Day 14 - Update 1 - Theres alot!
Time 12.39am.
Listening to todays loop. Tomorrow will be my 1 day break.
Pornchat Girl:
Got in touch, sent me a message that read: "Been busy sorry x next time you have a wank I want you to think of me x" followed by a picture of herself, no face showing with her pussy and a-hole in view for me.
What do you guys make of that?
Greek Class:
Went to a class with another group who were all greeks students. The teacher was very chilled to the point that I was able to take over the class and discuss external topics about the world and thus commanded the complete attention of everyone there. Felt powerful!
Another Class:
In this class I was on fire, asking question after question to get clarity on what I didnt understand. It again helped that the teacher was relaxed and thus I felt on fire again.
Self esteem or something else?
I dont know but I do feel a little bit more like i just dont give a shit!
Again any thoughts on all the above so far?
Lecture:
Went to a lecture, on the way there with my friend, a girl was walking behind us and I didnt pay her any attention though I did find her some what cute. She followed us into the lecture so cool but then she sat on the other side and 3 times I caught her look at me and smile and of course I smiled back.
My friend and I were asked to move by the teacher to the other side, as we approached with my friend in front, she got up and came out of the row to allow us to go in. Logically I would have gone in after him and thus she would have then had to sit near to be if not next to me. However my friend got talking to someone so i went in cos I didnt give a shit lol
At the end, I felt as if she stood for a moment as if to maybe give me a chance to chat to her but I could be wrong. Anyway I know her name now and found her on facebook so messaged her even though we never chatted cos why not right.
Went to the mall to watch a movie with the same friend and nothing to report there.
Went to meet my personal trainer, hell have my macro and diet plan sorted he said this weekend.
Was on the phone to FIGHT GIRL, may have been an hour maybe 1.5hours after which I cut the call to eat, cos priorities right lol
She complimented me yesterday in our 3+hour chat in saying that I have a great sense of humour and I said thank you and she said no JAKE2015 you have the ferrari of sense of humours. I think that is a cool compliment to get.
So any thoughts on anything?
ps: Ive only had 3hours sleep I think.
Additional:
I still havent fapped but somehow for some reason was feeling my cock whilst im listening to the loop right now and stopped because my cock was hard and it felt comforting but I didnt want to accidentally fap.....I have no idea why ever not except for some part of me saying give your cock a break and let it get all its power and energy back.
So 14days no fap so far.
I aim to this week fix my sleep pattern more which helps everything including DMSI and hopefully also get more focused with other things.
Right now im exhausted. Im still eating shit and drinking shit which has to change slowly too.
additional 2:
I realised I also got a little more conscious today of my hair loss and my image as a whole.
Girls giving ur semi-nude pic.. and telling u having great sense of humour is a good thing.
Just make sure u that u don't become their therapist where they just keep talking about their problems and u keep listening untill u become numb...Waste of time. Sometimes times its okay for them to share their problems but if they start doing that often then..U my friend are their therapist and giving them free session lol.
(03-09-2018, 03:03 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]Additional:
I still havent fapped but somehow for some reason was feeling my cock whilst im listening to the loop right now and stopped because my cock was hard and it felt comforting but I didnt want to accidentally fap.....I have no idea why ever not except for some part of me saying give your cock a break and let it get all its power and energy back.
So 14days no fap so far.
I aim to this week fix my sleep pattern more which helps everything including DMSI and hopefully also get more focused with other things.
Right now im exhausted. Im still eating shit and drinking shit which has to change slowly too.
You would be surprised at how much unhealthy food and drink will affect your mental state, it's like your stomach has a direct connection to your brain.
There is alot of research out there concerning the effects of unhealthy eating on mental and emotional wellbeing.
(03-09-2018, 05:06 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]Girls giving ur semi-nude pic.. and telling u having great sense of humour is a good thing.
Just make sure u that u don't become their therapist where they just keep talking about their problems and u keep listening untill u become numb...Waste of time. Sometimes times its okay for them to share their problems but if they start doing that often then..U my friend are their therapist and giving them free session lol.
Hey bro, the pic is full-nude, shes on her back and her legs are up so I can see her pussy and asshole but her tits and face are covered. I guess thats semi nude then actually lol
thanks
yeah I hear you thats the thing no idea how to cut a convo off, but I did yesterday with FightGirl, I said my dinner is ready and I need to sleep and she wasnt happy at all lol
(03-09-2018, 06:03 PM)Ymiraku Wrote: [ -> ] (03-09-2018, 03:03 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]Additional:
I still havent fapped but somehow for some reason was feeling my cock whilst im listening to the loop right now and stopped because my cock was hard and it felt comforting but I didnt want to accidentally fap.....I have no idea why ever not except for some part of me saying give your cock a break and let it get all its power and energy back.
So 14days no fap so far.
I aim to this week fix my sleep pattern more which helps everything including DMSI and hopefully also get more focused with other things.
Right now im exhausted. Im still eating shit and drinking shit which has to change slowly too.
You would be surprised at how much unhealthy food and drink will affect your mental state, it's like your stomach has a direct connection to your brain.
There is alot of research out there concerning the effects of unhealthy eating on mental and emotional wellbeing.
I believe you but always forget stuff, are there any good videos on youtube that you can recommend on this topic bro?
Day 15 - Saturday 10th March 2018
Time: 7.17pm
No loop today - day of rest
I slept around 1am, woke at 1pm, fell asleep again woke at 3.40pm and only because I saw the time.
The sleep was because of lack of sleep all week so nothing to do with DMSI.
Spoke to fight girl yesterday after cinema and then cut the conversation short by saying I need to eat now but she didnt want to end the call.
Heard from the lecture girl. I sent her a message on facebook if you recall? anyway she replied, it was very polite, very formal and left no room to continue the chat.
Therefore I can only assume her constant looks and smiles were NOT IOIs at all!
Pornchat girl read my message/reply to her nude pic and no reply as yet.
So what can I say after 15days:
(15 day review)
no fap - 15days so far of no fap which is good and not planned so I have to assume it is DMSI which means my stonewalling has stopped. This I hope now means that Shannon can improve the subs so that I can start to hit the goals. I know for me not stonewalling is the first step. For others its hitting the goals so I feel were still a long long way away but we will get there.
there has been no other development or change in me that I can concretely say is due to DMSI as yet.
We shall see after another 14-15 days of listen.
Hopefully by then track A will be released and I will go to that still because the healing and clearing will remove I hope so much from within me that will help me further into the future with these subs and my life.
thanks
Quote:Pornchat Girl:
Got in touch, sent me a message that read: "Been busy sorry x next time you have a wank I want you to think of me x" followed by a picture of herself, no face showing with her pussy and a-hole in view for me.
What do you guys make of that?
Seriously? You REALLY need an explanation of that?
BUT in saying that, this pornchat thing is weird.. and in that case you might just be a 'mark' especially if it's something you've paid for. I've read the other journal entries but can't recall.
But if it was a normal girl not one off some porn chat site, no explanation would be needed
(03-10-2018, 03:13 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Pornchat Girl:
Got in touch, sent me a message that read: "Been busy sorry x next time you have a wank I want you to think of me x" followed by a picture of herself, no face showing with her pussy and a-hole in view for me.
What do you guys make of that?
Seriously? You REALLY need an explanation of that?
BUT in saying that, this pornchat thing is weird.. and in that case you might just be a 'mark' especially if it's something you've paid for. I've read the other journal entries but can't recall.
But if it was a normal girl not one off some porn chat site, no explanation would be needed
lol exactly but lets wait and see. The site itself is a porn site (im not mentioning names as it could break advertising rules of the forum) but you create a free account so you can favourite all the porn you like - which is why i have the account - but you can also find other members to chat to etc.
Shes only been there on that account of hers for 30days and so thats why im unsure what to make of it but may as well enjoy the attention until it becomes clearer.
Any other girl, and I wouldnt be here on the forum but with her haha
That being said bro thanks for replying and yeah so far DMSI has made me stop fapping which im happy about as it means im not stonewalling as well as giving my junk/member a rest which can only be a healthy thing for its welfare.
Just hoping I can make more progress with Track A when its released and even though Shannon may release a OP focus sub before 3.3, it may be wise I stick on the DMSI journey because this is where ill know that the sub tech had reached a point where I can trust other subs to work on and for me.
This kinda became a journal update instead of a reply alone lol
so nothing else to report guys, been a quiet day, just been eating and binge watching shows and its 2.25am here and ive no plans to get to bed yet.
Did want to fap earlier but still not doing it.
Not watching porn, but I am downloading it for the future as well as favouriting porn daily on that site but otherwise not watched any porn and if I have which I have in the past 15days ive not fapped to it.
Yeah my break has been a lazy day. I usually hate these days and constantly ask why am I so unmotivated right now. Even just getting in my car and going to the beach is just a drag. And I’ve been eating all day. Can’t wait to get back on dmsi tomorrow.
(03-10-2018, 09:15 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ] (03-09-2018, 06:03 PM)Ymiraku Wrote: [ -> ] (03-09-2018, 03:03 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]Additional:
I still havent fapped but somehow for some reason was feeling my cock whilst im listening to the loop right now and stopped because my cock was hard and it felt comforting but I didnt want to accidentally fap.....I have no idea why ever not except for some part of me saying give your cock a break and let it get all its power and energy back.
So 14days no fap so far.
I aim to this week fix my sleep pattern more which helps everything including DMSI and hopefully also get more focused with other things.
Right now im exhausted. Im still eating shit and drinking shit which has to change slowly too.
You would be surprised at how much unhealthy food and drink will affect your mental state, it's like your stomach has a direct connection to your brain.
There is alot of research out there concerning the effects of unhealthy eating on mental and emotional wellbeing.
I believe you but always forget stuff, are there any good videos on youtube that you can recommend on this topic bro?
Here is a link which may be helpful, its not youtube but it has solid information in it.
https://cleverguts.com/
Avoid processed foods and foods high in saturated fats. Not all tinned foods are processed, tinned salmon is great in a sandwich with mayo and sardines are good too if you like that sort of thing. Try not to eat red meat more than three times per week. Avoid battered foods and marinated foods which have very high sodium content. Also try to cut back on really sugary foods, sugar is corrosive and is actually processed as a poison by your body.
Stuff like baked potatoes, rice, pasta, all fruit and veg, chicken, turkey, trimmed pork, lamb etc. are all good. Avoid eating large amounts of matured cheeses, its a popular thing these days but really not good for your health.
In fact a healthy meal will make you feel physically and mentally good after eating it. Try making a leafy salad with some goats cheese, cherry tomatoes, avocado, cucumber etc. in it and use your favourite dressing (ie. italian dressing) and eat it with some egg and bread-crumbed chicken breast strips fried in olive oil. You will feel great afterwards.
If you are going to fry anything, stay away from vegetable oil, sunflower and canola oil, and fats and instead shallow fry in olive oil and grapeseed oil etc.
As for drinks stay away from energy drinks they are so fkin bad for you, full of sugar, caffeine and a bunch of other unnatural ingredients. Fruit juice is okay but not in excess because it still contains alot of sugar. More than anything you want to be drinking straight water, rainwater and spring water because tap water tends to contain alot more chlorides and fluorides and other agents. One cup of coffee is fine everyday, so is one or two cups of tea. Just try to stick to low fat milk and dont use much sugar, generally one teaspoon is fine.
(03-10-2018, 06:45 PM)Rocket13 Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah my break has been a lazy day. I usually hate these days and constantly ask why am I so unmotivated right now. Even just getting in my car and going to the beach is just a drag. And I’ve been eating all day. Can’t wait to get back on dmsi tomorrow.
hahah welcome to my world lol. I feel like this every time i come back to my apartment... i just crash, and dont want to go out for a walk or anything. im happy just being indoors.
(03-10-2018, 06:59 PM)Ymiraku Wrote: [ -> ] (03-10-2018, 09:15 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ] (03-09-2018, 06:03 PM)Ymiraku Wrote: [ -> ] (03-09-2018, 03:03 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]Additional:
I still havent fapped but somehow for some reason was feeling my cock whilst im listening to the loop right now and stopped because my cock was hard and it felt comforting but I didnt want to accidentally fap.....I have no idea why ever not except for some part of me saying give your cock a break and let it get all its power and energy back.
So 14days no fap so far.
I aim to this week fix my sleep pattern more which helps everything including DMSI and hopefully also get more focused with other things.
Right now im exhausted. Im still eating shit and drinking shit which has to change slowly too.
You would be surprised at how much unhealthy food and drink will affect your mental state, it's like your stomach has a direct connection to your brain.
There is alot of research out there concerning the effects of unhealthy eating on mental and emotional wellbeing.
I believe you but always forget stuff, are there any good videos on youtube that you can recommend on this topic bro?
Here is a link which may be helpful, its not youtube but it has solid information in it.
https://cleverguts.com/
Avoid processed foods and foods high in saturated fats. Not all tinned foods are processed, tinned salmon is great in a sandwich with mayo and sardines are good too if you like that sort of thing. Try not to eat red meat more than three times per week. Avoid battered foods and marinated foods which have very high sodium content. Also try to cut back on really sugary foods, sugar is corrosive and is actually processed as a poison by your body.
Stuff like baked potatoes, rice, pasta, all fruit and veg, chicken, turkey, trimmed pork, lamb etc. are all good. Avoid eating large amounts of matured cheeses, its a popular thing these days but really not good for your health.
In fact a healthy meal will make you feel physically and mentally good after eating it. Try making a leafy salad with some goats cheese, cherry tomatoes, avocado, cucumber etc. in it and use your favourite dressing (ie. italian dressing) and eat it with some egg and bread-crumbed chicken breast strips fried in olive oil. You will feel great afterwards.
If you are going to fry anything, stay away from vegetable oil, sunflower and canola oil, and fats and instead shallow fry in olive oil and grapeseed oil etc.
As for drinks stay away from energy drinks they are so fkin bad for you, full of sugar, caffeine and a bunch of other unnatural ingredients. Fruit juice is okay but not in excess because it still contains alot of sugar. More than anything you want to be drinking straight water, rainwater and spring water because tap water tends to contain alot more chlorides and fluorides and other agents. One cup of coffee is fine everyday, so is one or two cups of tea. Just try to stick to low fat milk and dont use much sugar, generally one teaspoon is fine.
wow this is amazing advice thank you so much!!! I feel bad to write any posts after this as it should be pinned for all to read! thanks for the link to bro appreciate it alot!!