(03-27-2017, 03:48 PM)Sickologist Wrote: [ -> ]All people are ***** up, I actually prefer it when the flaws are glaringly obvious instead of playing waiting games with those who act too proper.
It doesn't have to be that much effort anyway. Alpha behavior makes the hoes submissive, it's no different in sex. When you've made her completely submissive, you get what you want from her. Or you could see it as practice or amusement. I'm pretty sure she's a freak.
I don't think all people are fucked up. I know some people that are absolutely amazing people that would do anything for there friends or family.
I do believe anyone has the potentional to become fucked up but not everyone is fucked up.
I do agree that majority of people are fucked up and selfish. But some people are amazing individuals that are very good hearted like.
If everybody was like Jesus, we'd still live in the stone age. I'm not saying that would be too bad, but advancement starts with ambition. And Jesus like people have a tendency to let themselves be walked all over, being martyrs. So they're fucked up too.
If they're not though, you'll see their true colors when they're privileges are taken away.
(03-27-2017, 08:31 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Guys.. rule 4.
Okay sorry.
Accidentally listened to 3 or 4 loops last night.
Didn't notice much fatigue, Didn't notice anything negative at work today.
Didn't really notice much positive either but I was working in a different area and interacting with less of the women there in general as a result of the location I was working at.
Just found out in 11 days my restaurant is having a "oscars night' where they give awards and celebrate each other every year.
I rsvped and got to see who else said yes and Brunette 1 the women I like is going.
This is a good chance for me to dress up real nice, I look amazing in a suit and tie and I think it will be a good night.
11 more days for DMSI to heal me further too so I'm super EXCITED!
Had two dreams last night that Brunette 3 (the vegan I liked that made my head explode)
rejected me twice when I asked her out in two separate occasions in my dreams.
I guess i'm still dealing with the fear of rejection.
Day 27
I ASKED A CHICK I NEVER SPOKE TO EXCEPT FOR TODAY WHAT HER ASTROLOGY SIGN IS,
SHE SAID SCORPIO THEN AT THE END OF THE CONVERSATION SHE SAID "IT MEANS I LIKE SEX"
For the record I asked her "what did you say?? because I thought she misspoke and didn't hear her well. She said it again
I was shocked.
That was most the intense indicator that DMSI that I got today.
Other things I noticed is i'm much more comfortable around these women, I have great body language and feel much less neediness and desperation. Although I want a girlfriend now more then I ever.
I had a few days of slight unsure of how Brunette 3 felt about me (the vegan who I really connected with in past and made my head explode from stress once when I almost asked her out last week)
It's been wierd with us because she's super shy I haven't gotten a good chance to sit and talk with her in a while. She seems shy and inescure..
It feels like were both to shy with eachtother and feel the other one doesn't like eachother.
That's what it feels like.
I actually like her and think she's adorable but I don't know what to talk about with her and I hate small talk. I only see her for 20 seconds at a time randomly at work when she comes back to kitchen. I need to take lunch or something with her but its hard to time it. I gave her a hug when I saw her leaving, I opened my arms up for hug she came in, I had my dirty apron on I said "I'm kinda dirty but it's okay" and she said "just a bit" ahah
So I think I opened things up a bit for her now since she saw I hugged her, she's also the same brunette 3 that I was an asshole too the day after my head almost exploded. I think when I was rude to her that day it made her think wow he doesn't like me at all. Because she's shy, insecure and sensitive.
I like her for real, she's the one I had two dreams of being rejected from. I also like Brunette 1 still but don't feel much towards her when I saw her today, she saw me at the garbage cans outside when I was working and she said "fancy seeing you here"
I don't know what that means but it was good. I just said "hows it going" and when back to my work.
I met a new chick today and talked to her a bit, she smiled at me genuinely when I said "Bye natalie!" when I saw her leaving and I had good eye contact, with serious face.
It's hard for me to smile at women nowadays thats also why brunette 3 is unsure of how I feel around her. I always have a very serious facial expression, "resting bitch face' but the manly version. But the moment someone said something funny or talks to me that facial expression changes to neutral or happy.
But usually I look aggressive or serious. Especially at a work setting when I'm focused on my job. When i'm just chilling at home with friends I don't look like that.
Yesterday when I saw brunette 4 (I haven't spoke about this one yet hence the new number 4) AKA ALESHIA.
I was getting real deep with her, I get to spend allot of time with her because I work also at a station where I make salads, soups, sushi 3 days a week and it's just me and her and another guy. If shes working that day.
Laid the Mack down real well, i'm really really good at talking to women, but only when I am in a position to sit or stand with them for extended periods of time.
hence why I hate small talk and why its hard for me to game allot of these servers. I don't get to sit down with them long.
I'm good on dates though so I think once I get these dates going thinks will work out well.
There was allot of time today where I was seriously considering asking out brunette 3 when I see her next and I was going to go through with it.
Would be a big breakthrough for me. I was going to go all direct. I haven't done direct game in long time. I used to only be able to go direct if I knew the girl liked me already for sure , like when I went on a date after woman magnet with that 28 years old, she basically asked me out because she said something that implied she wanted to see me again.
then my coworker male started singing some song from RHCP I can't remember the lyrics but it basically was saying "gotta take it slowwwwww" Gotta take it slowwwwwww...
So I figured that's a sign from whatever ideology,belief,science, word you want me to use for this sentence and decided not too ask her out today and just wait it out, do it another time when it comes more naturally.
I also had some other chick tell me "I like you" but it wasn't in a direct way and I can't state exactly why she said it on the forum but it wasn't like she was telling me she was infatuated by me, it was more general like I like working with you.
But the words that came out was "I like you" if i posted the rest of the sentence you would know what I mean but I can't for security reasons.
I also had other women who I almost never spoke to before at all show me mad smiles and iois with there smiles. MAJOR
Had two sets of dreams, in one of them I asked out brunette 1 and she said and we went out.
In the other dream I asked out brunette 3 and she said yes ( I actually asked her out twice in two seperate dreams and she said yes both times)
this is improvement from the rejection dreams I had the other day.
Today was a fucked up day which led to me being depressed and extremely sad and having suicidal thoughts (that I wont act on because of my family and friends)
It started off okay, I had Blonde 2 (the milf older one) say were going to hang out at the oscar night at my work in 10 days and sit together.
I told her I wanted to talk to her sometime because she said she's not feeling this job.( I wanted to see what her feelings were and try to get her to stay) That's when we started talking about the Oscars
Brunette 3 the one I like allot opened up conversation with me and I said something like "Me and you gotta talk I hate small talk" and she said "sounds good! with a big smile"
Later I saw her in lunchroom and finally asked her out, I said, "So I'm busy this weekend, but next weekend we should go to buntzen lake or something"
She said "And be Vegan friends"
I think this is a friendzone comment, and this made me depressed after a while, It didn't affect me at all for the first hour or two then I got very emotional.
Also buddy at work I really like was last day today and we got to sit for 20 minutes and drink a beer with everyone while work was on around 12 am, so I got more emotional later because of the beer.
I was still EXTREMELY sad before the beer though.
Feeling better now because I did two good deeds, I drove my coworker male friend to his house even though if I got caught on the way to his house and back from cops id probably go to jail for breaching probation.
He wanted to walk a 5km uphill walk at 3 30 am after working 8 hours. So I felt bad.
Then I saw two drunk guys at mcdonalds on the way back from his house going to my house and they tried going in the store but it was locked so I said "Hey why don't you hop in and u can use drive through"
He said I don't know if my card will work.
I said dw il get it for you stay here.
He said "I don't have cash!"
I said "Don't worry it's a gift"
I ended up giving them 3 egg mcmuffins.
Made me feel allot better.
I'm still not feeling great however.
I hate having emotions for women I always end up getting hurt. This is what happens when I actually like someone. I care too much.
AM is the only thing that helped allot.
DMSI doesn't numb you like AM I think.
However it has healed me in other ways, even just asking her out is something I wouldn't have been able to do before.
So I'm proud of myself for that at least.
Gives me more hope I can do it again, and again and eventually find someone I like.
Again I've never had a girlfriend, i've only banged 7 one night stands and I crave love, and want to give love.
Shannon please add something to make me not be so analytical about things after they happen.
I don't know for certain the response was negative or not because the way I said it was pretty bold and confident.
She's hard as fuck to read too because shes super shy.
It's a shit test. Proceed as normal and try to f*ck her.
(04-02-2017, 07:14 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]It's a shit test. Proceed as normal and try to f*ck her.
Fuck sakes I can't believe I didn't think of this at all.
Totally forgot about shit tests in this situation.
My response to her after she said "become Vegan friends"
was "Yeah!.. She started walking away (she was in process of leaving work when i went into lunch room) and I said "Take care!"
Both things I said was in a loud tone.
I didn't say "yeah" Like I was upset or anything.
The whole interaction I remained alpha and I felt like auto pilot was on when I said it. So it was pretty good.
I also had no weakness mannerisms showing from my face when I was asking her out. I had a straight face and good eye contact.
I think you may be right Sarge, And I am pretty happy you mentioned that. Slipped my mind that she might just be trying to test my reaction.
I told her I was busy this weekend, so it also shows a certain level of non neediness I think because if I really was obsessed with her I could easily cancel other plans?
I said next weekend so for now i'l go with the flow and see what happens this week at work.
Allowing DMSI to heal me further this week will be good but I hate small talk and shit at work.
If I get her on a date I'm sure she will like me.
I'm sure she will too man.
And I treat everything that girls say as a shit test or a nonsensical word in a foreign language. Keeps things simple for me.
The only word you need to listen to is "No."
(04-02-2017, 01:54 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]I'm sure she will too man.
And I treat everything that girls say as a shit test or a nonsensical word in a foreign language. Keeps things simple for me.
The only word you need to listen to is "No."
Ahaha that's actually a good way to perceive things imo.