Subliminal Talk

i'm noticing a pattern here, and it's been going on since i first started subs. Every time I experience negativity during the running of a sub, it's immediately followed by a breakthrough in exactly the area i experienced negativity in.

this realization arrived after i realized I've hit my most recent breakthrough, concerning negativity about being a noob/newcomer into this business. the negativity does not serve me positively, whatsoever. it's a hindrance and causes problems. So what I started doing was flipping the script. Find out what I actions I need to do to make the situation positive.

For example, let's take the negative: I'm new to the business, I will fail if I don't play my cards right, and my partners won't feel the need to keep me around any longer and will trust me less and less and less as time goes on.

The reality is we're almost guaranteed to succeed based on the preparation and knowledge of the industry that is collectively owned by the partners.

Flipped Script: I will ride the shit out of this. I will learn as much about this industry through this company, as I'm working with some great minds. If I don't succeed from this, I at least have my foot into the industry and have many places to go after this.

I also noticed the authoritative presence taking effect. It's like a complete 100% shift from where I was during stage 2. I eased into it, i guess, but the change happened literally over night, between day 32 of stage 2 and day 1 of stage 3....

I'm guessing maximum sleep quality is doing something in the background, but i am having my doubts. I require massive amounts of coffee during the day to keep me awake from morning til night. Then, at night i'm unable to sleep for an hour and a half. but I AM sleeping quite heavily these past few days. however, i have doubts as to it being an influence of MSQ because if it was in full effect, it would ideally improve sleep quality to where i don't feel exhausted during the day.

Let's see where stage 3 takes me

(07-18-2016, 04:24 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]I switch to stage 3 on the 21st. Can't wait to move on lol, it feels like these past 29 days have gone by SO SLOWLY. well, perceivably at least. actually, i have been noting that down in my offline journal pretty often. That my perception of time seems to have slowed down. Which is definitely notable to this stage.

Funny thing you mention that. I am on stage 2 also (finishing next week) and it has taken me a very long time to finish this stage. Missed lots of days, lost motivation to listen sometimes etc. I cannot wait to get this stage done with.

During this stage life has been pretty challenging specially in terms of finance. Keeping my head up for good things to come soon.

(07-23-2016, 04:36 PM)AbundanceCH Wrote: [ -> ]

(07-18-2016, 04:24 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]I switch to stage 3 on the 21st. Can't wait to move on lol, it feels like these past 29 days have gone by SO SLOWLY. well, perceivably at least. actually, i have been noting that down in my offline journal pretty often. That my perception of time seems to have slowed down. Which is definitely notable to this stage.

Funny thing you mention that. I am on stage 2 also (finishing next week) and it has taken me a very long time to finish this stage. Missed lots of days, lost motivation to listen sometimes etc. I cannot wait to get this stage done with.

During this stage life has been pretty challenging specially in terms of finance. Keeping my head up for good things to come soon.

do you feel that time seems stretched? almost like we are painfully aware of how long every minute is if we're not doing anything, or how slowly life in general goes, if we ARE doing something?

stage 3 is flying for me. i can't believe i'm already on day 3 it's like time is just zipping by, just like i'm used to it being leepy: (i don't know how to feel about that lol)

damnit, emotions. you're getting in my way!

day 7 of stage 3, and the resistance comes just in time.

internal dialogue:
1. nothing is going on with BASE, switch to a different sub
2. who are you kidding? You? successful? HAHAHAHAHAHA
3. we shall stonewall stage 3 (in gollum's voice)
4. you're a lazy bum, how can you expect to be successful?

So the negative self talk is relentless and ruthless, and i identify it as the base of the negativity I feel.
luckily i talked with leonidas and he offered a different perspective, which made me realize the stuff going on in my mind is classic signs of resisting programming.

so it's not all that bad!

Beware of useless posts.

In other news i just want MOAR POWER.

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A thought came through to me. What if I just accept that I am entirely capable of choosing abundance to come to me? Maybe I don't have to labor so hard with blood sweat and tears, and I surely don't have to beat myself up for not doing so..

In the first place, I'm not even that attached to money, so throwing myself head long into the pursuit of it is totally against the essence that is me.
Second, I have manifested a process/method to be abundant, and so I should have faith that the process will take its course.

Abundance does not equal financial wealth to me. Abundance means having more than what I need to be comfortable.

I'm dealing with issues regarding the difference between what I envision what success looks like vs. What success is to me. False beliefs go deep regarding this matter.

stage 3 day 11

i have started noticing something very interesting.... i have what seems to be a state of hyper analysis, in the sense that I am noticing subtle differences in things. For example, I am much more in tune with other people's facial expressions, interpreting them more accurately. I also notice that while watching movies, I interpret the scene with far more clarity than I've been able to my whole life, which made me realize that my comprehension level is far different than what it seems most people have. It's almost like a switch in my brain was flipped to the "on" position.

I've also noticed that I sometimes get into what seems like a dozing consciousness. Throughout the day, I'm awake, but my awareness feels like I'm only 50% there. it's kind of weird, and i catch myself looking at something with a blank stare sometimes.. you know, how when you focus your eyes on an object in front of you, and then just completely dissolve the focus of your vision to where everything is blurry? That's what i'm talking about, but i catch myself doing that subconsciously sometimes. it's really curious

(07-28-2016, 11:39 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]Beware of useless posts.

In other news i just want MOAR POWER.

One thing i always go for in my journal is insightful and new / helpful information. I try to express myself a bit better than i did in the last post, and i dig deep to see what's really going on.

So your 'MOAR POWER' slogan resonates well with me.

It's also about efficiency and growth. That' why i have the odd habits of letting myself look at phone at certain times and playing computer games for specified chunks of time; it's all about the big picture and pushing myself to achieve my goals faster.

BASE sort of helps amplify and enlighten this idea in me so I'm constantly pushing, evolving and growing.

(07-31-2016, 06:56 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]stage 3 day 11
I've also noticed that I sometimes get into what seems like a dozing consciousness. Throughout the day, I'm awake, but my awareness feels like I'm only 50% there. it's kind of weird, and i catch myself looking at something with a blank stare sometimes.. you know, how when you focus your eyes on an object in front of you, and then just completely dissolve the focus of your vision to where everything is blurry? That's what i'm talking about, but i catch myself doing that subconsciously sometimes. it's really curious

Are you huffing Bliss XS? External apps, only, EC.

(07-31-2016, 05:27 PM)heavysm Wrote: [ -> ]

(07-28-2016, 11:39 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]Beware of useless posts.

In other news i just want MOAR POWER.

One thing i always go for in my journal is insightful and new / helpful information. I try to express myself a bit better than i did in the last post, and i dig deep to see what's really going on.

So your 'MOAR POWER' slogan resonates well with me.

It's also about efficiency and growth. That' why i have the odd habits of letting myself look at phone at certain times and playing computer games for specified chunks of time; it's all about the big picture and pushing myself to achieve my goals faster.

BASE sort of helps amplify and enlighten this idea in me so I'm constantly pushing, evolving and growing.

bigger picture thinking! yes, yes that's what it really is all about. Thanks for your feedback. It's good to internalize what I know to be true (efficiency and growth + big picture thinking), but sometimes I get all fuzzled up in my thoughts and have internal battles with myself diverting me from my goal. I have a lot of learning to do, since my background is so far away from naturally entrepreneurial. I look at where you, Raz, Shannon, and others are, and am in awe because I'm starting to recognize just what it takes to be an entrepreneur.

(07-31-2016, 06:56 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Are you huffing Bliss XS? External apps, only, EC.

STOP JUDGING ME. ;D

Actually dude, I found that loveboat lifts my mood and has almost an anti depressant effect! I sprayed a couple spritz's the other morning, and it alleviated my grumpiness

You just gave me an idea to start huffing loveboat when I get into bouts of resistance

Spray of P114 always does the trick for me. Or some Noopept. Or, crying in the bathroom with the lights out, wondering where my life is going.

... I feel so alone right now.

jk.

(08-01-2016, 06:46 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: [ -> ]Spray of P114 always does the trick for me. Or some Noopept. Or, crying in the bathroom with the lights out, wondering where my life is going.

... I feel so alone right now.

jk.

I almost brought all my noots with me to India, but I didn't want to be questioned carrying various containers of white powder and a milligram scale

(08-01-2016, 06:46 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: [ -> ]Spray of P114 always does the trick for me. Or some Noopept. Or, crying in the bathroom with the lights out, wondering where my life is going.

... I feel so alone right now.

jk.

I really wanted Noopept to work for me. Instead, it turned my short term memory into Swiss cheese. I just got dumber, and spacey as all get-out.

Quote:Or, crying in the bathroom with the lights out, wondering where my life is going.

When I read that I thought of Mankind when he sat on the floor and rocked back and forth hahaha