(03-02-2016, 10:44 PM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]65 days remaining
god i really wanna just switch to EHPRA2.0 when it comes out, but i made a commitment to do OF5G for 96 days, so I will just ride it out.
Part of me is also considering switching to OGSF5G tomorrow, once my 32 days of OF5G is finished so that I can add guilt and shame destruction to my regimen. Rationally, it makes sense, since fear will still be worked on for the 64 days until the completion of my run. but my wallet has other ideas, considering EHPRA 2.0 will be AT LEAST 90 bucks as well, and I figure OGSF is in EHPRA anyway...... so i could just spend the money on EHPRA 2.0 instead of both it AND OGSF5G.
and for what it's worth, i have a feeling EHPRA 2.0 is going to be more than $90, considering all the additional goodies and technology it has within it. although it should be 100% worth it, and looks like it will be an unwritten PREREQUISITE to run a magnet, preferrably before AM6.
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5838-p...#pid102248
(03-03-2016, 10:59 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Almost forgot to mention this. There is speculation that this program (EHPRA 2.0) will be more than $89.95. That is and is not correct.
It is correct that this is more than likely going to be more than $89.95, eventually. But for the time being, it (EHPRA 2.0) will be $89.95 to begin with. That's my way of saying thank you for being patient with me on this. It's taken a lot more time and work than I expected.
Get EHPRA 2.0 it has
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5335-p...l#pid74139 in it and Shannon added
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5335-p...l#pid76195 plus there is a SURPISE that has to be experienced to be figured out.
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5838-p...#pid101992
(03-02-2016, 10:44 PM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]i also started doing this new method of listening. I wear my headphones around my neck, and play the ultrasonic track. frequensee registers the sound from about 6 inches away from my face, and i can feel that feeling i get when the ultrasonic is playing in my ears. with this method, i can go about my daily life, and idgaf what people think of how i look with headphones around my neck all day. but it's helping me keep my hours up, and gives more of a stereophonic experience than just my tablet blaring ultrasonic from inside my backpack. lol.
This is a brilliant idea!! Listening to the radio/mp3 on headphones was banned at my workplace. Thanks for sharing this idea!!!
Haha oh man I'm gonna get EHPRA2 FO SHO. But I need to seriously consider stopping my fear destruction partway into it just because I wanna run E2. I feel the need to laser focus on fear destruction to clear faulty, fear based beliefs.
I'm super excited for E2 tho. I can't wait to follow everyone's journal. And I'll hop right onboard when I finish OF5G.
Yeah man I like the headphone around neck method. See where it takes you !
65 days remaining
well, SHIT! it seems nearly all of my issues with women and sex are DEEPLY impacted by guilt and shame!
After sex last night, her and I started talking about our previous sexual partners, and when asked about my first sexual encounter, I had no problem whatsoever talking about it, but I went immediately dead silent when I thought about the other one. There is so much guilt and shame tied into the 6 months I was with that girl (second sexual partner), and I saw clearly how bad it f***s with my conscious desire to be with a woman. That shit is so deep rooted and embedded in my subconscious, and i had MAD insight of clarity into what my major problem is. It's guilt, and shame.
it actually made the next hour in bed with her extremely awkward, but she's such a good friend and i was able to talk it out with her, and she was my sounding board for bouncing these thoughts to her, and her bouncing back with advice, suggestions, and overall she was just a great ear to listen to my bullshit. And for what it's worth, the next time we had sex after that, I lasted a whole 12 minutes instead of 2 or 3 minutes before that. I wonder if processing guilt and shame related to sexuality contributed to that??????
as a sidenote, i'm pretty sure SM3 manifested her as a perfect sexual lover for where i'm at in my sexuality journey.
SO WHAT DOES ALL THAT MEAN?
I will almost certainly be buying EPRHA2.0 when it comes out, and switching to that immediately.
I feel like I have been fighting against myself and my need to switch to guilt and shame and fear destruction because my ego and pride wanted to reaffirm to myself that my decision to do OF5G was the right decision. So I shall officially put down my pride and ego and humbly start E2
Just run it for 2 more months bruh. It's the resistance that's making you do that
You may want to consider alternating between OF and E2.
But if you KNOW that guilt and shame is tangled with your fear, don't hesitate to run it solo. If you ever feel like you want to focus more on removing fears later, you'll always have OF.
hercules, i was contemplating it being resistance for a long time, and if it is, it's still plaguing me pretty deeply. I don't imagine I could be resisting the program that hard, especially with all the technology shannon added in this version, but you could very well be right. fear is pretty crippling and is something our subconscious needs to continue acting the way it does so destroying fear would be akin to reinventing yourself. but idk man, my intuition is kicking in on this one saying to attack guilt and shame too.
i'm probably not doing any justice to my fear because it's so tied in with guilt and shame that if i attack all 3 at the same time, it will move forward faster. otherwise, i'm taking 3 steps forward, but having 2 steps pushed backward at me, which is the guilt and the shame.
Dude, follow your gut. It's not "resistance." That seems to be everybody's universal answer around here. You know what you need, nobody else. Do what you feel is right, YOU know best. Definitely go with your intuition.
(03-05-2016, 03:31 PM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]65 days remaining
well, SHIT! it seems nearly all of my issues with women and sex are DEEPLY impacted by guilt and shame!
After sex last night, her and I started talking about our previous sexual partners, and when asked about my first sexual encounter, I had no problem whatsoever talking about it, but I went immediately dead silent when I thought about the other one. There is so much guilt and shame tied into the 6 months I was with that girl (second sexual partner), and I saw clearly how bad it f***s with my conscious desire to be with a woman. That shit is so deep rooted and embedded in my subconscious, and i had MAD insight of clarity into what my major problem is. It's guilt, and shame.
it actually made the next hour in bed with her extremely awkward, but she's such a good friend and i was able to talk it out with her, and she was my sounding board for bouncing these thoughts to her, and her bouncing back with advice, suggestions, and overall she was just a great ear to listen to my *****. And for what it's worth, the next time we had sex after that, I lasted a whole 12 minutes instead of 2 or 3 minutes before that. I wonder if processing guilt and shame related to sexuality contributed to that??????
as a sidenote, i'm pretty sure SM3 manifested her as a perfect sexual lover for where i'm at in my sexuality journey.
SO WHAT DOES ALL THAT MEAN?
I will almost certainly be buying EPRHA2.0 when it comes out, and switching to that immediately.
I feel like I have been fighting against myself and my need to switch to guilt and shame and fear destruction because my ego and pride wanted to reaffirm to myself that my decision to do OF5G was the right decision. So I shall officially put down my pride and ego and humbly start E2
And this is why I always recommend OGSF over OF.
alright meow, switched up to E2.
i immediately felt what can only be described as tingling at my temples. but it wasn't really physical sensation so much as just feeling some gears turning in my head. immediately followed by a sense of ease and comfort and muscles relaxing, and then a cool calm feeling.
All the best w/ E2.
Do you plan to switch it back and forth w/ OF or run E2 straight for 3/6 months?
i don't plan to run them back and forth, i don't see the need to do that.
I'm just gonna do E2 for 32 days and then see where i'm at.
(03-06-2016, 09:08 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]alright meow, switched up to E2.
i immediately felt what can only be described as tingling at my temples. but it wasn't really physical sensation so much as just feeling some gears turning in my head. immediately followed by a sense of ease and comfort and muscles relaxing, and then a cool calm feeling.
And this took how long to happen?
at first, i used ultrasonic... and the gears turning sensation took hold all in a matter of about a few seconds and remained noticeably novel for about 5 minutes, Shannon! I was worried about it being placebo effect.... but I came home and turned on the trickling stream, and lo and behold the gears are turning again.
loaded cannon aimed straight at eternitys_child's subconscious.... ready. steady.. fire!
32
i found out that my room mate told my other room mate he thought i had a 'holier than thou' attitude... that really hurt me that the 1st room mate had the audacity to hold judgements, especially behind my back. it hurt a lot more than i thought it would. i had to call the lady friend to process it, and she helped me through it. It became pretty apparent that it's an issue on him, not on me. there's a saying that goes like "when you point your finger at someone, there's 3 fingers pointing right back at you"... which implies that the judgement someone may make about me is really a reflection of what they see about themselves. which COMPLETELY makes sense, since the dude who thinks i'm "holier than thou" always has someone else's name in his mouth, and is always in judgement about others... so it was only a matter of time my name appeared in his mouth, and i'm sure it has been mentioned more than this once; i was only informed of it this once.
so, long story short: gossip hurts. and it affects my self esteem and confidence and my ego/pride as a man. although as a man, i like to pretend that kinda stuff doesn't affect me, but the truth is it really does.
also, i had a coffee date with this beautiful girl earlier. i really dig her presence, our conversation didn't have a single dull moment in it, although i kept feeling like i was getting awkward during our conversation, so i would re-kindle it by slightly changing the topic... but she was digging it
[side note: as i was writing this and thinking about her, she texted me..... maybe a coincidence? maybe not....] we discussed manifestation, and perhaps starting a weekly group intention/manifestation meditation session. if it doesn't become a manifestation session, it would certainly be intention. we were talking about law of attraction and stuff and how manifestation is heavily blocked by subconscious beliefs based on guilt shame and fear, and how manifesting something using the conscious mind will be very difficult if the subconscious doesn't vibe with it. i.e, consciously wanting to manifest abundance, but the subconscious feeling like it doesn't deserve abundance.... thereby creating a block to the manifestation
whoooooo. lot happened today!
Why do u care about what another guy thinks? You'll be in his good graces when u guys have a common goal. Gossip is just what u make it up to be. You'll be fine