(03-04-2017, 04:40 PM)Minititan Wrote: [ -> ] (03-04-2017, 04:23 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Ok, out-of-nowhere I suddenly got a massive energy rush flowing through my soles into my legs as well as the palms of my hands and up my arms.
And now, no-joke, I feel like I'm on drugs. I'm not sure "euphoria" is the word I'd use. I feel like I'm...vibrating. It's almost like the body high I got when I used to experiment with magic mushrooms in my early 20's.
Can relate man. I'm definitely vibrating all around. Insane amounts of energy and a strong vibration that is just above the skin almost. Hard to explain but it's like I'm vibrating but physically I'm not but the air near me is and it feels like it's me. Pretty awesome. I'm glad I'm not the only one literally buzzing away
I'll also say it was accompanied with a fair amount of anxiety, which reminded me of your post about feeling like you were about to have a panic attack...
Off to see Logan with a friend who has major health issues related to his long term obesity. Trying to convince him to run MHS 5.5G. I've previously failed to try and get him to run E2, so it'll be a challenge.
Looking forward to sitting back in a dark theater and de-stressing a bit.
(03-04-2017, 03:25 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Day 2 of fighting with my wife in a row. ****, this reminds me of V1, when we fought all the time as my perceived value went through the roof (er, at least that's what I think was happening).
I don't know, maybe it's her hormones raging, but I can't step out-of-line one bit without it turning into some huge thing. I just wanted to go to the damn grocery store to get some more DMD (Diet Mountain Dew), and she tried to give me a whole list of shit to get. I told her I hadn't planned on spending a bunch of time in the grocery, and she lost her shit on me.
Then, she just kept escalating, and I wasn't having any of it, so she did what she does whenever she loses an argument, starts crying and saying shit like, "You wouldn't even notice if I move out, maybe I should just die, you'd throw a ***** party!"
Hey mate... just my two cents on this:
I experienced something similar on v2.4 and v2.5. Eventually I broke up with my now-ex/then-gf, while I was on v2.5. I was not happy in the relationship, so I'm glad it ended.
I don't know your situation completely, but reading your posts and journal I've always had the impression that you love your wife and child and are happy with your family.
Do you think there could be a conflict here between the sub's goals and your life situation?
(Edit: or rather, has the sub become powerful enough for its goals to finally start interfering with your life situation?)
P.S:
Two things here: You said you experienced something similar on v1 (so you're experienced with this) and I'm just another person on the Internet; so take it for what it's worth. It's not concern trolling or anything. You just come across as a helpful person through your posts so I just thought I might present my perspective on your post. Good luck!
(03-04-2017, 07:16 PM)hunk Wrote: [ -> ] (03-04-2017, 03:25 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Day 2 of fighting with my wife in a row. ****, this reminds me of V1, when we fought all the time as my perceived value went through the roof (er, at least that's what I think was happening).
I don't know, maybe it's her hormones raging, but I can't step out-of-line one bit without it turning into some huge thing. I just wanted to go to the damn grocery store to get some more DMD (Diet Mountain Dew), and she tried to give me a whole list of shit to get. I told her I hadn't planned on spending a bunch of time in the grocery, and she lost her shit on me.
Then, she just kept escalating, and I wasn't having any of it, so she did what she does whenever she loses an argument, starts crying and saying shit like, "You wouldn't even notice if I move out, maybe I should just die, you'd throw a ***** party!"
Hey mate... just my two cents on this:
I experienced something similar on v2.4 and v2.5. Eventually I broke up with my now-ex/then-gf, while I was on v2.5. I was not happy in the relationship, so I'm glad it ended.
I don't know your situation completely, but reading your posts and journal I've always had the impression that you love your wife and child and are happy with your family.
Do you think there could be a conflict here between the sub's goals and your life situation? (Edit: or rather, has the sub become powerful enough for its goals to finally start interfering with your life situation?)
P.S:
Two things here: You said you experienced something similar on v1 (so you're experienced with this) and I'm just another person on the Internet; so take it for what it's worth. It's not concern trolling or anything. You just come across as a helpful person through your posts so I just thought I might present my perspective on your post. Good luck!
Thanks for your post.
I'm not sure if this is the case. I'll have to wait and see. I would be more concerned if my feelings for my family were starting to disappear. That's not the case.
I'll keep y'all posted right here, though. I'm just hopin' it's a bit of an adjustment period and things will smooth out.
(03-05-2017, 04:43 AM)Sparkfly Wrote: [ -> ] (03-04-2017, 06:53 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Off to see Logan with a friend who has major health issues related to his long term obesity. Trying to convince him to run MHS 5.5G. I've previously failed to try and get him to run E2, so it'll be a challenge.
Looking forward to sitting back in a dark theater and de-stressing a bit.
how is logan?
Really damn good. I loved it. This is the Wolverine we've all wanted to see - Logan going berserk and plowing his claws through skulls, appendages, throats...Brutal.
I didn't count how many times he dropped the F-bomb, lol.
I laughed a lot, but the movie is quite bleak. It occurs in a timeline where things didn't end up well for the X-Men, or mutants in general, and it really pulls at the heart-strings at times.
Well-scripted, good story, wonderfully acted, awesome action, and emotional. See it.
We, ourselves , are the first generation of mutant after 6G comes out
(03-05-2017, 01:36 PM)jonathan4all Wrote: [ -> ]We, ourselves , are the first generation of mutant after 6G comes out
Yea, and I suppose I will be Mystique Pymp, right?
(03-05-2017, 02:28 PM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ] (03-05-2017, 01:36 PM)jonathan4all Wrote: [ -> ]We, ourselves , are the first generation of mutant after 6G comes out
Yea, and I suppose I will be Mystique Pymp, right?
Lol, and I will be RTBollossus?
As I was writing my last post, my wife came downstairs from her nap...with no panties on.
I must have made a face, because she said, "What!? I don't have any panties upstairs!" I replied, "Ah, and here I thought you were bringing me a snack."
"Well, you can come give me a massage and see where that leads..."
:idea:
That offer goes into the "wife initiating," category. It's only happened a few times our entire relationship, and that, my friends, is a blatant as it gets for her.
Gotta keep this up!
PS - During the massage, I started getting reaaally hot, and I still have waves of heat flowing off of my skin.
(03-05-2017, 01:36 PM)jonathan4all Wrote: [ -> ]We, ourselves , are the first generation of mutant after 6G comes out
No joke, this is EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING the entire time while watching LOGAN.
It was awesome to see a fantasy superhero movie on the big screen, and in my mind think to myself: "am i the only one in this theater who knows there really ARE superpowers, and I'm gonna be among those who HAVE them?!"
LOL
good movie.
Also @
RTBoss, the heat thing is insane. I've experienced it as well, and it's so hot that it feels like liquid could be BOILING under the skin.
(03-05-2017, 04:25 PM)ALI6NMENT Wrote: [ -> ] (03-05-2017, 03:17 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]As I was writing my last post, my wife came downstairs from her nap...with no panties on.
I must have made a face, because she said, "What!? I don't have any panties upstairs!" I replied, "Ah, and here I thought you were bringing me a snack."
"Well, you can come give me a massage and see where that leads..."
:idea:
That offer goes into the "wife initiating," category. It's only happened a few times our entire relationship, and that, my friends, is a blatant as it gets for her.
Gotta keep this up!
PS - During the massage, I started getting reaaally hot, and I still have waves of heat flowing off of my skin.
Pics?
If you do not have any pics to share, then this is not true! 
Hahaha...Got a thing for pregnant women?
I screwed up last night with my loops, but in the other direction from others.
I had two loops at the end of my "now playing" playlist. Two nights ago, running my loops this way worked fine, because I clicked the song before my loops, listened to it, and then the loops played. This time I just clicked the DMSI track. For whatever reason, it just played the track once and stopped. I wasn't prepared, so the ASRB was already screwed up. Rather than click play again, I opted to just stick with the one hybrid loop.
Had plenty of strange, non-sexual dreams, involving travel to exotic countries with friends. Plenty of symbolic fear in the dreams, mostly involving my fear of flying. In another dream, I had paid for entrance to a special activity, and even though I had paid, we were told we weren't allowed because I didn't have the proper ID for the country I was in. I felt it was a BS excuse to just take my money and turn me away. I tried to schmooze and argue my way in, but it didn't work, and I remember feeling pissed off. As I walked out, I saw the tattooed dude from my gym with a smokin' hot girl enter the area I was trying to get to without a problem. I turned so he wouldn't see me. Weird, 'cuz I avoid him at the gym ever since our little "altercation." If I'm being honest, while I try not to judge others, I can't stand this guy. I hate his tatts, and I think he's an ugly, creepy psycho that thinks he's a tough guy. In other words, I'm not a fan, lol.
Going to try and get to the zoo with my son today, as it's going to be quite warm. I think spring may be finally here!
Went to the zoo, hotties galore.
Completely ghosted. I felt absolutely fucking invisible. Frankly, it pissed me the fuck off. Even without DMSI, no aura, no internal changes, I should be getting a glance here and there. I was thinking, "Damn, am I suddenly that fuckin' ugly?" I usually will check to see if a woman is looking over her shoulder at me after we walk by - I don't mind getting caught. Nothing. Not even once.
Even though I hadn't eaten anything today (I'm fasting), I thought perhaps the whole "powered by the sun," might kick in. Sun was shining, it was warm...Ah, well. I quickly felt frustrated with myself, because I clearly wasn't executing the script. I got a headache after thinking about that for awhile, but it could be because I was wearing a hat that's a little tight. I tend to get headaches when I wear it.
I got home, put my son to bed for his nap, and then attached my phone to my soundbar. I turned off the subwoofer, reset the bass and treble to zero, and started 2 loops of hybrid .FLAC loud-as-fuck. Over halfway through the first loop, my body was positively vibrating with energy. My hands and feet were buzzing, my whole body was, really.
The second loop is almost finished, and I can still feel my hands and feet tingle. Now I just need to clear and execute this bitch fully.