so, 6 steps forward 2 steps back. i'm still 4 steps ahead of the game. i faced my first outright rejections today. i'm proud of that! out of 30 theaters I visited, only 2 rejected me, and both were from today, although only one was a true rejection. i managed to get the info i needed from the other one even though he didn't seem to want to comply. i attribute it to the culture, i suppose. the part of the state i was in today seemed different than the other places i've been. oh well. i'm still ahead.
(08-29-2016, 09:21 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: [ -> ]so, 6 steps forward 2 steps back. i'm still 4 steps ahead of the game. i faced my first outright rejections today. i'm proud of that! out of 30 theaters I visited, only 2 rejected me, and both were from today, although only one was a true rejection. i managed to get the info i needed from the other one even though he didn't seem to want to comply. i attribute it to the culture, i suppose. the part of the state i was in today seemed different than the other places i've been. oh well. i'm still ahead.
Very cool changes I can relate to since you changed stages!
Stage 4 is definitely my favorite and the one I'll remember most fondly. Productivity, assertiveness and social presence/skills up the yin yang. Now we're talking!
Happy you pushed through the earlier stages!
Thanks man! It's a wild ride. I was aimlessly letting my thoughts wander yesterday and I caught myself thinking that women are a useless distraction to me. That caught me off guard because I am not ready to face a reality in which that belief is firmly grounded. Also because there's a lot of other curremt beliefs and experiences that directly contradict the new thought process. But I'll let it simmer in my mind for a while. Maybe stage 4 is working on something really deep there.
Interesting experiences so far in the first week of stage 4
i'm a bit scared and nervous. i triggered some fear in myself, which in turn led to second,third,fourth guessing myself and the decisions i'm making for the future. I'm 27, and I don't have my shit together by any means. When I go back to the USA for good, I'll be coming back to a bank account with $100 in it, and basically no place to call my own, so I will likely be staying with my dad. I don't have any income opportunities lined up, nor is my car in the best working condition and even if it was, i don't know how i'll be able to fill up my tank with gas. so i've been thinking of selling the car for some extra moneys, but that would leave me with no transportation to get anywhere, and public transport doesn't run out to the suburbs where my dad lives.
At least here in india, I have my living situation taken care of, and i can get anywhere i need to get by bus and train which is quite efficient over here.
My emotions are sabotaging me again, and I see it as plain as day. The emotions make me want to carve out a little hole in a cave, and just hide there... hiding from the world and myself. but no, that's not a real option. these emotions make very little logical sense (as is the case quite a lot of the time). For one, finding sources of income has never been difficult for me. They always seemingly fall into my lap, without me doing much of anything. I am very well liked and respected in a community in Houston, and a lot of them own businesses and would probably be willing to give me a temporary job. In fact, two different guys even offered me gigs before I left to india, which i turned down because of leaving the counry. So the fear driven emotions are entirely unnecessary, and do not rationally follow my proven track record of being able to support myself financially. Things always work out in the long run. But this fear... I think it's connected in some form or fashion to a "fear of missing out", and so I'm subconsciously holding onto what appears to be a solid future, staying india... when i know that it really won't work out.
it's very interesting to see the battles within myself from a near outsider point of view. I see two sides battling within myself, observing it casually, but at the same time i'm the one experiencing it, so i feel i have to do something about it.
but one thing is very clear to me: i need to carve out a path, and stick to it and everything that comes along with it. i've been too wishy washy with shit my entire life, and i've gotta plant my roots somewhere otherwise i'll continue to be a floating vagabond, like i have been since i was 17....
this resistance is a piece of cake compared to what i'd been through in the previous 3 stages though, that's a HUGE relief!
weird... my manifestation effort last night seemed to provide FAST results! i really wasn't expecting a response from the universe the same night, but i am not complaining that i got it. i was inspired after remembering heavysm's "manifestation efforts are on fire lately" post.
on another note, i just confirmed a flight ticket to delhi, where i will be meeting leonidas, a member on this forum. i think it'd be pretty cool to see first hand the effects of someone running dmsi 2.3; supposedly it provides respect hits from guys, so if i feel a respectful vibe towards him, i'll know dmsi is working strong in him
anyway, the negativity from yesterday was fleeting, and now almost completely gone.. partly due to a situation today that was involved in the manifestation
That was a Much needed vacation! I maintained my hours, as well. There's a lot to update so I'll try to make it concise and orderly.
First off, it was badass to meet up leonidas, but I'll only mention sub related stuff, to provide an inverse perspective on 2.4. I pulled into his street and saw him outside. I feel like the aura can be active from 30+feet away, but I only felt the BAM in your face effect when I actually saw him. I hadn't read too much about 2.4, so it was mostly blind for me. But I did get an alpha vibe from him. "Respect hits" make sense, and why guys would give males running dmsi2.4 respect hits also makes sense.
Second, while I was on vacation, the structure of the business completely changed. One of the investors completely pulled out, and fed me stories here and there while I was away. She basically kept me in the loop from her side of things. My mom also dropped a few hints but she didn't want my mind somewhere other than vacation lol so she told me later. So basically, it went from 3 entities splitting 33%, 33%, & 34% to 2 entities splitting 50%/50%. And that means that if I sign the partnership agreement, I will be getting 12.5% as a working partner instead of the previously assumed 8.75%. My mind says follow the money, but my heart says RUN.
The politics being played by each entity is ridiculous, and I'm seeing it for what it is. I would rather not play this game, especially when ppl try to sway me their side. I don't want to get caught in the middle when I'm trying to get out myself.
I'm sticking to my decision to leave this behind. The business will do fine without me. I only lost 6 months of my life, and about $1800 total since I came here. But I gained a lot of people experience. How different cultures play politics. A Very valuable perspective indeed.
Funny enough, I got my living situation back in Houston already sorted out. Next order of business is employment, and I might pick up an inside sales position with commission, to test out my newfound knack with communication.
17 more days til departure.