Yeah, had a few panty displays in public recently like this. I was not going to mention it because I didn't think people would believe me. I'm just waiting for the day when I get a panty display when she's not wearing any, lol.
Go, DMSI!
Couple updates:
My lifting buddy is ignoring my existence. Started last Friday, and got worse over the weekend - to where he walked the other way when he saw me, then chose 2 other guys to chat up and lift with, without saying, "Hi." I ignored him back. I wasn't in the mood to play his "Come talk to me," game. Frankly, my wife's intuition about him is that he's no good, and her people barometer is near 100%. He's been flaky in the past, and he's being that way now. I got better ways to spend my time.
I can pretty much just look at someone I find attractive, and that's it, they're checking me out.
Anger and irritability are still pretty high. Guys who look at me cross-eyed make me want to beat them. It's not going to happen, no worries, just how I feel at times.
Feeling very productive and motivated.
Finally, I'm feeling impatient and/or panicky(?). My mind is like, "Switch back to A! OMG, we gotta do something!" But I'm thinking I just gotta continue with the 2x B hybrid. I think we're near the next level (whatever that is).
My in-laws continue to find excuses to not come over. Regarding SIL, I'm starting to think my execution of B has something to do with it.
When I got a breakthrough in B it felt almost like an imploding orgasm. All of that irritation imploded into proper channels. It didn't last, but for a couple of days it was amazing.
My "gut" told me to run DMSI 3.1-B for 1 loop, hybrid FLAC, loud (12/15) volume.
I have a feeling it will be the same tonight, and perhaps until I switch back to 3.1-A.
My mind and energy are on baby and family. Pretty tired. Had my daughter's leg casted yesterday - first step to correcting her club foot condition. We were pretty sad about it. We think her foot is super-cute, whereas I was worried seeing it would upset me. Quite the opposite - it's like a quirky personality trait. The person just wouldn't be the same without it. Perhaps it's because the condition is not as severe as we feared. Compared to some, it's quite mild, apparently. Still, having the cast on
pissed her off. She must have inherited Daddy's temper!
Both my wife and I were up more than half the night. It's one thing to be up, it's another to be up
and calm a baby and feel bad for them. It drains your energy and emotion, leaving you
extremely tired and frustrated.
My sister-in-law finally made it to the house to meet my daughter yesterday. Interestingly, any anger and irritation I had toward her instantly disappeared. I don't know if there's anything important to mention here, other than we took my son to ride his bike outside. That gave us some time to chat. She actively engaged me, and while that's not "new" per se, we rarely get time together - alone - where we are just hanging out and talking. It's usually us and then add in my wife, her husband, her mother (my mother-in-law). Anyway, it was nice.
I keep forgetting to report this. I thought it might be important, because I never did this before version 3.1.
I often find myself walking around and tapping my right thumb and ring finger together, rapidly. It reminds me of an anchoring technique I used to do where I would touch my thumb and index finger together and say, "Relax."
I find I do this a lot when I'm walking near attractive women at the gym.
Its gonna look weird soon when you'll start touching your fingertip to your eye brow, then side of the eye, under the eye, under the nose, collarbone, grasp your wrist, and breath deep.. ah, tapping. Oh, the nostalgia.
(05-25-2017, 06:55 AM)LionKing Wrote: [ -> ]Its gonna look weird soon when you'll start touching your fingertip to your eye brow, then side of the eye, under the eye, under the nose, collarbone, grasp your wrist, and breath deep.. ah, tapping. Oh, the nostalgia.
Hahahaha
Mentally going to follow... the following:
WWDD?
What would Duke do?
:idea:
More accurately, "How would Duke think?"
He's the Most Interesting Man in the World,
"Think abundance, my friends!"
(05-25-2017, 09:42 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Mentally going to follow... the following:
WWDD?
What would Duke do?
:idea:
More accurately, "How would Duke think?"
He's the Most Interesting Man in the World,
"Think abundance, my friends!"
I literally fell out of my chair laughing when I read this!!
Thank You brother for the shout out!
1 loop, hybrid FLAC, earbuds, 12/15.
Not remembering dreams.
Had a blowup screaming match with my wife. Didn't last but 30 seconds. Took my son to the zoo, apologized over text, all is well. We're both a little stressed, and spending so much time around each other, was bound to happen sooner or later.
Beautiful ladies everywhere at the zoo. A bit overwhelming, when you start looking for signs of executing DMSI. All I could think was, "Too many variables!" In other words, no point in looking or consciously doing anything. I just settled in to have a good time, and let my energy lead the way. If something was going to happen, it'd smack me in the face.
Hadn't eaten, so that doesn't help things, I'm sure. The sun was out, so perhaps that helped a little. Definitely started noticing signs of attraction from good looking women. Most notable was when a younger beauty lifted her shirt to put her hands on her hips (weird?). She wanted to show off her flat abdomen, and damn if it wasn't perfect. This occurred right after we locked eyes.
Ran into a girl I see at the gym, who is definitely hot, at the petting zoo. Neither one of us acknowledged the other. I could tell she recognized me, however.
Another chick, seemingly single, had her daughter with her. Her daughter was near my son's age. My son engaged the little girl, so her mom took the opportunity to engage me - explaining that her daughter was shy. I said, "He isn't. He chats everybody up, especially the girls." Then she went on to tell us it was her daughter's birthday to try and keep the conversation going. We were waiting for the train, and the train arrived just as we started talking, so we had to get on. About 3 minutes before this conversation happened, I started having a hot flash. I think the two are connected.
Following that conversation, I got a massive headache. Either resistance, lack of food getting to me, or a combination of both.
Getting that massive itch to switch back to A, just like the last time I ran B. Not sure if that's my gut telling me I need to switch, or if it's my subconscious being subversive.
Caught a couple of quick pics. Best I could do. Initially, she did this while facing me, looking me in the eyes, and showing off her entire abdomen.
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Last night, I changed how I determined # of loops. I got out the 'ole amethyst pendulum.
Drew a circle and put numbers in random order. Each diagonal, the numbers were the same so that the pendulum was able to point to the same number each direction it swung. I only had room for a limited amount of options, so I chose: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 9.
The pendulum swung on 3. I confirmed the result two more times.
I continued using hybrid FLAC. I remember having dreams, but not the content. They didn't feel sexual.
I don't have any plans, so we'll see where the day takes me.
Wanted to mention:
B/c of the dude - my "former friend," - throwing me shade at the gym, I noticed I've moved my workout times to avoid the possibility of seeing him. I'm avoiding him b/c the gym is one of the few places I get to enjoy myself without the kids or my wife. It's time that's "mine," and I'll be damned if I'm going to have him around ruining it.
I don't want to patch things up. I don't care what his problem is. He did this last year - just went "dark" out of the blue (which was before he belonged to my gym). I spent a lot of time wondering what I "did wrong." I even had dreams about it, where he and his wife would tell me that it was all my fault (meaning, I thought it was my fault). Now I know better. There's a reason this dude doesn't have any old/good friends. He can't keep them. He either pushes them away once they're too close, or something else. He's "Flavor of the Day," - once someone else comes along that peaks his interest, you're old hat, and he repeats the cycle with them. I should have realized this when I noticed he's got a new car every 8 months, even though he can't afford it. Or why he's actively trying to cheat on his wife, in blatant boneheaded ways. Once "new" has lost its shine, it's "on to the next!"
Whatever. Not my problem. This time, I don't care. This time, I'm done. Loyalty in friendship is one of my top qualities I give, and I value the same in return. Flakes like this go into my mental and emotional trash bin.
But...not the point. Why now? I wonder if my subconscious is using him and his Flake Trait to get me to workout at different times to run into different women. Certainly possible.
(05-27-2017, 05:00 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Last night, I changed how I determined # of loops. I got out the 'ole amethyst pendulum.
Drew a circle and put numbers in random order. Each diagonal, the numbers were the same so that the pendulum was able to point to the same number each direction it swung. I only had room for a limited amount of options, so I chose: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 9.
The pendulum swung on 3. I confirmed the result two more times.
I continued using hybrid FLAC. I remember having dreams, but not the content. They didn't feel sexual.
I don't have any plans, so we'll see where the day takes me.
I thought I was the only "weirdo" trying to dowse this
Not that I've put my results to execution yet, because I can't afford being tired, because of an exam coming up that I've been preparing for since November.
Mine showed 4 loops. Gotta confirm it tho. I also dowsed the format. It showed me Trickling Stream.