Thriving strongly on B. Focussing on giving and investment of myself and financislly. The flame unleashes now. I know by giving I can double the income. Starting reading the unchained man by blackdragon and it resonates deeper then ever. Its as if my heart sings. Played around with "A" and she licked her lips, rubbed her shoulder while holding eye contact and played with her ponytail again. Damn girl. Im shifting in ways and am breaking out and free. She keep gauging interest and seeking engagement aswell as rubbing her legs, opening and closing them like trying to get some cold air while growing hotter and hotter, laughing at almost everything. IDC. Her rubbing her jeans up and down towards her pussy and thighs was a nice change. Im feeling simultaneously off the charts.
Thinking back about this, she is getting more comfortable around me while my IDGAF grows and solidifies, which will in turn make her escalate into sex. Fir some its quick, for others takes time probably. I now call it she will initiate it strongly.
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E was holding my eye contact aswell for more then 5 sec. I was relaxed. She broke off while repeatingly getting her knee against my leg.
Girl at the checkout started talking and kept going.
Other women gave fuck me eyes while smiling slyly while opening her.
Oh and all women do somewhat complain how they feel its hot.
New employee at the gym. Cute girl. Direct DMSI effects kicking in. She kept smiling and giggling. Getting her number will be a walk in the park.
DMSi is an absolute beast, things are breaking through and I have a constant stream of realisations, knowing, expectations and what not. manifestations so sweet in so many areas, things are already spoken for at this point and its blowing me the fuck away.
I feel like I am bending reality over and over again, perspectives are shifting one after another, things are settling down at this point and I am golden. my whole body is vibrating, things go from familiar to surreal in a split second, at times I feel disconnected and unfamiliar with people all around me, the excitement is real. after the excitement dies down, its now here.
like I said, DMSi is one hell of a sub.
threesomes are mine
lambo is mine, big money is mine, lots of ceilings and blocks are broken out now, wtf.
IDGAf is high, im overwhelmed with emotion at this point yet am thriving and am highly succesfull in all areas. my legs even go numb due the energy flooding. I can only surrender at this point.
If I update, I dont know at this point as it is all so so powerfull and strong. I rather am now consciously non interfering and riding the subconscious manifestations.
one 8/10 brazilian girl was checking me out strongly, like, she couldnt stop watching, socially I fluid as fuck, not giving a shit at all. Im thriving, things are going and going.
f*cking DMSI.
of to the gym. embracing succes is inevitable, giving is inevitable due the sheer amount of abundance now in my life, doubts are melting off and not even here anymore, like, alligned with what I want. Im even prohetizing that enough clearing will make manifestation instant right now. like, snapping your fingers and it will be.
Part 2;
So I just drove a while behind this F12 while coming from the gym. The thing is a piece of art. My subC is now throwing up the possibility of having that.
Im having urges to just proclaim to my parents I love them for who they are. Before subs I was on a bad rep with them, traumas, clashes, constant fights with my dad, till the point when having a huge fit while moving places, I would park my car against the trees if he didnt shut up. Yes, that bad. AM6 helped me tremendously in all of that. Im pretty clear in that. He also helped me financially back them and now the tides are turning. I made a promise to give them 5k. Also manifesting 12k is in the workings.
Im about to let it all out. Ben inspired me and the reality im facing, shifting to, its so beautiful. Let the tears come. B heals me in other ways it seems. Coming all through. I feel like entering peacefull death yet thriving aswell.
Running B as I write this. 4 loops hybrid.
Oh dude, I love your journal!
Thanks man. Thank you for stopping by
Well things are about to get off now. Shifts in perception and letting facebook work for me. Upcoming days will be about connecting more. Also, listening to BD's podcasts currently. My perception and choices of collaboration, connection, giving value is skyrocketing. No bs anymore. I recognize fears. Yet, the slogan "life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you get unless you take action" brought up a profound shift.
Im more centred now. Non neediness, yet appreciation going round and "getting it" its pretty funny actually.
Its like all manifestation is passing by me at this point like a free flow. New things are in the process. Im sure and confident and congrugent in myself.
Oh, ps; women go women. The things are actually funny, like the almost oblivious attitudes and what not lmao. Refreshing
Even when collaborating, other things inspire. I stretch out and am in the process of new.
The world is wide. Areas are wide. Life areas are to be covered and am carefree yet see the use of deadlines putting for myself. Get discipline up. Get nutrition up. Get you bdsm teaching up. Moan yesss daddy! Lol.
The end.
Ps; I dont buy into the "she lets you wait = high value women" for her another one is directly willingly. So yeah. Fuck drama.
Some stuff seems to come up. J kept trying to engage me. Eye contact supplicating. She is cute tho, some sexual underlying stuff went on.
Another 8/10 cute girl, nice as and tits, probably manifestation was with her. She looked at me initially as if we knew eachother for years yet with this "I want you" vibe. Blue eyes, round as, good figure, great sexual energy and great smile. Engaged with her a couple of times including silent prolonged eye lock moments while she beamed. Was clear she was all over me. For some reason I felt no pull. Allowance definitely is something. But her effortless engagement flowing between us was clear as day. I definitely want to take her up. Also a vet.
Financially I keep rapidly progressing. Money is everywhere and flooding the world, like literally. Grant Cardone has opened my eyes in that. I now want and will have a high class mercedes. Watch me. My view has flipped that money is always there and having countless passive incomestreams is just a piece of cake. One after another in place and check. Inner resolvement.
For some reason this 8/10 plays in my head now. This was obvious to me yet frustrated I didnt escalate more. I mean, talk is great, but not the same as escalating with the 2 polish chicks right of the bat like some week ago. Even if the moment where there, as if my focus isnt there on chicks at all :/
IDGAF is very high tho. Like, total flowing abundance. New dawn is here and appeared. Real estate has a strong interest to me now aswell as having connections, mastermind groups, creating platforms and big money.
Apathy and money are driving now in my vibration. Weird. Running 2 loops of B makes my energetic body (??) highly vibrant.
Ill run A/B 14-14 days from now, starting today with A side, 5 loops. ( 17-8-17 )
Things are escalating strongly in several areas. My seks drive is coming up back, my interest in sexual mastery is aswell breaking through.
Im blowing myself away as I proclaim massive wealth and succes this month.
Lstening to grant cardone and Brad Lea has blown up things massively. My financial outlook has shifted towards extreme abundance. I just talked witrh someone and told them straight up ill visit my parents wit a new car ( Audi R6 ). Im not even seeing it all as I saw it, I see it as an sort of "lease"now, like, Ill have it yet am already onto the next step.
My lifestyle revolves more around wealtrh now. such as jets, having the luxurary to go where and when I want to go. I set goals, I have vision, such as owning a jet, to travel the world, go places, and closing deals, to go on vacation if needed and providing for me and my offspring, including having resorts under my wing in multiple places around the globe. get so wealthy, things work out. let money work FOR you, countless income streams. To provide for family so to say, to being so effortless and able to all resources under my wing, that life becomes free.
I have 0 chill for people propaganding scarcity, and telling others the limitating poison and toxic bs by opening their fucking mouths. My goals are directly translating into steps, my flow is off the charts. I know exactly what to do, without hesitation. awaken the killer.
Im sort of detached, i see things almost as units, as lease, as investment oppurtunities and act on it, on the other side, I slip into sexual frames more and more, and am serious about mastering some roles at this point. Like, the more edges of bedroom stuff. It makes my presence unapologetic sexual and powerfull and women are mesmerized by it.
the changes on B are pretty deep so far, Im not an initial fan of Tai Lopez for example, but I might look into his things, just out of curiosity. DMSI has been a life changer and game changer and things are falling into place. My taste in women, especially latina women is turning me on, this also transates in a wide variaty of women and im getting less seletive, not so say, I still select myself friom the sheer abundance thats there and women will approach me and open me.
5 loops A start today. Im constant hit with new urges to hitting people up. cold calling and closing deals is easy as fuck. IDGAF at all. I own and dominate anyway. Motyivation is glorious. get jacked up!
having a killer headache3 tho, and am feeling soemwhat mentally dizzy, like overload. whatever.
Edit; seeing guys with some women makes me realize "no not for me" ( the out of shape guys who settled for miserable existence, no sexual anything found there, just plain old miserability lol ) rather live like a tribe of sexual open women, almost like a satyr with nymphos aroubd me. 8's/10's sexual openness harem like.
Also overwhelming sense of mission thriving and succes. Talking is without anxiety and am in a constant flow of wealth. Its great. Translating it is next to me. What im about. I notice talking isnt always clear at all to me. Like an inner block. Ill get all I want.
Listening/watching a channel called "beg for jay"covering BDSM stuff. its enhancing through DMSI it seems as it clicks all in place and is exacty what resonates with me.
Quote:Edit; seeing guys with some women makes me realize "no not for me" ( the out of shape guys who settled for miserable existence, no sexual anything found there, just plain old miserability lol )
Sometimes I wonder how common some things are in society. Like the last girl I was seeing, I slept with her the third time I seen her. She was telling me she was with a guy and they were seeing each other for 3 months and then he randomly goes 'do you want to have sex?'.
And a guy I used to be friends told me he hadn't had sex with his girlfriend, they had been together 18 months at that time!
WTF. Seems like it might be kind of common. I fell for this shit once unfortunately when I was like 20 and I really liked the girl, now I take Blackdragons '3 date rule'.
Reminds me of a guy I know, who has a bratty trashy high drama bitch, who thinks she is the shit. Have more then once just ripped her a new one, and now she seems to hate me. The guy allows her to set the frame, himself to be hit, humiliated, domesticly abused and shouted at, and he takes it all, with here and there an angry outburst from him, lol. No respect for the dude, am moving away from him. I would already next her ass, im not falling for that kind of crap. She is replacable. I wonder if he doesnt fuck her hard enough or some shit. she aint his girl for that matter as she hoe's around with other guys right before his eyes. Already shared some shit with him, that it is one girl, she loses him, you know the drill, trying to open his eyes for a bit, yet he reverted back to her. Its pretty sad to notice.
On the other hand, and im starting to think its all healing, its like, you let her go, let her fuck other guys, yet don't give a fuck. she might return and in the meantime, just go fuck other women. open to the max. its telling to where I am now.
I also see it with older guys, the total lack of any value and how they carry themselves around. Im not one for upping up my status, by looking down on other guys, I couldnt care less, but I notice strong feminization of society and the what not. its the perfect GSF programming taking place. What Im hinting at, is the older guys, 35+ and up, who have settled with an overweight harpy, living even below mediocre and walk through life defeated and drained like zombies.
That shit aint for me son. I rather have a 18+ kitten submissive who loves to be dominated, and have an ongoing pussy supply. having or having not doesnt phase me right now, its integral for me to KNOW I have it. Finally.
Ghosting seems to be back. E seems to ignore me more, while other women show interest now. . Guys seem to be more provocative, or atleast, they dont want me around, guess Im in healing modus now and am communicating mixed signals. DMSi will up more further, heal me furthe, integrate it further.
Im getting way more easily horny and aroused again, im all about dom and sub now, like, 100% almost, and my attitude is IDGAF. I know by heart now. Im outspoken about it, which is helpfull in translating through communication and intent. Seems A was just right to run again, B was great, but noticed an increase of resistance lately, and my subC yearned for A to be ran again.
I crave submissive girls, more animalistic sex and am becoming that in person. My taste in women is more clear then ever now, while on B my libido seemed to be gone and confusion was somewhat present, even tho my thriving was hardcore aswell as my business focus. B almost did distract me away from women and fuelled my energy in business and manifestation.
Quote:Reminds me of a guy I know, who has a bratty trashy high drama bitch, who thinks she is the shit. Have more then once just ripped her a new one, and now she seems to hate me. The guy allows her to set the frame, himself to be hit, humiliated, domesticly abused and shouted at, and he takes it all, with here and there an angry outburst from him, lol. No respect for the dude, am moving away from him. I would already next her ass, im not falling for that kind of crap. She is replacable. I wonder if he doesnt **** her hard enough or some shit. she aint his girl for that matter as she hoe's around with other guys right before his eyes. Already shared some shit with him, that it is one girl, she loses him, you know the drill, trying to open his eyes for a bit, yet he reverted back to her. Its pretty sad to notice.
Damn.. makes me angry that some guys let themselves do that. If a girl hit me and abused me like that, it would only happen once and i'd be gone and not come back.
Which is another problem in society, some women act like that and physically attack a guy, throw stuff at him. Then he has enough and does something back physically and suddenly she will run to the cops and whinge and they always stick up for her. In that specific context she shares alot of the blame, it's not simply an abusive dude out of nowhere.
But that's happened to me zero times because they obviously know I wouldn't put up with it.
I like submissive girls too. Most are to a point, but one I was with who was a proper submissive was eye opening. I admit I kind of liked it when she called me master and sir.
I'm sure a guy can call the cops too...
(08-18-2017, 05:28 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Reminds me of a guy I know, who has a bratty trashy high drama bitch, who thinks she is the shit. Have more then once just ripped her a new one, and now she seems to hate me. The guy allows her to set the frame, himself to be hit, humiliated, domesticly abused and shouted at, and he takes it all, with here and there an angry outburst from him, lol. No respect for the dude, am moving away from him. I would already next her ass, im not falling for that kind of crap. She is replacable. I wonder if he doesnt **** her hard enough or some shit. she aint his girl for that matter as she hoe's around with other guys right before his eyes. Already shared some shit with him, that it is one girl, she loses him, you know the drill, trying to open his eyes for a bit, yet he reverted back to her. Its pretty sad to notice.
Damn.. makes me angry that some guys let themselves do that. If a girl hit me and abused me like that, it would only happen once and i'd be gone and not come back.
Which is another problem in society, some women act like that and physically attack a guy, throw stuff at him. Then he has enough and does something back physically and suddenly she will run to the cops and whinge and they always stick up for her. In that specific context she shares alot of the blame, it's not simply an abusive dude out of nowhere.
But that's happened to me zero times because they obviously know I wouldn't put up with it.
I like submissive girls too. Most are to a point, but one I was with who was a proper submissive was eye opening. I admit I kind of liked it when she called me master and sir.
Its blowing my mind why he even wants to marry her, why he doesnt set those boundaries, why he is so passive and expect it all to work out. I had kicked her out for less then that, as I have more important stuff to do, building an empire for example. She aint even hot, she is brazilian, but has an attitude like a swearing sailor ( literally ) seeking Always something negative and to ruin shit. I would kick her out even if it would mean she would froze to death on the Streets.
Im sure if I hit her, it would bring orbiters on my back, tho one of my friends did grab her strongly by the arm and told her to nock it off. Another is, hitting her would turn her probably on and end up sucking my dick. IDGAF is high so im sort of non involved in it anymore now.
callin g the cops is not something I see working out at all. Im not even sure how it works here, but I can only imagine it would be useless. Beside that, I like to run my life as I see it fit, by my own hand.
heh, when women give me the submissive eyes, I know its right. I wonder how they look cum-faced when it happens.
ION: Im starting to get fed up with some internal blocks, women I notice now lock from afar, girls I interact with blush, like this girl E, who did fluster redness, smiles and then ran of cuz she couldnt handle the arousal probably, yet im freezing up, like in stasis. its fucking me up while at the same time my urges to do unholy things increase rapidly. its a war, i'ts version A inward focussed on healing.
RANT: never let one women/girl make you resentfull. learn, move the fuck on. it doesnt matter shit. she doesnt matter, never was, never will. having great references, yes cool, having bad references? cool. exposure. now, if she fucks up, its her fuck loss. you'll learn. for her, there are atleast 5 that WANT you, and arent like a harping midget. seks is great intimate, to learn from in the realest and most direct freakin sense, what she likes, what you like, the kinks, the edges and what not. bang chicks. move the fuck on. IDGAF. she might resent you, but this doesnt matetr the whole fucking world does. never let one bad shit cloud your world. Im not for everyone and thats fucking great.
DMSi goes way deep and I am now pursuing/developing into dom/sub. I can't hel;p it, it feels like destiny, till the point my mind overrules anything and see women pretty much in a sexual way only. DMSi goes way deeper then this, strong healing going on, socially out of it, cloud headed.
I want to do so much with women, been surfing for stuff already. Money wise Im good in this, manifestation galore. Its like national milf day. like, women with childwagons who eye me the f up. Im pretty sure im abudnant in fuck buddies, my attitude is more powerfull, dominant and strong, yet due the healing im very much turned inward, high mentally cloudy, and dont give a shit in a closed off way. what is dealt with, i dont know, i pushed the loops yesterday pretty strongly.
Things are about to change, I feel it, its becomign effortless now, like my presence seduces them. J came around, and engaged as usual, hot so so. the assistent this time she had with her, couldnt stop locking her eyes at me, and was trembling, shut down, and right down silent, while her bodylanguage showed increased sexual arousal.
vanilla sex is not my thing, I will have no problems with it. like, im pretty much perfect.
Yeah, my post feels totally unhinged at the moment, like, my god. Im attractive, but shit, itsd all overwhelming me and blowing me away. IOI´s seem to be less on A then they were on B, and I handle shit my way. I also have continous visions of women pleasing me at this pint and it makes me even more hardcore in attitude and behaviour. like paddliing, cuffing, tie-ing them up, seeing them beg and what not. totally new and my inner stuff is in scrambles. not out of spite or hate or anything, but rather....something deeper. not all beta nice nice shit, but more deeper dynamics.knowing to apply the right amount of ecstacy while whipping them.
At this point im growing to not giving a fuck and simply hitting them up and what not. my subC has a great taste in women.
Gosh, A is digging up some anxiety aswell. wtf. UIm about to knock out due DMSI. Also, its weird how fast things go when I put my attention to it, such as image, like, its an almost subtle personality switch.
Im overflowing with countless amounts of women now, including my 8/10's and up. shes beautiful tho. this 8/10. well def meet. Also, hunger is out fthis world, im now engaging. dem dirty onesssssss, she loves it and likes it, we might even fuck this weekend. IDK man, this sub....