Subliminal Talk

It's quite late here already, but I am going to write this post before going to bed.

First of all, I am actually amazed that my recovery speed is quite fast even when I used DMSI last night. Perhaps it is my immunity that is used to cold (as I had one several months ago) that I am recovering rather faster, but I wonder if it is DMSI as well. It's like, hey don't be sick, it's not sexy. Recover fast, as that is sexy, and then you will be even sexier once you are fully recovered. Who knows.

Another thing I noticed was that although I still struggle with my productivity due to my symptoms (i.e. executive functioning disorder, ADD, and etc.), I would have to say that I feel more productive. The homework load for Monday wasn't large, but I still finished them. I finished them in two days! Tomorrow will be a resting day + starting homework for Thursday class.

I think I have seen somewhere that it was mentioned in forum that those who want to have plenty of rest for DMSI 3.1 should stop on Jan 15th. Can anyone confirm this? If this is true, then I missed it......

Well, if that is the case, I am considering coming on board on the date though as I skipped a day or two during the time (I know that I skipped a night for sure as I noticed I was getting cold, but not sure if I skipped more than a night/day.) Also, I have been good with keeping time strictly (like stopping when told, and if I stopped later, I began jumping on board later.) that I am wondering whether I should experiment a few days shorter break.

Anyway, given the information above, I will stop DMSI 3.0.1A for now.

Just finished homework for Thursday class. Unfortunately, I didn't have all that great focus for my last reading, and that I may have to re visit. For now, I am not going to do that.

Went to all of the classes so far and I don't know is this some kind of farce (or fart in my face?) Okay, one class is online class, and that I don't get to meet any of the classmates, so that is a no go for meeting a new girl. Besides I missed that class due to cold so I don't even know who's in the class. (I can also safely say that I will probably never find out who are really in the class.)

The other Monday class was interesting that it had reverse gender ration, there were only three girls and all guys. I have never had a class in which there were more guys in it ever since I graduated my high school. (I was in all boys school.) At least that there were two guys I knew from previous class, so that was good. And there was a cute girl.

Okay, now some of you guys may be like why the hell are you thinking this is a farce, or a fart in your face? Well, here is why. I did a little bit of background check on all the girls, at least those who I thought was attractive. And guess what? They are all have boyfriends!!!!! Well, this was very good. This was a very good joke in a way that this is exactly the same as it always has been to me. All the girls I find attractive are in a committed relationship and that they are not available. It's not a matter about they don't feel attraction. (Well, then I have something to do about it.) It's like I don't even have a go with it. Only difference this time? I am much more active in finding out who's available and who's not.

So have I have seen any DMSI manifestation? If yes, then what a joke. If not? What's taking so long in getting that manifestation? Clearly it's not gonna work in offline as far as class is concerned. (And that is one of major social venue for me. Although it never really worked out well though. Still, this semester seemed a little bit different at least when it comes to my sociability. But there are no right people. Thanks)

I also went to therapy session and worked on fixing the profile a bit. It wasn't much overhaul, so I have no clue if it's going to work. Either way, the pool's running terrible. I looked briefly at the available people on both sites/apps, and none of them seem attractive enough for me to even bother making a contact. There were some hype early on, but the quality or attractiveness of girls have gone done for some reason.

Alright, so god damn it. Another fucking boring Valentine day to be. (Yeah, and I don't even have money to go to Valentine day event solo. What a waste of money it has been.)

And I am getting a specific negative thought/feeling. I am feeling that once I achieve more successes and other stuff in other area of my life, women will start to chase me. But then, I will be not just turning them away, I will chase them away. Why? I will feel disgusted that they are only there for superficial stuff, not me, and I will feel disgusted and feel even betrayed by human beings if stuff like that to happen on a constant basis. (Well, I don't think I am even expressing well here though.)

Anyway, I feel that once in a while, I am getting a good reminder that I am not going to achieve what I want in this part of my life. And this reminds me of my childhood, and what I remember a lot is that I never really got the exact toy I wanted. Almost always, or all the things I remember, I got the stuff that is close replica of what I wanted, but not the exact one. Apparently, this seems to be the case in this part of life, and I am not liking this one bit at all. Also speaking, I also think that my academic life or offers from academic institutions have been like that as well. (Except one time, in which the offer came too late that it was same as no offer.) Only one thing different in academia is that it all turned out to be great, and that I learned much and gained much more than I anticipated, and because of that I don't have any resentment in that area. But in the category of sex and dating? Shit guys, shit.

This in a way reminds me or make me think that I am either forced to settle what not what I want , or not have it at all. Honestly, I am more inclined to take the later part, and live a hermit life, which feels like a destiny.

On a positive/interesting note. Today, I was at a grocery store to get multivitamin, and an old lady came and told me she's with that company (the company that makes the vitamin) and told me to ask her any questions. I asked her questions regarding the different products, and she wasn't sure so she and I took a look at the bottles. While we were taking a look, she was close to me, and close enough to a point that I felt her boob press on my arm. This wasn't the first time I got it (I have gotten it a few times in the past, but that was way before DMSI), but this was the first time since I am on DMSI.

It could have been nothing, but it could have been DMSI's producing aura and creating sexual irritability. Now, it's time to create that damn manifestation (and surprise me big time, I mean big time, but amazingly good big time), and save me from negativity, and bring positivity. For me, for the girl, and for the sub creator.

Dude your it's not gonna bring postivity that'll come from you after you've healed to the point that you don't feel the need to relinquish any autonomy over your feelings.

Which dating sites are you using? In most markets the selection of sites dedicated to dating is pretty terrible with only maybe a handful of decent women, all of who are getting flooded with creepy messages.

With v day coming up lots of girls will be hitting tinder and bumble, as long as you don't make the same mistake every other guy on those apps makes of:

-using horrible pictures
-showing desperation
-try to get her to go to a random guys house who she never met for sex
-swiping right on every girl and killing your ELO rating which will group you with other low ELO rated women who also swiped right on everything (uglies, fatties, spam bots)

I'd suggest the tinder subreddit for profile tips:

https://www.reddit.com/r/Tinder/search?q...on&t=month

I played around with bumble last week, overall the quality of girls there is much higher than tinder although there are fewer and they have to message you first before you can speak to them. It has its pros and cons, con is if you've got a good opener to use it's pointless because she'll never see it but if a girl opens you then you know shes serious about meeting and you can flirt a little on text, move to snapchat/instagram/whatsapp for a day or two then get the phone # and setup a date. Bios are also kind of limited, if you want to copy mine:

"Reading, cooking, wine, traveling, friends, gym & binge eating pizza. Just say hi and i'll take it from there"

Most girls are aware of the double standard of just sending "hi" and "hey" because it annoys them, but that's all they do on bumble because the poor girls have absolutely 0 idea how to approach guys so that last part gives them the green light to just do it knowing I'll lead the convo. My female friends who reviewed my profile loved that line.

As for meeting women in the real world in my experience the biggest obstacle guys have is that they simply don't do any activities or go places where women are. My brother had this problem big time, he only knew 1 girl who was a "tomboy" and all his friends did was play xbox in his room, play baseball/basketball, and he was in engineering so almost 0 women. Once I actually forced him to go get a job at starbucks and "drugged" him to be more social (with pheromones) his dating life did a 180. He could have had manifestation in 10g and it probably wouldn't have done him any good because he was either studying in his room or stuck in a legitimate sausage fest.

I'm not saying that's the case with you but you get what i'm saying, manifestations are probably like throwing darts. The more darts you throw the more likely it is you'll hit a bullseye, the more women you're around the more manifestation success you'll have.

If girls are already taken, just approach and be friends with them. You have no idea how much girls value male friends that GENUINELY like hanging with them don't ONLY want to get into their pants especially at your age. They're humans just like you and like socializing with people that have similar interests or can show them something new. Too many pua/dating tip/mens magazines try to push the "avoid friendzone at all costs" line but the friendzone doesn't really exist. It's a lack of attraction zone because most guys orbit some girl like a lost puppy for 3 years and wonder why there is no attraction.

The problem is guys get friendzoned, develop some game, but then forget if they had game before they got friendzoned, they never would have been friendzoned in the fist place. Girls hookup with their male friends all the time, just not the needy ones who are only friends with them so they can try and date/bang them. But even if you don't date/bang them, you meet a cool person who like hanging out with and new options in her social circle open up. Despite PUA marketing the reality is 90% of hookups (outside of dating sites/apps) happen through social circles and not cold approach. The highest "cold approach" pickup style is actually cold approach -> one night social circle -> hookup.

Since you didn't get to meet the people in the online class if I was in your situation I would just casually message a few and ask if there is a facebook group setup for the students in the class, if there isn't one set it up yourself and start inviting people to it. Don't try to game any of them or it will probably creep them out, and it's probably better to start with guys, then girls who have a boyfriend, then girls who are single. Once you have that setup you have the perfect segway to moving from class mates to friends.

Bits, thanks for your response. With the V day coming in, and so little days left, I am not even bothered by that. Besides I got more important things to do. It's just annoying that I feel that I have made much progress, and yet not really getting there.

(01-25-2017, 05:26 AM)bits Wrote: [ -> ]Which dating sites are you using? In most markets the selection of sites dedicated to dating is pretty terrible with only maybe a handful of decent women, all of who are getting flooded with creepy messages.

Given the scammer issue and because of that I shut down my facebook account, I only go on OkCupid, and Match. Bumble and Tinder, well, I am not using them anymore as I can't even access them. Bumble, I deleted it longtime ago (as I was getting zero swipes for a while) and Tinder, same thing except that I couldn't even delete it after I shutdown my facebook. And BTW, I am not about to revive my facebook account yet, so they are out of the options. And BTW, OkCupid is about to expire with subscription, and I don't have money at the moment to renew it, so I am gonna be done with it. Match, well the least amount they were selling was like 3 months, and honestly I found that they even have less availability.

(01-25-2017, 05:26 AM)bits Wrote: [ -> ]I played around with bumble last week, overall the quality of girls there is much higher than tinder although there are fewer and they have to message you first before you can speak to them. It has its pros and cons, con is if you've got a good opener to use it's pointless because she'll never see it but if a girl opens you then you know shes serious about meeting and you can flirt a little on text, move to snapchat/instagram/whatsapp for a day or two then get the phone # and setup a date.

That's funny you mention that. My experience with Bumble is so different. As far as the availability goes or logistics goes, I find that Bumble was much worse than Tinder, and Bumble couldn't even keep with what I asked for in terms of perimeter. Since I don't own a car, I wanted it to be less than 5 miles, but I was generous with the search, and gave 20 mile radius. Bumble, all the girls popped up in the search was over 20 mile radius, some even going 50 miles. Besides, I paid for the subscription, so I know if some girl is swiping right, and guess what I was not getting anything.

(01-25-2017, 05:26 AM)bits Wrote: [ -> ]As for meeting women in the real world in my experience the biggest obstacle guys have is that they simply don't do any activities or go places where women are. My brother had this problem big time, he only knew 1 girl who was a "tomboy" and all his friends did was play xbox in his room, play baseball/basketball, and he was in engineering so almost 0 women. Once I actually forced him to go get a job at starbucks and "drugged" him to be more social (with pheromones) his dating life did a 180. He could have had manifestation in 10g and it probably wouldn't have done him any good because he was either studying in his room or stuck in a legitimate sausage fest.

This may have been my situation in the past, and I am trying to change that. And I don't know if you have read my previous posts, or I don't even remember saying anything here, but my social life in classes have been terrible for most of the parts. Before and after the class, I have been almost as good as non-existent for most of the people in the classes (except professors, and except in class time as I am pretty engaging in the class). This semester, it feels different that things are gonna be different in classes. (I have been more social in the two of the offline classes I have been so far, and things looked pretty good in terms of purely being social, and talking to other students.)

But you are right that I didn't do many activities. I have been looking forward to change that, but I got cold that I wasn't able to do anything last week or so. (And there really wasn't other opportunities either. I have signed up for a social gathering stuff to change the issue.)

(01-25-2017, 05:26 AM)bits Wrote: [ -> ]If girls are already taken, just approach and be friends with them. You have no idea how much girls value male friends that GENUINELY like hanging with them don't ONLY want to get into their pants especially at your age. They're humans just like you and like socializing with people that have similar interests or can show them something new. Too many pua/dating tip/mens magazines try to push the "avoid friendzone at all costs" line but the friendzone doesn't really exist. It's a lack of attraction zone because most guys orbit some girl like a lost puppy for 3 years and wonder why there is no attraction.

The problem is guys get friendzoned, develop some game, but then forget if they had game before they got friendzoned, they never would have been friendzoned in the fist place. Girls hookup with their male friends all the time, just not the needy ones who are only friends with them so they can try and date/bang them. But even if you don't date/bang them, you meet a cool person who like hanging out with and new options in her social circle open up. Despite PUA marketing the reality is 90% of hookups (outside of dating sites/apps) happen through social circles and not cold approach. The highest "cold approach" pickup style is actually cold approach -> one night social circle -> hookup.

You are mistaken that I only want girls to be my girlfriends or I am trying to just bang them. (Hey I even got told to do opposite to do what you said, because I was offering a girl to help her move in, which I didn't have an intention of becoming her boyfriend or banging her. If it would have developed into that, sure it could have been good, but it didn't need to develop into that.) You are also mistaken that I am a PUA follower. I find that PUA doesn't seem to represent me or fit my taste. I only take bits that seem to make sense or seem to fit my taste, and not take the other stuff.

Yes, I totally get that girls are humans too, and like I wrote above, I don't mind hanging out or befriends with them. If they are cool and have stuff to offer, why not being friend with them? (Some may disagree here.) But here is where the frustration was. Every single time, when I see an attractive girl she is with some other guy, or she's a lesbian or whatever. Every single time, maybe an exception of one in the past. That's where the frustration was or annoyance came from. It's every single time, and this time, it was again the same. That's what the annoyance or frustration was about. Nothing else.

Well I got about 6~8 months left before leaving this town/city. (End of the program, visa and passport issue) I wonder if getting a single date with someone I am attracted to will even occur during that time frame if it is advancing at this rate. If nothing happens then, it's all starting from scratch. (Trust me on this, there is more to it than stuff I am mentioning here. Unfortunately, I can't provide more explanation to what I am expressing.)

(01-25-2017, 05:26 AM)bits Wrote: [ -> ]Since you didn't get to meet the people in the online class if I was in your situation I would just casually message a few and ask if there is a facebook group setup for the students in the class, if there isn't one set it up yourself and start inviting people to it. Don't try to game any of them or it will probably creep them out, and it's probably better to start with guys, then girls who have a boyfriend, then girls who are single. Once you have that setup you have the perfect segway to moving from class mates to friends.

Anyway, for one, one offline class I need to join a facebook group for class discussion. I'll need to create a brand new facebook, and it wouldn't be a weird stuff for them as I said in the class that I deleted facebook because it got hacked. (Not exactly, but something similar). And BTW, I don't really game with anyone, I just approach or talk to people with my genuine side. Perhaps this is where the problem is. (For which I am sure some people will interpret it as the problem.)

You mentioned my age group, so I am curious, how old do you think I am?

(01-25-2017, 05:21 AM)Darkness Wrote: [ -> ]Dude your it's not gonna bring postivity that'll come from you after you've healed to the point that you don't feel the need to relinquish any autonomy over your feelings.

Uhh.... I don't think my message was clear..... the issue of autonomy and stuff like that. No, I would never allow anything to take my autonomy away. As far as the positivity goes, well, I am a guy that need to see result, and I think, and process things. (Even stuff like faith, I think and process academically to make sense out of it. Hopefully this isn't a violation of rule 4 here.) So that's what I mean by positivity. I am seeing some positive changes, which is great, but nothing in terms of manifestation. Well so far, classes are dead ends, and since that will be the big chunk of my social scene, it just seemed like nothing was going to happen or manifest for another 3~4 months, which is already half of the time frame.

But, I've gotten over that much better than last night. Still annoyance/frustration is there, but I am over that, and handling the issue much better.

Anyway, if I follow what Shannon said previously, I suppose this was from an expectation that something was going to be different this time, which it wasn't. And this I am having a little difficult time to meddle, as I am thinking if I can't/shouldn't even expect something to be different running a sub, then does it even make sense to run the sub. Well, the sub's going to drive me to the goal, but if nothing is going to be different, how is it going to get me to the goal? Something is going to be different, but I can't expect that things are going to be different. I am lost here.

So that's it for this post.

Very interesting phenomenon is happening. I feel like I was getting huge respects from guys. Connection with professor and the talk was phenomenal (he's a guy) during the office hour, and a guy who picked stuff and got in front of me apologize for cutting in the line. I replied, it's okay, you were here before me. After the class, I went to washroom with a guy, who and I also had a bit of chat. Lastly, I also texted with a guy I know from my program, who I just found out that he was on the list of class I am taking. He told me he dropped, out and we texted a bit, and I told him that we should meet and have a drink or something to socialize. He was cool with it.

What was interesting about this was that I felt as I was getting a massive respect from the guys. (Professor, I think he held much respect, but most, if not all the professors have high respect of me. Although I will say that the talk felt smoother than usual, even though most talks with professors were smooth.)

On the other hand, I felt the girls were a bit scared or felt slightly threatened by me. I don't know, but it just was a feeling. It's not rational thinking or talking, but a feel. The girl in my program sat way behind me, and she just took off right after class. (She could have been busy.) The other girls, with whom I initiated conversation a bit, didn't really go anywhere after that, it went off. And like said I felt as if they were feeling anxiety, nervousness, or felt scared. I don't get it, but that was the feeling. Oh and a new girl came in, and I know her from the other class. (Just the face.) She sat way across me. It could be that she knows the other person who was sitting near her, but it didn't seem like that way either. I am like..... Hmm, interesting.

This semester I am seeing an interesting trend. All professors are male, as opposed to female (last semester), and there is a class in which there are way more guys (as opposed to all of the classes had more female last semester). One thing that seems to be similar is that the cluster of peers/classmates have already been formed in this class after the very first one, and even when I have had a great impression or had some great conversations with peers in the first class, I am excluded in the cluster, and am left to be my own.

I am just finding this phenomenon quite interesting. No anger, resentment, no frustration. (Maybe a tiny bit.) But and am finding how I feel like I am getting a massive respect from guys, while scaring girls.

I have been working on my homework, but I am feeling this frustration, or a weight on chest, or heart. I have been feeling this almost every night, right before I go to bed, or when I am not 100% focused on homework or something else. Whenever I have alone time at night, and whenever I have nothing occupying my mind 100%, I have been feeling this. I have wondered what this is, or what the source of the feeling, or even the feeling of emptiness.

On the surface level, I am thinking that this is sexual frustration. Lack of getting any sex, and the need to get it off. The challenge is that porn doesn't really get me off, and even when I release it, it doesn't seem to take all the weight off, or fill the feeling of emptiness. So I don't think this is the source, or is the entire source of the everything.

This feeling of emptiness, frustration, weight on chest, or feeling like a block in heart/chest, seem to come and go, sometimes more intense, and sometimes less. I am also wondering why that is the case.

Going back to the subject of the source. If sexual frustration isn't the full explanation then what is it? Loneliness? Lack of friendship? Not having a girlfriend? I guess they take can be partial explanations for the feelings, bu they still don't seem to get capture the idea fully.

I don't know, if there needs more healing, or if this is just being a human or being in a normal phase. I don't even know that this is healthy state to be in. A thought is that I have been on the A version of DMSI for too long and that it may be having too much impact to emotions, and that I should have switched to B a while ago. At the same time, all of these may indicate that I need healing, and that is what is happening.

Talking about healing reminds me about the earlier stage of DMSI. I have doubts/wonders whether DMSI can work as I have ASD, which is not curable at this point. Has it been a wrong choice to be on DMSI A, and is it working against me (at least in emotional health part? ) Is it creating too much stress because it is trying to address stuff that can't be addressed?

I don't know, but I want to say that for some reason I am in a field of melancholia, or in between mild depression and melancholia. Well, at least it's a progress that I can recognize this and I am able to share it with bunch of strangers in the forum.

Well, long time no updating, and there really wasn't much to update. (Other than getting a free cookie)

Now I wonder if I should continue with the A version or B version. How do I tell? Also, given that I have no clue when V3.1 gets released, I also wonder if it would be even wise to switch (even if I don't need healing any more.)

As I suspected, once the school started, I am able to update on much less frequently.

I am noticing that I have very low motivation for anything in general, woman, sex, socializing especially so. Given this, my sleep schedule has been off for a while (a week), and because of that I didn't listen to DMSI for about a week or so.

I noticed that once I stopped DMSI for a while, my socialization/conversation skills have gone down (although I think I got a permanent improvement a little bit since I have used the program), and the conversation doesn't seem to flow all that nicely when compared to my time on DMSI. It feels like something is stuck, or it ends rather quickly.

Nevertheless, I may still radiate vibe/aura. I got a free appetizer (something that a chef made up) and I got called "young future president" by a homeless guy. I don't personally know him, but I have seen him a few times. I know that he outspokenly begs, but I don't recall him calling anybody "president." Thus, it can be a sign that the aura is working, even at a distance although it is not likely. (I wasn't all that near him, but he called to me anyway. And I was the only person in the area. Just to clarify)

If this is true though, I feel that my aura isn't so much about sexiness, but rather a respect type of aura. (Well..... I don't know, I have been told by a cousin in the past to be charismatic.)

Very short update, and much of the information may be incorrect. Still wanted to share though.

Long Time no update... School has kept me busy and occupied. Besides there really wasn't a stuff to report. I'm on a break now, so I will write the report.

I began DMSI 3.1 A a few days ago, maybe it's been a week or so. I have tried using FLAC, but I found that yesterday, the things stops playing after the first file, even when I put it in the playlist, so I will be switching back to MP3. (Some other times, I think it played two files. Anyway, FLAC on my iphone hasn't been all that reliable, so I am switching back to MP3)

Another thing I noticed while I was listening last night was that I think I was having a serious resistance moment. First of all, I couldn't get to sleep easily for a long period of time. Secondly, I had a lot of thoughts going in my head, like oh I shouldn't be focusing this, while I have other stuff to do. Another thought that was going in my head was like nothing's gonna happen anyway. I think there were some other thoughts, which I don't remember, but I nevertheless know that they are similar to the above ones.

Anyway, I think I had more interesting stuff while I was on a break from DMSI. This must have happened when I was off for about several weeks. What happened was that I went down for a dinner to a restaurant nearby where I live. This restaurant was rather full, which was rather unusual. There was one spot at a bar, so I took it. Right next to where I sat was a girl (who was rather good looking) and her guy friend whom I thought was her boyfriend at first.

This girl struck me up the first to ask some question about the area, and about the restaurant as she was moving into the area. Then we ended up talking for whole a lot more, and about 1/3 of the entire talk was about sex.... It wasn't me who actually brought up the subject, but was brought up by the girl's friend. Also the transition to talk about sex was so random......

In the end, it sorta became their mission to get me laid, and the guy was like if the girl can't find anyone, she's going to take that......

Also, it was interesting to note the girl was quite touchy. She was also quite shocked about my being virgin and she was like "how can you live like that? How can you live without having sex?" She was also very concerned about how she's seen. She was like, am I wrong to think like this? Am I wrong to have lost virginity at age 15...

So I ended up staying there for several hours, which was not my plan at all. My plan was to finish diner ASAP, get back and start working on the assignment. At the end, the girl was like she's gonna be here next week. I didn't get to see her, as I couldn't get there on the day, and I haven't seen her (or the guy) after that.

I'd say this was probably the closest thing that DMSI gotten me close to sex, and it was literally the first time I got to talk about sex with stranger for that long. (Along with other stuff.)

I also find it interesting that I had this while I was on a break. I recently began DMSI 3.1, but I don't know if it is making it better or worse. Well, who knows.

What did you say in response to her question?

Would you have sex with her if she offered?

(03-10-2017, 05:52 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]What did you say in response to her question?

Would you have sex with her if she offered?

She had quite a bit of questions, not just about sex, but other stuff. Let me look at what I wrote.... ah okay, the three questions.

So the first two questions, "how can you live like that" and "how can you live without having sex" (and come to think of it, she might have added "for so long"), I really didn't give answers, or I was more like, I just live. At the same time, she was answering herself. Basically she said "well I guess you can live like that probably because you have never experienced it."

And her question about her experience with sex, and her thinking about sex (how can you live without having sex at my age), I answered her "girl, you're fine. Some people experience sex earlier and some people do later. There's nothing wrong with experiencing it earlier. In my opinion, some guys may actually prefer that." (Well, keep in mind that we also talked about porn, and these guys definitely knew more about porn than I did, so I was teasing her about how she's a master of porn, and her being the master of sex.)

I also think that she freaked out as she thought it was norm to have experienced sex or have regular sex at around my age to her age, but her friend was like "I'm not that surprised, as I have a few friends who has never gotten laid until they hit age 30." Yeah, so she may have thought that she may have been seen as a slut. So I tried to make her feel that it wasn't slutty or there was nothing wrong with it. Anyway, I think she took it well. At least, she seemed to have calmed down after my comment.

And would I have sex with her if she offered? I don't know. I don't think I know the person well to make the judgment. I mean given the experience of catfishing and other stuff, I don't think I can ever be very careful.

However, I am going to say that she's definitely one of hotter women I encountered (she had great breasts. A bit more tummy than my preference, but not over the limit I can tolerate), and is one of the women who are more open about sex, which I think I prefer than being reserved. (Though I have my limits to how far to go with openness, I suppose.)

In short, I don't know, but I think that there is a chance that I will accept the offer, should she present the offer.

Well, I woke up an hour and half ago, been fixing my antivirus. (It was acting a bit weird, but I fixed it now.)

I wanted to write this post as I had a dream I remember, which isn't usually the case. (I mostly don't remember any dreams.)


In the dream, I was in a class with a bunch of student. At the beginning the professor, who is hot, (who also happened to be a hot reporter I saw on news. This is not the same reporter as I mentioned previously, it's a different one) assigned a group project. What was clear was that this professor was clearly flirting with me. She left for something, and I was working on group project with a guy. Apparently, the project must have been hard, as other students were all collaborating with one another to address the questions. To me it seemed easy, so I was helping a lot of people.

After a while, the professor returned, and one of the students (a girl) went and asked for help. She was quite harsh, and was somewhat mean to the student. But soon, the prof, came to check up on my group (me) to see how we were doing. While she was checking up on me, it was very obvious that she was flirting, as she was performing a finger strokes on back of my hand, while slightly pressing her left boob on my shoulder, while having a seductive smile.

Well, and then I woke up. So that was the dream.

Tonight, I went out to get a quick dinner. Since I don't normally show up for this place at this time, I didn't know about their happy hour. Well, I got better price which is always nice. (Oh yeah, I forgot that I sat at the bar.)

Then there was a woman (a much older woman) who was sitting next to me. When I was asking a few questions about the menu (since I didn't know about the happy hour) she intervened to give me some advice about the menu. Well, it turned out that she was an interesting person, whom I talked for a long period of time. Exchanged contact info, and she told me that she's gonna send me some stuff of my interest. (Well, my plan was to stay there for maybe 30~40 mins, ended up being there for longer than 2 hours.)

Then I came back and went down to the lobby for hot chocolate stuff. While I was drinking the hot chocolate, I overheard a mother and a son (the mom looked to be in 50s, maybe late 40s, and the son to be late teenager to early 20s) and I overheard the mom talking to her about sex. (It was about how women can get horny and need more sex and stuff..... ) I didn't hear it clearly, but I think it might have been about she's giving a warning to her son or something like that. Soon the woman left (since she was just visiting him)

Then a cute woman (who is also quite social. Social in a way she gives smiles to everyone, and says hi to everyone she meets) came down, and I helped her how to get the hot chocolate. Chatted a bit, and then she left. Another girl came down and again helped her, and she acted like she had Mysophobia. I teased her for that a bit, and chatted a bit and left.

Nothing super interesting, but here is something I have gathered.

1. Women are more touchy, and I get to hear more about sex in people's conversations.

2. 1 applies to the case in which women are older. (30+)

3. 1 doesn't apply to younger women (or girls who look rather on shy side. I mean there are girls whose look give me a feeling that "oh she's a shy one." )

4. Given the above, it seems that things are working and moving, but I feel/think that I am not at the level of desired or final goal of DMSI. Yet, it's getting there.

Well, I planned on going for the restaurant for the happy hour (in a small hope to meet the girl I mentioned in the previous post). However, because of the winter storm, I have no idea if she's gonna be there or if it is even practical to think that she might be there. But who knows, maybe she'll be there as the storm will definitely limit her ability to go to a place further away.

Dman, I am now finally on a week break, and the winter storm has to make things not so workable. (At the same time, I have been able to get a few stuff done for internship stuff. Perhaps this could work out well.)

Edit: I don't know if I need healing module, but whenever healing module was there, I always used it. I am curious to think whether I should switch to the one without healing, but I have no desire to switch out. I don't know even if don't need healing anymore, I think I will stick to the healing module for the sake of simplicity. There are enough of complicated stuff in my life.