Subliminal Talk

Everything helps, amigo.

i keep forgetting to mention things, lol, but this one should be a good piece of info for your collection.

2 days ago, i invited my mom to drop in on my listening session, telling her that she has to be okay with being in the room for 3.5 hours if she does. she obliged. unfortunately, she was only able to stay for 1.8 loops (definitely broke ASRB multiple times lol). FWIW she's an ESFJ

she knows what to expect as far as the healing is concerned. First, i want to mention that my parents recently divorced 2 years ago, and they've both been intensely F**** over it. i feel i can help them do something about it if they are exposed to A.

today, mother said she'd been feeling like crying today and yesterday. her eyes definitely show some sadness. I told her that the amount of sadness she's feeling is masked, so she can be sure that she's healing at a level of 10x what she's feeling. she also came up to me randomly a few hours later to tell me that when she was at her friends house last night, her friend registered her an account on POF. i can't chalk this up to coincidence, AT ALL. It HAS GOT to be the sub, despite having listened to 1 full loop + very spotty exposure to a second loop.

she said she got 20 something messages on POF, and proceeded to start telling me about something which was triggering misogynistic feelings in me, so i cut her off and said "i'm happy for you but please stop telling me about this".

So the stuff yesterday that happened was 36 hrs after exposure to the sub, and today she told me these things at approx 52 hrs after exposure. surprise surprise, the sub works really quick on women. lol, as if that's a surprise at all (haha)

as people raised in the sexually repressed culture of india, there are some deep things that will be worked on as my parents get exposed to this sub while i'm listening to it. i think i'll be sparing in how much i expose it to them, however. my dad (INFP) got about 3 days in a row of A exposure through the wall, and my mom got 1 days worth of exposure to A by being in the same room as me while listening. i wouldn't want to mow them over with a bulldozer since they're not experienced with subliminals.

All I know is that I love my parents very deeply and to see them so hurt, so lonely, so depressed hurts me to a considerable degree (empath? enfp? whatever you want to call it.). and i feel like in a way, if i have in my possession a tool to help them considerably and choose NOT to do so, it would be very selfish of me to keep this to myself. and no this is not a part of my guilt complex, this is a part of me that wants to see the best shine in others, especially to those that gave me life.

i felt the desire to perform another test, and that is what i did.

i attended a meeting in my local town instead of driving 30 minutes to the one i used to attend when i was living elsewhere. what i knew beforehand was that i was going to see a couple women that i met at the new years eve party. These women saw my social proof that day. I also knew there were going to be women that have NOT seen my social proof, and have seen me once before, while i was in the first 6 days of v3.0.1A. And of course, women that I've never seen or met.

With this knowledge, i thought it would be a good testing ground, as for the most part, my results have been based entirely on men and women that knew me beforehand, or women who were around enough people who already knew me to where the social proof had the potential to outweigh the program's effects.

what i found out was the aura still worked its magic, just as powerfully as expected, and there was even a manifestation! short Hispanic woman with blonde hair who was slightly older than me. ALL OF THE CRITERIA that i really enjoy! The story was that I came to the meeting 15 min early, and i was the only one there. i set up chairs, and sat in the chair exactly in the middle. i went to go get coffee, and a couple people trickled in, and this girl took the seat i was sitting in. i was like WTF so i just plopped into the seat next to her, when there were like 30 open seats elsewhere, and introduced myself to her, and found out she's visiting from Miami but used to live in this town 3 years back. at first her legs were crossed and she seemed closed. couple minutes in (didn't time it, but it was definitely a couple minutes and not seconds), and she was fidgeting, repositioning herself, and at one point she had crossed one leg so tightly over the other leg, that i can only assume she was starting to drip (is it safe to assume that? i don't know if i'm giving enough data to make a correlation). any time i looked her direction (but not at her) i saw that her head turned and looked at me. she also mirrored me a couple times.

okay, next: I caught young girls (18-21?) stealing glances at me. i suppose they aren't as adept at hiding attraction as the older women, or they were waiting for me to catch them. Now. To negate any possible claims of placebo, I would like to mention clearly that the frequency of it happening tonight far exceeded that of which I've experienced on pheromones, far exceeded that which i experienced during E2 and definitely exceeded that which I experienced during SM3.

There was one girl who looked at me and smiled the first time we made eye contact with each other. I smiled in return. I was confused if it was one of the girls I met on Saturday, as the girl on saturday had a lot more makeup, and this girl did not have any. But DAMN did she look FINE without any make up. I saw pure, refined, natural beauty in her tonight. She was probably 18/19. Being confused, I was a bit awkward and didn't know how to respond lol.... but the chances are that it was the same girl, because what are the odds of some random girl looking at me 30 seconds after she comes into a room, making eye contact, and smiling warmly? I guess the chances do exist since I'm running a program whose goals are to instigate just that, but the sentiment behind the question still remains.

Finally, the woman who led the meeting. She was sitting at a table at the front of the room, and the chairs were in a U shape fashion around the table. I was directly in front of her, in the middle of the room. She was a short, hispanic woman, with a swiggity swooty booty, and was wearing sharp pointed heels (stillettos? idk what they're called). She'd gone through every seating position in the book, but each time, she would have either both feet pointed directly at me, one sharp heel pointed right at me, one knee pointed at me (while her legs are crossed all crooked and weird, can't figure out for the life of me how a woman can sit like that????????) at one point i caught her spacing out looking right at my chest, where there is a blue kyanite pendant around my neck on a gold chain. it was a good 5 seconds that she was staring lol. she caught herself and adjusted accordingly.

oh, and this unattractive SJW blonde was looking at me, but she only got slightly higher than baseline aura.

I was definitely sniping the 2 hispanic women and the beautiful natural no makeup young girl.

Unfortunately i didn't make a move on any of them, nor did i care to because i just wanted to come home and SLEEP!

but at least we know now that while my social proof did help tremendously in providing attraction symptoms (lol), the social proof is not entirely required to make a manifestation sitting next to me squirm in her chair.

Obviously, it was all just placebo and imagination, because you didn't have them gang rape you. lol

I think my vision is actually improving noticeably. Last time I had my eyes checked was in 2014. I had my eyes re-checked the first week of dimsee3, and the optometrist said my vision got slightly better, and the glasses I had been using was too strong for me. Now, 3 weeks later, I'm actually feeling the strain of wearing these glasses that I've worn since 2014, which are too strong for me !!!!! Only thing I can assume is that I think the sub has been working on improving my eyesight. Unless there are other ways to improve your eyesight that I've been unintentionally doing.

FWIW: I had a slight astigmatism, and it would make sense for the sub to correct it, as symmetry is attractive

oh yeah... and yesterday, i busted out crying, twice at different times. not full blown baby crying, but the emotional explosion crying where i turned into a baby for about 3 whole seconds and then cleaned up my act and got it together.

the first cry was triggered when a girl said "if i could go back in time, and choose to not go the same path I went to get to where i am, i wouldn't take the opportunity to do so. I would much rather re-live all the heartbreak, all the court cases, all the drama, the craziness, the hospitals, jails, etc. so that I could have the experience I'm having now". after hearing her say that I had to put my hands over my eyes because it hit so close to my heart, and the waterworks started. the shittiness of my past is precisely what I had to overcome to have such a positive life right now, and i wouldn't trade it in for an entitled life. #clearing

the second cry was when i got off the phone with a friend. I talked about how i was going to have to adjust the 5 people I devote the most time to, to people who serve a purpose on my journey forward in my life. That would entail letting go of 2 friendships I valued very much, both of whom are women. But both of them just got engaged over the holidays, and our lives are going to go in completely divergent paths and the thought of having to let go of friendships that were so valuable and precious over the past 2 years destroys me. #clearing

had a dream last night that i was using facebook, even though IRL I deleted facebook 2 weeks ago. don't know how it relates to dimsee, but i do know i used facebook addictively, and it was a constant hit of dopamine for me so by removing it from my life, my brain misses the dopamine hits and demonstrates it by dreaming about it

The emotional shield is protecting me from the majority of the clearing, but I feel like the lenses through which I see the world is colored with gloom. Emotionally, I don't feel sadness. But I sense it hovering in and around me. It's like my soul just wants to let out some tears.

I hit a breakthrough a couple hours ago, which immediately initiated the energy activity around my heart. I did not like what I concluded; in fact, I very much want to fight tooth and nail against it being true, if it were true. But, if it turned out to be true, I should accept it as the way it is. Likewise, if it's all in my head, I should accept that the way it is as well. The words "just be" rings in my mind.

Interestingly enough, just writing that last sentence, and then internalizing what I wrote, kicked on the h drip. Interesting.

Just Be = acceptance of script?

Anyway, I am completely introverting today. I'm just going to get me some much needed rest. A seems to be taking a lot more physical resources out of me than B. I can't seem to refuel fast enough.

Clearing and healing is a sub all by itself, man! You bet it takes more fuel than B.

(01-03-2017, 05:44 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Clearing and healing is a sub all by itself, man! You bet it takes more fuel than B.

I cannot wait for e3, whose pure purpose will be clearing. It's going to be intense. O_O. You are affecting lives at a deep inner level. Dare I say soul level? It must be gratifying if you get past the surface level crap you have to deal with from us

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I feel nauseated from whatever I'm clearing. It may or may not be related to my breakthrough from earlier, but I'm definitely in conscious acceptance of the breakthrough I experienced earlier. Either that, or I'm at the threshold between X & acceptance, where X is whatever comes before acceptance.

I can sense my subconscious trying to escape the clearing, as I feel an urge to run B, which is almost 100% due to wanting to escape the clearing. The feeling now is distinctly different than what I experienced before switching to B last time, which could have been described almost as a "run B, it'll be more effective". Although if I remember correctly, I switched to B right after I experienced crying in my sleep, so I might have tricked myself into running B last time. This time feels significantly more aware, and I'm conscious that I want to escape.

I ate some cookies to try and give the program more fuel but at this point I think the clearing just needs time. The sugar before bed thing has to stop before it gets out of control LOL.

Consciously, I'd like to instigate something to feed to my subconscious and see where that takes me. I ask myself : if I were to never have a woman in my life ever again, can I be okay with that?

At this moment I cannot say definitively yes or no. Not that the answer will affect the outcome in any way, but if there's a lingering fear of being alone for the rest of my life, that will certainly be an obstacle for the clearing to address.

Hmm, I'm quite introspective, and quite introverted at the moment. Riding the ebb and flow of emotions the clearing is bringing upon me.

It's like I'm growing so fast that my conscious mind can't keep up, and that results in feeling down. I'm not resisting, I'm clearing. And I am now consciously aware of the difference between the two, which was easily mistake able for each other before. I bet the SATT also involves auto training to heal and clear too. And if it doesn't, it would be an interesting addition to 3.1

#ramblingsofanauseateddimseeuser

SATT includes a sub-module to train yourself to achieve ALL of the goals of the program.

That would partially explain how I'm getting better at passing shit tests without understanding them. It would also contribute to my understanding of what I find attractive, thereby affecting manifestations. Ideally, it would mean I SATT myself into knowing how to consciously focus the sniper, and in the long run SATT the knowledge I need for NSFM to kick in.

I'm assuming SATT and NSFuserside give each other feedback loops, in that SATT allows me to learn from the mistakes I make with women (which, I hate to admit, is plentiful! ), and this automatic training will feed into NSFM's knowledge with which it can pull data from. Further mistakes made by me will further fuel SATT and make NSFM better. In which case, if I do what Sarge is doing by going out and consciously approaching and (attempt) seducing on a daily basis, the SATT/NSFM combo will cause exponential growth!

Does this mean I can SATT on my ass all day while ultra success does its thing? In all seriousness, this is wonderful news, Shannon. But if my train of thought is leading me in the right direction, it means I gotta start taking more action if I want to speed up the results. And I sure as hell do want the results but if I'm taking more and more action, I'm going against "just be".

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On a more weird note, I woke up feeling cleared of everything, emotionally. I took this as a sign to restart B, and so I did. 4 days of A helped me clear up a lot of internal stuff which I could feel was dragging me down; things which my 10 days on B brought to the surface, the very things which I'm glad became fuel to the clearing fury of A.

This morning I was feeling withdrawn and seeking solitude. 2 hours after completing my loops, I received a shit test which made my heart race with anticipation. I passed this shit test, and even dared push a flirty text message, which increased my heart rate even more. Followed by a satisfaction that whether or not I win this flirt round, there will be many more rounds to come. I haven't received a response back yet, tho. I want to imagine she's squirming with desire, but I could be deluding myself!

She is... her panties are soaking so she will have to take them off

(01-04-2017, 04:28 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]She is... her panties are soaking so she will have to take them off

Hahahahaha. Dude tonight I sat next to her for an hour, and about 15 min into the meeting, I got up to use the bathroom, only to find out my own panties were soaking. Wtf is this all about?!?! Is this a sign that she was soaking, too?!

I'm also noticing that B causes me to lubricate a lot more frequently; all I have to do is think about this particular woman and I'll need to change drawers. the sniper is always active on her, if she's around, as we have a really powerful mirror connection, and she's one of the most gorgeous women I've ever seen in my life.

Tonight:

Environment was the usual Wednesday night meeting with the usual people. I sat in a corner today, instead of middle of the room as usual.

There were a lot of beauties within a 7 foot radius around me, and I was burning up like crazy! The more women that are affected, the more energy the sub uses. I felt like the energy was just draining out of me and I was having trouble staying present.

L celebrated having 1 year sober, and i ended up bawling my eyes out for about 20 seconds, out of happiness. Lmao two days in a row I am a crybaby! !! ALPHA MALES CAN CRY and I'm not afraid to say it.

Autopilot guided me to seduce one older woman unintentionally, demonstrating me as the dominant one. I say seduce, but the job was only done halfway.

2 women told me straight up they were unhappy with their husbands. This is a common theme lately. I take it as an invitation now, nothing less.

There were a lot of women showing lots of attraction, but I've already covered all these data points in my journal so I don't think it will add anything new by describing it, but the consensus can be made that dimsee works, and works well.

What a switch! Seems only a few days ago you were frustrated and stuff. I hope to have the same trend hit me soon.