Day 28 - (2.13) - Friday 23rd March 2018
Time: 11:28pm
Listening to loop right now. (edit: 11.56pm - came back to say, I dont feel sleepy as much now when I listen to the loops, and sometimes its pleasant).
Came on to basically keep an eye on the days so I can verify when to have a break. Break will be Sunday.
I guess since I mentioned it I should change to masked (trickling stream) for the next 30days and see if that changes anything, even though I do think that nothing will improve due to it.
Not fapped - 28days no fapping.
I woke and wasted hours in bed googling about the benefits of no fap. If I can refrain from not fapping and perhaps sex too for 90-120 days (4-3months) then I may get the physical benefits.
Today was horny.
Lose focus alot! I always end up going to the same websites. Its a pattern.
I want to break this pattern, especially as im going to the porn site and dont really watch any porn, I just hit favourite on them to save to my account which is ever growing or I see if pornchat girl is on and has replied. Yup im a little too into her :/ stupid I know.
I have no other report to give. Nothing internal. Sometimes I think maybe some anxiety has reduced but its subjective and not very clear thus not reporting it even though I do wonder.
Procrastination is same for now.
Been researching habits and what I need to do so will say that so far ive started to get my water drunk. I still drink lots of coke zero and tea but from today reached 1 litre of bottled water.
Tomorrow will be 1.5litres hopefully. - As you read from previous posts, 4litres is my minimum and ultimate goal.
I will remain on B, because I dont want to risk moving to track A and feeling or changing anything.
I dont know if anyone reading this can answer this, but since I havent stonewalled this sub, does that mean that from this sub onwards its looking optimistic for me?
I presume since previous subs are older tech than 3.2, then they will remain useless to me. Correct?
Let us take just what you gained so far although we don’t know the extent to which you are executing and how many modules.
You are drinking water and want to drink more and stop coke and the like. Talk to any one who knows and he tells you that drinking 2 to 4liter of water is a form of daily cleansing to the body.you cant get heavily sick doing that.
You are not fapping and you will soon reap the benefits from that.your testosterone levels your sexual energy would be much better.
You cutting down on porn which has tremendous benefits.
All that in some 28 days of listening one hour a day to some nice water stream!!!
Isnt that fantastic? Or am I too positive here?
I would not worry about women if I am improving myself.
(03-23-2018, 02:48 PM)Light Wrote: [ -> ]Let us take just what you gained so far although we don’t know the extent to which you are executing and how many modules.
You are drinking water and want to drink more and stop coke and the like. Talk to any one who knows and he tells you that drinking 2 to 4liter of water is a form of daily cleansing to the body.you cant get heavily sick doing that.
You are not fapping and you will soon reap the benefits from that.your testosterone levels your sexual energy would be much better.
You cutting down on porn which has tremendous benefits.
All that in some 28 days of listening one hour a day to some nice water stream!!!
Isnt that fantastic? Or am I too positive here?
I would not worry about women if I am improving myself.
Hey Light, thanks for messaging bro.
The water, I actually somehow have done before but never 4litres so its a big one but ive always wanted to as I want to always look and feel my best!
Cant wait for the no fap benefits
)))
Porn, ok so im still going to a porn site but not actually watching videos. When you hover the cursor it gives a kind of 2sec preview and I then just click favourite on it. I also am on a swinging dating site (never swung) and so I see pics of naked bodies, any I like I message. Is all this counted as porn or not do you think?
hahah Im not sure if youre being too positive or not so ill see what you say to this reply as it will offer more context.
I agree, women arent my goal but yet they are too lol My goal is to definately see that im not stonewalling, im not im now executing DMSI so im eager to see how quickly and how much is.
Day 29 - (2.14) - Saturday 25th March 2018
Time: 12.59am
Listening to loop right now.
Note to self: Tomorrow is 1 day break, then will listen to Trickling stream for 30days and see if any change or not.
Today woke to a bad dream. It wasnt a nightmare, but its a bad dream as I didnt like the outcome at all. I dont want to go into detail except that if this was DMSI it wasnt nice.
I drank 1.5litres of water today. I wake and drink 500ml bottle upon waking, then drank 2 more.
I dont care about drinking sips throughtout the day, the goal is to just get this amount of water inside me 1 way or another.
Tomorrows goal is 2litres of water - 4 x 500ml bottles.
Aim: end of march, 31st, to drink 4litres.
Sleep
Terrible. Sleeping at 6am. waking at 12pm.
My fault, but need to fix this soon. Not easy when I cant shower due to bandaged up leg, but I go again to the hospital on Monday to get it changed/cleaned and then will ask if I can shower or not as I will miss Uni if I cant properly shower.
I spend alot of time on the following:
Pornsite to see if pornchat girl has replied or to fav porn videos that I dont watch.
Facebook but not as much as pornsite. (I dont name pornsite incase its advertising)
Swinging dating site, where I send a copy&paste message to every female in the hope 1 takes the bait and replies. There is little point to this, because im in europe not the UK, and I cannot possibly meet anyone until I graduate and lose weight and get myself back into shape.
I sometimes go to another famous dating site, and today messaged a girl and she replied. They have a voice call feature so she called me. We chatted for over 3hrs. I did 70-80% of the talking but at the start thats normal. I spoke alot about sex and she also opened up and revealed alot to me about her sexual past etc. I was horny of cos and hard but didnt fap.
This is kinda normal for me, i somehow am able to open girls easily online and on the phone.
I dont believe I can pull girls in real life though now due to age, weight, and hairloss.
Shes now on my snapchat so that we can stay in touch. Found her on facebook, far too young for me, dont worry shes an adult but not my type, as in dating but for sex sure yet again its a fantasy.
Ive today realised that all this is a fantasy. Im wasting time online on fantasys. Im worried about not finding the ONE, or im worried about uni work so either way im wasting time on fantasy girls that wont ever happen because im not ready for it nor am i able to yet.
My focus again needs to be my study and my health/physique.
Yesterday I did alot of research on ending procrastination and on habit formation. These are things that were on my to-do as part of my research efforts on things I want to learn to implement. I had this week of uni as you all know so it gave me time to waste alot of time as well as read the websites.
I have learnt alot that I now need to implement soon.
I wanted to backup my phone today as only little memory left but no space on any external HDD so had to order one.
So now I will eat dinner, after I have listened to the loop and plan on what I need to do.
It's still porn, man. Even if it is thumbnails or seeing pics or seeking pornstars via webcam. You're still attached to your habits, and can't fully let go. These things are keeping you too comfortable. You are running DMSI, but making it extremely hard for yourself to execute the script. You gotta let go, so that you'll be able to connect with real life girls.
Hey man, im also drinking 3-4 lt of water a day, I work from home so it's pretty easy. Very recommended!.
I use an android app called hydro coach, check it out!
thanks guys, ill monitor my porn habit and also check out hydro coach
Monday 26th March 2018
Time: 11.13pm
I had my break yesterday, from the 2nd run of B.
I have installed trickling stream on my phone ready to use today...BUT....
Now A is being released and im waiting to see what answers Shannon gives to some on his thread before deciding as im now wondering if I should get onto A, as I had intended before 3.2 was released.
31days of no fap.
Nothing else to report yet.
update:
Its 1am, was hoping for A to be available but its getting late so ill start my next cycle of B and see tomorrow now.
Tuesday 27th March 2018
Day 32
DMSI - Track A is now released.
(03-27-2018, 06:50 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (03-26-2018, 07:49 PM)Ampersnd Wrote: [ -> ]Do we have to finish our 14 days of B before we can start using side A with its loops?
Not in a big rush, but I want to make sure that it's done correctly.
It should be okay to just switch over, as long as you plan on staying with A for at least a month straight.
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Quote:Benjamin Wrote:
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Do we have to finish our 14 days of B before we can start using side A with its loops?
Not in a big rush, but I want to make sure that it's done correctly.
Hmm on past versions I would have said just switch. But in this case i'm unsure since the secondary ASRB is different. Shannon can answer that when he comes online.
It's interesting that Version A is 7 days on. In my mind it makes me think of the power of the healing, but i'm not sure if it means anything really.
Version A makes it more likely i'll use it. I respond better to the more gentle approach over the authoritative approach. But i'm still trying to to focus on other things, but it's a struggle to resist haha.
The more frequent days off mean there is more need for rest and processing time. H&C all the way.
So based on the above I will start track A today.
I did 1 day of B yesterday but today will begin my A listening.
A: 1 loop for 7 days, 1 day off and repeat.
Results after 30days of B = No Fapping.
For future reference.
(03-26-2018, 12:24 PM)Blink Wrote: [ -> ] (03-26-2018, 12:11 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Shannon Wrote:
DMSI 3.2-A Primary ASRB: 20 to 1
Secondary ASRB: 7 days on, 1 day off
What does this mean please?
and where will the link be posted for downloading A, for those of us that have bought 3.2 please?
thank you in advance.
DMSI 3.2-A Primary ASRB: 20 to 1
This means for every 20 minutes of the loop, there a minute of silence. So chances are the loop is 63 minutes
Secondary ASRB: 7 days on, 1 day off
This means, for every 7 days you listen to your loops, you take one day off. So your off days won't fall on the same day every week.
The links will be in your account once the upload is done and probably when Ben manually links them to your account.
Downloading DMSI-3.2A - flac right now
Tuesday 27th March 2018 - (32-1.1A)
Day 32 of DMSI
& Day 1 of track A. (Hybrid trickling stream)
Listening to sub as I write this.
Not noticing any tiredness and seems pleasant so far.
32 days so far of NO Fapping.
Additional Update:
I forgot to give an update. Basically this morning I woke at different times in the morning and fell back to sleep.
Each time I had a dream. I dont remember the dreams now, but I remembered them each time I woke.
I think I had 3 dreams that im aware of.
Im certain this awareness is and was due to me waking during the dream cycles but its worth noting anyway.
My sleep is ridiculous. I was exhausted, I fell asleep around 3 or 4am and woke today around 4pm, so had about 10-12hrs sleep.
Wednesday 28th March 2018 - (33-1.2A)
Time: 4.42pm
Not listened to todays loop as yet. - Today will be day 2 of A (hence 1.2 above. 33 is the total number of days since starting DMSI).
Slept around 4am, set alarm to wake at 10am. Woke at 10am, and stayed awake by wasting time on my phone (in the hope i woke up fully) for an hour and fell back to sleep at 11am.
Woke at 2pm, fell asleep, woke maybe another time until I finally woke at 3.30pm approx.
Had my wash and sat here with a mug of hot water before I drink it.
I slept late due to not feeling good after eating some raw onions in a salad. I think I have an intolerance or allergy to raw onions that are strong and pungent. Anyway I spent the evening drinking hot tea and also eating sweet things in the hope it would fix it, and then finally just binged on more food which did help.
This morning I woke to onion in my throat feeling which isnt pleasant. I had also taken an antihistamine last night which may or may not have made me unable to wake up easily.
Anyway thats the context.
I know I had dreamed after 11am to when I woke. I think my theory is correct, that I remember dreams if i have a distrubed sleep or if I wake during the dream state or close to it.
I cannot be sure at all therefore if this is DMSI or not, as it doesnt seem to be related if my theory for why I recall dreams is correct.
Anyway the dream I remember some of which is simply that I somehow was in a car, in the back seat with 3 or 4 other fairly sexy uni students that im sure do not exist.
I was my normal friendly funny self, and they liked it especially the girl next to me however it wasnt as if she was liking it too much, it was a normal friendly she was liking it and i was making the effort.
I cant remember the rest of the dream except that I was brought home, to our old family home where I was brought up. I was embarrassed to have them see me go in there. I felt I had this reputation of being a wealthy guy and so seeing the place I was brought up and calling it home embarrassed me.
I so made an excuse that im meeting a friend somewhere around here, not sure where so ill see and we got out of the car. before we did I turned behind my seat to see 3 guy students I do know who are greek (ie regarded as foreign students to the country I student in, even though that is europe) and was surprised to see them there and said hi to them. The hi was me approaching them with an arm stretched, im sure its kinda needy and beta behaviour as thats what I felt when I woke but anyway thats how I said hi.
I tbh upon waking was surprised as to how long this car was and how in a dream it all seems normal lol
So the girls, all of them and I got out of the car. The girl that I liked that was next to me was the main one I was giving my attention to and the others were there it seemed out of politeness to see me off.
I then got the snapchat of the girl I liked. I cannot be sure if I got it in the car or there when we were stood outside, but i got it and then i hugged her friends and when it came to her it seemed as if she was unsure or shy as was i - so basically a semi awkward situation.
Hug over they got back and I proceeded on and woke.
I have no idea if there is any relevance to DMSI in this dream but you all can let me know.
Beyond this the only other thing to state is that when I was awake for an hour, I was scratching my groin and my dick did get hard and I wasnt fapping. I knew I wasnt and yet I didnt.
I am glad about this since i know that not fapping for 90+ days will benefit me as another member stated to me earlier too whose name ive forgotten as I type this, so sorry dude.
So 33 days of no fap so far.
Wednesday 28th March 2018 - (33-1.2A)
Listened to loop - day 2.
During the listening at 1 point I felt like some form of anxiety. It felt like the same feeling you would get on a rollercoaster, or when a plane suddenly drops altitude. It was inside me and I felt odd and wasnt sure if I brought it on from changing positions or if it was the sub.
Also track A feels like im just listening to a trickling stream and boring whereas B felt as if I was listening to something with a little more substance to it. I was not however bored, just eager for the sub to finish so I could go make a cup of tea before bed lol
I also 2 days ago was listening to 2 tracks by an artist all day long. I was singing it in my head whilst I was listening to todays loop. I wonder if this over-listening & subsequent mental replay of the songs is DMSI or not.