Subliminal Talk

I've been doing trickling hybrid A since 3.1's release. My sweet spot volume level is the lowest possible volume before it's muted.

Interestingly, I get impulsive urges to run version B every now and again, but those impulses don't last long AT ALL. Maybe a few seconds, tops. I know I belong on version A for quite a while. I'm still not conscious of any clearing that I may be going through, though it seems some others are aware of it.

My mood is pretty good lately. No negative emotions brought upon by the clearing.

I'm having an intensely difficult time staying present in each moment. I have a tendency to zone out my awareness and become "passive" to the current moment, when I feel like escaping. And there's no logical reason to escape situations either- it's just a force of habit I guess. I would really like to work on this.

(03-10-2017, 10:14 PM)eternity Wrote: [ -> ]oh yeah and an interesting thing I need to note is that I've been doing energy channeling lately. Yesterday and today I channeled middle pillar energy, and immediately I felt the energy being used by the sub. Immediately after channeling, I became much more lucid. Things in my line of sight became sharper, and had more clarity. I just did it again now, and felt more energized.

After doing it a few times, I'm starting to realize that doing this kind of channeling is like a state shift in many ways. If that's the case, I shouldn't do it with DMSI....

Do be careful with middle pillar. I can't say for sure yet but it might be more than you would like with what Shannon has going already.

Pingu

Pengdoog.

Interesting. I was at a funeral/memorial yesterday. Women were looking at me constantly. It didn't help that the guy making the speech was saying stupid idiotic things. My eyes started to wander too. And that's when I was catching SO MANY women making eye contact with me. It was insane. You would think I'd be used to it by now, but all the women eyeing me just gave me some (much unnecessary) validation XD.

While we were all eating, one of the women (who I have known for 2 years) told me she's in my town every weekend, and that I should come over "to watch a movie". Jeez, I think the line "come over and watch a movie" is the cover up statement for "come over and F*** me". There was another woman who was flirting with me and got my # and continued to flirt via text message until later that night.

Interesting that even considering the circumstances that we were at our friends funeral, they still hit on me.

L was there too, and she told me later that she couldn't stop looking over at me the whole time we were there. After the funeral I drove to her house and had the best sex I've ever had. She had 6 days of bloom from 3.1A as well.

We talked about being free to see other people. She was concerned that if I got serious with another woman and the other woman told me that I have to stop seeing L, L is going to be distraught. I said how preposterous it would be if a woman were to attempt to limit who I see or don't see. And that if there was a woman who tried to do that shit to me, I would not have her in my life. I think this accomplished 2 things. 1) demonstrated that she can feel secure that I wouldn't let another woman stop me from seeing her, and 2) that she herself shouldn't try to put the preposterous rule that I can't see other women.

That night, we listened to the 2 loops of 3.1a together. The feedback loop of our individual auras is such a beautiful synergy. Never have I ever felt so deeply connected to another human being in my life. The sexual mastery module affecting two people who have sex with each other = heavenly sex O_O... she also made statements that confirmed to me that MY aura is affecting HER:
"You are such a sexy man"
"I imagine us in a future lifetime where we both are the same age and we both have kids. What do you think our kids would look like?"

Now that I'm back home, my head is hurting very badly.

To touch on the exhaustion / time lapses... they caused me to nap during the day yesterday and today. I haven't taken a nap in months, so it was out of character for me. The sleep was so deep that I went straight into a dream state that was so vivid it was difficult to tell it was a dream. Unfortunately I forgot the context of the dreams, but I guess they might be visions or SATT in action.

Just remember... exposing HER will cause HER to manifest other guys for sexual opportunities, just like it will cause you to manifest other females.

Be careful what you ask for. DMSI is a double edged sword when you use it that way my friend.

True that. I know that and it's part of the reason why I'm exposing her to it. The primary reason is for the healing. Secondary reason is to prevent her from catching one itis with me because the fallout she's experiencing is deep and profound, and I do NOT intend on having an exclusive relationship with her

OK guys. I have to admit it. I love validation. I love attention. I'm trying to figure out why I love it so damn much, but I guess it's a part of my ENFP personality.

There's definitely an unhealthy way of seeking validation, which is a form of neediness. What I'm experiencing now is not neediness at all. It's just a genuine love of attention XD. And there's NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT! :angel:

(03-13-2017, 03:27 PM)Samba99 Wrote: [ -> ]I second agree with the attention thing, I think DMSI is doing that. Today at the gym I got many attention which was awesome and exactly what I was looking for. But at the school I didn't get much attention which really upsets me lol. What an attention seeker

And so begins the paradigm flip, where us men experience what it's like to get nonstop attention from women. Just like a 10/10 woman gets from men, all day long.

I can dig it

My sweat smells healthier even though my eating habits have gotten worse XD

And... freaking weird dreams last night.

My sister was coming onto me in one of the dreams....
Then in the other, a really close friend of mine and I were in bed together. We got slightly touchy but I pulled back because in real life she's gonna get married soon.

The dreams were so lifelike. I woke up from the second dream feeling like the girl really is attracted to me. She was there on Saturday at the memorial.
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I should have noted that her (black hair) and another girl (blonde) are really good friends of mine and both of them are engaged to be married. I've known all 4 of them (the girls and their fiances) for a little over 2 years each, as we were all part of the same social circle for 2 years.

Anyhow, at the memorial on Saturday, when I went over to talk to the blonde girl, her fiancé immediately displayed territorial behavior in demonstrating that she is his. Weird because I don't think I was doing anything to show I was going after her. He just got defensive because of my aura I guess. I ALSO should note that I've felt an insane pull to this very same blonde girl when I was running 2.4, and I also felt an energetic pull to her last Thursday, when she reached out to me because she was going through feelings of self loathing and self hatred.

I'm wondering if the sparks are flying between us so blatantly that her fiance was able to recognize it and realized that I was a threat, even though I don't want to be? I don't want to be involved in the dissolution of a soon to be marriage....

(03-14-2017, 05:04 AM)eternity Wrote: [ -> ]I don't want to be involved in the dissolution of a soon to be marriage....

If you really can cause trouble for relationships by being you then there has (a) to be something that is not quite right with the relationship in the first place and (b) your own ethical rules will be put to a test ... which is good, because it will make you grow in enforcing your convictions and beliefs.

I get lots of girls showing their affection to their BF's around me too. It hurts me actually. It's like they're rubbing my nose in it.