So, this morning when getting some stuff, this blomd walked in. Now, my body almost shifted on autopilot to just get out. It was like 2 different entities almost. Me, paying for some stuff, the other, my body/subconscious fighting to get out of the store.
Im having an image in my mind as to where I want to be and wonder if TID is somewhat involved in this. It was like an forced flight response. The image in my mind is being absolute king. Now, as before I have sacrificed many images already, like undoing as I progress, as it showed to be another "coping" in the end, barestripping myself to the core, but the event of this morning I found worth noting down.
Last night, I had a pretty strong shift of seeing women seeking validation blended with seeing women on a deeper level, energetic wise and wanting to devour this feminine energy wholly. Blissing and bathing in it. Gloriously orgasmic. In the past I had women worshipping me, lusting aswell. Now, some rule4 things chimed in and my extrnal world was almost rose-colored in an sense of being a literal sex-being. This blew my mind but felt really natural.
To come back to this morning. Its as if im being heightened, like some slight ptsd-alarm responses. The former writing keeps pounding through, like eventually giving the breakthrough blow.
Whatever the shift was yesterday...seduction and attraction felt nuclear. Made me thinking about reality bending and TID, giving rafical references and training my subconscious.
Talking about the past..it opens a whole new can of worms to me. Like im wholly reshaping, refining and redefing my personality. Its an huge thing now.
Another is upgrading myself for myself without excluding women.
Im having an image in my mind as to where I want to be and wonder if TID is somewhat involved in this. It was like an forced flight response. The image in my mind is being absolute king. Now, as before I have sacrificed many images already, like undoing as I progress, as it showed to be another "coping" in the end, barestripping myself to the core, but the event of this morning I found worth noting down.
Last night, I had a pretty strong shift of seeing women seeking validation blended with seeing women on a deeper level, energetic wise and wanting to devour this feminine energy wholly. Blissing and bathing in it. Gloriously orgasmic. In the past I had women worshipping me, lusting aswell. Now, some rule4 things chimed in and my extrnal world was almost rose-colored in an sense of being a literal sex-being. This blew my mind but felt really natural.
To come back to this morning. Its as if im being heightened, like some slight ptsd-alarm responses. The former writing keeps pounding through, like eventually giving the breakthrough blow.
Whatever the shift was yesterday...seduction and attraction felt nuclear. Made me thinking about reality bending and TID, giving rafical references and training my subconscious.
Talking about the past..it opens a whole new can of worms to me. Like im wholly reshaping, refining and redefing my personality. Its an huge thing now.
Another is upgrading myself for myself without excluding women.