I was asked by an attractive female friend of mine if i wanted to hang out on saturday night, but i told her i was going on a date and that i was preoccupied. *segway to next topic*
This girl i matched on tinder turned out to be a nut case, and she basically disqualified herself from our date on saturday. I "dodged a bullet on that one" according to a friend. *un-segway back to previous topic*
So I texted the attractive female friend "AFF" and said "The girl for this date got too weird on me. So I'm not gonna meet her Saturday. LET'S HANG"
I ended up seeing her 2 and a half hours later, and she says out loud, in front of 4 other guys in our social circle "I BUSTED OUT LAUGHING SO HARD WHEN YOU SENT THAT MESSAGE about that girl!" and then she proceeded to tell one of our other friends the story of how i had a date, then it got weird, and then i said to AFF let's hang, but all the while showing a high level of attraction towards me and "orbiting" me.
then i proceeded to say something along the lines of "YEAH THAT BITCH got weird! so i hit you up and was like 'let's f***
[WTF DID I JUST SAY! LEMME REPHRASE THAT] f***it, let's hang!'"
was that a freudian slip?? i had to check myself a few minutes later and ask myself if i really accidentally said "let's f***" instead of "f*** it let's hang!". couldn't believe those words came out of my mouth by "accident" (autopilot), and i was so quick to "correctly say what i meant" that i played it off like a complete pro.
Well, one thing is becoming apparent to me. any potential "best friend zone" i have possibly been placed in, by 4 of the 5 girls who have done so, is seeming to be undone. the only one who hasn't shown any possible signs of un-best-friend-zoning me ist he one who i haven't seen in over a month, but we're in contact daily, and we are meeting next week sometime (aura should be in full force by then bwahahahaha, and she's the hottest of the 5)
things i haven't realized are worth mentioning until lately:
--i have a RAVENOUS hunger that is insatiable
i think about food so damn much. i'm 20 pounds underweight as it is. so maybe the food isn't just going to power the aura, it's to put me at an ideal weight
--also having this "sensation" in the groin area. similar sensation to the first time i ever turned on e2 and felt a "sensation" at my temples.
--one on one communication is becoming much better, especially with attractive women.
-- productivity seems to waver. sometimes i'm freaking useless at work. other times i'm finishing 3 hours worth of work in 20 minutes and having excess time to goof off and do this forum (like i'm doing now LOL)
--light hearted as F***. it's impossible for me to take anything too seriously, including the fact that i'm forced to live on the floor of my dad's living room due to unexpected life events that made this a reality
--experiencing a stronger bond with my male friends; this is a completely unexpected side effect, but i'm welcoming it. Strong masculine friendships are just as useful for me as fun and light (attractive) female friendships.