Well, folks, it's that time of year, again. I leave tomorrow for my annual fishing/kayaking trip, and internet access will be sparse-to-non-existent. I'll be enjoying the company of my wife, kids, and in-laws. This will be the first 7 days of constant exposure with my SIL since V2.3, when I took this same trip last summer. We'll see what kind of stories I can come back with.
In other news, I just ordered an mp3/FLAC player to run MLS 5.5G for my son while he sleeps. I plan on starting him on it when we get back, just in time for preschool. I thought about it today, and I've noticed definite aspects of TID affecting him. All week, he's been displaying uncanny verbal skills, memory recall for things that make me say, "Huuh!?" and he's even been singing my songs I've written right along with me. Before, he'd just dance, or sing a word or two. Now, he'll sing entire verses and choruses. It didn't strike me as strange until I decided today that I was definitely going to have him run the program. I'm very excited to see how this goes.
Have a great week, and I'll talk to y'all when I get back next Saturday!
Wow? Hard to believe it's been a year of DMSI!
Have fun RT. Look forward to reading of your exploits.
Have Fun Brother!!!
Looking forward to reading some interesting stories when you get back. Maybe you and the SIL will conveniently find yourselves lost in a forest.
May you come back having earned the xbox live achievement of 'banged sister in law'.
Dang, I've been on Version B for over a month!? What?!
Anyway, I am back to E2 levels of non-desire to post in my journal. It's probably because so much has become "normal" to me, I don't feel it's post-worthy.
I'm still feeling amazing, on-top-of-the-world, internally. I just upped my loops to 6 via sway testing. Dowsing pissed me off when I couldn't get it to answer in any consistent way for a few days straight a few weeks ago. I had been doing variations of 5 and 3 loops, but then decided to actually sway test. 6 loops. So we'll see where that goes.
I swear DMSI made me a better fisherman while I was on my trip. It was crazy, as if my energy/aura gave me preference over anyone near me for the fish to bite. Some dickwad would come fish too close to me, throw his line in the water, and come up with nothing. Then I'd throw in and catch a nice keeper.
Anyway, externals on the lady front is just more of the same. Lots of looks, lots of attraction, women opening me saying "Hi," but nothing blatant or extreme.
Had a talk with my wife about a hunch as to why we're not having sex. Be warned, gross visuals ahead. A few weeks ago, she told me she thought her lady-secretions were thick and "gross." She was quite sure it was because it would have been her time-of-the-month, and her hormones were fluctuating. I said I wanted to avoid seeing that, and made a face (big mistake). Well, a day or so ago, I was reading up on supplements to increase male ejaculate. I came across lecithin - which I've had much success with in the past. I thought, "Oh, my wife has some on hand to keep her milk thinner, to avoid getting mastitis again!" Then I thought, "Hmmm...if it makes men produce more and thicker ejaculate, could it affect women this way as well?" So today I asked if her secretions were still thick, and if that's why she was hesitant to have sex. She said, "YES! IT'S SO DISGUSTING!" Then I told her the culprit was likely the lecithin. I also made sure she was aware I'm okay with it, that I wouldn't be grossed out. So I guess we'll see if we have sex tonight.
(09-05-2017, 02:27 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Dang, I've been on Version B for over a month!? What?!
Anyway, I am back to E2 levels of non-desire to post in my journal. It's probably because so much has become "normal" to me, I don't feel it's post-worthy.
I'm still feeling amazing, on-top-of-the-world, internally. I just upped my loops to 6 via sway testing. Dowsing pissed me off when I couldn't get it to answer in any consistent way for a few days straight a few weeks ago. I had been doing variations of 5 and 3 loops, but then decided to actually sway test. 6 loops. So we'll see where that goes.
I swear DMSI made me a better fisherman while I was on my trip. It was crazy, as if my energy/aura gave me preference over anyone near me for the fish to bite. Some dickwad would come fish too close to me, throw his line in the water, and come up with nothing. Then I'd throw in and catch a nice keeper.
Anyway, externals on the lady front is just more of the same. Lots of looks, lots of attraction, women opening me saying "Hi," but nothing blatant or extreme.
What's dowsing?
Snipers must work on fish as well
(09-05-2017, 02:34 PM)Determined Wrote: [ -> ] (09-05-2017, 02:27 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Dang, I've been on Version B for over a month!? What?!
Anyway, I am back to E2 levels of non-desire to post in my journal. It's probably because so much has become "normal" to me, I don't feel it's post-worthy.
I'm still feeling amazing, on-top-of-the-world, internally. I just upped my loops to 6 via sway testing. Dowsing pissed me off when I couldn't get it to answer in any consistent way for a few days straight a few weeks ago. I had been doing variations of 5 and 3 loops, but then decided to actually sway test. 6 loops. So we'll see where that goes.
I swear DMSI made me a better fisherman while I was on my trip. It was crazy, as if my energy/aura gave me preference over anyone near me for the fish to bite. Some dickwad would come fish too close to me, throw his line in the water, and come up with nothing. Then I'd throw in and catch a nice keeper.
Anyway, externals on the lady front is just more of the same. Lots of looks, lots of attraction, women opening me saying "Hi," but nothing blatant or extreme.
What's dowsing?
Snipers must work on fish as well
They must, 'cuz I'm sick of eating trout!
Dowsing is using a pendulum (in my case, I have a piece of amethyst hanging on a chain) and asking questions. The pendulum will then swing or circle a certain direction, indicating "Yes" or "No." You can also get it to point to different things. For instance, I made a circle chart for "number of loops" and eventually the pendulum would swing to indicate the number of loops to run as an answer. I would then ask my questions a few more times for consistency.
Back to just 2 loops of hybrid FLAC, Version B. It's been interesting, because I'm having sexual dreams I can remember. Finally! If not for this, I'd be taking a bloom-break. I'm going to do a bloom break, to see what occurs, before I go back to Version A for the final time.
On the dream theme, I ordered and started drinking Mugwort tea. Last night was my first...mug...of it.
I actually had a hard time getting to sleep. I used two teabags, steeped for 20 minutes in boiling water. May have been a bit much. I did have some pretty vivid dreams - nothing seemingly DMSI related.
I'm hoping it will kick up some lucid dreaming, that'd be awesome.
Hot neighbor stopped by the other day to talk to my wife while she was out on the front porch swing. I like her - she's young, cute, well-endowed, smart, and has an awesome sense of humor. I heard her voice, so I went outside. IOIs galore, but again, that's where the buck stops - as always. Her finger never left her lips, I thought she'd rub them off!
Still playing guitar every day. This sub is really pushing me on this front. I'm even starting to look at open mic nights for singer/songwriters. The only issue I'm having is that my guitar playing isn't up-to-snuff (IMO). That makes me want to go the MLS route, but I just...can't.
Speaking of that, I also took the non-official IQ test that Raz posted about in his MLS journal. My son was watching his tablet, the TV was on, and when I started it, I wasn't prepared for how stressed the time-component would make me. I haven't taken a legit
test for years. Even so, I scored in the "above average" intelligence range - which shocked me. I left so many things blank. Even so, I was also very disappointed in myself. First thing I said was, "I thought I was smarter than that." But that's typical of me, after years of dumbing myself down to be more well-liked, when I don't live up to my full potential I beat myself up. I'm sure MLS would help with that, too. I wasn't surprised to see that I'm not a visual learner, that I'm "very proficient/good with numbers," (music and math actually go hand-in-hand), but most surprising was my lower scores in perception and logic! Maybe I'll take it again sometime under better conditions - or I'll just wait until after I have a few months of MLS under my belt (whenever that'd be).
I forgot to mention that I lowered the volume significantly on the hybrid track. I was listening at a volume of 73 on the Neutron app, and now I'm playing it on 37. Flipped the numbers. I'm also using the Sennheisers again. I used the sleep/cozy phones during my trip, and I can definitely tell the difference. I'm even able to sleep on my side sometimes, so it's not so bad.
This setup is doing something, besides giving me recall of sexual dreams. I'm feeling more unsettled and anxious again. I've had a few resistance headaches, and I get mentally tired easier.
I took the kids to my wife's hospital this afternoon. They have a new NICU wing they are opening next week, and it was an Open House of sorts. I just so happened to time our arrival with quite a few people I've met before. Many of those people are my wife's very attractive colleagues. I was pretty quiet, even felt annoyed. I wasn't even looking for any IOIs. I just kinda held myself back and let my wife do the talking. Everyone was commenting on the kids, anyway. The odd thing that occurred was I got extremely dizzy. It was really strange, because I could tell it was an "energetic" dizziness. I've always been "sensitive" to energy - but this is only the second place I've experienced this.
To elaborate, there was a shooter some years ago in my city in a department store. The man starting shooting an assault rifle and killed a lot of people, and then himself. Every time I go shopping there, especially on the third floor, I get this same dizziness. I've experienced it many, many times. I never remember until it happens, and I can't help but think it has something to do with a dark energetic imprint from that even all those years ago...
Anyway, interesting, and I feel tempted to take the bloom break - but I assume that's resistance. I'm going to keep with the low-volume 2 loops hybrid FLAC, 3.1-B, until I level out or can't stand the resistance anymore.
Last night, I went to bed, put my headphones on and...No phone. Forgot it downstairs.
So I said, "Fuck it, bloom break it is." Whether it's resistance, or it's just time, I'm going to see what a week or two off DMSI 3.1 has in store for me.
Today I was anxious, angry, and tired. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
Not much "bloom" to speak of, externally. I've had sex with my wife, so that's something - haha! But, she didn't seduce. I initiated. Or should I say, insisted?
I still feel energy flow through the soles of my feet and lower legs. Not sure if the aura is still poppin' or not.
I've had more intense desire to focus on career and providing more income for my family since stopping. Very interesting. I'm feeling a strong pull toward MLS, but I also need to run MHS. So, seeing as MHS can be run for 1 month for general detox and physical maintenance purposes, I will do that first - as much as I want to run MLS. We'll see where the status of DMSI 3.2 is after I run MHS.
I wonder if TID from MHS is affecting me. I've taken a sudden interest in herbal teas, started a collagen supplement for skin health, and took my wife's offer to use her Rodan & Fields skin care this morning (which I normally would never do!).
No DMSI manifestations, or increased external IOIs from women. Bloom either needs more time, or...well, I don't know.
2 more weeks to go before I start MHS.
I personally thought that you would use DMSI for a very long period of time. So this decision to run MHS and then MLS surprises me. I'm not suggesting resistance but I am curious as to why you are switching. You don't have to explain if it's rather personal, but you switching off of DMSI is rather unexpected to me.
(09-18-2017, 06:19 AM)Wharrgarbl Wrote: [ -> ]I personally thought that you would use DMSI for a very long period of time. So this decision to run MHS and then MLS surprises me. I'm not suggesting resistance but I am curious as to why you are switching. You don't have to explain if it's rather personal, but you switching off of DMSI is rather unexpected to me.
I'm a man that feels like constant growth is necessary - and I'm also the type of person that must
feel strongly. If the change is subtle, and the feeling of the change is subtle, I grow impatient. I'm pretty tumultuous, by nature. High highs, low lows.
DMSI smoothed out for me, to the point where I wasn't seeing change or growth. I wanted to see if the bloom period would increase that for me. In a way, it has.
I said to my wife, "Isn't it interesting? I've taken a break from listening to subs and I'm a lot nicer and easier to deal with, aren't I?" She agreed. I think listening to these later generation subliminals take so much out of me, I get irritated pretty easily. Not listening, I'm more patient and kind. Pretty strange.
The neediness/emptiness I felt sexually when I began DMSI was likely emotional. A lot of that has cleared, which is exactly what I wanted. The root of the itch has been whacked pretty good. It's not that I don't plan running DMSI 3.2, or future versions - indeed, DMSI has been a great program. I just need to
keep growing.
Just saw "It" today. The movie is amazing. Richard Roeper was right - it's one of the better movies in years. He likened it as a coming-of-age movie that could stand shoulder-to-shoulder with "Stand by Me." I agree.
"It" wasn't just a great horror movie, it was a beautiful movie, period. "It," made me feel, which is what a good movie is supposed to do. When I feel, I feel more alive.
The strangest thing happened after the movie. I went home the way I always go home, and ran into a lot of traffic. I noticed that I could bypass the traffic by turning into a neighborhood. It just so happened that the neighborhood was the neighborhood I grew up in. I know it like the back of my hand.
I decided to drive by the house I spent my childhood in...after just having watched a movie about young kids banding together and finding their mettle? What's the chance? I hadn't seen that house since I drove by there with my wife, the night I proposed to her. It's the place I first met her, when I was 9 years old, and she was 1. I think I've told that story before, but for those of you who haven't heard it, my mother-in-law worked for my dad when I was a kid. They were over at our house for dinner, and that's the first time I met my wife. I drove her by all the locations that were major events in our lives together the night I proposed. As I drove by today, I was overcome with emotion. A kid was getting off his bike in the driveway of a neighbor's house that I spent a lot of time in. He probably saw my face and thought, "What the hell is that guy's problem!?"
It's been a great day.
PS - For those of you who get a chance to see the movie, I hope you get to (or have) experience(d) the last scene of the movie. It was pretty touching, and a beautiful moment. Especially for those people who are disenchanted with romance, the opposite sex, or love - I hope you get a moment like that some time in your life.