(03-13-2017, 08:22 AM)dissonance Wrote: [ -> ] (03-11-2017, 03:40 AM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (03-10-2017, 02:10 AM)dissonance Wrote: [ -> ] (03-08-2017, 10:56 AM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]Just came back from my bail supervisor.
She wasn't there so I met with another woman that I had met once before but I don't remember our previous interaction as it was several months ago.
First thing she said was "I've met you before' I was like "ya I think so"
anyways long story short
I was extremely alpha, confident, high self esteem, happy, smiling and or laughing when it was appropriate (when I made a joke or if she did)
My eye contact was 10/10, I was building rapport, I talked about her, asking her where she is from, if that's her natural hair color, my favoritre TV show, geography and
I even made a joke about her liking criminals. (we were talking about why she got into this type of work)
Honestly she probably liked me but it's hard to say. She was very receptive and nice and social with me but I still can't tell if she liked me for sure. Even though I felt like it because of her body language and eye contact i'm not 100 percent sure.
The most important thing so is that I felt absolutely amazing and comfortable around her. I had high self esteem and there was never any point in the interaction where I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin and I was NEVER in my head.
for the record she was like 6 foot 1, blonde, pale, and blue eyes. a 10/10 woman.
**** YEAH DMSI WORK YOUR MAGIC 
Before, DMSI, would you be super nervous in that type of interaction with that attractive of a female?
well before subliminals I was extremely nervous and awkward being alone with a super hot woman. Especially if they were closer to my age and or I actually liked them.
I got major confidence from subliminal usage up to the point where I was having conversations with very beautiful woman and it was no biggie. (and dated a woman 10/10 8 years older, last year)
Some sub effects fade away from me over time but not completely.
before using DMSI I was pretty solid with women but there would be times where I was not at all, like If I was stoned.
I've been comfortable with beautiful woman for a long time now every since my second AM runs.
How ever, being sexual and flirty with these woman is a different story.
It's allot harder for me to become openly sexual and or flirty or straight up and ask a woman out.
Anxiety wise I get no anxiety around beautiful women. I haven't since my second am run.
The only times I would get anxiety with women nowadays was when I messed up my testosterone dose and was accidentally on too low testosterone (much less then average test levels a man should have)
However the playfulness, and level of comfort and flirting and self esteem that I have now is at an all time high.
If I stop using DMSI now for a year i'l still be comfortable around women but wont have the same smoothness, and might be in my head sometimes.
I noticed with subliminals while your on the subliminal is when the effects are most potent, the longer you get off it my smoothness fades a way bit.
however I'll never be the same person I was before subliminals. Where I was too nervous or shy to even look a man in the eyes properly (unless they were my close friends or family)
I had major social anxiety before subliminals. Now i"m generally the highest self esteem and confident person in the room.
Awesome man. How old are you now anyways?
22 years old
Day 9
yesterday I was pretty down and sad / felt shitty about everything. (didn't have work though and didn't interact with much people)
Today I feel better but still don't feel good.
One thing I can mention is that both today and yesterday it's been very difficult for me to play one of my favorite games called "Dota".
I have the same feeling I had on AM v6 where I couldn't play that game no matter how hard I tried.
I just don't have the desire / drive to play it. I'll open it up and close it because I don't feel like playing it.
Which is a good sign because I play that game the most when I'm going through the most depression or anger. Because it's a good escape from reality.
Day 9
Felt exhausted and napped for few hours mid day and woke up absolutely starving.
This is rare for me and has only happened since 3.1a and I think 3.01
(03-14-2017, 05:48 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]Day 9
Felt exhausted and napped for few hours mid day and woke up absolutely starving.
This is rare for me and has only happened since 3.1a and I think 3.01
Dude this is odd, I have SO much energy right now it's insane. it's 12 am and I don't even feel tired. And I went to the gym a few hours ago too!
I've had the hunger as well but I wonder if the exhaustion is our bodies getting used to the kind of energy I'm having now. I dunno, just a thought.
(03-14-2017, 10:13 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (03-14-2017, 05:48 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]Day 9
Felt exhausted and napped for few hours mid day and woke up absolutely starving.
This is rare for me and has only happened since 3.1a and I think 3.01
Dude this is odd, I have SO much energy right now it's insane. it's 12 am and I don't even feel tired. And I went to the gym a few hours ago too!
I've had the hunger as well but I wonder if the exhaustion is our bodies getting used to the kind of energy I'm having now. I dunno, just a thought.
I'm usually good after my nap, but around mid day I've been getting super tired lately.
I don't mind the exhaustion because it shows my brain is working hard and the program is affecting me.
I always wake up from the nap having extreme amounts of energy too, especially once I eat.
I think the exhaustion will stop overtime. I think were using allot of energy on healing, that's my take on it but i'm not sure.
Yeah I think you're right. Healing or maybe the body changing so it can project the aura. Like how going to the gym fatigues you the first few times till you recover and get used to it, then you're stronger.
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7535-p...#pid161232
(03-15-2017, 08:19 AM)Jaeger Wrote: [ -> ]Quick question for you guys... When you snipe someone do you feel the energy being directed to the person that's targeted?
(03-15-2017, 08:32 AM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]I have in the past when I encountered a waitress who I sniped harder then anyone in my life.
I could feel myself going auto pilot and completely "submitting" the the subliminal in a very positive and attractive way.
It was one of the most intense experiences I ever had on subliminals.
That was on 2.5 I believe.
Rayhon, have you thought about going back to see that waitress now that you are listening to 3.1??
(03-15-2017, 08:49 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7535-p...#pid161232
(03-15-2017, 08:19 AM)Jaeger Wrote: [ -> ]Quick question for you guys... When you snipe someone do you feel the energy being directed to the person that's targeted?
(03-15-2017, 08:32 AM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]I have in the past when I encountered a waitress who I sniped harder then anyone in my life.
I could feel myself going auto pilot and completely "submitting" the the subliminal in a very positive and attractive way.
It was one of the most intense experiences I ever had on subliminals.
That was on 2.5 I believe.
Rayhon, have you thought about going back to see that waitress now that you are listening to 3.1??
No I don't want too go back. I rather meet someone new. But if I randomly / unintentionally see her again than I would be curious as to how that plays out. But I don't want to go out of my way to do that.
Day 10
Feeling anger when I think about my friend circle.
I keep thinking about how my friend's are not real friends. (except for two of them who are twins and another guy who I knew from middle school but never chilled with who is my Cousin in Law now. I feel like they're are the same type of empathetic loving person that I am and would actually have my back)
I made a FB status the other day saying
The three qualities I hate in people
1) Liars/Untrustworthy people
2) Judgmental People
3) Ignorant People
It's honestly one of the most truthful things I've ever posted. I absolutely DESPISE those qualities and I hate to see most of the people in my life have at least 1 of 3 of those qualities in them.
It feels like how I felt on AM when I thought about my friends but a little different.
One of my friends who is extremely value leeching and only wants to hang out when he needs you for something, like a ride ect. he said something to me that was extremely pessimistic, negative and rude.
And it had no value or educational value to tell me this. What he said is was completely stupid and extremely ignorant too. But it got me thinking about why I continue being friends with him when I know he's not a real friend.
Last weekend when I was drunk with a best friend of mine since we were 5. I told him I don't think him and Jack (my other best friend from age 5) would have my back if I really needed there help.
I told him I think they value money more then anything and don't have a big of a heart as I do.
His response was not good, he tried making excuses.
BTW what I said wasn't completely random but based on something that happened recently that he basically showed me he doesn't have my back.
And my misogyny regarding women that is coming up I feel like might be beneficial for me. I'm starting to feel like what's the point of chasing these woman, or going after these woman who I don't know and have no idea what type of person she or they are.
For all I know they are just as judgmental, shady, or shitty as the other people in my life.
I actually don't feel like I'm being misogynistic but more so realistic and don't feel or think that I'll meet someone who matches my level of character and personality type.
I want a real love relationship, I don't want anything superficial or based on material possessions.
I want a woman that loves me for who I am, not because of material things or money. (is that even possible lmao I have no idea) but I'm curious as to what you guys think.
On a related note, A tattoo i'm getting next week is a full sleeve tattoo, of a Japanese samurai , with a feminine beautiful geisha on her knees looking up towards the samurai holding her own heart that she ripped out of her chest
It symbolizes my desire for true love. There will be a Japanese dragon spiraling in between them from my chest going down my arm.
I made this tattoo idea over a year ago and still have the same amount of desire and love for the tattoo and idea.
I feel like the "lovey lovey" feeling I have towards that chick at work that I have a little crush on is diminished if not completely removed from me since using 3.1a.
I'm starting to think of these woman in a very neutral way. Again I have no idea if they are bad woman or good woman but I'm not going to fantasize that she's a good gf type when I barely know her yet.
Going to work tonight, going to be a good day I think. Shorter shift and I have tomorrow off.
Been feeling super tired but unable to take a nap, even though I drank chamomile and what not to help me sleep.
Interesting day at work.
First thing I see when I walk in is that chick i "like". (brunette 1)
She says with a big smile "Hey how are you!!" she cut off her conversation with some guy to say that to me from about 8 feet away.
I kinda yell out in a very loud dominant way (unintentionally) "Good how are you!"
She turned back towards the guy immediately and for the rest of the night ghosted me. I ghosted her too however, I made no effort to talk to her and the two times we walked past eachother I was just focused on my job and didn't make eye contact with her.
I'm honestly confused as to why she became kinda cold, I think she feels like I don't like her anymore or something like that. Because my energy must have changed so much from when I seen her last.
I could honestly be overthinking, Im 99 percent sure if I opened up a conversation with her she would be receptive and nice to me and her normal self. I honestly just didn't feel like it. She wasn't standing near me at any point today so I had no opportunity to talk to her.
But at the same time I really didn't give a fuck.
I did talk to some other waitresses, a few new cuties that are new and I just met today.
Every time I work there is like 2-3 new women that got hired that are absolutely smoking hot.
It's pretty unbelievable. I don't feel any attraction towards them other then physical. I'm not "crushing" on them like I was that one chick.
the girl that I "like" , I feel like DMSI has made me numb and not give a fuck about the outcome to the point where it's almost like I'm not crushing on her.
I think this is good because it makes me naturally harder to get and less outcome dependent.
I had major smiles and ioi's from multiple woman today, one of them being a manager lady that's in her late 20's that never used to look at me. Today I caught her looking at me and smiling.
I caught many woman looking at me and smiling.
Also when I opened up conversations with women today they were MUCH more receptive and smiley.
One beautiful woman that works there that I believe i'm sniping, because she's gorgeous. we went to shake hands and she had something in her hand and she wanted to shake hands with a bottle in her hand basically. I looked at her with a mean kinda grin and held my hand out until she took the bottle out of her hand and gave me a normal handshake.
She was giggling and blushing as this happened. I could tell I attracted her. Later on I looked past her as she was walking towards me but I made it look like I was looking at the person behind her (I really was) I saw her smiling at me when she walked by. She thought I was looking at her.
Lol DMSI is hilarious, my neediness went from quiet high to basically 0 in a matter of a week n half.
Another lady that works there that is very very nice to me and called me "my love" and when I was working she came up to me and said "i haven't had a chance to talk to you yet today how you doing!!!" and a bunch of other sweet stuff.
She made cute faces at me when I walked by too.
This is one i'l call BLONDE 1, she's in her early 30's or late 30's but she looks like 22 years old. She called her self an "old lady" last shift (not tonight) and I said "how old are you" she said " I can't tell you that!" I said "i don't care"
Anyways she's the one who I feel the most attraction from and I would love to bang.
I'm a wierd point right, I'm really happy with DMSI so far and just the little tid bits of attraction indicators of interest I've noticed today is a major tease but excites me for whats about to happen with long term usage. I get stronger and stronger every shift (mentally)
So many woman to choose from too it's absolutely unbelievable, I haven't met or been around this many beautiful woman ever in my life. my high school didn't have allot of beautiful women.
Working at this restaurant is absolutely amazing for my social skills and potential lay ability.
I have so many women to choose from it's not even funny.
However, I filter allot of them out, even though they are hot I don't feel the need or want to make any effort to date them because I can tell they are just bimbos, or immature (i'm guessing based on age and intuition)
The blonde 1 girl I like because we talked and she has similar interests and likes real music, rock n roll and is a genuinely nice women. Date worthy .. She's in her late 30's or early 30's though which is a bumper, shes gorgeous though. She's a 9 out of 10, she has a little extra body fat but she's still hot.
The other girl I like (the one I saw as I walked in todays shift, Il call her brunette 1)
I am crushing on her the most even though she is not the hottest of all the women that work there, she has an amazing smile and realness to her. Again I don't know if it's true or not since i haven't went on a date with her yet but based on facebook profile and our few interactions.)
She is the one I'd want to date the most.
I'm going to go with the flow and see what happens.
I really am starting to feel like IDGAF, I mean I honestly do give a fuck, but at the same time I don't.
It's the perfect fucking balance, a balance that AM never had, and WM NEVER had.
Sex magnet felt similar but not as perfectly balanced as DMSI.
WM made me needy still to an extent, Am made me disregard women completely, so did BASE)
I LOVE 3.1 so far.
SO MANY IoI's from beautiful women that brushed me off the last two weeks.
BIG BOOBS, beautiful face, beautiful smile. it feels really good when these women are clearly into me.
Love the feeling.
Once again I must thank you shannon, I believe I will have a very good sex life soon and for the rest of my life and relationships with women.
I had and still have so many issues but comparing myself to before subs I'm a completely different man.
I was so beta before it's not even funny.
now I'm the most alpha person in my work, but not as alpha or sexual with women as some men out there (but more then anyone at my work)
The most important change though is that I don't care anymore and that I have high self esteem.
Being beta and feeling weakness in myself is the biggest cause of self hate imaginable.
I hated feeling like a pussy when I liked a woman.
oh and on the topic of being gifted stuff, a coworker that usually isn't that nice to me (more so neutral) gave me a lighter today and said I can keep it , because I asked to use his to light something for work, and he was very nice to me today too)
could be coincidence or could be not but usually he isn't that nice to me and giving me a lighter for free kinda feels like DMSI affected him. (not 100 percent sure though)
Day 11
A childhood friend I have known since age 6 unfriended me on facebook in the last few days because of our conflicting political beliefs as well as other beliefs.
Long story short, he lives with native Americans now in indigenous land and learned allot about patriarchy and capitalism and basically he's extremely sensitive about anything and everything.
I respect that stuff but there is always a point where it becomes too much and basically becomes irrational and unintelligent.
I guess he couldn't agree with me standing up for my beliefs which btw aren't even that far off from his. I was very supportive and understanding with him about the things he told me and never disrespected him when he would say something outrageous that was extremely unintelligent.
Even saying something like "bro" to you're friend and he would get offended.
He's basically lost his mind and hates everyone, Doesn't want to go to the beach for example because he would be around people who support capitalism and whatnot.
crazy right, he doesn't understand that some people have no idea about what's going on in the world and are lacking education and understanding.
If you want to change the world you need to educate people, he wants to change the world but his actions are showing me he's just fearful and escaping the world.
Anyways I'm trying my best not to get political here but yeah
I just wanted to mention that I have no feelings of being upset or rejected.
I feel confused and disappointing that he would do such a rash thing by deleting me on Facebook out of nowhere without any argument or anything taking place before.
At the same time i'm happy. I don't want to be friend's with someone so negative who can't function with society at all because of his own fears and prejudices that he doesn't realize he has.
I'm looking for real friends with real connections and I think him deleting me is a blessing in disguise.
I would rather all my fake friends or friends who don't love me for who I am delete me on Facebook and stop talking to me then be associated with half ass relationships.
I'm not the perfect friend, I have my flaws just like everyone else, but I try to be a good friend and I'm a very good hearted person who never disrespects or mocks, or is rude or hurtful to anyone.
so it's his loss.
I messaged him saying "Farewell my 'friend' it's a shame you couldn't or don't want to be friends anymore. Good luck with whatever you decide to do in life"
I think that shows a sign of maturity from me.
Few years ago I might have gotten mad and lashed out at him and become bitter if he did something like this.
Shannon I don't think I broke the rules but I apologize if I did and can remove this post upon request.
I forgot to mention that earlier today while getting dog food at the pet store this young lady who worked there around my age smiled at me while she was walking from around 15 feet away.
I didn't feel good because my eye was watering and tearing up like an allergy or something because I was rubbing it and something got in it.
I just looked at her and she started smiling.
I didn't think much of it. I didn't get that "oooh I got an ioi!!" feeling I usually get.
I also had a VERY RUDE AND BITCHY response from a cashier at 7 11 20 minutes later. She asked me if that cup was new or old (because refill or new cup) and I didn't know what she meant , i said "I don't know" And her response to me was so fucking rude and disrespectful with her tone.
I replied with a very loud and dominant voice " well does it cost more moneyy????"
because at that point I still didn't know what she meant, I didn't realize you could get refills and she never explained it properly.
I then said thank you and she never said your welcome or bye.
Lmao my response to her was just as rude/bitchy as hers. But I'm an empath so I usually come back with the exact emotion that a person gives me. If someone comes up to me ready to fight, I immediately get into fight mode, if someone is super happy to see me, I have the same amount of happiness towards them..
I'm not exaggerating at all I've always mirrored other peoples emotions 100 percent. My hip hop name is even "Empathy" because I find that's the quality or word that describes my personality more then anything else. I might change the name to Empath or something else completely in the future. Some people hate the name some people love it. (i've asked some people what they think)
It's also important to note i'm no longer depressed or sad like I was the other day. But I don't feel overly happy or euphoric either.
I was just reading some psychology study and it talked about frequency of thought and how that affects how someone likes you. (the more they think about you the more they like you, is the gist of it)
Anyways it got me thinking about how I was before subliminals, if I liked someone I would think about them ALL THE TIME. Like extremely obsessively, with great emotion and it was extremely difficult to get over them if I got rejected or still liked them. Months, or more.
It got me thinking about how I'm not like that at all anymore.
I think about a girl I like maybe once or a twice a day for like 1 minute, and usually when I write my journal posts here.
I'm so happy I've gotten to this point. I was so unhealthy when it came to women it saddens me that they're are guys out there who are mentally messed up like I was.
My question to Shannon and or whoever knows the answer.
Are majority of woman like how I was before? Do they constantly think about the guy they like? Because they are so high estrogen and emotional do they constantly think about someone if they like them?
(03-17-2017, 02:15 AM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]I was just reading some psychology study and it talked about frequency of thought and how that affects how someone likes you. (the more they think about you the more they like you, is the gist of it)
Anyways it got me thinking about how I was before subliminals, if I liked someone I would think about them ALL THE TIME. Like extremely obsessively, with great emotion and it was extremely difficult to get over them if I got rejected or still liked them. Months, or more.
It got me thinking about how I'm not like that at all anymore.
I think about a girl I like maybe once or a twice a day for like 1 minute, and usually when I write my journal posts here.
I'm so happy I've gotten to this point. I was so unhealthy when it came to women it saddens me that they're are guys out there who are mentally messed up like I was.
My question to Shannon and or whoever knows the answer.
Are majority of woman like how I was before? Do they constantly think about the guy they like? Because they are so high estrogen and emotional do they constantly think about someone if they like them?
I won't say I know the answer, but from my observations I think they do think about the guys the like constantly. The difference is they can also get over the guy within the twinkle of an eye.
I observed this in my cousins. One of them was so obsessed with this guy it was driving the family crazy. Even though she was still a student, she would use part of her monthly allowance to buy gifts for the guy and his parents!! She made it known to us she would get married to the guy. Mind you this was in West Africa and such a behaviour is totally unacceptable. The man should do all these things and not the girl.
After a few months of her Disney display, when no one was expecting, she dropped the bomb that she was no longer interested in the guy. There was absolutely no logical explanation for her decision. The tides turned and the guy became the cry baby calling every member of her family pleading with them to make her change her mind. This went on for more than six months, but nope, her mind was already made up.
That is just one of about five similarly stories within my own family. The number goes way up if I include the stories of my friends. The brain of a woman is wired completely different from a man's it can become a beast. Hollywood has made us believe women are the very emotional ones when the reverse is true in the real world.
EDIT: When I tried to post the reply, there was an error message which said the Subject was too long, making me to edit out the "RE: " part. Maybe you should consider renaming your journal.