Subliminal Talk

It gets to a point where you're a little frustrated with clearing and healing, though. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel amazing between healing cycles -- like I can take on the entire world, only for another cycle to kick in and slap me to the ground (like today).

It also pisses me off, because I'm left wondering how the hell I got messed up so much in the first place.

(04-14-2017, 11:25 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: [ -> ]It gets to a point where you're a little frustrated with clearing and healing, though. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel amazing between healing cycles -- like I can take on the entire world, only for another cycle to kick in and slap me to the ground (like today).

It also pisses me off, because I'm left wondering how the hell I got messed up so much in the first place.

You got messed up because you're a good dude, and life has a way of screwing over good people because they care. If you were a piece of shit you'd probably be less affected.

(04-14-2017, 08:55 AM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-14-2017, 08:04 AM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-14-2017, 05:17 AM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]I could be flat out wrong but its possible that A for a month followed by B for a period and then back and forth usage would be the way to go for Max effect. The resistance from B would possibly make A ramp up more during it's usage.

Maybe not 1 week each, but possibly 1 week of B followed by 2 weeks of A and repeat.

I agree that the switching between versions will definitely maximize the overall effects of the program.

I think a week of B would be too short. Maybe two weeks of B followed by two weeks of A.

I'm currently back on A, my second day after 20 days of B.

I can definitely say that this run of A seems more profound than my first run. I'm now debating whether I do 15 days for this run or 20.

My ideas with how dmsi works, although I'm just as in the dark as anyone, is that keeping some A running while doing B is achieved by not going past 21 days of B. I imagine that any A effects could actually fade as soon as 14 days up to the 21.

So my ignorant theory would say you'd always want to keep at least 1 day of A running during any 3 week segment, possibly 2 weeks depending on how we react to the sub. 2 weeks of each as you mentioned would do that either way.

I think the thing we would need to be vigilant about is not lying to ourselves and think we don't need anymore healing and always be ready to do a full 3 weeks of A if it gets too crazy,. Maybe.

If you could imagine me sitting at my laptop shaking my head every time I read some DMSI user who wrote, "I'm all clear, the healing is done, so I'll switch to B." I just shake my head and laugh.

The only reason I switched to B is to benefit the healing process in some way. I'm not sure what that way is, exactly, but it's what I want - forward progress. We'll see how it goes.

So far, so good today. Nothing I'll bore y'all about, but internally speaking, I feel good. Definitely taking a nap this afternoon, though, lol.

(04-14-2017, 11:37 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-14-2017, 08:55 AM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-14-2017, 08:04 AM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-14-2017, 05:17 AM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]I could be flat out wrong but its possible that A for a month followed by B for a period and then back and forth usage would be the way to go for Max effect. The resistance from B would possibly make A ramp up more during it's usage.

Maybe not 1 week each, but possibly 1 week of B followed by 2 weeks of A and repeat.

I agree that the switching between versions will definitely maximize the overall effects of the program.

I think a week of B would be too short. Maybe two weeks of B followed by two weeks of A.

I'm currently back on A, my second day after 20 days of B.

I can definitely say that this run of A seems more profound than my first run. I'm now debating whether I do 15 days for this run or 20.

My ideas with how dmsi works, although I'm just as in the dark as anyone, is that keeping some A running while doing B is achieved by not going past 21 days of B. I imagine that any A effects could actually fade as soon as 14 days up to the 21.

So my ignorant theory would say you'd always want to keep at least 1 day of A running during any 3 week segment, possibly 2 weeks depending on how we react to the sub. 2 weeks of each as you mentioned would do that either way.

I think the thing we would need to be vigilant about is not lying to ourselves and think we don't need anymore healing and always be ready to do a full 3 weeks of A if it gets too crazy,. Maybe.

If you could imagine me sitting at my laptop shaking my head every time I read some DMSI user who wrote, "I'm all clear, the healing is done, so I'll switch to B." I just shake my head and laugh.

The only reason I switched to B is to benefit the healing process in some way. I'm not sure what that way is, exactly, but it's what I want - forward progress. We'll see how it goes.

So far, so good today. Nothing I'll bore y'all about, but internally speaking, I feel good. Definitely taking a nap this afternoon, though, lol.

Haha I do the same. But I remember when I had similar reactions to events and experiences in my life, so I can't help but chuckle.

Looking forward to how B goes for you!

To truly take advantage of the sub, you'd need way more than just one day of A. I'd say at least a week. P5 of A's clearing for me typically starts blooming at 24 hrs after listening, then peaks at 72 hrs before input mode starts decaying. By day 10 or so , p5's "input mode" is almost all gone and it's purely execution / "bloom mode"

To get over a hefty obstacle, you'd need at least 7 days of continuous listening to keep powering up the active sub, and then the 10 days following will continue working on the obstacle.

But like other factors of dimsee, this is only a theory and maybe Shannon can give clarity

Day 2, Version B, Hybrid FLAC headphones, while sleeping.

You know how some days you wake up feeling sad, irritable, or just plain shitty with a dreary outlook on life, for seemingly no reason?

Today was the opposite. I woke feeling happy for a change. When you truely feel JOY after not having felt it for a long time, you realize what a funk you've really been in.

I want more of this.

(04-15-2017, 05:59 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Day 2, Version B, Hybrid FLAC headphones, while sleeping.

You know how some days you wake up feeling sad, irritable, or just plain shitty with a dreary outlook on life, for seemingly no reason?

Today was the opposite. I woke feeling happy for a change. When you truely feel JOY after not having felt it for a long time, you realize what a funk you've really been in.

I want more of this.

Welcome to the "B" side. It's joyful and full of energy

Day 3, B

Took my kid to holiday stuff yesterday at the movies. Egg hunt, saw a human in a bunny costume, and the movie Hop. Lots of mom's with their kids, not many dads. A couple hotties, one whose daughter my son ran up to and hug-raped. She was already shy, and he just wrapped her up, lol. Well, her mom was smokin' hot. No wedding ring. Mom was just as shy as her daughter. I told my son he needed to ask for a hug. I almost said, "See, like this." and then almost asked the mom for a hug. Resisted that.

Got seats at the movie, then she sat across the aisle. SDS the whole movie. Got a good foot display, but that was about it.

The "happy" feeling I got yesterday was sort-of fleeting. I also realized it occurred just after I had spilled hot coffee all over my hand and I didn't get mad. I had a legit calm, no-anger reaction, and it's like the happiness was my subconscious rejoicing that I had a big "win." I can react without anger after all.

Today, at a gathering place people go on Sundays sometimes, women were fanning themselves even though it wasn't hot. I have a feeling it was because of me and ye 'ole aura.

I know my wife's pregnant, and uncomfortable, but damn - it's been over a month with no sex. I'd always heard pregnant women were non-stop horny. Not my wife, apparently. Today I dropped hints all day - little comments - no takers. Just "it hurts and it's hairy." LOL. I'm sure I could get it if I asked directly or pushed hard for it, but that's not really the point of DMSI, is it? I feel like 2.2 was the only version she's really initiated - but I'd have to comb through my journals to find out for sure.

I will say this - the past few days, my natural, fun-loving, happy-go-lucky sense of humor seems to have returned. I'm joking in a natural, non-forced way just because I'm feeling...GOOD! It's a nice change. I'd really like it to stay. When I was in my early 20's, if you called my mobile, there was never a standard message. It was always some goofy recording where I was in-character or did some goofy voice, just b/c I liked to fuck around.

Regarding the externals, if I was single, I'd be strikin' out so far. But, if I was single, perhaps the program would be working differently for me. I'd be going out more, and to different environments (like sexually-charged bars and clubs). I'd be more-than-meeting them halfway. I'm getting clear internal changes, seeing clear external effects (hair flips, glances/staring, wrist/foot/ass/boob displays) - just nothing mind-blowing (no major kino, sexual suggestiveness, sexual invitations), and no manifestations (that I know of).

The urge to drink isn't as bad, still eating pretty poorly, not exercising as much as I'd like, and bouts of exhaustion here & there. It's still early on the B-side. I think something healing-related pushed me to B, and I just couldn't hang, but I'll be going to back to it after two weeks. We'll see how things are then.

I didn't really realize how far 200 ft. (for the SDS) was. I googled it, and apparently it's 2/3rd of an American Football field, 5 houses, or 13 car lengths. I'm sure there are other ways to think about it.

The example that got my attention was the 5 houses. I have a few good looking women around where I live. I'm not sure if they're rated a 7 or higher, but if so, there are at least 2 women (that I'm aware of) that fall within the 200 ft. That means I'm potentially taking in and using energy for the SDS constantly, as well as the LDS 24/7. Perhaps that's why my feet and hands are always buzzing while I'm just sittin' around.

Had a pretty bad day, emotionally. Got outside to hunt morels, felt better, came home to bitchin', felt like crap again, made up, better.

As I reported in another thread, I've had headaches the past 2 days. My left eyelid is also twitching. I haven't had eyelid twitches for YEARS and it occurred when I was going through heavy emotional turmoil and stress.

No interest in alcohol. That's good.

Gotta run, short post.

I'm becoming more playful. Bantered in line at Walmart Neighborhood Market after shopping for my PSMF diet (protein-sparing modified fast). I had two lanes worth of people involved. I felt like a stand-up comic. They were all women, except for my cashier. So 5 women, 1 guy, my son & me.

I have motivation again - I'm going to get this damn weight off and then some. If I don't *feel* like doing something, I don't do it. I have to *feel* like it. And I *feel* like it again, finally.

I had an incredibly productive day today. I even bought mulch for my yard. What-the-fuck. I got my part in my daughter's nursery done today, as well. I've been dragging my feet on that forever. Wife is super-happy. She's not even giving me shit about my new diet. She usually scoffs at it, like it's going to affect her, or she's worried I'll get extra cranky (which is possible). Didn't blink an eye.

I feel like I have some semblance of control back, rather than feeling like I'm in free-fall. Me-likey.

SIL made an excuse to stop by tonight. First time since starting B, so we'll see how that goes.

PS - OH YEAH - While unloading mulch from my car, totally caught MILF from across the street watching me lug these bags around from her window. Didn't I just say something about neighbor ladies being in reach of the SDS?

I love monkey mcdonald. Dude knows his shit. Good luck with the irritability lol

I'm also feeling super motivated to get into better shape since last night. I'm even contemplating becoming single as its easier for me when I'm solo. Crazyness

(04-18-2017, 03:19 PM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]I love monkey mcdonald. Dude knows his shit. Good luck with the irritability lol

I'm also feeling super motivated to get into better shape since last night. I'm even contemplating becoming single as its easier for me when I'm solo. Crazyness

That he does. This isn't my first go-round with a PSMF, hopefully I can keep it under control. I plan on raiding the veggies if hunger gets carried away, but sometimes that won't even work. I can make it 12 days, right? It's...just...12...days....11 after today...

I never understood guys who need to lose weight. Not eating is the easiest thing in the world to do. You just don't do anything. Simple.