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oh snap, i just realized that optimus engine 3.0 might have initiated my decision to move from where i was living to where i am now. after feeling my reaction i had over being considered having a "holier than thou" attitude a couple days ago, i started making plans to leave that house and move back to the main campus of the sober living facility. and within 48 hours, i had moved back to the bed i was in during my AM6 run.
i noticed that i'm a lot more comfortable where i am now, since my ego is not in danger of being attacked as it was in the other house. so, as a result my confidence went higher, i am around more people to interact with. i'm almost certain the OE3.0 was at work here... not entirely sure why, but the reason may well present itself here in the coming days/weeks.
So I hung out with that hot 9/10 eastern european girl today. Turns out she's Polish (whch is why i asked Dzemoo about his experience with polish girls in his journal). we had great interaction, but nothing physical... although her eyes communicate crazy attraction, but for some reason i feel like i'm being kept at friendzone distance. and more likely than not, it's me friendzoning myself because of my lack of escalation confidence. inconceivablezen sent me a book on escalation, and i haven't started reading it although it's something i should start doing ASAP. (thanks IZ!)
oh yeah also.. in my AM6 journal i mentioned having dreams of this fine ass girl i refer to as "B", and how in my dreams me and her would be very close to hooking up.... well, my lovely lady friend managed to tell me some news that "B" ALSO had a crush on me during my SM3 run (and still does). god damn my obliviousness!!!!! i even brought it up to my lady friend how oblivious I am to the signals that women are showing interest, and she said that she thinks i subconsciously intentionally choose not to acknowledge female interest for some reason or another... i will not be making a move on "B" however, as my lady friend and i set some parameters on the people we can date, and "B" falls into one aspect of the boundary I agreed not to cross.
I can't wait to run the sex magnet again
the ebook is called
fearless relentless escalation
i'm running E2 for 32 days because i genuinely want to just move back onto SM3, which is my end goal... i'm just trying to clear up some of the internal garbage holding me back from growth to reach my end goal. i'd rather my time and energy while running SM3 to be spent reprogramming myself positively rather than clearing garbage, so i dedicated 1 month to a high powered garbage clearing subliminal.
oh, and fear is probably my biggest escalation block getting from zero to somewhere. escalation after that is blocked by guilt and shame from my past relationship, and then further by ideals i've been programmed since birth.
(03-12-2016, 10:36 PM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]25
oh snap, i just realized that optimus engine 3.0 might have initiated my decision to move from where i was living to where i am now. after feeling my reaction i had over being considered having a "holier than thou" attitude a couple days ago, i started making plans to leave that house and move back to the main campus of the sober living facility. and within 48 hours, i had moved back to the bed i was in during my AM6 run.
i noticed that i'm a lot more comfortable where i am now, since my ego is not in danger of being attacked as it was in the other house. so, as a result my confidence went higher, i am around more people to interact with. i'm almost certain the OE3.0 was at work here... not entirely sure why, but the reason may well present itself here in the coming days/weeks.
So I hung out with that hot 9/10 eastern european girl today. Turns out she's Polish (whch is why i asked Dzemoo about his experience with polish girls in his journal). we had great interaction, but nothing physical... although her eyes communicate crazy attraction, but for some reason i feel like i'm being kept at friendzone distance. and more likely than not, it's me friendzoning myself because of my lack of escalation confidence. inconceivablezen sent me a book on escalation, and i haven't started reading it although it's something i should start doing ASAP. (thanks IZ!)
oh yeah also.. in my AM6 journal i mentioned having dreams of this fine ass girl i refer to as "B", and how in my dreams me and her would be very close to hooking up.... well, my lovely lady friend managed to tell me some news that "B" ALSO had a crush on me during my SM3 run (and still does). god damn my obliviousness!!!!! i even brought it up to my lady friend how oblivious I am to the signals that women are showing interest, and she said that she thinks i subconsciously intentionally choose not to acknowledge female interest for some reason or another... i will not be making a move on "B" however, as my lady friend and i set some parameters on the people we can date, and "B" falls into one aspect of the boundary I agreed not to cross.
I can't wait to run the sex magnet again
From the product description:
The Optimus Engine [Version 3.0]: A specialized script and technology set that generates an intense focus on achieving the goal and finding creative and effective ways to do so that utilizes the full scope of your subconscious knowledge.
i'm at day 8 of nofap.... i miss the horniness of SM3 :'( my sex drive isn't as powerful as it was during SM3
"Touch" of any kind works, to start off. I simply smile and offer a hand shake. Sure, it's formal, but it's safe and initiates physical contact.
Shoulders and upper back and upper arms work well for initial touch also. It's easy to put a hand on their arm when talking to them. I do it kind of unconsciously anymore. Boyfriends and husbands don't appreciate this by the way.
well it's funny that i talked about 8 days of nofap, i relapsed on porn a couple hours after posting that... and this overwhelming depression took over for the next few hours after that, that was directly correllated with the porn usage. WOW that shit is BAD. i don't want to ever feel like that again :/ the guilt and shame behind it, too! wow.
(03-13-2016, 08:48 AM)AlphaReal Wrote: [ -> ]Thanks, I have read that book a long time ago, my takeaway - he says to simply start touching a girl from the get go, but I find it pretty difficult to begin with, since girls have their own issues to being touched. After reading that book I once casually placed my hand on a girl's thigh, she was shocked and almost jerked out of her seat, her reaction was new to me, luckily she accepted it later and didn't make an issue out of it.
He also talks about micro escalations. Just putting a hand on a woman's thigh, where there was no escalation before that point is just plain uncalibrated. On the other hand, if she did accept it, it also shows you something
If you want examples:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3Z4Nq0OrrM
Easy to touch. "Hey, give me your left hand, I want to see something." Then she gives you her hand, and you look intently at her palm, occasionally tracing a line or caressing her palm or wrist, and then smile knowingly and say, "You have a very interesting love line."
At this point, you're touching her, holding her hand, and caressing her palm and wrist, and she's completely comfortable with it and dying to know more.
Study some palmistry. No matter what you think of it for validity, women LOVE to hear about themselves.
Haha. To give you a heads up Shannon, 60 Years of Challenge (the author) actually calls that the ultimate physical test for a women's receptivity.
My mom taught me that when u put your open palms together, and the line that connects thru both palms is an arc or canoe shape, you will have a beautiful spouse. How true it is, I can't say.... nor do I care. But i WILL USE IT! I had this knowledge all along and haven't been using it.... i even read about it before -_-
I shall use it on the Polish girl, we spent some hours together in a metaphysical store, she would eat the reading from the palm of my hand.... pun sincerely intended.
I have found palmistry to be a seriously underdeveloped art. Then again, maybe I just haven't studied it much. But it's got a lot of stuff in there that, regardless of how accurately it works, is awesome for seduction, if you care to use it for that.
Just never say something stupid, like "Your love line says we're going to fuck."
I don't think it matters if you say that. You're expressing interest and if you're mentally/ emotionally mature and attractive there's no telling where a humouros insight could lead I don't think words and escalation always correlate
so.... i tried this manifestation thing a week ago or so, after reading a bit about it on this forum.
it was in regards to a new income opportunity. from when i started it to right now, the opportunities have presented themselves quite apparently.
1. my friend told me about a job at the animal hospital, and i received an interview 3 days after I submit my resume
2. my old boss called me back to work at the company i used to work for, with increased pay than before (but that job makes me miserable, and i hate going in to work there)
3. a friend of mine who does the same type of work as my old company (a competitor, essentially) offered to have me as a commissioned salesperson doing what i used to do at the old company.
4. i got wind that i have increased opportunities for income growth at both of the 2 jobs i have right now. 1st one basically said "step up your game, and you will be rewarded". second one offered me 1 or 2 more shifts to help my financial situation.
now, i bring this up for two reasons.
for 1, this means that undeservedness of success MUST be clearing away. If I am holding onto undeservedness of success, i'm sure it would block my manifestation efforts.
for 2, manifestation works a lot more interestingly than i expected it to. i wasn't clear as to what i wanted to manifest, so a bunch of shit presented itself, and now i have to make a difficult decision to see what will be the best route to take, considering that my emotional wellbeing is VERY important to me, and i would not want to sacrifice it for a paycheck, which although is better than before, still leaves me at just around the poverty line in the USA. [i am referring to my old job]
and it's also got me wondering if this manifestation effort was a combination of OE3.0 and the TYPE D aspect of this program.
although this damn naturalizer makes it so hard to determine anything. so i'll just leave it here in my report, and try not to overthink it.