(06-29-2017, 09:49 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (06-29-2017, 09:24 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah B is for "bad".
I can't believe I was executing on it the first time I ran it. This time it's been a shit storm internally.
"B" is for "Badass", because it requires a serious badass to run on B only and not get your ass kicked.
I'm doing a lot better, but it was kicking my ass for the first 2 weeks.
Glad you're doing better. I'm tempted to run B for 2 weeks to see if that would work for me, but I'm thinking of how A was gaining some traction for me just before I left. Maybe I'll do the 2 A, 2 B thing.
(06-29-2017, 09:37 PM)LionKing Wrote: [ -> ]If course there's plenty of other influences in your situation, but have you observed consistent in how your wive seems to get along with herself when you're doing v A vs B? For me it seems the gf is going through gealing all the time and maybe its a little less obscured and in your face with me on B. Or its just that I'm projecting my own experience.
You're saying that your gf is experiencing obvious healing while you run B?
I'll see how things go on A, but my wife has been pretty forgiving on B. Perhaps that jives with what you've observed, LK.
Yep.. like 10 days in and I feel like shit on B most of the time.
Atleast I got past the fatigue, feeling cloudy headed and low energy that I had for most of the first week. Now it's just feeling uncomfortable, weird and awkward in general and feeling like i'm just this creepy dude, along with insecurities about that.
I too want cuddles from Version A.. but i'm trying to trust the sway testing I did that consistently gives me the answer that B is going to be more effective for me to achieve the goals of the program, I even asked again a few nights ago. Same answer, same volume, same amount of loops.
(06-30-2017, 05:07 AM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Yep.. like 10 days in and I feel like shit on B most of the time.
Atleast I got past the fatigue, feeling cloudy headed and low energy that I had for most of the first week. Now it's just feeling uncomfortable, weird and awkward in general and feeling like i'm just this creepy dude, along with insecurities about that.
I too want cuddles from Version A.. but i'm trying to trust the sway testing I did that consistently gives me the answer that B is going to be more effective for me to achieve the goals of the program, I even asked again a few nights ago. Same answer, same volume, same amount of loops.
I'm sorry to hear you want teh cuddles!
I must admit, I was surprised how I didn't get anything negative from Version B during my 7 day experiment. It felt like nothing at all, literally.
Probably boils down to resistance in the form of blinding me to results that ARE happening on both versions. I didn't get any dreams on B, so maybe B got blocked somehow. Although I assume if that was the case, I'd at least get depression, anger, exhaustion, headaches, other clear signs of resistance. So, that was surprising how it felt normal, I even slept better than on A. Maybe I'm not resisting the B script at all, but A's healing and clearing stuff is what's causing it all, lol. Wouldn't surprise me with how ass backwards I am and have done everything everywhere else in my life, hahaha.
I was actually a bit nervous trying it after all the horror stories, lol. For now, since I think I've had signs of internal stuff at a minimum on A, it may make sense for me to continue A as I have been. I've only done 7 days of B, all the rest of the time, Version A Master Race, haha.
I hope things get better for you, mate!
We're all gonna make it, brah!!!
(06-30-2017, 05:03 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (06-29-2017, 09:37 PM)LionKing Wrote: [ -> ]If course there's plenty of other influences in your situation, but have you observed consistent in how your wive seems to get along with herself when you're doing v A vs B? For me it seems the gf is going through gealing all the time and maybe its a little less obscured and in your face with me on B. Or its just that I'm projecting my own experience.
You're saying that your gf is experiencing obvious healing while you run B?
I'll see how things go on A, but my wife has been pretty forgiving on B. Perhaps that jives with what you've observed, LK.
A and B have scripting to project an aura that helps heal the affected side for cooperation also. This is only for the aura, not the snipers.
Figured id mention this...
I had a dream last night that your wife wanted to split up with you because your SIL was basically throwing herself at you and you replied with an "it's on" type of comment.
Not sure if that's me processing stuff or what, but it was related to you so I figured I'd mention it.
(06-30-2017, 02:18 PM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]Figured id mention this...
I had a dream last night that your wife wanted to split up with you because your SIL was basically throwing herself at you and you replied with an "it's on" type of comment.
Not sure if that's me processing stuff or what, but it was related to you so I figured I'd mention it.
Lol - nice! Funny how we (forum members) are dreaming of each other from time to time.
I wonder what that dream would symbolize for you, if indeed each dream symbol/figure merely represents a part of yourself.
Night and day difference in how I feel today after running 3 loops of A last night. My mood is MUCH improved.
Quote:I'm sorry to hear you want teh cuddles!
Hahaha I don't know why but I really laughed my ass off at that.
I noticed my dreams different when I switched to B. Last night was a zombie survival type dream, I remember them from the early AM.
I may be back to A soon, unless this clears up and something noticable starts happening on B.
I had the thought last night that since A has the emotional shield that it's better for me. B might still be working on things, but it doesn't have that emotional shield so I feel more crap.
Thanks man.
Been validating dowsing results with sway testing. Both revealed the same answers, and I repeatedly confirmed results.
2 loops of A is the consistent answer. Like Ben, when the words "safe," and "gentle," are used, A comes away the winner every time.
Each time I switch, the difference in versions becomes more clear. The past few days, I'd just be sitting there and suddenly get an overwhelming burst of emotion that would choke me up. Completely "out-of-the-blue," with no seeming external trigger. That occurred at least thrice.
I also experienced some external triggers. The strangest experience I've had in recent memory came yesterday. My sister and brother-in-law are in town for the 4th of July, and are staying with my parents. I've been CRAVING my family and familiar comfort since all the bullshit I've been through with my wife and kids over the past few weeks. We had great weather, and went swimming (my folks have a pool in their backyard). My brother-in-law's parents showed up to hang out as well. I really, really like his parents - WAY more than my own in-laws - and I've always felt completely comfortable around them. Yesterday, they looked at me like I was an alien. I could see my brother-in-law eyeing me uneasily, though he was arguably the least affected. No one included me in conversation for most of the day, and I began to feel like I didn't belong anymore. I actually felt like I didn't belong anywhere - which then came with a mental reminder that it probably had something to do with not being the popular kid as a child, always feeling like I had to work at being liked by all the other kids. Then I thought about how I've always been attracted to other people who aren't popular, are the underdog, "weird," or not well-liked for friends.
*Ding* Hellloooo healing/clearing.
Digging deeper.
Notable of the day:
At the gym, I was doing cable crunches on the universal, and a dude - big, bald, Samoan or similar ethnicity, and 20 years my senior - tapped me on the shoulder. I got up, felt zoned-in, and took out my earbuds. He asked if I was going to be doing any more sets, because he wanted to do pull-ups. I said I wasn't done, but he could alternate sets with me. He immediately said, "You go ahead, I'll do something else." I shrugged, he walked away.
Later, I was doing seated dumbbell lateral raises, and he approached me again. He says, "Hey, man, I just wanted to apologize for earlier. I shouldn't have asked to do that, when I could have just gone and done something else. I am SO sorry!"
I said it was fine, that it wasn't like he stepped on my hand and got in my way at all...but it was pretty crazy how apologetic he was for (what I thought was) nothing.
About to head to a nice Italian restaurant for dinner with my family. I haven't been nearly as emotional today, so I hope it's a good time, and feel like part of the group.
Hi buddy, how do you do this sway test to work out version and number of loops to run? And how is it working for you, as oppose to set number of loops?
(07-02-2017, 11:48 PM)Dr. Strangelove Wrote: [ -> ]Hi buddy, how do you do this sway test to work out version and number of loops to run? And how is it working for you, as oppose to set number of loops?
The sway test is pretty simple. I think you'll like it once you get the hang of it.
You merely stand up - in a relaxed manner - and ask a question. You then see which direction your body naturally falls - forward or backward. The theory is that it is your subconscious mind answering the questions.
First ask, "Show me 'Yes,'" and see if you feel like falling forward or backward. Then, do the same for "No," and you should gently fall toward the opposite direction from "Yes."
Have fun asking different questions and seeing what answers you get. I feel like it's a much better method than just "Go with your gut." It's something that can be verified through repeat testing, and actually helps tune you in to your own intuition. This is especially helpful for people who don't know the difference between tuning inward, and "just guessing."
(07-03-2017, 06:12 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (07-02-2017, 11:48 PM)Dr. Strangelove Wrote: [ -> ]Hi buddy, how do you do this sway test to work out version and number of loops to run? And how is it working for you, as oppose to set number of loops?
The sway test is pretty simple. I think you'll like it once you get the hang of it.
You merely stand up - in a relaxed manner - and ask a question. You then see which direction your body naturally falls - forward or backward. The theory is that it is your subconscious mind answering the questions.
First ask, "Show me 'Yes,'" and see if you feel like falling forward or backward. Then, do the same for "No," and you should gently fall toward the opposite direction from "Yes."
Have fun asking different questions and seeing what answers you get. I feel like it's a much better method than just "Go with your gut." It's something that can be verified through repeat testing, and actually helps tune you in to your own intuition. This is especially helpful for people who don't know the difference between tuning inward, and "just guessing."
I'm going to try this out myself, as I was also kind of curious as to what the sway method was.