(04-11-2017, 12:39 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-11-2017, 12:32 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (04-11-2017, 12:26 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-11-2017, 12:20 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Wow. You're killing it Ray. 
Not where I want to be yet but I definitely feel some major inner growth has occurred and i'm on the verge of having sexual abundance.
My needyness has dropped so dramatically and my "let go of rejection" is amazing now. Many other changes as well i'm pretty happy with DMSI healing.
Yeah I know what you mean, the internal shifts are massive when they happen.
Are you still on ver. A?
Yes Version A indeed.
I won't be running Version B for a few months.
I want 3-6 months of Version A to really heal me.
I find more value in healing then in an aura.
I personally think inner growth and self esteem is more attractive then an aura.
But that's just my opinion and I might be wrong.
Fair enough. I find that I learn best with externals. Kind of like looking in a mirror. Having said that, I might have to go on ver. A again.
I noticed I notice almost no resistance now. Never feel anxiety or wierd at work anymore.
Chatted up a few women today and I was way more talkative and open then before with them.
I chatted up some new ones too and was very confident and was good with conversation.
A big step up from how I felt month ago or two weeks ago..
I think also getting used to the situation helps though.
I was confused reading your last couple of posts--are you staying at that restaurant job currently or not?
(04-12-2017, 08:42 AM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ]I was confused reading your last couple of posts--are you staying at that restaurant job currently or not?
Yes I've decided to stay.
So last two days I might have listened to 8 hours of DMSI 3.1 a ACCIDENTLY.
The first night I know for sure i listened to 8 loops because my alarm didn't go off.
Second night I unplugged my speakers after 2 loops when alarm went on. But I didn't realize that
audio still plays from my computer's speakers. The volume was microspocially low and I didn't notice it until the morning and I shut it off. That was about 10 hours into listening to it.
However I'm not sure If I even was able to hear it because it was so low. I didn't feel fucked up or strange today unlike the day before.
So I think today I wasn't actually listening to it for 8 hours.
But the day before I felt really wierd at work.
I wasn't facing major resistance but I could feel my mind was thinking too much subconsiously about what to do .
It felt awkward but I didn't feel stress or anxiety at work like in the past when facing resistance.
anyways TODAY AT WORK. Day 40
Felt kinda nervous or uneasy about seeing that chick that I really like (vegan brunette 3) the one who I talked to for 30-45 minutes at the oscars night party and who I kissed on the cheek several times and she likes me back even though she's technically seeing someone.
She likes me for sure. I know 100 percent. Based on the reactions I got from her on FB and how awesome and confident I was at the oscars night.
Also today first thing that happened when I saw her was she said how are you, and we were kind of walking past eachother. I put my hand out for a hand clap, and i ended up grabbing her hand and squeezing it really tight for a split second while continuing to walk away.
It was super perfect, I didn't have to say a word and I communicated to her that yes I'm still interested, and yes I can be sexual and forward without liquor in my system.
It's crazy how something as simple as holding and squeezing someones hand can communicate so much without any words.
I focused on my job all day and didn't attempt to talk to her or anything.
One time she came near me and I looked at her and she smiled/giggled and walked away (because she had work to do)
then she walked past me shortly after and hit me in the butt/back with a cloth/towel as she was walking by.
It was her way of saying "Heyyy I'm interested too"
or at least a way of showing her she cares about me.
She's shy as fuck and probably more now that she likes me for real. So I see those subtle things like that as her way of reaching out.
FUNNY STORY.
I heard from a male coworker that there is a rumor going around that me and Brunette 3 Vegan made out at the oscar nights.
He heard it from one of the girls that work there.
ITS HILARIOUS because we didn't even make out. I just kissed on cheek and hugged/squeezed her really tight, we also spoke for 30-45 minutes.
I guess people were watching and taking notes. Word got around and I guess just like the game "telephone" things got unaccurate by the time that chick who told my male coworker found out. LMAO
It's a good rumor imo. Only makes me look mores desirable by other women I'd imagine.
Although I'm not really interested in other women atm. I really like Vegan Brunette 3. I want to date her. She's an amazing women with great values and personality.
She's an animal lover like me and not a slut. My male coworker told me he was hitting on her at the party and she wasn't having any of it.
That being said, I did talk to some other beautiful women at my work today and I was sniping her/macking on her.
So I don't have ONEITIS. But I do genuinly like this women.
I don't feel the same neediness or desperation or anxiety I normally do around women that I really like.
DMSI has made me really cool and calm in the moment.
I'm going to ask her out to the comedy club with me this sunday.
I'm only going to ask her out if it comes out natural. I won't go out of my way to do it and I won't go out of my way to talk to her.
I decided to stop giving a fuck so much and just go with the flow.
I noticed LESS IS MORE. The more I try to talk to mack on the waitresses the less effectivei t is. It just comes across as needy.,
One blonde chick at my work who I haven't talked to in two weeks she OPENED me for once. Before I could barely get her to talk if I asked the questions.
Also I noticed my aura is affecting women at work now more. I can see it in there eyes when they walk by. (not all the chicks but some of them)
I also had one waitress tell me "you're the best"
Also all the guys at my work are hella intimidated by me now in subtle ways. Like if they ask me to do something (part of my job) they act like very timid and apologetic for making me do it.
Quit my job today, went home, 5 minutes later I got another job doing Ironworking (rebar) making 16 or 18 an hour.
So yeah I decided I am not into working at restaurants. The only thing keeping me there was the women but I realized it's not worth it.
I'm going to message a few of them and tell them I left for Ironworking and that we should keep in touch.
I saw Brunette 3 Vegan (the one I like most) and I told her I'm leaving today.
Then 30 minutes later at the end of my shift with my clothes on I went up to her, Told her "i'm out of here"
She said "are you off or just leaving' I said "I'm off and i'm leaving"
I gave her a really good firm hug and a kiss on the cheek while hugging her and said "lets chill sometime" As I walked away. I heard her say "sounds good" as I was walking away.
I'l probably message her next weekend to chill because this weekend is a little too needy and soon imo.
Also I have a date already for Sunday if I choose to go on it.
I hope I see Brunette 3 again. I hope me kissing her on the cheek again while sober and at work today showed her that I wasn't just drunk at the oscars night and had confidence to kiss her but can kiss her without any liquor in my system.
I hope she likes me but at the same time I don't feel like i'd be crushed or overly upset if it doesn't go through.
I would definitely be upset though. I'm quite sentimental.
Need advice from you guys.
I'm going on a date on Monday to the lake and pizza/music/sex at my house (That's my plan at least)
with Blonde 5 (BJ girl I knew from past)
Anyways. I was wondering if taking a picture with her at the lake and posting it on my facebook in an attempt to make Vegan brunette 3 jealous and more attracted is a good idea or a bad idea?
Also I'm thinking about waiting 4-5 days asking her out for the following Sunday to the Comedy Club?
What do you guys think about the Facebook jealousy tactic? It won't be a overly sexual picture just me and her holding each other.
Facebook jealousy tactic won't work; read Athena's AYP journal to see an example of such not working.
(04-15-2017, 02:21 PM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ]Facebook jealousy tactic won't work; read Athena's AYP journal to see an example of such not working.
Can you explain what happened I can't find it.
Asked the girl I really like out on Facebook. NO response yet. I'm feelin very upset and sad that if she says no I might not ever see her again.
Why didn't you ask her in person?
(04-18-2017, 06:45 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Why didn't you ask her in person?
Because I stopped working there. The last thing I did when I saw her was hug her firmly and kiss her on the cheek and said "lets chill sometime"
then I left.
At this point I had to ask her out in FB because I don't work there anymore.
I was pretty devastated yesterday at the idea of never seeing her again.
She responded to me asking her out by saying "Hey dude, i"m seeing someone else remember
That sounds like a date"
The rest of the conversation is irrelevant because I won't ever see her again even though my heart desires to see her.
(04-18-2017, 04:43 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-18-2017, 06:45 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Why didn't you ask her in person?
Because I stopped working there. The last thing I did when I saw her was hug her firmly and kiss her on the cheek and said "lets chill sometime"
then I left.
At this point I had to ask her out in FB because I don't work there anymore.
I was pretty devastated yesterday at the idea of never seeing her again.
She responded to me asking her out by saying "Hey dude, i"m seeing someone else remember That sounds like a date"
The rest of the conversation is irrelevant because I won't ever see her again even though my heart desires to see her.
I'm going to be the asshole here and just tell you straight - you're blown when it comes to her. I can tell from your earlier posts that you were too emotionally invested, and from her reply and the way she used the term dude, she knew you were also.
Women pick up on shit like that. It may have actually turned out very differently if she knew you didn't like her. But, right now, for whatever reason, her boyfriend is a higher value proposition than you are.
Now this next bit could be relevant only to women from NYC, but, maybe not. From all of my experiences with women, I have come to realize that they use a weighted scale method, where they will weigh out the value of an experience against any so called repercussions. If the experience feels good enough, they'll bite on it.
It's like going shopping with a chick. They'll look around over and over again, and either they'll damn the consequences and buy something because they've been triggered to, or they'll be indecisive the whole time. The times they buy, they may have remorse later on and return the merchandise. Sometimes they'll go back and forth on it for a while.
The point is, women shop men like they do their hand bags. And generally speaking, the higher of value some thing is, the more a woman wants it. But if it's equal to what she already has, she'll window shop it, but she won't bite.
She window shopped you, and she didn't bite. You can't wear your heart on your sleeve, especially when a girl has someone else in her life.
Learn from this experience and move on. There's always another girl. There will always be the next girl. Don't ever forget that.