DMSI 3.1-A, Day 55:
Sorry for not updating until now, my company has taken a ton of my time, and my parents were in an accident recently and I've been spending a lot of time taking care of them and doing things for them. It also made me feel stupid and childish to be so preoccupied with women to run a sub to "get chicks" when dealing with something like that in life...maybe some perspective or a wake up call or something, I don't know. Also, I felt fatigued with posting for awhile, as I don't really enjoy it a lot, so I pulled back in general. However, it's been awhile, and several things may be of note, or interesting to read about for others, so I decided to take time and post today.
Nothing to report in real life with real women still. Now I've gone past the 14th month mark I believe, and still am looking for the "moment" with one girl to show me I'm going down the right path with the program that so many others claim have happened to them. So I do tend to wonder often if it's worth it, as that year feels like a waste of development, truthfully. My procrastination is bad for awhile now, my business expansion is on hold again due to this. It's dragged on for a long long time, it's not good. This could change my life, and make me a fortune, but yet I hold back for some reason, so I want that dealt with. I've been thinking recently, is it worth it to me to continue on a program I've given a year to and it's given me nothing in reality? Do I believe it will somehow come through someday? Or, would it be better to focus on something that will actually give me results, and can give me very big tangible ones if it punches through, with my business in this case? Girls just don't seem to respond to this sub in any clear fashion above and beyond than anything I got before it, for well over a year now, so I'm tired of endless monotonous failure and disappointment regardless of the "power" of the version, and question if this will change on this sub. For a long time, I was fervent in DMSI and clung to it, maybe not so much out of actual belief, but hope to be brutally honest. I haven't been rewarded for that at all, the most I can speak of are dreams, daydreams, some odd looks that I got before this sub, nothing is clearly different, no big shifts or "moments" with a girl to show me it's able to move me forward. So I do question if my loyalty is unfounded and is a waste of time in my case for whatever reason. So, if MLS includes some solid stuff on motivation/procrastination, I may consider a move. Well over a year of religious use, still struggling to see clear evidence it works on girls around me and they are doing things they wouldn't have done otherwise.
I just often wonder at what point is it throwing good money after bad...
Here are a few thoughts I've had about how to improve this sub, some others have mentioned them, some may be included but may need to be strengthened:
-Procrastination/motivation, big problems here still often. To be "the best version of ourselves", personal development, which could be interpreted as "sexy" etc. these need to be at the forefront I feel. They BOTH need to be extremely aggressively dealt with through the script as most of the time, you tend to just veg, and this "IDGAF" thing can actually backfire and almost become a type of laziness or aloofness way beyond what you need in life. It's doubly true on Version A's of these programs, you tend to be almost half-stoned often, not really up to doing a lot of stuff and chilling out etc. Things need to get done, you have to press forward in life and always better yourself, so these two I feel are vital to truly becoming the best version of yourself, and sexually attractive and valuable.
-Negative beliefs, limiting beliefs about self, and about women and sex. Believing it's impossible to get them, it's futile and they aren't worth the effort anymore etc. Based off the past history and precedence proving it to be true thus far. There will have to be a way to disconnect us to the past, and show clear REAL proof in reality it's no longer accurate in order for this to wash away forever and allow the change to happen fully and permanently I feel. I know Shannon will say it's the opposite I read that a mile away lol, but I don't see how a person can believably delude themselves to believe in something when they've had a lifetime of the opposite. This one is a big stumbling block.
-Negative self talk, negative views about women. Probably stemming from the past, that reality and precedence holding it in place. Similar to post above, so I'll keep this short. Same level of importance as above to me though, serious issue.
-Masturbation, oddly coming back on v3.1 after well over a year of nofap. I'm not sure how that happened. I had edging problems that lasted awhile, and a few close calls where I almost broke my nofap streak. This is an obvious power leak, both edging and masturbation itself need to be removed. Shannon, please be sure to remove the edging as well. When I ran your stop masturbation sub, the masturbation itself stopped, but edging remained. It's even worse than masturbation, because it maintains the dopamine high levels in your system, without orgasming. So it causes FAR more issues than just masturbating, then orgasm, then you stop and go about your business. Never mind the erection issues both cause, especially edging, I'll continue about that in another point though. Masturbation and edging, both ways to get needs met for women in an artificial way.
-Porn, even though on v3.1 that has been largely quelled for me. It's a power leak that needs to be removed strongly. Before, V3.1, I'd have annoying horny fits where I'd go view porn for awhile at a time. Not masturbate to it, mind you, just watch it. But it happened often and felt compulsive. Self explanatory, getting needs met in an artificial manner.
-Looking at pictures, videos, or looking up girls on google or downloading pics, videos and .gifs of girls. This has been quelled a bunch on v3.1 until recently. But it still lingers, I'd actually be embarrassed to say how much time has been wasted doing this daily. This habit of looking for and downloading etc. pictures, generally non-nude mind you but sometimes some nudity, just actresses and what not I find attractive. It's ridiculous, compulsive, and wastes so much time so often. I'm sure it's a power leak for the program as well. This I REALLY want gone, I hope V3.2 addresses this in particular. It could be a way to resist, get my "needs" for women met elsewhere than reality in an artificial fashion. This REALLY needs to be removed for me, it's a massive waste of time, I've done it for decades, I hate it and know it's bad but can't seem to stop it, is compulsive as well, and clearly is a huge power leak.
-Erection issues, hard to actually see DMSI work in reality finally, if I have erection problems. I'm not even able to figure out what condom I'd be able to use properly due to this. As the size can differ quite a bit due to these erection problems. PIED, porn-induced erection dysfunction causes this to happen. Bottom line, I can't seem to get real true, FULL erections capable of having sex without watching porn, that was long ago even. Over time, it took more and more effort to get an erection from porn (I don't get one while masturbating even, semi or 40% if that maybe). Until finally, only 3 certain porn clips I know of, can give me a solid, albeit temporary erection, those 3 have never failed me. PIED is a serious issue, in and of itself, never mind the social issues porn itself causes men. I've even considered running OED instead due to this because I don't know how DMSI is supposed to work if I have serious erection problems from years of porn and edging that take so long to heal from and can only do so with COMPLETE abstinence of ALL artificial means of female enjoyment like my picture, videos and .gifs searching and seeking and downloading and collecting them etc. compulsion above. As well as porn itself, and of course the edging and masturbation all have to be removed in full for a long term period to heal, and then of course permanently removed. They are all interrelated and cause this phenomenon, that only became a "thing" once high speed internet was popularised. It was never possible this issue could arise before. There's a ton of info out there on this for those interested,
www.yourbrainonporn.com is the best resource. Back to DMSI, this could also be a way to resist, mind you, killing our ability to get an erection to be physically CAPABLE of having sex, so this is a serious power leak that needs to be removed. And just to preempt any replies about Viagra, Cialis and Levitra, those drugs deal with problems in the penis, not the mind. The problem with PIED is in the mind, so those drugs don't work for this. And still, to further prove that to myself, I got prescriptions for a very beefy dose a long time ago, and tested it out. Nada. My penis isn't the problem, in fact, it's pretty well sized now and growing through my use of PE, the erections just need to be fixed to bring the CatManCannon to bear, lmao.
-Confidence. There needs to be an almost godly level of confidence, especially to overpower potentially decades of failure in the opposite direction. I just don't feel it on this, in fact, despite the gulf in power, this sub doesn't give nearly as much confidence as ASC 5G gave me. And also, Version A's seem to tend to make you second guess yourself and doubt everything more often, probably because it's focus is clearing and healing so it always is poking and prodding and messing with stuff. More so than getting real life good external stuff happening when it does that so it makes you doubt yourself and doubt the sub etc. even further. It's like a double whammy. I miss that level of confidence from ASC 5G as well, it was amazing, my first sub I ever tried. I feel a massive amount of confidence needs to be baked into this sub, WAY more than whatever is in there now. It needs to be strong enough to overpower decades of very low confidence and precedence, so again it plays into the words I wrote above in an earlier point. And of course, one of the biggest answers women give is "confidence" being one of the sexiest things a man can have, So, this could be an easy fix to vastly increase success rates on this sub.
Okay, so there's both an update on how I am, how I feel and what's gone on with me and the sub and girls around me. As well as some thoughts I've had on how the program can be vastly improved. I think if all of those things were implemented and they worked for me, I would be reporting far more juicier updates. As I can't think of any other issues I have with the sub off the top of my head, those are it. And perhaps, after those, the mind may have some additional counter punches, so a revised list may need to be made in time after experimenting with the new version. However, I feel for now, that list rings true 100% for me and would make a massive difference for me with this program.
Thank you all, for the kind messages about me and my parents. That's it for now.
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