(05-29-2017, 07:06 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 06:53 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 06:52 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 06:48 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 06:40 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah it is crazy for sure. It's cool that you didn't feel any different and had that effect tho. Perhaps that means it has internalized for you.
Yeah it's interesting. I'm not sure what's going on.
There are times where I really do feel it though and I have the most intense body language / eye contact.
I didn't feel that at all today however.
Interesting. Did you notice how your EC was today at all? I was purposefully holding EC toiday and got definite signs of aura and attraction.
Now that I think of it. My eye contact was very good today.
body language wasn't bad but I didnt feel super grounded. I didn't feel any anxiety in public either.
3 years ago I couldn't hold eye contact with a women if I tried ( I literally was forcing myself to do it to learn how to do it and I still couldn't)
I could only hold eye contact with chicks I was friends with already. (3 years ago)
Cool man, that's definitely it (part of it?). I've had trouble holding EC throughout my life as well but today I had no anxiety (except for some slight bits at times) and held good EC with everyone.
I think eye contact is a HUGE part of it.
The times where I have the best eye contact, attraction is instant and usually very strong.
They can sense your inner game from your eyes imo.
(05-29-2017, 07:21 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 07:06 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 06:53 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 06:52 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2017, 06:48 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah it's interesting. I'm not sure what's going on.
There are times where I really do feel it though and I have the most intense body language / eye contact.
I didn't feel that at all today however.
Interesting. Did you notice how your EC was today at all? I was purposefully holding EC toiday and got definite signs of aura and attraction.
Now that I think of it. My eye contact was very good today.
body language wasn't bad but I didnt feel super grounded. I didn't feel any anxiety in public either.
3 years ago I couldn't hold eye contact with a women if I tried ( I literally was forcing myself to do it to learn how to do it and I still couldn't)
I could only hold eye contact with chicks I was friends with already. (3 years ago)
Cool man, that's definitely it (part of it?). I've had trouble holding EC throughout my life as well but today I had no anxiety (except for some slight bits at times) and held good EC with everyone.
I think eye contact is a HUGE part of it.
The times where I have the best eye contact, attraction is instant and usually very strong.
They can sense your inner game from your eyes imo.
Yeah I think you're right. Whats next tho? That's what I wonder. Because just holding EC wasn't enough to get approached today, so there must be more. Perhaps there are other such "keys" that have as strong effect as EC, and all together they must be the full package.
As some of you may know, I've been on probation the last 2 years for selling grass & I have had a 10 pm curfew this entire time. It has affected my social life allot. I used to live an extremely extroverted / party lifestyle even though I'm an introvert deep down.
I can't go out and party at the clubs or raves like I used too. But I feel like once I have my freedom I will bang allot of women. I feel more masculine and manly then I ever have atm.
In one month I find out if i'm going to jaill for weekends only, or getting off completely with or without more probation/curfew.
But I'm really looking forward to my life after i get past all this baggage.
I never used to have the level of confidence / self esteem that I have now when I used to party back in the day and I haven't yet partied with my new larger physique that I've built the last few years.
Just wanted to let those journal readers who have been here for long time and following my progress too see where i'm at and what's holding me back ect.
Once I am free I expect allot of women and lays in my life, I'm going to bang allot of party chicks I think. I just have this feeling like it would be super easy to do now with this new self esteem and confidence and masculinity that I've developed.
, I had a glimpse of whats to come when I broke curfew and went to that work after party a month ago and it was amazing. I've never had that level of comfort and ease in social settings like that ever before.
Having been off DMSI for few days (Jumping back on tonight). I had two dreams last night where I woke up crying, I was crying in the dream too.
One dream involved something to do with my relationship with parents. I actually remember exactly why I was crying and the message was so profound and deep/touching. It was like a shroom trip or something I had an insane dream epiphany. I feel like it's helped me with my relationship in them because I had that dream.
and one dream involved me missing the chicks from my last job. Lmao, some of them who I didn't care about at all or even think or have attraction to while I worked here were the the highlight of my dream, as if I was attracted to them now but not before.
I also had another dream that was super intense and dramatic but it had nothing to do with women or healing and I didn't cry from it.
It was about some guy who made a suit and he was attempting to fly by jumping off a cliff. And everyone thought he was going to die cuz some one the year before or something did the same thing and died. But the guy ended up climbing the cliff and doing the jump and landing perfectly and not dying. It was super intense and vivid.
Did 8 loops last night.
Felt good about it.
For those who were following my natural song writing journal.
I just made a written track today , 32 bars so far is done and it's honestly the most insane thing i've ever imagined. I am having dopamine rushes listening to it and hearing how good it sounds.
The lyricism, story telling ability, emotion and flow that i've developed the last 6 months is incredible.
I don't know how much of it is from using Natural song and lyric writing but I've improved dramatically.
The song I made today is on par with 99 percent of rappers ever alive. It's incredibly good. I now see my dream of becoming a rapper as more of a possibility.
I didn't think i'd get this good this fast, I'm only 6 months into my journey and only 3 months with a microphone.
Had a job interview today (got the job, $5.80 more then i was making) doing construction again.
I had two interviews same company back to back, first it was a guy, around my age, I noticed I couldn't look at him in the eyes because my eyes are too intense and I feel like I scare people so I prefer not to look directly in there eyes. It's too intense. I look like I want to kill someone, i have a very serious face.
The second intervier was a BEAUTIFUL 10/10 irish women and I had INTENSE eye contact with her and she showed signs of attraction, I had no issues holding intense eye contact and masculinity around her.
I noticed I don't like being overly masculine around guys because they get intimidated. But women become attracted and respectful of you when I act masculine I noticed.
(06-08-2017, 09:44 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]For those who were following my natural song writing journal.
I just made a written track today , 32 bars so far is done and it's honestly the most insane thing i've ever imagined. I am having dopamine rushes listening to it and hearing how good it sounds.
The lyricism, story telling ability, emotion and flow that i've developed the last 6 months is incredible.
I don't know how much of it is from using Natural song and lyric writing but I've improved dramatically.
The song I made today is on par with 99 percent of rappers ever alive. It's incredibly good. I now see my dream of becoming a rapper as more of a possibility.
I didn't think i'd get this good this fast, I'm only 6 months into my journey and only 3 months with a microphone.
Just so happens that I'm strongly debating getting back into music production. I was killing it when I lived in San Diego -- had quite a following when I was doing open mics with various singers and rappers. Possible collab?
(06-09-2017, 02:01 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote: [ -> ] (06-08-2017, 09:44 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]For those who were following my natural song writing journal.
I just made a written track today , 32 bars so far is done and it's honestly the most insane thing i've ever imagined. I am having dopamine rushes listening to it and hearing how good it sounds.
The lyricism, story telling ability, emotion and flow that i've developed the last 6 months is incredible.
I don't know how much of it is from using Natural song and lyric writing but I've improved dramatically.
The song I made today is on par with 99 percent of rappers ever alive. It's incredibly good. I now see my dream of becoming a rapper as more of a possibility.
I didn't think i'd get this good this fast, I'm only 6 months into my journey and only 3 months with a microphone.
Just so happens that I'm strongly debating getting back into music production. I was killing it when I lived in San Diego -- had quite a following when I was doing open mics with various singers and rappers. Possible collab?
Yes I would definitely love to collaborate one day down the road. Even if just for fun and doesn't end up getting published.
I want to keep practicing for at least 6 more months before I start releasing music.
We'll keep in touch. I'll message you my soundcloud so you can see the track I'm talking about. It's pretty raw, and dark hip hop. Not all my styles are like that, sometimes I make emotional love songs ect.
The track I'm going to show you is not yet mastered or recorded professionally in studio but it's a good preview.
so far 8 hours a day has been more effective and noticeable in results.
more fatigue later in the day and more hunger.
I've been skipping subliminals / DMSI allot lately. Not using it at night time or at all for a few days at a time.
This is rare for me. I've never done this before and i've been using subliminals for the last 3 years.
Sounds like your mind trying to get you to stop because something uncomfortable.
I've been very tempted to do the same myself recently. It's mainly just force of habit that I haven't.
(06-12-2017, 06:37 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Sounds like your mind trying to get you to stop because something uncomfortable.
I've been very tempted to do the same myself recently. It's mainly just force of habit that I haven't.
Yeah perhaps it is, I started using it again last night, played 4 or 6 loops.
I wont be quitting DMSI definitely. I can see the changes happening more noticeably lately.
I noticed today that a year ago I would get anxiety and nervousness everytime I was in the probation officer building waiting to speak to the beautiful probation officer.
Today I was conversing with her talking about a large variety of topics and she seemed very interested in keeping the conversation going.
She also told me to call her if I feel stressed out, and I don't know if she was being genuine or she just wants to get to know me more and communicate with me.
We have good rapport and communication together. Good chemistry i'd say.
Regardless if she's attracted to me or not, i noticed how I FEEL when i'm with her and around beautiful women in general is 100 percent the opposite of how I was in the past.
In the past I was most uncomfortable around beautiful women, now i'm most comfortable with beautiful women and my body language and eye contact is better around women, the more beautiful they are the better.