(09-05-2017, 02:25 PM)Determined Wrote: [ -> ] (09-05-2017, 02:10 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (09-05-2017, 07:57 AM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]It's time to elevate things to another level. My physique is looking good again, Only thing holding me back now is Marijuana. I promise from here on in I will completely cut it out. I ran out and don't want to do it anymore.
DMSI is affecting targets around me and I have been smoking weed daily. I can't imagine to see what happens when I don't smoke.
Not only that but I need to get my personal development up, start reading books and becoming the best man I can be.
I am a man that unfortunately it's hard for me to settle for women that aren't up to my high standards. I want that 9 or 10/10 female, like that stripper I had a dance from.
I can't settle for life, and women don't want to settle either so I need to push myself in all aspects in life to get to the point where having these women in my life is just second nature and normal.
I promise I will NOT FAP ANYMORE, and NOT SMOKE WEED. MY happyness and joy in life depends on whether I can defeat these vices, becoming viceless is key.
I need TO BE ALPHA in all aspects and masturbating every day and not getting laid is the easy way out.
I want to harness my energy's and use them for sex and self development, not release them or become distracted by escapes like weed.
TIME TO KILL IT, **** FAILURE.
Life goes in cycles and I am in a good cycle right now, I need to maintain this, elevate it even more and make sure I don't fall off.
If anyone has any idea how to stay grounded, stress free and happy please let me know.
Make it your life mission to constantly seek to make yourself better. That journey involves accepting that there are ups & downs (or cycles, as you say) and merely prepare yourself, to the best of your ability, to take on those challenging times and become a better man for it. Then, during your up/good cycles, use the momentum to propel yourself forward again.
Life is never going to let up, so you gotta take it head on. Eventually, you get to a place of personal power - an internal fortitude of strength - that will give you the confidence that you can do and get through anything life throws at you.
Grounded, stress free and happy - you want to start doing meditation my friend.
Amazing for grounding. The one I do I breathe chi energy into my balls, which increases my masculine enrergy to a godly level. 10 minutes in the morning as part of my morning routine.
Meditation is amazing and I want to start adding it into my routine but it's not reccomended during DMSI.
SHANNON if your reading this, please let me know if I can start introducing meditation into my routine during times when I wont be social for the rest of the day. Please let me know or I will have to make a new thread
DMSI update
Lots of people looking down or away when walking towards me. I can tell DMSI affects allot of people but still don't get allot of people reacting in ways that I desire, (Like approaching me ect)
Motivation wise I am at an all time. Going to KILL IT.
Depression/ fear wise i'm at an all time low (not feeling depressed). (even though jail is technically still on the table, although less then 5 percent chance of me going to jail)
Fear of rejection = still there but not as profound as in the past. I still have anxiety when thinking about approaching women directly during the day and being direct about intentions.
DMSI was not a mistake, although it hasn't produced ALL The results yet, it has been amazing in the inner game changes I have had.
My weight is at 160, up from 151 several months ago. (weighed 162 lb this morning)
my bodybuilding goal is 175lb by end of FALL season.
I feel better then I have in a long time, all I think about is how close I am to getting what I want in life and have always wanted, beautiful women. Just gotta keep improving in all aspects until I get it, then improve even more and more till the day I die.
I haven't smoked weed today, threw away my weed pipe and had no urge to relapse on weed.
I did however end up fapping while going to bed because I started "edging"..
Can't do that anymore. I lasted 144 days once without fapping 4 years ago. I can do it again. It took me a few tries to get to that point because I kept edging and failing. I CANT do that though this time around. I need to harness this energy and see my full potentional. I remember 4 years ago when I stopped fapping for 144 days I had the best eye contact and self esteem around women I had ever had prior to that. (it was the no porn that did it, i also didn't watch porn during those 144 days)
Anyways, I keep thinking how stupid I am to not have gotten that strippers number, she was clearly into me she even said it her self and she clearly wanted to bang me. Learning lesson though, next time I get such strong IoI's and sex signals from a women I'm GOING TO ESCALATE THINGS into relationship/bang.
I HATE looking back in regret, such a terrible feeling. Oh well, it's all about the journey, one day I'll look back laughing.
Quote:Meditation is amazing and I want to start adding it into my routine but it's not reccomended during DMSI.
SHANNON if your reading this, please let me know if I can start introducing meditation into my routine during times when I wont be social for the rest of the day. Please let me know or I will have to make a new thread
Originally it was just 'don't meditate at all during DMSI' but then Shannon posted that it's fine, just do it at a different time of the day and not around girls where the state shifting could be triggered and it will be ok.
(09-05-2017, 11:58 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]I haven't smoked weed today, threw away my weed pipe and had no urge to relapse on weed.
I did however end up fapping while going to bed because I started "edging"..
Can't do that anymore. I lasted 144 days once without fapping 4 years ago. I can do it again. It took me a few tries to get to that point because I kept edging and failing. I CANT do that though this time around. I need to harness this energy and see my full potentional. I remember 4 years ago when I stopped fapping for 144 days I had the best eye contact and self esteem around women I had ever had prior to that. (it was the no porn that did it, i also didn't watch porn during those 144 days)
Anyways, I keep thinking how stupid I am to not have gotten that strippers number, she was clearly into me she even said it her self and she clearly wanted to bang me. Learning lesson though, next time I get such strong IoI's and sex signals from a women I'm GOING TO ESCALATE THINGS into relationship/bang.
I HATE looking back in regret, such a terrible feeling. Oh well, it's all about the journey, one day I'll look back laughing.
I've seen it with my own eyes, this geeky Asian guy I knew pulled a pornstar back to our hotel in Vegas and she was really into him but for whatever reason he self sabotaged it.
His own feelings of inadequacy and that this is too good to be true for him kicked in so that external reality would match what his internal belief system was. That may appear again for you, the self sabotage. Be aware of it and what it is so that next time you can push through. Also look towards clearing it out because on this path you'll be meeting plenty of other insanely hot women.
Sometimes we have to prepare our minds for the arrival of what we want. If it arrives and we're not prepared, I.e lottery winners who don't understand money management, or hot women taking interest in a guy who doesn't ever get such interest, then the subconscious mind might work to bring the the person back to a more familiar level.
(09-06-2017, 02:35 AM)Determined Wrote: [ -> ] (09-05-2017, 11:58 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]I haven't smoked weed today, threw away my weed pipe and had no urge to relapse on weed.
I did however end up fapping while going to bed because I started "edging"..
Can't do that anymore. I lasted 144 days once without fapping 4 years ago. I can do it again. It took me a few tries to get to that point because I kept edging and failing. I CANT do that though this time around. I need to harness this energy and see my full potentional. I remember 4 years ago when I stopped fapping for 144 days I had the best eye contact and self esteem around women I had ever had prior to that. (it was the no porn that did it, i also didn't watch porn during those 144 days)
Anyways, I keep thinking how stupid I am to not have gotten that strippers number, she was clearly into me she even said it her self and she clearly wanted to bang me. Learning lesson though, next time I get such strong IoI's and sex signals from a women I'm GOING TO ESCALATE THINGS into relationship/bang.
I HATE looking back in regret, such a terrible feeling. Oh well, it's all about the journey, one day I'll look back laughing.
I've seen it with my own eyes, this geeky Asian guy I knew pulled a pornstar back to our hotel in Vegas and she was really into him but for whatever reason he self sabotaged it.
His own feelings of inadequacy and that this is too good to be true for him kicked in so that external reality would match what his internal belief system was. That may appear again for you, the self sabotage. Be aware of it and what it is so that next time you can push through. Also look towards clearing it out because on this path you'll be meeting plenty of other insanely hot women.
Sometimes we have to prepare our minds for the arrival of what we want. If it arrives and we're not prepared, I.e lottery winners who don't understand money management, or hot women taking interest in a guy who doesn't ever get such interest, then the subconscious mind might work to bring the the person back to a more familiar level.
I agree!
Funny story, my asian friend who was awkward all his life and is one of the shyest people I know right now, very feminine.
Just picked up a stripper last week without doing anything, SHE picked him up actually, she invited him over and they did M together and they were going to bang but he couldn't get it up. She was so into him even though he is not at all the type of guy you would expect women to like.
She even told him next time don't do M were going to bang.
He asked what kind of guy do you think I am? And she said Your a nice innocent asian guy (something along those line)
Moral of my story, never doubt yourself, everyone has a specific type and that can even mean nerdy awkward asian guys getting with 10/10 strippers and what not.
This guy is like the least sexual person I know and one of the most self consious and akwkward, literally. I was shocked when he told me what happened.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkRmOWBoU-w
Good video thought I'd share with you guys, just saw it for first time.
Going to approach at least 1 chick today at work. Gotta break past this fear and can't rely on other people to be there to support me.
Few things to note. going to be brief because too tired to write long post.
1) Neighbors wife been giving me mad smiles lately, allot of people have lately. I think the aura is working powerfully now even though I haven't had any women approach me, I get mad smiles now all the time from allot of the women I encounter in my job. The neighbors wife was very obvious because in the past she wouldn't go out of her way to make sure we greet eachother when I came home from work today for example.
2) Day 2 of not smoking weed, I feel amazing, no urge to relapse, Feel smarter and my mind is working at a more elevated level. I feel smarter and more awake. IM STOKED ON QUITTING, I don't even want to blaze anymore, the switch in mind has been flipped.
3) Day 1 no fap, will not fap tonight or ever.
4) I spent the first 3 hours of my work today as a courier, thinking about approaching some chicks, I had allot of anxiety come up and it came to the point where it was ruining my day, so I decided FUCK It i'm not approaching anyone today and I'm going to just relax and stop letting this get to me TODAY.
once I decided that the anxiety went away, I need to find out why I have so much anxiety.
5) Started TAPPING and EFT today, Haven't done that in 3 years. 3 years ago I did EFT on the topic of my dog I had to give away after a yer as a kid, and I started bawling like crazy, that was 8 years after I gave away my dog. energy healing works.
6) I have a date for this sunday with a 9/10. compared to the 10/10 stripper shes a 8, but shes a solid 9 compared to regular women, nice body, nice butt, nice boobs. She's probably an 8.5. But nice women I knew from highschool, she's the one with the kid. The day is going to happen.
She had ignored me 3 weeks ago when I asked if she wanted to come to the strip club with me (I was doing this as a test to see if this type of text would work or not, because I didn't care about outcome)
turns out it didn't work, she ignored that text, then 2 1/2 weeks later, last night I messaged her asking if she wants to go for a mini road trip this weekend (to squamish).
She ignored me for few hours so i sent her this "Id love to see you again it's been too long,I wont be asking you again to hang out so let me know if your down to reconnect or not. Good night"
she replied today, "Yes i'm sorry I would like to hang out!! We can do something sunday but maybe something a bit closer if thats okay? just cuz aiden still naps and all that lol"
I said "yeah no worries, il talk to you closer to sunday and we'll plan something"
one thing I noticed is when I text a girl i completely forget about them after for the rest of the day if not the rest of the week. 2 years ago or 3 years ago if I sent a text id be checking my phone CONSTANTLY till it drove me insane. I WAS FUCKED in the head insecure.
now I just completely let them out of my thought process. IT DOESNT AFFECT ME AT ALL.
That's probably one of the most significant things i've noticed. I'm no longer obsessed and insecure in that way. I am way more relaxed and go with the flow. I also am so much less outcome dependant and also less excited and emotional about the date. It just doesns't seem like a big deal for me for some reason.
also i am much more funny lately i noticed, I have been making more jokes on Facebook and also in person with people. NOT all the time but I do notice I am more funny then usual.
LOL so much for not writing a long post.....
anyways good night everyone peace and love.
(09-06-2017, 01:31 AM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Meditation is amazing and I want to start adding it into my routine but it's not reccomended during DMSI.
SHANNON if your reading this, please let me know if I can start introducing meditation into my routine during times when I wont be social for the rest of the day. Please let me know or I will have to make a new thread
Originally it was just 'don't meditate at all during DMSI' but then Shannon posted that it's fine, just do it at a different time of the day and not around girls where the state shifting could be triggered and it will be ok.
I wish I knew that earlier. Meditation is amazing and I do it very easily and naturally. I can meditate eyes open, while doing anything. When I was in court with my mom crying I was so deep in a meditation I felt no emotions whatsoever.
I'm glad I can start meditation, meditation affects the self referential processing part of the brain in a way that makes you less in your head.
Magic mushrooms does the same thing but faster (science proved this by brain scans)
Wisdom teeth came out, was flirting very lightly and subtely with the female sexy dental assitant when it was just me and her in the room after the surgery.
I forget exactly what I said because I was a little high on the narcotics they gave me, but I remember she said she has a boyfriend and I said "Hes a lucky man" and when I left I gave her a big hug. it was a very nice and genuine hug on both sides.
Fuck man, it's crazy how many beautiful women there is in the world. I can't wait to get that cake and eat it, it's just a matter of time now.
Haven't smoked weed still and don't intend too. DAY 3.
Not smoking weed has brought back my interest in watching motivation videos/speeches and learning information about self development.
When I blazed all the time i'm only interested in watching Comedies. (always sunny in philadalphia and the office FTW)
just made an online dating profile, holy shit so many chicks on here, allot of hot ones too.
what a waste of 2 hours. POF keeps deleting my profile after 20 minutes of me messaging people.
No idea why, didn't do anything wierd shady or inappropriate.
FUK it. not sure if online dating is for me anyways.
Decided to run Alpha male for the next 4 days (before I start working next)
this is the best opportunity for me to switch subs because I don't work for the next 4 days because wisdom teeth.
I have been wanting to do the Refresher stage for a long time now but the idea that DMSI is 5.5g and AM is 5g has been the reason why I backed out everytime.
No promises that Il stay on AM refresher stage for a long time, but at least these next 4 days to see if i feel better or worse, more alpha or less alpha.
I honestly feel like I was best with women on AM, even though I am more sexy now.
if i feel good in 4 days with using AM, I will continue to use it for a month or two or 3.
Women like Alpha males and I have lost some of the alpha qualities AM gave me. although I am still alpha in allot of ways.
I am too emotional / anxiety sometimes and AM kills my anxiety/emotions.
I think it might be what I need.
I'm going to play it 24/7 the next 4 days.
i won't be making another journal until I decide to stay on AM for sure.
Hopefully becoming less emotional will help with approach anxiety, also I hope AM doesn't kill my desire to game women like it did in the past.
Ironically that might be what helped me get women, the fact that I didn't want them in a needy way.
First night of using AM,
had a dream where I was in a major brawl with some big guys. I was very aggressive in this and
i remember leaving the fight coming back with bear mace and bear macing some people. (weird dream)
I also had a dream the last 2-3 nights where I make out with a women and am very sexual with them (this is because of DMSI)