Athena's Attract Your Perfect American Romantic Lover Journal

[Athena]

Slight update: I think these things could be from this sub. Again, internal changes. For some reason I feel like, even though I am good at times at reading body language anyway, like I am slightly more tuned in to whether a guy is attracted to me or not. Like, on Saturday night, I was waiting to order a drink and food and there were two guys. I could tell which one was possibly interested in me and which one definitely wasn't. So, that could be handy. Esp. if I noticed that from a guy I also found attractive. I can't say for SURE this guy was interested, but he would look at me and smile quite a lot. The other one looked about twice and mostly was engrossed with his phone. If I'd been interested back in both guys (initially, cos that's just the initial attraction of course) it would have helped me known which one to focus on (though I would have talked to both) and which one not to waste my time on.

Anyway I was friendly enough to both but then it was time to go to another part and order anyway.

This could be VERY HANDY.

I CAN be aware of signals at times (sometimes though, I TOTALLY get it wrong, either way) but it seemed a bit heightened.

The only other thing is, the sub is helping a bit with detachment, I think.

Someone cancelled a date, just an online guy, and although I was a bit bummed - though part of me was relieved as I felt very nervous! - part of me shrugged it off.

I've also decided that - perhaps it's a reaction to taking that year off men from April 2015 - April 2016 that i've been over-compensating for that at times?? But I know I've fallen into the trap of over-texting and initiating texts and I've decided that I'm banning myself from initiating a text to a guy esp. one of the ones I like for about 29 days. So, basically, I can text/message "Merry Christmas" to any of them, but - apart from replying to any texts/messages THEY send - I'm stepping back a bit and giving them a bit of space. And if they fall off the planet, then they fall off the planet.

Ironically, I have also been set several tasks by my life coach and one of them is to ask an online guy for his number!

I'll still going to do that. Haven't done it yet. I've asked some of the guys HOW to ask ;-) (partially to see if THEY offered their numbers, heh heh!) but I haven't directly asked a guy that yet. One of my contacts gave me an idea HOW to ask, so I will try it.

So that seems a bit in conflict with what I just said but after I do THAT, I am stepping back from over-texting or over-initiating with any new guys too.

[Athena]

I think in part of my dream last night, I dreamed I went to the States. LOL. I DID fall asleep listening to the sub.

[Benjamin]

But did you meet 4Kingdoms in your dream? haha

[Athena]

But did you meet 4Kingdoms in your dream? haha

That cracked me up laughing on the bus!!!

He might have competition though, cos an American guy I chat to in a group and I were just doing a normal chat and suddenly he said "...but, for real, WOULD you date me in real life if we lived closer? I would, TBH."

So 4Kingdoms has competition now!

American LOCAL YOKELS, subconscious, LOCAL guys!! LOL!

[blackwing Z]

LMAO if you get a cowboy.

[Athena]

I laughed so much about the cowboy thing!!!

I did google hot cowboys though, turns out they DO exist.

But yeah that would still be a little weird LOLL

[Athena]

OK, so here's a little update.

I have three men wanting to meet me. Just for you know what, but hey it's a start.

One doesn't want to anymore and I'm glad, I'll get to why! But it's also quite amusing to see what's happening. One's half Canadian and not American so I guess he doesn't count in this.

The other is American but he actually lives in London!! And IF that photo is really him, he is gorgeous, both of them are. Better not be catfishes!!

Anyway, there was a third one (also American and yes I even got to hear his accent, definitely an American guy) but he was just creepy. He was quite cute in the photo and he said he wanted to take me out to dinner as well as to have sex but later it got SOOOO STRANGE. He said something like (I'll use the slightly clean version!) "I want to have sex with you without a condom and *** in you."
I was like, "But I can still get pregnant!"
And he said
"Exactly."
I want to make you pregnant, I want you to be mine forever"
Erm...


Anyway, the other two want to meet one, well one is Canadian.
But this is progression, you guys, they actually live in my city!

The American one is from Florida.

And they are way hunky.

Mwah ha ha

So, I haven't met him yet, and not sure if I will get to but hmmm that's my update ;-)
I've gone from some men in the USA flirting with me but they are over there (just a few of them) to USA and flirting and living local LOLLL

[Nox]

Are American accents sexy? I really have no idea on this as everyone I talk to is American.

Either way you're obviously a hot catch if men are wanting to get in your jeans for your genes. I don't have kids, but if I did I imagine I'd want the good looking version.

[Athena]

I've run into this a few other times too, when they start going on about wanting to make a baby with me!!! But usually not this soon. I have had them approach it early on, but this is a record.

I like the accent and some American guys can be quite romantic.
But apart from the guy in Lousianna I used to chat to on the phone long time ago and the guy who'd lived in Hawaii and L.A. and had a strong accent who I made out with a couple of times, and much more recently, like about 2 years ago ish the older guy I had a few dates - dinners, and a movie - with, over a few months when he was in London then it fizzled out, he was from New York - I haven't had a lot of experience with American guys.

[Nox]

That's really weird to me. It seems like I know a lot of people who have been to the UK. But now that I think about it... Those were all long ago trips or stays. Most people who go on vacations now seem to go to island and cheap tropical locations unless it's a tourist destination.

You guys need a Disneyland or something. Only people who like Disneyland more than Americans (cuz 'Murica!) are Asians lol

[Athena]

We are lacking a decent theme park, true. Some are
good, definitely. But so far, Walt Disney World (went there in 2007, i
think) is THE most incredible theme park in the world. I was there for a week & didn't
see everything!!

[4Kingdoms]

We are lacking a decent theme park, true. Some are
good, definitely. But so far, Walt Disney World (went there in 2007, i
think) is THE most incredible theme park in the world. I was there for a week & didn't
see everything!!

That's too bad!! Every time my relatives visit, if they have never been to WDW. I take them for a tour. I tell them to keep up with my pace if they want to see it all!!

When we get back, they brag how they saw it all in 3 days. No one believes them... until they see the pictures!!

It's been 10 years since you've been there. Let me know when you are in the area and I'll give you a tour!!

[dweller94]

We are lacking a decent theme park, true. Some are
good, definitely. But so far, Walt Disney World (went there in 2007, i
think) is THE most incredible theme park in the world. I was there for a week & didn't
see everything!!

Alton towers & Blackpool, you no like?

To be fair, I have been twice to both, didn't go again

[Athena]

Massive setback
The American sent me a video saying "I had sex with my coworker & filmed it so you
can see how good I am"

In what f***ing world is this NOT really a massive insult hinting that I am inferior to
her & that I'm not considered even good enough for him too have SEX with?
No I didn't watch it!! I immediately deleted it & I already have issues from about 2 years ago to do with guys & photos & it brought all that back.

I think I replied "well you seem to have found someone to meet your sexual needs
& you seem a good match all the best."

I know one day I'll look back and laugh but last night I nearly cried.

He said on Sunday he wanted to meet he wanted to hook up, he wanted to meet at
10 pm - on an effing Sunday night when I get up at 4 on Monday!!

So I said no & explained it was cos of the time. I don't know if that is why he is
rubbing my face in it but he's probably just being a cruel horrible bastard.

You know?

I didn't watch it but from what I did see she was stereotypically perfect fine run off
into the sunset with little Miss perfect & leave Miss average here alone to her tears, k thanks bye.

Just sent this now i'm DONE

http://acronymsandslang.com/acronym_imag...1a8b65.jpg

I think he's stopped checking his messages but it felt good to send it