07-21-2017, 06:49 PM
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07-23-2017, 07:28 PM
I decided to skip listening last night, and fell asleep using Brain FM - 8 hours. It was interesting, as I had 4 or 5 dreams I recalled this morning, but none particularly sexual. As close as it got was a dream where I was jogging and a chick was jogging next to me with her boobies bouncing up and down. Some dude made a rude remark toward me, and she came to my defense with a snarky comment. Not sure what all that means. The rest of the dreams I've since forgotten.
But that's not why I'm posting. Today was my wife's first day back at work (so I listened to 5 loops while she was gone and the kids were napping this afternoon). She came home tonight and said, "Guess what information I came home with about people today!?"
"....?....."
She then spills that she talked to her hot coworker friend, the very same one I just ran into the pool on Friday. Guess what, gents? Since the week after she visited us and my newborn daughter in the hospital (and added me on Facebook), she's separated from her husband - and "feels relieved." She knew there was a problem when she "could never picture growing old together."
That news sent me for a loop. Never saw that coming. Of course, she didn't tell me all that at the pool when I asked about how she's been...but she sure gave that info up to my wife, knowing my wife would likely share it with me. Then she brought up my ex-friend/lifting partner from the gym. He's also just separated from HIS wife. He told her (my wife's hot co-worker friend) that his wife cheated on him - bwhahahaha! I think she believed him. He also said his wife is a nag, and I'll give him that one. All she did was nag his ass when I went over to their house. My wife then told hot coworker that we weren't friends anymore, because he threw shade at me - and it wasn't the first time. She further explained we expect mutual respect out of our friendships, and getting blown off for the second time was a deal breaker for me. Hot co-worker tried to make excuses for ex-lifting partner by saying, "He's been going through a lot..."
That leads me to...Hot coworker lamented to my wife that she was worried she'd never find someone else to share her life with. I about choked on my dinner. To hear that a woman I consider a legit 9/10 say that absolutely astounded me. She's a great mother, self-starter, fucking gorgeous, did I say gorgeous?, is learning to flip houses, running a successful MLM business, diligently works out, is a NICU RN to boot...I still remember when my wife told me she used to give her husband (at least) weekly blow jobs their entire marriage. WHAT!? This girl could have just about anyone. I'm going to find a picture and post it, at least temporarily.
Here's where I reacted in a way I didn't expect. With her comment about undeservedness, and positive comments about my ex-friend (who I arguably still hold a grudge against), I got emotional - jealous, even. I had a vision of them hooking up, and my old white knight tendencies came roaring back. At first, I didn't notice, but then I thought to myself..."Woooah! WTF!?" I even had words like "deservedness" come up (for instance, she "deserves" better than that!) - but in reality, I honestly don't even know her. So, so what if she fucks the dude? She's a big girl - she can make her own decisions for herself. There's a million women out there, she's not getting any pedestal time from me. I am happy with how fast I caught this pattern of thinking and began to deal with it. I feel a lot better now. But, being on DMSI, it probably won't help the fact that I'm eventually going to be confronted with an option to sleep with her myself.
That whole discussion about TID hitting people fast and hard on MLS? When I saw it, I had a clear realization that it was an eventuality with DMSI. No two ways about it, there IS a "version of me" that is having an affair with both my SIL and wife's hot co-worker friend simultaneously and I'm growing closer and closer to that probability line every day.
Yikes.
But that's not why I'm posting. Today was my wife's first day back at work (so I listened to 5 loops while she was gone and the kids were napping this afternoon). She came home tonight and said, "Guess what information I came home with about people today!?"
"....?....."
She then spills that she talked to her hot coworker friend, the very same one I just ran into the pool on Friday. Guess what, gents? Since the week after she visited us and my newborn daughter in the hospital (and added me on Facebook), she's separated from her husband - and "feels relieved." She knew there was a problem when she "could never picture growing old together."
That news sent me for a loop. Never saw that coming. Of course, she didn't tell me all that at the pool when I asked about how she's been...but she sure gave that info up to my wife, knowing my wife would likely share it with me. Then she brought up my ex-friend/lifting partner from the gym. He's also just separated from HIS wife. He told her (my wife's hot co-worker friend) that his wife cheated on him - bwhahahaha! I think she believed him. He also said his wife is a nag, and I'll give him that one. All she did was nag his ass when I went over to their house. My wife then told hot coworker that we weren't friends anymore, because he threw shade at me - and it wasn't the first time. She further explained we expect mutual respect out of our friendships, and getting blown off for the second time was a deal breaker for me. Hot co-worker tried to make excuses for ex-lifting partner by saying, "He's been going through a lot..."
That leads me to...Hot coworker lamented to my wife that she was worried she'd never find someone else to share her life with. I about choked on my dinner. To hear that a woman I consider a legit 9/10 say that absolutely astounded me. She's a great mother, self-starter, fucking gorgeous, did I say gorgeous?, is learning to flip houses, running a successful MLM business, diligently works out, is a NICU RN to boot...I still remember when my wife told me she used to give her husband (at least) weekly blow jobs their entire marriage. WHAT!? This girl could have just about anyone. I'm going to find a picture and post it, at least temporarily.
Here's where I reacted in a way I didn't expect. With her comment about undeservedness, and positive comments about my ex-friend (who I arguably still hold a grudge against), I got emotional - jealous, even. I had a vision of them hooking up, and my old white knight tendencies came roaring back. At first, I didn't notice, but then I thought to myself..."Woooah! WTF!?" I even had words like "deservedness" come up (for instance, she "deserves" better than that!) - but in reality, I honestly don't even know her. So, so what if she fucks the dude? She's a big girl - she can make her own decisions for herself. There's a million women out there, she's not getting any pedestal time from me. I am happy with how fast I caught this pattern of thinking and began to deal with it. I feel a lot better now. But, being on DMSI, it probably won't help the fact that I'm eventually going to be confronted with an option to sleep with her myself.
That whole discussion about TID hitting people fast and hard on MLS? When I saw it, I had a clear realization that it was an eventuality with DMSI. No two ways about it, there IS a "version of me" that is having an affair with both my SIL and wife's hot co-worker friend simultaneously and I'm growing closer and closer to that probability line every day.
Yikes.
07-23-2017, 08:01 PM
I suspect SOMEONE's about to earn a new achievement...
07-24-2017, 05:03 AM
I echo Chaos's sentiments; you have some interesting times ahead of you Brother...
07-25-2017, 06:49 AM
Whatever part of my mind that resists is alive and well.
My wife and kids are at my in-laws, a state away, all week. I was looking at things to do - local event calendar - and noticed that tonight there's a Harry Potter trivia night at all the bars that host trivia. My wife and sister-in-law are Harry Potter freaks. They'd eat, sleep, and breathe HP if they could. Hell, my daughter's room is HP themed.
A thought pops up - "Hey, get a hold of SIL and see what she's up to - HP Trivia night!" Then that recalcitrant, subversive, little muthafucka' came out from its hiding spot in the dark corner of my mind, like a little troll that keeps its foot on my throat in the shadows.
It hit me like a sack of bricks - I'm scared shitless. No way in hell am I seeing if my SIL wants to hang out with me. Drinks, fun...her house to herself, my house to myself...NO FUCKIN' WAY. I mean, nothing even has to happen - it could just be a friendly activity, just to get out of the house and have some fun. STILL NO FUCKIN' WAY.
Now I'm having a hard time going to the gym. I'm having a hard time getting out of the house AT ALL. I have that piece of mind my locked in - I can see it for exactly what it is, and how it is the very piece that's held me back from doing and being anything (achieving my dreams) my whole life. How can the mind be so split!? After all the "work" I've done on myself, how can there still be this part of my mind, so deeply rooted, that has such a firm foot on the brakes? The fear is incredible. I don't even "feel" it as much as "perceive" it as an invisible mental brick wall. It has complete control of me, and it knows it. I can figuratively feel that part of my mind laughing at me right now. "You think you have control of anything? Hahahahahahaha!"
Whatever this is, it'd rather keep me staring at the paint on the wall than getting "out there," and doing anything.
I know that identifying this blockage is a fantastic step, but now I feel really helpless, because I have no idea what I can actually do about it.
Well, first things first. I'm forcing myself right out the front door. Talk at y'all later.
My wife and kids are at my in-laws, a state away, all week. I was looking at things to do - local event calendar - and noticed that tonight there's a Harry Potter trivia night at all the bars that host trivia. My wife and sister-in-law are Harry Potter freaks. They'd eat, sleep, and breathe HP if they could. Hell, my daughter's room is HP themed.
A thought pops up - "Hey, get a hold of SIL and see what she's up to - HP Trivia night!" Then that recalcitrant, subversive, little muthafucka' came out from its hiding spot in the dark corner of my mind, like a little troll that keeps its foot on my throat in the shadows.
It hit me like a sack of bricks - I'm scared shitless. No way in hell am I seeing if my SIL wants to hang out with me. Drinks, fun...her house to herself, my house to myself...NO FUCKIN' WAY. I mean, nothing even has to happen - it could just be a friendly activity, just to get out of the house and have some fun. STILL NO FUCKIN' WAY.
Now I'm having a hard time going to the gym. I'm having a hard time getting out of the house AT ALL. I have that piece of mind my locked in - I can see it for exactly what it is, and how it is the very piece that's held me back from doing and being anything (achieving my dreams) my whole life. How can the mind be so split!? After all the "work" I've done on myself, how can there still be this part of my mind, so deeply rooted, that has such a firm foot on the brakes? The fear is incredible. I don't even "feel" it as much as "perceive" it as an invisible mental brick wall. It has complete control of me, and it knows it. I can figuratively feel that part of my mind laughing at me right now. "You think you have control of anything? Hahahahahahaha!"
Whatever this is, it'd rather keep me staring at the paint on the wall than getting "out there," and doing anything.
I know that identifying this blockage is a fantastic step, but now I feel really helpless, because I have no idea what I can actually do about it.
Well, first things first. I'm forcing myself right out the front door. Talk at y'all later.
07-25-2017, 07:08 AM
07-25-2017, 09:42 AM
At gym, haven't read any other posts or replies, just wanted to jot down the following:
What if I had the power and/belief of the part of my mind that is being so fucking stubborn supporting achievement of the goal?
Is the resistant part of my mind being protected because of safety limiters in the script?
I willed my mind to read the energy of sexual competition, and adjust my energy to output a higher value and sexual value to all women fitting goal description in the vicinity that I'm the better and safer option.
What if the aura shield took negative thoughts/thought energy from competition/haters and funneled it toward achieving the goal rather than toward a null output?
EDIT:
One more: What about getting the part of your subconscious that is happily executing away to convince the resistant parts to cooperate? Then again, it would seem that is already what's happening with healing/clearing.
What if I had the power and/belief of the part of my mind that is being so fucking stubborn supporting achievement of the goal?
Is the resistant part of my mind being protected because of safety limiters in the script?
I willed my mind to read the energy of sexual competition, and adjust my energy to output a higher value and sexual value to all women fitting goal description in the vicinity that I'm the better and safer option.
What if the aura shield took negative thoughts/thought energy from competition/haters and funneled it toward achieving the goal rather than toward a null output?
EDIT:
One more: What about getting the part of your subconscious that is happily executing away to convince the resistant parts to cooperate? Then again, it would seem that is already what's happening with healing/clearing.
07-25-2017, 08:16 PM
(07-25-2017, 09:42 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]At gym, haven't read any other posts or replies, just wanted to jot down the following:
What if I had the power and/belief of the part of my mind that is being so ***** stubborn supporting achievement of the goal?
Is the resistant part of my mind being protected because of safety limiters in the script?
I willed my mind to read the energy of sexual competition, and adjust my energy to output a higher value and sexual value to all women fitting goal description in the vicinity that I'm the better and safer option.
What if the aura shield took negative thoughts/thought energy from competition/haters and funneled it toward achieving the goal rather than toward a null output?
EDIT:
One more: What about getting the part of your subconscious that is happily executing away to convince the resistant parts to cooperate? Then again, it would seem that is already what's happening with healing/clearing.
If you could read the script you are currently resisting, you'd be like...
How the fuck is this being resisted?
It's in there.
Good news is, working on B14, I am coming up with some interesting ideas how to get past that.
07-26-2017, 04:39 AM
(07-25-2017, 06:49 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Now I'm having a hard time going to the gym. I'm having a hard time getting out of the house AT ALL. I have that piece of mind my locked in - I can see it for exactly what it is, and how it is the very piece that's held me back from doing and being anything (achieving my dreams) my whole life. How can the mind be so split!? After all the "work" I've done on myself, how can there still be this part of my mind, so deeply rooted, that has such a firm foot on the brakes? The fear is incredible. I don't even "feel" it as much as "perceive" it as an invisible mental brick wall. It has complete control of me, and it knows it. I can figuratively feel that part of my mind laughing at me right now. "You think you have control of anything? Hahahahahahaha!"
Whatever this is, it'd rather keep me staring at the paint on the wall than getting "out there," and doing anything.
I know that identifying this blockage is a fantastic step, but now I feel really helpless, because I have no idea what I can actually do about it.
Well, first things first. I'm forcing myself right out the front door. Talk at y'all later.
I know all too well what you mean. It helps if you don't think of fear as this big monstrous entity that blocks you from success. When you do that it turns into too much of a battle and it drains you. Honestly asking yourself what you're afraid of and accepting the answer no matter how stupid or dumb it seems. A lot of this will be taken care of by DMSI, the only thing we need to do is not run away from it. We have certain fears for a reason and it might seem immature or weak to our conscious mind, but subconsciously it doesn't matter. I've noticed for myself that as I got older there was a split between what I really felt and what I wanted to feel. As the pressures from the outside world weighed down on me I dismissed that internal self more and more until it got to the point where I was self sabotaging my entire life but didn't even realize it.
07-26-2017, 09:01 AM
(07-25-2017, 08:16 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ](07-25-2017, 09:42 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]At gym, haven't read any other posts or replies, just wanted to jot down the following:
What if I had the power and/belief of the part of my mind that is being so ***** stubborn supporting achievement of the goal?
Is the resistant part of my mind being protected because of safety limiters in the script?
I willed my mind to read the energy of sexual competition, and adjust my energy to output a higher value and sexual value to all women fitting goal description in the vicinity that I'm the better and safer option.
What if the aura shield took negative thoughts/thought energy from competition/haters and funneled it toward achieving the goal rather than toward a null output?
EDIT:
One more: What about getting the part of your subconscious that is happily executing away to convince the resistant parts to cooperate? Then again, it would seem that is already what's happening with healing/clearing.
If you could read the script you are currently resisting, you'd be like...
How the **** is this being resisted?
It's in there.
Good news is, working on B14, I am coming up with some interesting ideas how to get past that.
Cool...the one in bold, too? Thought that negative energy was merely neutralized?
07-26-2017, 09:07 AM
(07-26-2017, 09:01 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ](07-25-2017, 08:16 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ](07-25-2017, 09:42 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]At gym, haven't read any other posts or replies, just wanted to jot down the following:
What if I had the power and/belief of the part of my mind that is being so ***** stubborn supporting achievement of the goal?
Is the resistant part of my mind being protected because of safety limiters in the script?
I willed my mind to read the energy of sexual competition, and adjust my energy to output a higher value and sexual value to all women fitting goal description in the vicinity that I'm the better and safer option.
What if the aura shield took negative thoughts/thought energy from competition/haters and funneled it toward achieving the goal rather than toward a null output?
EDIT:
One more: What about getting the part of your subconscious that is happily executing away to convince the resistant parts to cooperate? Then again, it would seem that is already what's happening with healing/clearing.
If you could read the script you are currently resisting, you'd be like...
How the **** is this being resisted?
It's in there.
Good news is, working on B14, I am coming up with some interesting ideas how to get past that.
Cool...the one in bold, too? Thought that negative energy was merely neutralized?
The best solution, for a number of reasons, is a non-directional reflection shield, which is what I used.
07-26-2017, 10:33 AM
(07-26-2017, 09:07 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ](07-26-2017, 09:01 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ](07-25-2017, 08:16 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ](07-25-2017, 09:42 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]At gym, haven't read any other posts or replies, just wanted to jot down the following:
What if I had the power and/belief of the part of my mind that is being so ***** stubborn supporting achievement of the goal?
Is the resistant part of my mind being protected because of safety limiters in the script?
I willed my mind to read the energy of sexual competition, and adjust my energy to output a higher value and sexual value to all women fitting goal description in the vicinity that I'm the better and safer option.
What if the aura shield took negative thoughts/thought energy from competition/haters and funneled it toward achieving the goal rather than toward a null output?
EDIT:
One more: What about getting the part of your subconscious that is happily executing away to convince the resistant parts to cooperate? Then again, it would seem that is already what's happening with healing/clearing.
If you could read the script you are currently resisting, you'd be like...
How the **** is this being resisted?
It's in there.
Good news is, working on B14, I am coming up with some interesting ideas how to get past that.
Cool...the one in bold, too? Thought that negative energy was merely neutralized?
The best solution, for a number of reasons, is a non-directional reflection shield, which is what I used.
New sub idea from this.
DMSI A, B and VAMPIRE
07-26-2017, 11:38 AM
I wrote out new phrasing of the dowsing question today.
"How many loops is best for me, when I next run DMSI 3.1, for actually, successfully, completely, and permanently overcoming any and all resistance any part of me has to actually executing exactly all of the instructions that make up DMSI 3.1-(A), quickly, completely, successfully, consistently, and permanently, as well as overcoming any and all external forces that are interfering or attempting to interfere with my achieving and experiencing the goals of DMSI 3.1?"
The answer is consistently: 1 loop.
When I repeat the old question phrasing, it is consistently 5 loops.
I'm going to save some time and run 1 loop, and see what occurs.
Yesterday I ran the hybrid FLAC track via aux on my soundbar pretty damn loud for 5 loops. Today, I'm doing the same - but louder. My feet and shins are vibrating.
1 loop is almost complete, and then I'm shutting it down.
"How many loops is best for me, when I next run DMSI 3.1, for actually, successfully, completely, and permanently overcoming any and all resistance any part of me has to actually executing exactly all of the instructions that make up DMSI 3.1-(A), quickly, completely, successfully, consistently, and permanently, as well as overcoming any and all external forces that are interfering or attempting to interfere with my achieving and experiencing the goals of DMSI 3.1?"
The answer is consistently: 1 loop.
When I repeat the old question phrasing, it is consistently 5 loops.
I'm going to save some time and run 1 loop, and see what occurs.
Yesterday I ran the hybrid FLAC track via aux on my soundbar pretty damn loud for 5 loops. Today, I'm doing the same - but louder. My feet and shins are vibrating.
1 loop is almost complete, and then I'm shutting it down.
07-26-2017, 12:02 PM
One loop did a hell of a good job for me, surprisingly. I hope it's equally as good for you!