Day 14
had some extremely blatant indicators of interest at work.
The older blonde milf looking server winked at me while I was walking past looking at her.
And this other spanish chick I basically never talked to other then say hows it going.
Kept looking at me allot and it was like she was trying to test my self esteem by staring at me. I just stared back deep into her eyes. I didn't look away or flinch. I guess you could say I passed
I detected allot of attraction from her and many other women today.
However not EVERY women did I notice attraction from.
some of the ones I used to notice attraction from I did not notice any today.
None the less I had major indicators of interest from many women.
One thing that is interesting is that I was much more conversive and social with these woman and confident around them.
There were times where it felt like I was resisting and wasn't feeling like the interaction was going well, then like 30 minutes later i'd talk to the same person and i'd feel 100 percent solid and high self esteem and confident and good about myself.
It was bit of a rollercoaster today in that sense.
At times I was 100 percent smooth/confident, and other times where I felt the resistance seeping out of me.
The woman's reaction would change depending on how I felt in the moment too. REALLY WIERD.
It's a like a fucking science experiement.
I can't wait till this resistance bullshit passes and I feel 100 percent solid the entire time. Not fluctuating like it was today.
but for the most part I felt really good and happy about myself.
I was never really in my head, only once I was today for a few minutes.
Btw I met a new chick that is a VEGAN like me, and she has genuine interests, she's almost able to go compete for Olympics in figure skating.
LMAO it's like I manifested her, remember how I was talking about "Where can I find quality women?"
But the thing is I didn't notice any attraction from her, she's not my type physically but she's still a beautiful women, but still not my ideal type. Her personality IS DEFINITELY my type though.
I wonder if the sniper will still work :/ I felt like I wasn't sniping her at all.
She was conversing with me but I didn't feel any attraction from her at all (there might have been attraction I just didn't feel it or see it)
Overall today was a good day, I noticed I'm very loud and my vocal projection is really good.
But my test levels are pretty solid right now so it could be because of that and not DMSI, or a combination of both.
I was really happy today 95 percent of the time, didn't feel like I was working at all I just had a good time.
Me and the guys in the back started singing red hot chilli peppers and other various songs and having a fun time.
there was 1 incidents where a girl smiled at me with the most unbelievably obvious and intentional smile ever. Like " I ABSOLUTELY ADORE AND WANT TO BANG YOU, type smile"
THe thing is this chick that did that I never talked to her until today, and what happened was I said to her "are you okay? you look sad" she said " I just puked in my mouth" she said that to me and my male coworker and then she said "Attractive eh".. I said to her " You know exactly what a man likes " and for a second she thought I was being serious and said "yeah eh " but then realised i was joking.
After this incident is when she gave me that smile later as I walked past her 20 minutes later.
It was the most obvious and sexual smile I've ever received in my life.
She's not really my type though, i was just flirting for fun.
I noticed women enjoyed talking to me more today and the opened up more.
I opened up with one of them allot too and told her about my probation and we also talked about travelling and our tatoo's.
I like her now more then all of them, she seems serious and smart but probably has a wild side too. She's Blonde. I'm going to name her Carol.
I like Carol now not Brunette 1.
Carol is hotter then brunette 1 but wasn't my type initially but the more I am around her the more I like her.
One of the most pretentious yet sexiest person who works at the restaurant, Chloe. She was nice to me today and we talked very very little. Usually we both ignore each other. She seemed more receptive today.
I can feel DMSI is affecting people, not EVERYONE, but it's affecting some guys and women for sure.