I saw a female friend from highschool few days ago while working. I then called her today and asked whats shes up too, I ended up going to her friends hosue (some female) and drinking over there and I got to know her friend and reinitiated my friendship with the friend from highschool
I now have a female friend ( I don't have any real female friends anymore but now I do)
most of my friends are males, I have a shit load of female friends but none that I'm close with or actually chill with so I don't count them.
I was very comfortable and alpha today while at the friends house. I was also extremely social and relaxed.
I also called another chick before I called the friend from highschool and I asked her to go to the bar with me. She called me back while I was busy so she texted me saying she wish she could but she couldn't find anyone to take care of her son, and she told me to call her again and we will set up a day where we hang out (aka a date)
shes also a friend from highschool but I want to bang this one and shes MINT physically and very nice personality.
I am the type of guy women like, in the past I wasn't like that because I was weak and women don't like weak men.
I CANT WAIT to have no more curfew so I can enhance my social life even more. this female friend from highschool I chilled with today has so many female friends that she will invite me to hang out with. She is a wingwoman in the sense we talk about getting me laid and meeting her friends for that purpose. shes chill as fuck like that.
I am looking forward to the future. I guarantee I will have a great sex life in the near future. DMSI has helped me so much.
btw. even just calling that chick I like today on the phone would have gave me severe anxiety in the past. NOW I HAD NONE. I still felt like "I hope this phone goes okay and I don't fuck up" but I didn't feel INTENSE anxiety like I did few years ago. IT WAS BAD BEFORE I WAS SO INSECURE. ( I felt emotionless, no feeling in my chest or heart while calling her)
Only sex magnet 3 stages made me comfortable calling chicks. alpha male didn't,
I get the feeling that allot of women are attracted to me but still my results are not that good. I used to get better interactions and results with random women I meet on the street and dog park and stuff when I did AM then SM 3 stages and WM for few stages.
Even though I get smiles all the time and more indicators of interest, they don't lead anywhere majority of the time. I feel like
they think I'm trying to bang them too much or neediness. I strongly belief DMSI is lacking in something, although it's improved my life in allot of other ways.
I want to switch to AM refresher stage so I can move back onto Woman magnet or SM. But at the same time I don't want to abandon DMSI.
I"m more confident and high self esteem then i've ever been but for some reason my results aren't as good.
(08-13-2017, 11:55 AM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]I"m more confident and high self esteem then i've ever been but for some reason my results aren't as good.
+1
I got the same thing going on.
unfortunately I decided to go back to DMSI. I feel better and more solid while on DMSI. In the future I will use this detox program again but right now is not the time i think. I need to start getting laid more to get my sexual frustration dealt with.
My best friend overdosed last week and died and was resuscitated back to life. and a friend from highschool just died two nights ago from an overdose. So I wrote this rap/poem the day I found out. It's a true story.
How many people have to die
before we learn our lesson
it has me stressin.., hopin
that my best friend will stop doing coke and
im not joking, he overdosed last week and its so sad
in grade 9 he told me his dad was a coke head
please be my homie and help me now that you know that
wish I could go back smack that bag out of his hand
another smack across his forehead..
hes a smart guy i know he knows this, i know
he has the power to his change in life in any moment,
like any one of us do, we just gotta decide
were stronger then the drugs that we do...
in life there's only up and down, so doing up and down
will leave you in the ground, your mamma in a church
and her heart'll pound, her eyes will weep, her mind
will be rioting for as long as shes alive and breaths
sorrow in her eyes you'll see , from heaven you'll see
but muted ain't able to speak, nephews and nieces
have an uncle they ain't able to see. - Iliya Ahmadi #14
Holy shit man, that's awful!
So sorry to hear that!
When people die young it hurts me. I believe strongly in living a long life, so it always really hurts when I hear things like this.
My condolences.
(08-25-2017, 09:13 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Holy shit man, that's awful! So sorry to hear that!
When people die young it hurts me. I believe strongly in living a long life, so it always really hurts when I hear things like this.
My condolences.
Thanks man I really appreciate it!!
(08-25-2017, 09:29 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (08-25-2017, 09:13 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Holy shit man, that's awful! So sorry to hear that!
When people die young it hurts me. I believe strongly in living a long life, so it always really hurts when I hear things like this. He trained with the monks in China for few years trying to clean up. He was insane at Kung Fu.
My condolences.
Thanks man I really appreciate it!!
this is the guy that died btw.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnD0rmtzHGg&t=1s
(08-25-2017, 10:07 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (08-25-2017, 09:29 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (08-25-2017, 09:13 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Holy shit man, that's awful! So sorry to hear that!
When people die young it hurts me. I believe strongly in living a long life, so it always really hurts when I hear things like this. He trained with the monks in China for few years trying to clean up. He was insane at Kung Fu.
My condolences.
Thanks man I really appreciate it!!
this is the guy that died btw. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnD0rmtzHGg&t=1s
Wow. Unbelievable how that guy OD'd on coke. I never understand such things. But it's sad.
(08-25-2017, 10:22 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (08-25-2017, 10:07 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (08-25-2017, 09:29 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ] (08-25-2017, 09:13 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Holy shit man, that's awful! So sorry to hear that!
When people die young it hurts me. I believe strongly in living a long life, so it always really hurts when I hear things like this. He trained with the monks in China for few years trying to clean up. He was insane at Kung Fu.
My condolences.
Thanks man I really appreciate it!!
this is the guy that died btw. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnD0rmtzHGg&t=1s
Wow. Unbelievable how that guy OD'd on coke. I never understand such things. But it's sad.
It's actually Fentanyl. He did either heroin or Oxycodone. Fentanyl is a major crises where I live the last few years in BC people die and OD every single day like 10 people a day.
All the drugs are laced with fentanyl too which is fucked. even coke. but mostly heroins and oxycodone. My buddy who oded got faxy oxys which were fent.
Mostly the people down in the downtown eastside are dropping like flys. But allot of young party people too have died from laced drugs last few years.
The Canadian gov't shut down a mental institution many years ago and sent people on the streets who couldnt even shit on there own. The gangs got em all hooked on drugs. They are all mentally ill.
I caved and went back to DMSI 3 or 4 days ago.
Interestingly enough I am noticing strong attraction from coworker females now. In the past not so much, but now allot of IoI's from these TAKEN WOMEN. only one of them is single that is giving me Ioi's the rest are taken.
It was very obvious today. Other days I wasn't sure. But I had things like extremely intentionally squeezing of my muscles on both arms while walking past me, one of them did this twice. It seemed very intentional. I also feel like I made that chick feel shy that morning when she first saw me.
Not sure.
but anyways, I went to the strip club today after work with my step cousin.
I had 2 beers then got a dance, some stripper came up to me and said your so beautiful, I love your eyes, and I said why do you like them, she said, there so dark!", Then I said "I got 20 minutes before I gotta leave because of curfew, lets go. I was waiting to pick a dance the moment she approached me. We talked a bit on the way up to the room.
This dance was super sexual, it was like sex with clothes on, I was licking her boobs, caressing her nipple, kissing her butt and kissing her cheeks right beside her lips(mouth) and had my hand on her neck in a strangle hold but not tightenting at all, just holding it there.
It was the most passionate sexual experience i've ever had. Foreplay to max, she was super into it, she said she can't kiss because they have cameras, and then I said I can't help my self, she said I'm there too.
It was super intense lap dance, I don't think she does it that way for other people. The bouncer even came in and said settle down.
Anyways, I think DMSI affected her too.
In fact i think DMSI is working stronger now then ever, but that being said I have gotten my muscular physique bigger then the last few months so that is surely making a difference as well.
I never was this sexual with strippers 2 years ago when I used to go sometimes, or as comfortable.
I sense another Dzemoo rising :o
(09-02-2017, 12:10 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]I sense another Dzemoo rising :o
ahahah
.. I have noticed my sexuality and personality in regards to sex has changed so much since starting DMSI. I'm much more sexual and not nearly as reserved.
TBH I barely read Dzemoo's stuff, I didn't like allot of the stuff he said but also I just wasn't reading allot of journal posts at the time. The stuff that I did read blew my mind though he was getting laid because he was completely dominant with women and sorta abusive too, that's all I remember.
If you have any story's of him and strippers or my perspective of him i wrote above is wrong please let me know, i'm genuinely curious about Dzemoo's story now, I should go back and read his posts.
I feel like an animal inside of me is coming out, once my curfew is off i'm going to dive deep into night game. For now i need to start focusing more effort on doing day game. I want a partner. I don't like going alone as much.
Anyone live in Vancouver Canada and want to daygame few hours on the weekends?
Hahaha I love daygame but unfortunately I'm not in Vancouver. Amazing city though. Would love to go back one day!