Thanks raz. It's possible that messed up listening contributed to my exhaustion but I've actually been feeling it for the better part of the last 2 weeks.
some days I felt energized but those were the outliers. That's what made me think I'd been resisting so heavily, but according to Shannon's post on a different thread, it may have just been the energy requirement of the heavy clearing.
(03-22-2017, 05:10 AM)eternity Wrote: [ -> ]Thanks raz. It's possible that messed up listening contributed to my exhaustion but I've actually been feeling it for the better part of the last 2 weeks. some days I felt energized but those were the outliers. That's what made me think I'd been resisting so heavily, but according to Shannon's post on a different thread, it may have just been the energy requirement of the heavy clearing.
Is it possible that you need a little more sleep? I was feeling energised every single day I listened to dmsi v3.1 until I had a few late nights and could barely get 4 hours of sleep (2 hours out of which were while listening to subs - which did result in a very light sleep). That's when my exhaustion started. Even now, once I listen to v3.1 I'm energetic for a few hours after that.
Yeah hunk good point!
I just started my loops, ultra loud ultra sonic on speakers. The euphoria is really strong and so is the energy!
Get this:
I got to the office sleepy and exhausted as hell. I go get a double coffee, come back to my desk, start my loops, and start going about my work. Here I am, 17 min later, and I haven't even taken a sip of coffee !!!!!
The energy is purely due to the sub
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Another reason I haven't drank my coffee us cause I'm scared of having to go to the bathroom in the middle of my loops. That would irritate me XD
LOL! The subs were blasting at me at -50dB (at my ears). 55 minutes into my first loop, I realized how bad of a tension headache I was getting. It hurt!
I dropped it to -71dB and the headache immediately dissipated.. BUT I immediately became exhausted again. -__- y u gotta do htis dimsee?
OK I sat outside during lunch break. Houston sun for 30 minutes. My mood is significantly better. 30 min of Houston sun is enough to get a days worth of the goods from the sun. Coupled with the solar sourcing in 3.1? Home run. I think I defeated the mental nonsense/ resistance / discomfort / clearing..... until tomorrow.
Perhaps I just need some energy :0
I had a very interesting experience today. I met up with a member of this forum between 6:30 and 10pm. I'll try to touch on a few details in various perspectives. Bare with my incoherent style of communication if I jump from point to point, or get lost in a tangent. Feel free to ask questions.
6:30 pm - I go to pick him up and we decide to go grab something to eat. Immediately I get this intense vibe from him. It was almost intimidating in some ways, but it was inviting in other ways. For the record, he listened to 3.1 about a week prior so he was on bloom mode from the sub. Naturally, one of the first things we talked about was subs. I asked him if he listened to the trickling stream hybrid, and then proceeded to be flabbergasted by the fact that I verbalized those words. I never thought I would say those words OUT LOUD to someone sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME! My reality was shaken for like 20 whole seconds because of that. Lol. Soon we will be in a time where we talk about subs freely to others
We go to a popular spot in the suburbs which is kind of like a strip mall. A place where a lot of the beautiful people in town gather.
As we were walking along the sidewalk, we see this couple. The chick glances at us, then looks away. Then the man immediately grabs her hand and locks his fingers with hers. Seemed like he was mateguarding after seeing two high value men walking past them. The girl was a 6 at best.... lol. You can have her bro! We don't want her
We get to the restaurant and we get this attractive server. After she takes our drink order, she leaves and I look at him and say "manifestation?" As a joke. Come to find out , she more likely than not WAS a manifestation. we order our food, and a few minutes later, the server was orbiting us for a good 3-4 minutes bussing the tables next to us, even though she clearly had a lot more to do with her time.
After I had like 3 bites left on my plate, she comes around, looks at me with curious and fascinated eyes: "you look like you're stuffed!". Don't forget that my stature is very skinny, so for someone my size to ear a whole entree was probably a sight to see. I joke back: "not yet!" But I totally ruined my joke because I wanted to say I wanted to eat her too, but I flubbed it up.
Anyway my dimsee buddy commented how interesting it was to see that IOI interaction take place from a 3rd party perspective.
Aside from the server, there were two oth r women who were within my line of sight who were staring at me very often throughout the dinner.
There's more to post but I'm freaking exhausted so I'll continue tomorrow
Continued from last night...
After leaving the restaurant, we go to starbucks. and on our way, he mentioned how annoying it is when women glance really quickly at him and immediately look away. He pointed out when it happened to him. I relayed to him that I do it a lot to other people, and unconsciously. Perhaps my subconscious is intimidated of other people, and that's why it makes others irrelevant by immediately looking away? Idk.
As we get close to the starbucks, he points out a couple of the women inside, and says "jeez, just what I needed. more arabic chicks in my life!"
me: We're gonna sit right next to them.
So he gets his coffee, and we sit at this long table that can sit 6. These two girls were studying at one end, and another girl was sitting studying at the other end. So him and I take the middle 2 chairs and start talking to each other.
Throughout the time we were there, MULTITUDES of beautiful women came through that starbucks. Which is notable because I've been there for hours at a time before, and never seen that many beauties there at the same time.
Makes me wonder if both of us manifested them XD
But the longer we stayed there, the more the girls next to us were warming up to us. I opened one of them, but she was a little awkward and didn't know where to take it so I didn't push. I could tell the girl to my right was trying to get me to open her because she was playing dumb on her math and I bet she was trying to insinuate that me being the "smart looking indian guy" should hear her and help her with her math. But unfortunately I had no idea what she was talking about in her math and I would have made myself look like a fool XDDD. Although looking back I SHOULD HAVE opened her....... She was REALLY beautiful.
Overall it was a really good experience to meet up with a member of this forum who uses subs. It's amazing to talk to someone in real life about auras, technologies, p5's, TID, and other stuff unmentionable on the forums.
In case anyone was wondering who I met up, it was Darth Xedonias
oh how could i forget some very useful data?
throughout the course of our conversations, i would completely zone out for a few seconds, forgetting where I was in time and space. He mentioned something about being able to pinpoint when the reality bending takes place and shifts him onto a different reality...
I think that's what was going on. Whenever I zoned out, I was drawing another reality to me, and the "zoning out" was just the time it took to travel from one reality to the next. The first time happened when we were eating. I looked into my food, and next thing I know I'm asking him to repeat what he said because I got lost in looking at my food.
Can't really remember when the next one(s) happened but I know that it did.
Read a fun book recently involving infinite multiple universes and traveling between them. It's a real mind-fuck. Great book, quick read.
Dark Matter. Check it out.
Sounds like a cool experience you guys had.
I've been zoning out a lot recently I wonder if that's what's going on.
so this girl that is into me accidentally called me on fb messenger. i called back thinking she wanted to talk. she said "i accidentally called you sorry". when she said those words, i felt activity in my solar plexus area.
one of thethings that stood out from the conversations with darth yesterday was the conversation of how he knows someone is sniped when he feels solar plexus activity.
If that's the case, then this girl is definitely sniped. However, this is different than the other woman i'm in an open relationship with, who activates my sacral chakra rather than my solar plexus.
Interesting stuff either way.
Could it be different snipers are targeting different women?
what the hell. I seem to have slipped into a reality where there are a lot more beautiful women around.
I went to pick up my sister from school, and I saw 3 beautiful mom's picking up their babies from this elementary school. I get back to my mom's house, where my mom runs a daycare. i was in the kitchen doing something, when i heard the doorbell (parents pick up their kids from the day care around this time). Something called me to run as fast as I could to get to the door, and I knew it was autopilot. But I was in the middle of doing something so I couldn't make it in time. This kid's mom never comes to pick him up, but this time she did. I saw her as she was walking away from the house to the car, through the glass door. SHE WAS HOT.
WHY IS THIS SO CRAZY TO ME?!
BECAUSE!
I've picked up my sister from the same damn school so many times, at the same damn time that I did today. I've NEVER seen these beauties at her school before. And this kid that goes to my mom's day care has been there for a long time, and ever since I've lived with my mom again, I've never seen this kid's mom pick him up.
Oh, and one of the teachers at my sister's school was loving looking at me today. It was blatant
oh, also.... sister and i went to the park before we got home, and there was this lady giving me an awesome butt display while talking to her husband.
I Know I'm posting a lot, and it's primarily because this has become my thoughtscape. A place for me to muse randomly, as have at ye would say.
Exhaustion has me curled up in bed and I've been here since 8pm. The way I look is pitiful these days. My eyes have been really swollen, like I have been crying for a while. The sleepiness is just too much. I'm glad carman isn't getting exhaustion on this version because that would warrant hopping subs in his case... and I can freaking see why. I unfortunately haven't the capability to sleep in, so I have to push through every way I can.
Here's a plot twist though. I don't think the exhaustion is resistance anymore. It's the reality shifting. I'm not walking steadily to the desired reality -- I'm being cannoned there. The exhaustion is the result of the pressure of going so far so fast. Plus the clearing plus the auricular shield, all of the snipers, and the aura itself. That's a lot of energy don't ya think! !!
Plus side is I gained 3 pounds. This is a miracle for me. I'm now 118 pounds. Thanks to the energy sourcing pulling me to eat a lot.
I also seem to be unlocking my shadow functions, as the way I have been conducting myself is definitely not the way I typically conduct myself as an ENFP. There seems to be introverted thinking going on, which is wow. I had a taste of it during 3.0, as I mentioned in my journal.
Sooooo.... maybe I'll stick to 3.1 after all. I had originally planned to do 30 days of mhs after 30 days of 3.1, but I'd like to let this new personality sink in before I change course. For the record, I do need to do some MHS due to some abuse I've put my body thru... there's probably a health related reason that I'm so exhausted too. (Had an inkling I may have a particular illness and I've had this inkling for quite a while. ...) I'll need to get tested.
Another compelling reason to stay on dimsee? Whoever is my friggin long distance sniper target has a lot of my energy invested in her, and I'm not sure I want to let all of that go to waste. But if I do have the illness I worry about, then all bets are off and I'm running mhs
Damn, dude, 118!? How tall are you?
Also, reality bending caused me to read, "auricular shield," as "areola shield." :p