Subliminal Talk

Entertaining proverb.

Maybe this is a sign that I may need more healing and clearing, but I'm of the mind that completely disregarding someone else's culpability due to "knowing beforehand that's how they are" is a cop out. Nobody should get a completely free pass just because of some ignorance, real or feigned. If they don't put in the effort to educate themselves on a thing they very much should reap what they sow, however small that consequence may be.

I don't believe you should completely let this girl off the hook; if you're the forgiving type feel free to choose to forgive her, but definitely keep in mind that that was her second chance with you and she shouldn't have anymore opportunities to keep you around.

I think there's a miscommunication or misunderstanding of my post. I processed all of that as a sense of healing myself. In no way am I letting her off the hook. In no way is she getting a free pass. What IS happening, however, is that I'm getting relieved of the bandage of the pain and suffering I endured for my own actions and beliefs. That's it. My side of the street is being taken care of.

Ah, groovy. Yea, it was a misunderstanding.

I'm going to start listening to A as of today. whoowhee, resentment is a killer. haha. it's crazy enough that the situation gives me pangs of resentment. but for it to permeate my entire being? I NEED MOAR CL3ARNG ! and yes, I'm reaching for A as a form of comfort. And yes, I'm hoping I hit that H drip.

waiting on that h drip like




hahahahaha jk. but not really though, i could use a hit of that h drip >_>

thanks for chiming in alex, i appreciate your insight. made me think a little further on giving her potential cop outs. also much kudos to my friends who listened to me bitch and complain for the last 2 days. lol.

Moving very close to the goal. Here's why:

1. Celebrity effect has given me mad social proof today.
2. Flirting with beautiful women is much more fluid and natural.
3. Resistance was overcome by copious amounts of black coffee and interaction with beautiful women; it didn't even have to be flirting with them. Just talking to them really beat up my wall of anti script-execution.

Here's how it could be improved, based on my experience today.

1. Celebrity effect is very powerful, but I feel it needs a little refinement. It caches the attention of women for sure, but it may not translate directly into attraction. And if it did, I am still untrained in picking up these cues.

2. If it's one of the first few interactions with an affected responder, Make the affected responder do whatever it takes to set up a subsequent meeting, whether 1on1 or party, etc. Or implement NSuserside to automatically set up the next future event, if the goal isn't achieved at the end of that interaction. Future event = date, meeting, party, etc.



So what had happened was that I was feeling way in my head so I message the wicca girl I was sharing the shift at the club tonight. I asked if she was at the club yet, that I needed to get to a safe place to stay out of my head. She told me she was there so I headed there.

At the club I talked to one of the guys I look up to, 74 year old military veteran who's been sober for 35 years. I tell him about the shit going on in my head. He shares his experience a bit, and it helped.

One by one, people that I know slowly started trickling into the club. Each person that I know greeted me with hugs and warmth. They also introduced me to their friends if applicable. I eventually had to get behind the coffee bar to work the shift with Wicca girl. At this point, I learned that I flirt best in a public setting, where I am at maximum comfort of my surroundings. Work at job#2 being the environment and public setting.

Anytime someone bought something from the bar, I made jokes to make them laugh, or flirted with them hard. At one point in the night there was this older blonde who came up to the bar and ordered a coffee as I was bouncing to the beat of a bad rap song that the dj was playing. She says something about "I can't believe you guys like this music! "
Me: that's racist
Her:what?!
Me: I should say that's generationalist! Don't talk shit about my generations music! US millenials have it different than you.
..
I don't remember the next few sentences we exchanged but it ended with her guessing my age at 22. I said "OLDER".
Her:23
Me: OLDER
Her; 24
Me: jeez don't you see the gray in my hair ? *points to hair *
Her: how old are you? !
Me: 27
Her: OMG I HAVE KIDS OLDER THAN YOU *walks away nervously*

She endeded up coming back later, and was more open to more flirting. I think what had happened was that she had self cockblocking kick in when she learned my age. But the anti self cockblocking module on responder side eventually cleared whatever might have blocked at least the flirting interaction. It might have also been the fact that I was flirting with EVERYONE and she noticed, and felt more comfortable around me.

My natural enfp rainbow vomiting talent came in very handy at meeting new people. I met a lot of new people today, men and women. This helped social proof soar, especially when the women noticed how popular I am among my peers. Reddo showed up tonight too, looking SO HOT. But she turned me off entirely when she shit tested me via text, and I laughed at her attempt and hadn't messaged her back. She said something like she's banned from seeing men. I said "hahahahahhah. Okay never mind then". She said "just kidding. I meant I'm only banned from seeing men from (xyz)".
I thought to myself that if you are on restriction from seeing men from anywhere, you a ho, and I can't get down with that. Sorry girl. I try to be careful when using ho shaming terms because most of them don't deserve to be shamed for being promiscuous but damm. Lol.

Man, and there were so many other amazing small incidents that occurred with women here and there, that aren't worth detailing but definitely worth mentioning. I have a solid standing in my community, and people really respect me for the value I contribute to their lives. And it is being enhanced by the dimsee charisma training and clearing. So girls that I've only met once or twice before saw my social proof today and I know for fact that they will be remembering who I am going forward.

Another funny incident was when this girl who looked like a feminazi came up to the bar. We started talking, and somewhere in the conversation she asked me if I was atheist.
Me: uhh... not anymore. Why?
Her: oh...
Random guy: did you just assume his religion?
Me: yeah I'm like, really offended that you totally just assumed my spiritual beliefs. Like wtf. You should be more sensitive to other people when you ask shit like that. (I kept a straight face the entire time while saying this).
Her: o_o
Me: I'm just f****ing with u
Her: o_o I'm really gullible. And I also don't know how to handle being f****ed with.
Me: uh-huh.

I had such a cruel sense of satisfaction doing that to her, knowing she had some serious SJW tendencies. Trolllololol

And the best part of the night was 5 min before midnight, wicca girl and I shut down the cofee bar to go dance. The dj plays some dubstep. And I start just doing my thing on the dance floort. Women started busting out there cameras, guys started pointing at me and staring.
Next thing I know, every single person in the room (40-50 ppl) stopped dancing, were standing around me, and cheering me on. Now that was celebrity effect, if I've ever seen it. But to be fair I'm a dope dancer to begin with

With a night like this, with the insane quantity of women at my disposal, how could I possibly still feel the nasty resentment and bitterness that I did for 48 hours towards one woman, despite how much I love her?

At least for now, the resistance has passed. I'm being cleared. 2017 is gonna be a good year, for my women, and for my finances.

Hahaha I laughed at you giving the sjw crap. I initially was like "hmm rule 4" but it doesn't really expand on it so should be okay. I'll see what Shannon thinks I guess.

Some awesome shit happening to you man, enjoying your journal.

(01-01-2017, 01:27 AM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Hahaha I laughed at you giving the sjw crap. I initially was like "hmm rule 4" but it doesn't really expand on it so should be okay. I'll see what Shannon thinks I guess.

Some awesome shit happening to you man, enjoying your journal.

yeah man it's really fun to pull these cards on people who have clearly pull these cards on the regular. (hope this doesn't break the rules but i'm gonna describe an experience i had 2 weeks ago)

so on sundays i manage people who do (court ordered) community service at the AA club. i was talking to this one hood black guy who was doing community service. we exchanged light banter back and forth, and then he asked me if i knew where to get a job. I said "there are restaurants all over the place man, I can point you in the directino of a lot of them, but since you live 45 minutes away, I don't really know of anything in your area"
him: oh restaurants? no i was talking about something like gas stations or convenience stores.
me: that's racist and ignorant. Just because i'm indian, you think i know gas station owners and convenience store owners? (I was very clearly being facetious, even emphasizing faceitiousness by inflecting the tone with which i said that)
him: *blank stare*
him: *caught off guard*
him: wait, no man. i didn't mean that. sorry dude.
me: dude i was joking man, i don't give a shit about that; i don't take myself that seriously.

That incident was notable because he wasn't the type of guy you'd look at and consider a soft and sensitive type. This is a gangster dude, who clearly has ties with some...people. It was also notable because I could tell he used the race card a lot, and when i used it on him in a joking way, it hit home to him; i wasn't trying to go out of my way to hurt the guy, but his reaction was just funny and i laughed about it for a couple days afterward.

LOL! Hilarious! Wish I could pull the race card! (It's cause I'm white)

Actually that reminds me of something my brother did.

He told me a story how at work there are 2 levels of employee, 1 and 2, and of course 1 is better, anyhow, there are five guys (one of them Asian) and one girl.

The guys are all level 1, while the girl is level 2.

Anyhow, my brother was joking about this with the girl and the other guys and he';s like "so, how do you feel about our all-white patriarchy?"

LOL! And the one guy is ASIAN! Oh man, hilarous...

You can pull any card you want, as long as you make it extremely obvious that you are being facetious. I tend to use the "basic white valley girl" accent with exaggerated facial expressions like this when I do that shit.



Most of the time it has people rolling with laughter. This is my modus operandi when I'm teasing a girl, like when I was teasing the older blonde last night about talking shit about millenial music. Lol

Try it out next time and see if it works. I've noticed the content itself can be extremely lame, but if your delivery is on point, chick's will laugh regardless of how stupid of a thing you say. Especially if you're carrying yourself in a non needy and nonchalant way

I'm loving your journal these days Eternity, (Side Note - I have this urge to call you Kid Eternity - a favorite comic book character of mine that Grant Morrison once wrote a three issue series on, it was really cool - end Side Note) because your post these days have this wistful and carefree feeling about them.

You also seem just generally happy.

I'm looking forward to seeing you realize your full potential.

I'll leave you with a quote for your New Year:

Never have I found the limits of the photographic potential. Every horizon, upon being reached, reveals another beckoning in the distance. Always, I am on the threshold. W. Eugene Smith

Well thanks DB! (Desi bro)

It's all the more worth writing it the way I do, if people get something out of it.

The journey to unlocking the full potential is a JOURNEY indeed!!! And it's nice to know brothers from around the world are also on this journey with us. It's so much more than the superficial sex which although we all want, is not the "prize" of this dimsee program. It's the growth we are making in other areas of our life which compound into the sex we will achieve once fully unlocked. And that's the exciting part. It's what makes it worth being called a journey.

Even in the darkest moments during the course of running the program, there's a sick sense of satisfaction I get knowing that the bad must only be endured so that the good can come in. :)

Cheers

I forgot to mention this the other day, Shannon!

On Thursday, when the emotional storm first hit, I laid my head down on my pillow and I swear I heard the ultra sonic in the background, despite having been 10+ hrs since finishing my loops. This could be placebo, fluke, or anything else. But it should be reported regardless.

yesterday was day 2 of being back on A.

I think the emotional hangover was still lingering, as yesterday was really taxing on my body. I went for a 2.5 mile run just to further deplete my body's resources, and because I wanted to be rid of the nasty feeling the clearing instigated.

I ended up sleeping at 7pm and completely and intentionally missed going to an 8pm meeting where many of the girls from new years eve frequent. i was far too tired to function, nor did i have the patience to deal with people or women.

So I slept at 7, woke up at 10. went back to bed at midnight, and woke up at 10AM, making it a solid 12 hours that I slept.

Before i slept, however, i was exploring this new theory that sugar would provide the sub with the energy it needs to execute. so I ate 5 chocolate balls, and I think the program was able to successfully use that for script execution energy.

As soon as I ate the chocolate balls, I was knocked out.

I vaguely remembered getting head in my sleep. it felt extremely real, now that I consciously remember it, but it wasn't until 2:00 that i even remembered it. But I did have a wet dream. SATT?

so far i hypothesize black coffee kicks in the aura by providing heat energy (insanely strong black tea doesn't seem to provide the same effect, although I haven't been in the same testing environment to keep other variables consistent).

after last night, i find sugar/chocolate is also able to provide the aura with immediate energy, if it's required. obviously chocolate before sleep will be an issue for others who have weight troubles, but it seems the sweets before bed helped fuel SATT to kick in overnight.


Most of this post is theory, and not much science but i hope it helps, Shannon.