction. She then stuck around at the end of the appointment to show us more videos of her kids - and the waiting room was still very busy.

Hopefully everything stays on the up-and-up. Feeling good after the clearing cycles start to wind down feels amazing. I had forgotten just how much so!

Add me to the latest loop fuck-up. Looked at my RocketPlayer app after I thought my 2 ultrasonic loops were finished, and it was almost 20 minutes into another loop. Even though I ran a playlist, the repeat track infinitely option was selected. Must have been pressed accidentally.

Shannon, I recall that you said, on my thread, breaking ASRB is better than doing less or more loops than optimal. I decided to finish out the loop, come what may.

I was anxiously awaiting the end of the loop, watching FrequenSee, and noticed that the US frequency lasted until just after 1 hour, 20 seconds. I'll have to see if that happens again, and isn't a merely a lag error. Has anyone else noticed this with the US or hybrid track? Shannon, was this intentional, or a hardware/software flaw on my end?

Not sure I understand what you are trying to describe and ask.

The subliminal part of the audio is exactly 1 hour, so whatever happened was on your end. In my experience the Frequensee lag isn't longer than half a second.

Weird.

(03-23-2017, 10:25 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Not sure I understand what you are trying to describe and ask.

I'm saying that while looking at FrequenSee, the graph indicated that the ultrasonic frequency from 16-20 kHz was still being picked up by my speaker until 1 hour 20 seconds, when it should have cut off right at 1 hour.

I didn't know if it was my phone (Samsung Note 5 - should be plenty fast, plenty of RAM available), the app I used to play the sub (I always use Rocket Player, and I have never seen this on any other version - it always stopped when it was supposed to).

DMSI 3.1-A ultrasonic is 63 minutes long, with the last 3 minutes being silence for the ASRB.

Been tired and irritable all day. Took a good long nap, didn't help.

Went to the grocery store this evening, we needed a whole lot of stuff. Usually my wife goes, but she now has something called round ligament pain, where essentially it feels like your vajay is tearing apart. Bet that feels great. It also means less-to-no sex for me.

At the grocery store, I arrive at exactly the same time as...fitness model from the gym. I couldn't believe it. I totally bolted in the opposite direction. Running away made me feel immediately depressed. Within about 10 minutes of walking around getting items, it turned into straight-up sadness.

All I thought was, "I'm clearly not ready."

Going to run my loops tonight with another app. I rechecked the MD5 sums on all of my .FLAC DMSI files, and they're fine. I don't know what's going on with the listening time not matching up with FrequenSee.