So after "A" started to shittest at work, something inside me snapped. It was like being nauseas with anger and felt somewhat confused. The healing of version A and the clearing is definitely something that inpacts today. Lots of stuff just feels off. Like things seem to be somewhat hollow and like a front. To bad for her I got other chicks going on
yet it shows internally shit still has to be dealt with. Almost like A is ripping something violently at the root, and its not without struggle nor a fight.
The whole "it wasnt a request" was a trigger to me, like her trying to set the frame. Now, she doesnt matter, im all about making me sexy as hell the first place, having gear and healing deeply, yet it did push my freakin buttons. Still pondering to let A rumble on after 2 weeks ago taking up the 14/14 A/B. Some big things are there to gain still on
A. The whole day as of now is currently depressive. Not that it cant turn around as it will.
Also with enough clearing manifestations might become instantaneous. Also, notice a pattern ( tracking patterns is huge key and gives insight into what to do next ) of being to harsh to myself, empathizing fear on giving attention to negative shit which will exactly give thst energy. IDGAF is pretty much key in this.
Now, as "A" was trying to do shit ( trying to be dominant yada yada yada ) it DID got to me, just slightly. Not feeling centred at all pretty much. Even joked around with the scratches on my back, strong language, cuzz f#ck is universal appliable, she gave the little miss moral speech and trying to correct. Not give a flying fuck if she is high drama at all now or what not. I refuse to buy into that frame. Later on comin around, doin the female white knight thingie like im her favorite or something. Telling another guy to leave me alone. Also, my eye contact with her is unspoken. All with all, im not feelin my badass dom self. Things are shifting, clearing, and settling. It might be actual this being a manifestation as C had this habit aswell, only being a straight up brat. The ups and downs follows shortly. Focus in the healing one moment, the other moment im like " f#ck this, im getting my drink, being mundane and profane, badass"
Its all game. Trying to push daddies buttons. Try harder girl..
I might actually jump onto B.
Edit: DMSi clears everything sexual now, all is welcome. its being triggered by Ben's comment on Wolverine_I_am's thread. good, I want it and invite it in. Anger keeps surfacing now and I welcome it aswell.
Been looking into new clothing, and am gonna get a whole new haircut soon, something out of my former selfs mind. Idc really, im about to level up. About the molestation thing, im not even sorry at all. bring it lol. life is sexual in a way. My decision making gets sharper, including broader taste. Also, why would I go for 3's if I can get 7/8 and upward way easily. Fuck you, C. Noticing my agression increasing aswell. things are looking up stronger then ever, more clearer, more, lets say...less bumpy.
Also, for whatever future reference I put it now here down; my subC is scared shitless, I want to scream fuck you at the world and smash holes in the walls. not sure how it works or....I feel its gonna be usefull to write this shit down. people better not crossing my path now, for real.
One loop and a bit before training. Killed it. Was very social in all of it proving the high amounts of loops really turn me inward. G mentioned that she has a "singles party" she is sex hinting through her body. Almost at my feet now, always comin back, openly sharing stuff like a lil pup. Talked with some random guy when greeting him with a goodmorning. He looked at his watch saying it was midday. Great convo and energy. Flowed at the gym. Tiredness was low. Confidence and IDGAF high. Some women "need" to be snapped back into the now. With E yesterday who appears mostly closed off, engaging her and reminding her im there made her light up like a christmas tree. Smiles, laughs, engagement big. Guess its the perks of being attractive, you cease to care and end up in the know. Eventually it was undeniable she sunk and got lost in my presence and aura.
Guy at the gym looked uneasy and walked off. Before I would have some response, like affected, this time it didnt phase me at all. Barely noticed it tbh. More of an endles social flow in my own amusement.
Had friends come over. They looked happy as fuck to come around. Supplicating like crazy. Great story. Also, did place boundaries. One of them would before somewhat still test. Now he spoke out "oh shit" out loud like, damn you got authority and I need to respect that cuzz your status I way beyond mine. It took me a bit vack, no wavering in my frame.
Had many times the "who is this guy" alien looks of people. Felt at times being watched like burning eyes towards me, almost like a 6th sense noticed eyes burning in my skull/energy/body
Gonna use the living shit out of instagram.
Taken and non taken women, none is safe. Rip their husbands.
The pattern of alien looks is like a silent moment. Time seems to slow down and delay a split moment. Like a coming up or something expecting me to do something.
Things turn around for the better. The momentum is so strong that the answer almost instantly follows the question and it overtakes me. DMSI for a year is really tempting.
IDGAF about anything. Pure ass neutral. Only sexual vision now. Dominating you kitty. You're daddies playpet. IDGAF and live my life. Thats it. Almost vacant and nothing. Unable to pinpoint it now. Whatever. A faint shimmering like a fire thats about to escalate. The world better be ready dawg cuz I aint got not shit to give. *sips drink* shits awesome.
(09-02-2017, 04:20 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]Taken and non taken women, none is safe. Rip their husbands.
Yes.
Things are changing rapidly. I have so much stuff that I want, so many things to master and its all feeling so light. Im already there ydt it gives a sliiiight mismatch it seems. The healing is drilling and kicking in deep and in my mind I sound sexy. At the gym, after running high amount of loops yesterday I noticed I was socially isolated. Didnt care to much. Rather in my bubble. Motivation of training seems to lessen slightly aswell. Im fighting with this. Motivation seens low and it fucks up with my sense of being productive and active. Procrastination. Things scream in my face by the amount of obviousness. Of being there and getting there. Like my style, financials, goals, habits and brands. Still gonna use the livin shit outta instagram and platforms. Set up another brand and work through collab. I know the drill. Cakewalk.
Having instances and flashes of "A" and her speech police behaviour. Yeah I use the word f#ck. If it offends you, well f#ck you then. She already told at times how she was raised restrictive, but restricting me unleashes something in me causing to respond back. I let no-one restrict me.
My sense of women is lessened now. Libido is low. It seems like an internal resistance issue. Like a turn away response or something.
Furthermore much is looking up. Getting over and breaking through this hump will shatter and the change taking place ( well it does now, cause and effect the same ) is gonna be golden. Having also visions of high executioning of the script. Gonna trust the process. Fuck bein passive and apathic tho. Healin so strong it leaves me into place. Guess its the price of high end loops running.
Ps; had 2 women fight over me today all playing banter about some sandwich or something. It was clearly playfull like a boxing match. Walked in and directly isolated this other professional blond dressed in black and leather (?) Shoes through eye contact. It was again like a sort of unspoken game. Its more common now yet she stood out blond hair, half long, business dressed. Effin great. She was with 2 (?) Other guys, guess it was some sort of selling thing, commercialism, introducing some new product. The 2 women fighting over me was like a light toying but with flirty undertoning. Bring it. They werent my taste at all. Only fun and games for a bit.
My attitude changes also strongly, more free and IDGAF
Closing the deal again is and will be effortless..more clearly then ever I know what to do, how to do it. Also, libido seems to come back now in greater more force. All I know is that im shifting to the end game/result/goals...for now.
Also...facebook is exploding with friend requests of hot women ( fake probably but whatever ) gives me priority sense in abundance. SubC reference yeah but still. Gonna filter it more.
7 loops A. 5 hybrid. 2 US. want to fuck everything on sight. Im surging with sexual energy and am euphoric as fuck. Am admitting my sexual desires. Like I said, I want to fuck everything on sight and lots of stuff is being cleared out. Damn. Going to fully pursue everything.
Had the idea today that I am already there. Im executing but executing can become even more stronger. Did read Thors comment on DMSI being to fast for the subC yet for me ut aint. Its great.
Now Im craving getting head lol. Im fully comfortable in my sexuality. In my role. Confident. Its skyrocketing. I want to gave my leads and start a mass orgy. Things only increase from here. Not wanting; create attract organize. Im shifting leaps.
Admit to the sexual craze. Its good for me now. F#ck.
Im craving to bend over a girl right NOW. my subC is kicking up some notches in taste and it reflects myself directly aswell. My own worth value and status.
I relax in DMSI now. Hella sure about that for real. The comment of executioning the script is certain. Overflowing and trusting in DMSI. guess it has enough foothold now. Also lots to order. Solid in what I want to do with my girls aswell as so much more lifestyle wise and whatever I want/allign with vibrational wise. Life is good and im 2 steps ahead of me yet truly feel so many more levels beyond this. Slay it all. Its as if my subC finally can relax now and I can start to execute the script. Very sexual as of now in all ways including extremes like a lost piece found. I develop walk and create my own way. Deepening my own ways, my kinks, my likes and developing further.
More then ever Im aware Ill be drowning in pussy. Its now a reality. Big changes at all yet DMSI shifts me to focus outward yet the shifts healing and changes continue on version A.
Im more certain and sware of myself. Cementing stuff in. Also my harem involving chains ( dont ask lol ) seem to come from my crotch.
Manifestation crossing time and space yo.
Its settled, done. I keep saying that. In one way im even further evolving and blindfolds are lifted like transcending money right now. Reading some Pdf covering Elon musk and it puts me right in the seat of momentum and abundance. Inner slight rebellion sadness fears and tears welling up. Idk who I am anymore, hitting me like a ton of bricks. Awe, inspiration, sadness and crying. Meh. Its exactly this thats happening. DMSI puts me more external in outlook, like, forget all, fuck pussy get money build all. Everything feels a bit off. Its like all is becoming all so light and easy at this point. Reading about planetary colonalisation and planeterisation is also way to easy. Damn.
Smoked my last cig this midday and I quit now forreal. DMSI is like pushing this and clearing it out. Im now no longer smoking. I dont even miss it. Its a very welcoming change. I have way bigger goals now, vision, willings and interests/inspiration which I want to focus on and work with,1 after another. To illustrate this, is like "If there was a way to remove any distractions including eating, I would do it" heavily inspired by a quote which is said to be the words of Elon Musk. For reasons it also give a next logical step. The "so how we do it" kind of thing landing directly. The A.I thing for example.
Yesterday evening I came to the conclusion that my current life is in the way of full blown manifestation. It was an ultimatum. Giving in gave a huge surge of momentum and energy yet the sacrifice is massive. Its clicking into place, why Im out of touch at all with it. Its because Im out of that range at all. It doesnt match with my trajectory and energy for lack of better terms. Its a mismatch of frequencies. Not on my level.
Talking about the past or even giving it attention will give it power. Done with that. Just letting it all flow through me. Being fine with the limbo kind of sense.
Sacrificing it only makes sense. Tons of hits today yet frankly I dont feel writing about it. Its normal and common now. Women, kids even. The only thing that I feel mentioning is when I was talking with this 8/10 store women at the counter for the broken glass of my phone. My aura was blazing, especially my hands who where on fire. Was fully comfortable about it and autopilot flowing and executing. I could not break eye contact with her. It was mesmerizing.
Leaders create leaders. Aspiring and getting to even higher levels. Get things done. IDC how. Get it just done. Im over some much things now and ahead of new things its absurd really. The whole IOIs are pretty crazy nowadays, and my immersion of business, ideas and execution is brutal. No holding back. Already new shifts and insights. Also, I'm about the outlook on the world. Its key really and a shift in which trajectory. Dont get me wrong, I love freaking money and the amounts are craaaaaazy, even if it is a means to an end. Im really digging this stuff as of now. Also the full immersion might feel like a retreat from women yet now its forming together. Im blazin confidence yo and the ideas and execution of ideas is an ongoing blowing away.
I have 0 chill for faulty language. My language and speaking is working for me. Like a friend wrote on his fb, "words are literally spells"
just a quick update on basically everything, as I dont know really anymore whats happening or whatever, and what DMSI is working on. I feel it can go way deeper and in a sense I dont really give a shit anymore about it. im all in for the healing at this point and because of the smoking quitting, im a bit off about it, fragile, weak or something, like, having a slight headache and lightness, which will stabalize over tim eprobably.
Talking about time...
I notice how im perceiving myself out of place sometimes. like, watching outside of the loop of what we call reality.
Also, Im having continuous visions of tie-ing my women up, gagging them, and fucking them. also, having dominating visions at times, not really hallucinating, but rather being aware and having a certain depth of having several girls around me, littles, kittens and the such.
Financial something big is gonna happen, I feel and sense it in my bones, im pretty excited about it.
Oh, and doing whatever the fuck I wanna do, monotize it, yet plugging and tuning in on the process. financial its a very big happening now, and repaying my dad is met with excited anticipation of it all, furthermore, im drilling on, and moving on in life. DMSI is pretty much aswell drilling shitton of instructions and scripting in my brain, so the whole surrendering to DMSi makes sense. Otherwise, whats the freakin point of running DMSI?
My levels of confidence are growing, clearing is happening simultaneously on those levels, which now unlocks everything I do. I feel life flowing through me, non resistant in that way, yet deepenin and deepenin...
I know EXACTLY what to do next again, writing and journalling outside of these forums will be picked up again to work out new pqassive income streams, also, knowing how exactly I want to have the bedroom now. Thinking about moving out my current home is soemthing I want, and it will happen, already as of now, the universe knows. damn....it never gets old, when you have this sense of knowing itll be done. Im thrilled to know that its already a reality, like all other things envisioned. HO-LY Sh*t!
Oh yeash, what is also pretty big is that I begin to develop a strong confidence, self ability and certainty that women on the Phone are no concern anymore and approaching them will be succesfull. pretty huge considering before it was unthinkable.
Edit: im throwing off shackles one after another. Right now im feeling darn good. My tastes getting extremer. Things having their places. Mysteria and what not aswell in speech. More bein fine with the extremer versions of bdsm such as the huge X on the wall. My toys have their places. My attitude intensifies. It was first an ddlg thing. Now more pure dom-sub dynamic or rather master slave evolving.
Its strong experimental, willingly leading as my nature, heavily empathized with an IDGAF attitude. So that gives the way to it.
An whole new level of clearing is taking place, a deeper and bigger level. Im getting more sharp and sure in my understanding. Again im letting go and trusting in myself, my skills and qualities. Im pretty much dope at this point. The GSF clearing around sex I want to be 100%. Last few days, "A" seeks to isolate me more and eye fucks me, including laughing at everything. Also, im becoming more no-nonsense. More dominant and IDGAF. the changes tend to be more polarizing with her. When isolating her 1 on 1 she breaks her eye contact first like today. I just cant stand this "focus on 1 girl" thing. It gets old real quick.
To take it even further, im pretty fed up and annoyed with many things today, like a irrational anger and restlessness. Yes quitting smoking plays its part, but its still something more. Something more lashy. Im overal more shaky to begin with. I might run version A for a longer time until the things fully have settled in. Im pretty much all over the place. Its like ridiculing all kind of bs beliefs, mocking sexual inexperience and what not, which is a DMSI thing. Its the best and easiest way now.
The clearing and loop running also work towards greatness for me. Like succes is truly mine as it is, only to lead to a manifestation fest and easily. The levels of it all gives new playground to work with.
Also, I crave. Getting head. I crave. Submission. I crave. Many things. I crave. To have all I want and get it on. NOW. Im craving. DOM-space.
Attitude in pure leading. Leading her, picking her, deciding for her. Being in full charge. Yet in consensual fashion. Its my thing. To take her out to venues and what not, or any conventions for that matter.
I crave. Healing.
"All elements of seduction are here. the danger, the arousal, pain, the danger and helplessness, the being the one who perceives and pierces right through her objections, her fronts, and lead to mutual consent, i the one guiding you baby girl, teaching you, growth, surrender and submit"
My mind is overflowing with energy flooding. I feel energy flowing through my hands like crazy. Also incredible solid. DMSI is carving me out this morning. Autopilot hits strongly now. Im different but cant pinpoint it. Also mentally in tume with being dominant and alpha.
Evn when I write something down my mind shifts already again. Whatever cleared feels like a mountain dissolved to let the energy flow rampant.
Communication style is more congrugent. Presence blazin. Communication is more strict/commanding in signature. Playing also around with tones and words like "hey" is all a matter of vocal tone and tuning to me now to the point Im mesmerized by my own voice. Stuff goes deeper. Moving on lets it go to manifest and integrate. Like" okay I accept that" probably DMSI inspired.
Leave her/them soaked.
Gonna pick up the communicating with my subC again. When A hits strongly its a challenge sometimes.
phase 2:
2 loops.
feeling like the goals of DMSi are close and envisioned now. thing is real, yet accompanied with massive fear and clearing. confused for a bit, yet reckless. feeling really weird right now, like inner hit goes ham. also, my inner kid doesnt seem to like it at all. mightve been a trigger by the post of Ben on Rayhons journal, but bro, its like scared shitless. like, total immersion in feelings, flashbacks, whatever. wanting to curl up, not giving into that tho, also, my drive and motivation seems to come back.
using social media platforms like heck. including tumblr. bitches love tumblr lol.
Many areas lift up. Financial vision is back and rising. Its gettin lit. Beautiful vision and now action is empathized. Im already there. Also, money wise its mindblowing how im viewing it now, like "great, I know now and will know how" seeing money numbers really makes me thrilled to see how easy it is now. Massive trust in being well of and genersting and creating money. Like I said. Massive trust swimming and bathing in it. Also, upgrading my clothes. Its all mine now.
Even excited to announce it to the world. Glad to have my flow back. Now gets down to business. Tunnel vision obsession is thrilling and glorious.
My places to learn from shift aswell. I now listen to Gary Vaynerchuk for example. Also invest in yourself. Choosing me first and foremost. Also, Tony Robbins is a boss. Now its time to figure out my mentors and good to go. The inspiration from people aswell as DMSI is worldshattering. Grant Cardone, Beg4Jay, Tony Robbins, Gary Vaynerchuk, heck yesss.
Tuning into action is another thing ( Tony causes me to feel very professional! ). I already coined today whsts next I want to. It gives a sense of stability. To be non resistant to it now. My mission, goals. Next up, vision boards, setting aside time to work on my mission as I am visual orientated ( which I find hard to communicate to people, guess cutting out is a thing there ) writing out my vision. Push pull also is applyable to universal LOA laws. Like, pushing only generstes negative momentum due contrast. Thus pulling back and receiving is applyable then. Wax on, wax off. Push-pull.
Also, master one thing and run with it. Fuck fear.
Weirdest experience now. Like floating out of my body and being very "tranquil" yet focussed in allignment with execution? I look at my hands and body and feel energy flooding over me. Like being on the brink of blacking out but lucid at the same time. Mesnwhile A is wrecking all walls down. Strange sensation in my solar plexus. Idk man. My head is warm af.
Im outgrowing RSD. Self validation. Check.
Listening to Dissection atm. Im shedding, transcending and unshackle everything. Im bareboned to an massive extent and I like it.
To much to note, to less to care. Running the sub currently hybrid.mp3 and the aura is already felt this time. Ready to purge GSF. DMSI is now putting me in ultimatum of choosing which reality and sacrificing the whole. My attention to "what is" seems to wane more and more akin to fallin asleep tho. Giving up everything for a full bloom which I see as 100% succes? Yes. Putting me against the wall? Yes. Black and white? Yes. Eventually I turn around. The sacrifice being made is massive. No plan B. Full on executing it. Choosing vision ALWAYS. Already played with this and its 100% wealth abundance succes. My vision is sure. Money follows easy. Im ready and willingly to take life by its tails and go with it.
I dont care enough to give any notes on women activity now. Lets say things are common now. Dedicating to succes is now mine. M being a lil pup, A shittesting me tons and growing in attraction. Piercing the girl "C" ( not brazillian, but the hard music one ) while gauging her attention and breaking through the shields.
Thats all about it.
Im loving running the loops now.
So I strongly feel in my bones after all the hits today its all leading to being seduced now.
1) conversation with guys was pleasant and great.
2) went to get some groceries and the checkout girl opened me. Laughing as I made a bit of fun about the storm here going. Not America/Irma tho. Walked out, some 8/10 started chatting me up. Felt good. Locked eyes when driving off and she beamed. Hot girl. Also some other woman with kids was seeking connection.
3) seduced and sexual tension wirh girl at the gasstation. Mentioned how she had part of her hair done. Turned out she had it on accident in bleach. She has this fun vibe to her, great chemistry. Could make out right there and then. She would replicate. Noticed my vibe was great aswell.
Get in tune with beimg sexual in your skin. Shifting in women view. Like split second catagorizing and fun seducing. It did cross my mind "these are all my women" im so clear in MY women yet IDGAF.
Did appreciate my car while driving and lo and behold, upgrading will be massive into some other car.
Killed it at the gym. Felt like a maasssive form of energy is awakening in me. I was literally thriving. Then my shoulder did get hurt. Fuck. Constant awareness of leading to threesomes.
Now,DMSI is great. Im loving this. Do I care some shit might just not be DMSI? FUCK NO. Do I work together with DMSI and give into it without questioning to much? Yeah. Working together, let go, caring not caring. It all doesnt fucking matter.
Im also getting in a cycle of wanting tatts and piercings. All I want is met with grstefull and enthousiastic anticipation and looking forwsrd to it resulting in instant deliverance.
Edit continued: I am almost literally revisiting my succes with women and it piles with up. From "harder style music girl C" who literally was dry fucking in my presence, strong wiggling, exposed open croth, waving legs fast and squirming around, looking down yet quiet" aswell as the arabic girl from day 1 DMSI A who I shared 5+ seconds eye contact with. It was plain on locking and relaxing gaze. The IOIs were clear. H/C takes huge reign. Also astral projecting is a thing. Like making this real and actually having it happen. This feels pretty lethal.
Fun stuff. It also shifts me more again like some sort of weapon incarnated
Removed former wall of text as I have an intuition to let it roll for a bit. Thimgs are looking up and new things are falling into.place. guess branding myself, going all out is my gift/skill. Along with enough clearing big things are gonns happen and happen now. Everyone is in the marketplace, businesswise and sexually wise. I also know exactly what I want next as a tattoo and the such. Decision is addictive and it deepens. Focus and manifestation is going on new levels of quickness. Naturally integrating. Also, making myself attractive with or without women ( Im with, ofcourse ) . Prosperity.
Also there is a huge thrill in copying others who went before me. Doesnt mean its a box. Its great even to know it gives wide up oppurtunity. Dates soon to come heh. Im certain about. Massive lotsa dating.
The inners are so worth it. Things are lifting up. My women taste again kicks up a notch and it is fluid. Also, Im such a intense confident sexual man and being, its insane at this point. I cannot not be the best version of myself and yet more to come. Plans are instant. Vehicle of succes in all ways expressed. Women picking up for fun and being my natural self. In person I have to be very intense now. Realizing the half way thing aswell. Hah.
DMSI - unstoppable sexcreature.