So, this morning when getting some stuff, this blomd walked in. Now, my body almost shifted on autopilot to just get out. It was like 2 different entities almost. Me, paying for some stuff, the other, my body/subconscious fighting to get out of the store.
Im having an image in my mind as to where I want to be and wonder if TID is somewhat involved in this. It was like an forced flight response. The image in my mind is being absolute king. Now, as before I have sacrificed many images already, like undoing as I progress, as it showed to be another "coping" in the end, barestripping myself to the core, but the event of this morning I found worth noting down.
Last night, I had a pretty strong shift of seeing women seeking validation blended with seeing women on a deeper level, energetic wise and wanting to devour this feminine energy wholly. Blissing and bathing in it. Gloriously orgasmic. In the past I had women worshipping me, lusting aswell. Now, some rule4 things chimed in and my extrnal world was almost rose-colored in an sense of being a literal sex-being. This blew my mind but felt really natural.
To come back to this morning. Its as if im being heightened, like some slight ptsd-alarm responses. The former writing keeps pounding through, like eventually giving the breakthrough blow.
Whatever the shift was yesterday...seduction and attraction felt nuclear. Made me thinking about reality bending and TID, giving rafical references and training my subconscious.
Talking about the past..it opens a whole new can of worms to me. Like im wholly reshaping, refining and redefing my personality. Its an huge thing now.
Another is upgrading myself for myself without excluding women.
So, I seem to have an increase of TID happening which I realized pretty much after posting in Shannon's journal discussion part 2.
Went hard at the gym today. Before I got some pre-drink and the coat-dressed girl which I rated an 8/10 before walked in as I was about to drive off. Classy girl. Felt no need to walk in, or maybe I do, perhaps I have some stuff intetnally goin on as I feel kinda in a struggle. Anyways, people seem to react to my status nowadays. Even the guy, who subcommunicates hostility seems to dialed down a bit. I notice im overcoming some things in terms of drive. Still, my extremity in my sexuality mixed with agression is something im coming to terms with. I knew it all the time that it was there, yet, in ways im holding back, or rather, I held back. To embrace this gives me a huge surge and increase in, well, everything.
I feel TID changing my mindset in terms of caffeine, nicotine and all else. Its an sense of "oh well, it gives me even an bigger flair" or something along those lines.
The aura is pretty present and im growing in my celebrity status.
Anyways, as I drove my car to the gym, some blond 9/10 gaves a huge beaming smile. It does change my outlook in to which is my attraction circle. Wven those we locked eyes and she was hot, I felt this natural fearless attraction coming up. It was like she waited for me to drive in.
Energywise, it matched hard for those moments.
"G" acted submissive but kinda confusing. My voice and speech, aswell as bodylanguage was slightly invasive, just as with "C" last weekend and with "S", and displayed non fearlessness. She was all shiwing off, but man, some girls flirt in ridiculous ways that I just want to take it from them and get on with it.
Blame it on my sadism which is growing and growing in bdsm like fashion. I simply do not give a fuck.
Anyway, I saw my face morph while going ham on shoulders. Like a beast drilling back in my eyes from the mirrors. Some guys came to me asking for advice and I went smooth in speech, just flowing automatically.
I take whats mine and showed it in my interaction with "G" when I was done with training. Her eyes were sparkling.
Alright, so, to draw some of Shannons journal discussion topic, I see it happen, and it will happen, that women approach and inject themselves at the gym, only to have ut ending up in banging. The tides are turning.
Things between me and "N" become really interesting now. We keep eye locking eachother, she goes out of her way to be in my vicinity aswell being submissive and giving glances. Smiling at everything I do.
Involved her in askimg her some questions and she lighted up like crazy. Shes a legit 8/10, incredible feminine and caring attitude.
Subtle things happen between us and she stayed around until I left. Shes pretty shy but notice she gets more and more horny according to her bodylanguage.
Respect and social fluidity goes up more and more, and getting closer in friendships is happening. For some reason I feel sheer confidence and walked confident without any fucks given at all. Im organizing things left and right, and even with E things get more intimate. Her frame bounces right off me like im unbreakable. She touches me all the time now, gets close with her tits against me multiple times.another women outright showed interest in proclaiming "he makes me laugh and I dont know why" eh. She kept groveling up to me all the damn time. Its was effortless. Older then me for sure.
Its business like. I do what needd to be done without any hindrance, just autopiloting. When N was picked up by her mom, I felt attraction coming off from her mom. This gets interesting.
Its great to see a girl happy like that, being beamy and feminine and interested like N. Its like I picked her subconsciously and so she replicates it.
In general Im having women interested, guys being buddy buddy with me now, calling me down to show me some things, and Im focussed, driven and business like. As soon as Im getting to the point seriously, they directly shut up and get in line. Says lots about a guy who pokes everyone including me like a jester-type. Great stuff.
(02-16-2018, 07:45 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]Things between me and "N" become really interesting now. We keep eye locking eachother, she goes out of her way to be in my vicinity aswell being submissive and giving glances. Smiling at everything I do.
Involved her in askimg her some questions and she lighted up like crazy. Shes a legit 8/10, incredible feminine and caring attitude.
Subtle things happen between us and she stayed around until I left. Shes pretty shy but notice she gets more and more horny according to her bodylanguage.
Respect and social fluidity goes up more and more, and getting closer in friendships is happening. For some reason I feel sheer confidence and walked confident without any fucks given at all. Im organizing things left and right, and even with E things get more intimate. Her frame bounces right off me like im unbreakable. She touches me all the time now, gets close with her tits against me multiple times.another women outright showed interest in proclaiming "he makes me laugh and I dont know why" eh. She kept groveling up to me all the damn time. Its was effortless. Older then me for sure.
Its business like. I do what needd to be done without any hindrance, just autopiloting. When N was picked up by her mom, I felt attraction coming off from her mom. This gets interesting.
Its great to see a girl happy like that, being beamy and feminine and interested like N. Its like I picked her subconsciously and so she replicates it.
In general Im having women interested, guys being buddy buddy with me now, calling me down to show me some things, and Im focussed, driven and business like. As soon as Im getting to the point seriously, they directly shut up and get in line. Says lots about a guy who pokes everyone including me like a jester-type. Great stuff.
Will be good to get to this level where I can rise above those that try to undermine me. Im nobody's jester and hope eventually I can build an aura of strength and character etc!
Its pretty dramatic from my coming from background. Not a twitch.
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I feel the last couple of days im being set up for some things through, what might be TID. Noticing this does gives me a surge of something similar to execution.
My jawline gets way more sharper aswell. Looking like being carved out.
Been thinking about "N" and curious how shell respond when running DMSI 3.2 actually through getting the loops in direct in physical format.
Also the last few days I do have succes visions comin up again. Im naturally seeking ways to "make it fit", atleast, this surfaced through my AM6 runs, involving myself into multiple fields, now, im recognizing this can be easily done through chunks and almost akin to making a timeline. This does also not exclude anything at all, so we're good.
The visions come as strong that I melt and blend into them, giving into them so to say. Visualisation and expansion increased aswell.
Mr pmo has reared his head aswell, and I recognize the escape machanism in it. The temptation is dying off more and more and non existent now, unless I open the tap.
Now a cheeky sidequestion; isnt TID actually physical already as we experience physical effects from it?
This evening apathy sets in, followed by depression and wanting to curl up in a ball. Feeling pretty much teary aswell which snowballed in and is hitting me like a bus.
On the other hand, its clearly TID thats hitting me. Strong drive in hitting the gym yet almost complete non neediness bordering zen. My root chakra aswell as my crotch fired up aswell. Attraction feels also more similar and I look incredible, l0 bs tolerance mixed in almost with a nihilistic drive of non chalance in life now. Again, sexual realisations are hutting me like a train now which is sweet. Its an ongoing theme now to have my head in an almost sexual dreamlike world with having externals hitting me like crazy aswell
Tomorrow will be interesting. I can only face the feelings coming up at this point. Ready to break the wall down.
And now im counting my blessings. Positive swing like no crushing headache like yesterday. Life's good
Last night I woke up.multiple times, 3am and 5.15am. I dream tons aswell, things to do with work. I literally dreamed I was fired. I start to realize how my current situation is ending. Its like a full swap. This morning while driving in traffic I suddenly had as massive realisation involving collaboration. It shattered me. It was like a total shift yet was immensely confident in it. Spectator like even. I screamed in joy behind the wheel waiting for the lights to turn green. I dropped like a bomb. Im still joyous till this moment.
Addictions are being shortcircuited. My hunger is there but the signal to act is not really there. Barely ate a thing today and when I wanted, IDGAF kicked in and overrided it. Now I have eaten.
R, who I consider a friend gave me some of his food. I consider him as a friend. Great guy. Milf E was even more touchy feely. She is high drama tho and IDC. I act way more alpha now 3.2 is nearing and people sense it. N called in to tell she was sick. Older woman, M was feeding off my presence, cobstantly praising, stumbling over her words.
I notice I get sucked in the eyes of hot girls. Its like a gravitational field. They react greatly to it. One girl behind tye checkout when I went to get some food along with R, did eye fuck me. I purposely locked eyes with her. Light tan, pierced ears, long brown silky hair. Solid 8/10. Another when getting food at some other store, there was this girl in line that reacted like she was thunderstrucked. Open mouth when unable to break off. Said hi with a sneaky smile.
I walked in like a boss tho. The whole day im walking like a king. IDGAF is verrrry high today. I feel attraction getting way more strong and hits happen left and right. Its my world now. Like yesterday evenin, visuals keep hittin me after watching a livevid of Vince Kelvin and Arash about feeling the energy in your environment.
Tbh, no clue where life is heading tho. Its like being opened up to way more then I know and knew. Totally blowing me away. The mind is one big mystery to yet am mastering it. LOA understanding and mental mastery is immensely potent. Especially when gettin in the more fringe parts of past life, energy sensing, ancient civilisations. Its a barrage of gnosis taking place and gets higher and higher.
Upcomin days ill be having a shitton of dates and sex. My masculine core is burning all.
Stay golden.
Social confifence skyrockets now. Flowing easily. More relaxed and at ease with my eye contact generally. Had a direct approach from a girl. Hot girls checking me out more as these happen. Its in line with the sense I felt and feel in general. Like feeling myself grow by the minute.
Girl around 20 driving a scooter. Walked up to me because the part of her fuel tank didnt open. Kept looking longingly while I helped her out, touched me multiple times. I walked into the gasstationstore because I went to fuell up the car along with friend and collegue R to pay for it. As I walked out of the store she gave me this seductive smile as we met again. I could feel her attraction pull towards me afterwards. She tried to keep me in place there like putting me against the wall.
Yesterday I had this push which felt like the wall to move.
Other blond solid 8/10 couldnt help but continuous looking. The being approached keeps turning up more and more and I literally feel myself grow in power by the minute.
The whole "girls thrive on validation" sticks for the last few days. Im feelin really good overal and nothing matters to me and am set up for next level stuff.
Havent seen "N" for some days now but I def want her. My desire is okay, yet its an more sexy then a needy one. Babymakin luv sexy.
Which comes with the next; last night ive been thinking bout having kids and being highly succesfull in business.
Been digging some new music I discovered today. Bazzi is some fine ass music.
If TID is hitting strongly now, im totally loving it. Thank you Shannon.
The halfway stuff probably stirred the confusion in 3.1.
Im having strong hot flashes and feel immense love comin over me now. Its sooooo fine.
IOI's everywhere. some girls can barely contain themselves. neck rubbing, lip picking, grooming, the whole deal. Acting on hunger is still meh. Poor girl gave the DIHL while starting to groom herself, unable to contain herself in this. she was 16 tho, so no deal, she was way to young even in how she displayed herself, barely being matured. just oblivious like a lost deer.
Other girl, blond, guess around 18/19, is also more open. getting her number next time. Im only concerned by running 3.2 now tho.
Cleaning module seems to kick in, tidying my house right now.
My love for Tindr is back with autopiloting strongly, its fun but also super seductive. Like already knowing what to say. expose me, fuck fear.
Im thriving confidently, its awesome. Im feeling like a rule 4.
Some women seem to act fake in their qualifiying themselves. Its like they agree but its so shallow. Its a turn off and lil bit psycho. lil bit offputting.
Its literally feeling like a hot girl now, the tables being turned. Tons of women turning their heads in traffic and on the Streets. Im so so happy and euphoric. Not in an off the hook way, but an almost relief kind of way. Gotta love TID.
Found myself driving and asking "Shannon, what did you put into this thing?!"
nothing but love bro.
Bring it on DMSi 3.2 B side.
Digging this shit so hard mayne.
DMSI got me feelin some thangs mayne ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Kol's power has risen ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Kol, this post is long over due but I have to say, these past few months, you've really stepped into your own power.
I've given you a +1.
Well done!
(02-21-2018, 08:51 PM)eternity Wrote: [ -> ]Kol's power has risen ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
My body is ready, may the booty be ready ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)