The aura is so strong im getting sleepy. Im on point, aroused, listening to Grant Cardone and Jarrod Glandt aswell. I have so much coming in frutition and realize the impact of A. My whole body is glowing right now. Women respond greatly, im even thinking about fucking "M" which is totally out of preference. Women are startled, everything skyrockets. All the stuff on A was healing.
Its good to be back.
One thing is, if I take a break, and when I do, and eventually return, it will be terrifying of the potency there will be taking place. holy shit. Im actually feeling good to walk into my harem, like, so many women want me now, and itas only getting better and better.
Having clearer understanding in the kind of girls I like. Women with a child are a no-no for me for example, although im shamelessly seducing Milfs outsidd online stuff ( like tindr which im currently am doing which is amusing. Poor girls lol )
edit: just talked with a friend on the Phone and it was solid. DMSi really seemed to attack my conversational things which are now healed on, so A was healing deep and still is which is great. If this exposes me, IDGAF.
Strong depression response currently at the moment like DMSI is disrooting all kind of stuff. As soon as I turn on B its irrelevant. Still proceeding with B, but it is felt. Strong memories surface aswell and this set some weird bipolar like swings in motion. One moment depressed, next moment im feeling the aura project. Im still witty but its really strong and intense. Having countless memories involving feeling alienated and old feelings and connections, like the whole raw package in its total. Its all worth it. Seeing glimpses already although its crushing me now. In some weird wsy I keep progressing massively. Im even expression the swings, the irritatsble, the disgust, the anger, rage, disdain. Pure depression. Guess this aint want to die and was lurking all the time.
DMSI touches on things AM6 hasnt. Like a whole other area. Its stomach churning and severe. Its worked through right now. I will not back off like an innate drive to go through like a breeze.
B will be still ran no matter what. Its dominant in my mind to keep on going with B. Connetions with e.c are instantly made. Like its inevitable.
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Autopilot takes over fully. "M" is snipered HARD. im uncovering fears and im like a wild animal snipering right now left and right. B is executing now. Im stared at strongly and am (getting ) used to it.
Another guy approached me. Exhaustion gives autopilot reign the guy started chatting me up like a familiar and we talked a bit. Great guy. Great friend already. Im proud how much I have grown.
Edit2: Its really amusing. She becomes more caring by the minute all leading up to sex. Its unreal. Oh shit.
Edit3: I still tend to heal in all kind of ways. M started to shittest me and I caught myself being reactive only to regain playfullness around it. I have a strong abundance of women ans why should I react then to it like its some of a big deal. Getting/reading instinctually seduction and attraction. Its all clear to me. B version is akin to living a dream by being fully immersed in autopilot with knowing the signals and increasing automatically from there and expecting to jump my bones. It keeps banging at all. I sllign with execution.
In my first loop and im mindblown. Im highly potent and flooded with images of being shared around in orgies women sharing me. Im also about to tweak my bedroom and nutrition. I am speechless. Im about to be kidnapped.
Reading some earlier version journals from Shannon. Great attitude and lots of subtext in it all. I now get it. It do feel B opening me up and my solar plexus powering up aswell as gettin hard ons. Women will love it. Also heart chakra being active.
3 loops of B. The hunger is real.
to also give the contrast; im actually thinking about being so non reactive im curious of the hate responses that they cont manipulate me. whatever. Listening loud to B and its hella effective. I wont stand a chance against B, like, AT ALL> play it loud.
Thinking about badboy behaviour as a preview for the bedroom animalism
Agression is up not caring about women, yet giving a fuck about getting laid, viewing myself as darn perfect and unconnected
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I also noticed, while walking around and getting some food, that my fragrance that was sprayed on was unnoticable while another scent was lingering around me and I couldnt get for the life of me, figure out what is was. i was disconnected from it and it was like some sort of cloud around me hoovering. Now, I have last few days also that the room and location hwere I am seems more "tained"like roses, which, I wouldnt be suprised about, if, it is the aura filling the whole room at all.
Chatted some random guy up while waiting to pay, about coke bottles that didnt have the code to scan, and i auggested it to the checkout lady. When walking in, the blond girl notice me, turned her whole body towards me, this all was right after finishing my 3rd loop. I am beyond social at this point, like, IDGAf at all and yet do it on a whim like I just dont care and for the sake of it. The girl was still cute with her ponytail and stuff. Didnt care to much about it all. did my thing, being awesome and all.
I can run B version forever. Its so good. nice. and all the profits. Win win. Im in the process of manifesting something huge in all areas on a massive scale. Its a sweet ride now and the aura is blazing.
Ate some chocolate. Now my body is full on sourcing. Im being knocked out. Several DMSI goals are executing. Im somewhst disgusted by some behavioural patterns to me snd theyre purged out. I fully surrender to DMSI. Hunger is ravenous and I feel it obviously working.
Im being led to beneficial choices health wise. Some food I cant even consume anymore and am turned off. B takes fully over.
I don't get on here often but I have been enjoying reading your journal. Thought I'd let you know that. You do have a unique writing style so sometimes I'm not sure if what you're stating is outer effects in the real world or visions of yourself and your world changing based on DMSI. Perhaps that's by design?
Thanks brother. Its a mixture of both. My style is mostly freeflowing so it might blend at times, but overal, exectution takes definitely place. I'm digging your username btw.
Had an realisation just now; it is external. Mind=blown.
day 4(?) version 3.1 B
B seems to be bringing up a cluster of fear similar to a bundle. Also, the aura is still flashing here and there. My subconscious has brought up something interesting, which is a coping mechanism of "people arent interesting"
Still the resistance that is coming up seems to be more subtle, even tho I have a strong agression against the world at times, like,rage episodes of wanting to lash out and being totally intolerant.
And yet my subC tells me to keep running B.
Sniping left and right, aroused and autopiloting. Women gravitating to me, placing them in my path of walking. Women nelting away when making eye contact. Girl M I caught looking with f*ck me eyes and being incredible submissive at work amidst everyone. They cant contain it any longer. Its incredibly telling. Other girl and I greeted and she returned a intense seductive hi back. B is...idk. potent is an understatement. She was fast to get to me when paying for some stuff. Akin to a cat noticing his owner is home.
B is reshaping my understanding of the world, almost like architecture. Its so damn easy having women jumping on my dick. Its like a dream coming true now. Im utterly blown away. All is falling into place. Did read journal of Duke.Tugo last night while listening to 2 loops hybrid of B and it was full on pleasure like a sub-massage.
B does so much more in ways and I love it.
How many loops are you doing daily now? 2? Have you ever tried more? Whats the most you've tried with consistency?
My run on A was around 7 loops. With B the first couple of days ( even tho now is day 5 ) I went with 3 which did make the aura burst and the shifts were quick/fast and many. I stick around with 3 as a base unless my subc tells me to run more or even less, such as 3+3 for example. I might even drop down to one. The most consistent was on A with 7 loops which was draining and taxing but well worth it seeing my growth on B. It did cause zombie like braindeadness running such high loops.
Are you running both A and B on same day?
No, only B now for 5 days.
Things keep progressing and getting more intense. The aura is getting stronger and stronger. Im looking flustered and sven red. B has its way with me. In ways im still resisting even now im finding myself autopiloting and having fun with random women. Its like a beacon of "f #ck me". The visions I have arent enough. Like, my harem for example. Redhead shows not much but I can tell shes gettin flustered aswell and she held her hands between her legs while squeezing. Can only guess what shes goin through now.
Im actually literally hot. Having ordered some clothes. B seems to cause things to surface. I dozed off when talking with another woman just yet and the aura had its way. Resistance is futile and I felt us both fall in this sort of bubble. Time slowed. Nothing but smooth escalating.
Im actually pretty tired and apathic aswell. Like, the direction on A seems to be less on B. Clever ways to resist. Embracing that tho. Its like a harsh something. I did feel B side pretty much run through my body. Im gettin hotter by the minute and new things are surfacing and unraveling due to B. Its actually cause some parts of me to panic aswell.
Lets see whats more to come. Drop expectations. Get seduced.
Im thinking back at the event some months back when the IOIs did send me right into a clash, and in which I was executing, while my subc now coins the amount of times I was executing. Its blowning my mind strongly. Its like crazy how much I executed the sub. its mindboggling to know this. The IOis were so strong and everywhere, like snipers went in overdrive and non was spared, not even myself.