Subliminal Talk

The wonky sensations is now deeper, and the damage appears to be quite extensive - it goes from down my right foot up to the left side of my heart, with pretty much everything in-between. So there's still lots of work to do, but it would appear that progress is being slowly made. We'll see where we're at after six months.

I've got some new metaphysical toys and I dug out some older ones and now I'm using them for fun and profit.

Working on that audition reperotire, it's going... okay, I guess. Too bad my singing teacher did not have the time to meet up to work on it a little bit, I sure could use some competent guidance. As usual, I'm on my own, blergh. Oh well, let's keep on trucking.

Still dreaming a mile a minute whenever I fall asleep. Very interesting dreams.

Auditions tomorrow. Finally! Can't wait to be done with them and move on to other repertoire.

I wish I had had more opportunities to work with a pianist on this stuff (I only had about 1 hour with a mate) to feel more comfortable singing it by heart, but oh well. I feel pretty well prepared, put in a lot of effort.

Healing is progressing, had some very interesting dreams, especially as regards singing. It was very interesting. It was like, I'm performing on stage in front of an audience of my various detractors and people who wouldn't believe in me (oh, ye of little faith!) and I was like, "Now I'll show you how it's done you incompetent buffoons"

(06-17-2024, 12:05 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Auditions tomorrow. Finally! Can't wait to be done with them and move on to other repertoire.

I wish I had had more opportunities to work with a pianist on this stuff (I only had about 1 hour with a mate) to feel more comfortable singing it by heart, but oh well. I feel pretty well prepared, put in a lot of effort.

Healing is progressing, had some very interesting dreams, especially as regards singing. It was very interesting. It was like, I'm performing on stage in front of an audience of my various detractors and people who wouldn't believe in me (oh, ye of little faith!) and I was like, "Now I'll show you how it's done you incompetent buffoons"

Your progress is awesome , and I Love that line of yours too: "  you incompetent buffoons"   "
Go Have at Ye!!

(06-17-2024, 12:11 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ]

(06-17-2024, 12:05 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Auditions tomorrow. Finally! Can't wait to be done with them and move on to other repertoire.

I wish I had had more opportunities to work with a pianist on this stuff (I only had about 1 hour with a mate) to feel more comfortable singing it by heart, but oh well. I feel pretty well prepared, put in a lot of effort.

Healing is progressing, had some very interesting dreams, especially as regards singing. It was very interesting. It was like, I'm performing on stage in front of an audience of my various detractors and people who wouldn't believe in me (oh, ye of little faith!) and I was like, "Now I'll show you how it's done you incompetent buffoons"

Your progress is awesome , and I Love that line of yours too: "  you incompetent buffoons"   "
Go Have at Ye!!

Yeah, let me at 'em!

Thanks!

The auditions went pretty well. I did not get the gig, though. Oh well! I signed up to another audition right away. I could at least use the practice as I haven't been performing regularly these past 2-3 years, oy.

Continuing.

You know, just had a thought that it'd be great if we could use more than one program at a time so that they would work synergystically. Like, f. in., I really could use USLMaxx for auditions and the like right now.

Or for instance EHPRA + OGSF because that'd could be quite the combo.

Just sighing and wishing. I'm mixing subliminals with enough other stuff as it is.

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I'm mixing subliminals with enough other stuff as it is"
Totally agreed, there Man. Glad you said it Have at ye!

(06-18-2024, 12:33 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]You know, just had a thought that it'd be great if we could use more than one program at a time so that they would work synergystically. Like, f. in., I really could use USLMaxx for auditions and the like right now.

Or for instance EHPRA + OGSF because that'd could be quite the combo.

Just sighing and wishing. I'm mixing subliminals with enough other stuff as it is.

Auditioning is such a frustrating process. Not only do you regularly face rejection/failure for reasons which are not clearly expressed to you (you very rarely get feedback, it's usually simply a yes/no type of proposition), but also the process itself is so, arrrgh. F. in. I signed up for another audition which is supposed to happen next week, but they'll only let us know who they're going to audition by the end of this week due to the number of submissions. So now I'll be preparing for an audition that's up in the air, blargh.

Yesterday's audition rejecton stirred somethng up in me and I felt really bad, with unpleasant physical sensations in the damaged areas of my being and such, but I did get a rather interesting healing dream after. The annoying thing is I don't even get to rest up and recover a bit because I've got translation work to do with deadlines and stuff. I'm very, very tired of pretty much working two jobs simultaneously these past 10 years or so.

Vocally, I'm pretty happy - I'd really love to get that audition next week. I'm doing some manifestation stuffies and thingies to that end, but to be honest EHPRA is a little bit of a drag in this regard because it's really focused on trauma healing right now. I'm getting wonky sensations coming from the damaged areas (from the right side of the root chakra in a straight line up to the lower heart chakra area on the left and right side) as well as in on the right side of my brain, sometimes also the left side (though mostly right).

Weight loss is going well, though. I was at 99.5 kg this morning, down from 103 kg some two weeks ago. I'm planning to go down to cruiserweight and walk around at around 90-88 kg, maybe even less but that depends on whether I achieve the desired aesthetic effect at this weight, so there's still some ways to go.

"Good news, everyone!" I got accepted for the auditions, so now it's back to work. I did not feel satisfied with my singing today, but hopefully it'll be better tomorrow.

Anyhow, my mood is somewhat liable - I get occassional moments of literal "what is the point?" type of thinking and I have these annoying introjects from various individuals, like this one guy (singing related, of course) telling me "you are nothing", or "your voice is damaged" or whatevs. Hopefully this will pass.

I did have really interesting dreams though, definitely healing-related.

(06-21-2024, 05:26 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]"Good news, everyone!" I got accepted for the auditions, so now it's back to work. I did not feel satisfied with my singing today, but hopefully it'll be better tomorrow.

Anyhow, my mood is somewhat liable - I get occassional moments of literal "what is the point?" type of thinking and I have these annoying introjects from various individuals, like this one guy (singing related, of course) telling me "you are nothing", or "your voice is damaged" or whatevs. Hopefully this will pass.

I did have really interesting dreams though, definitely healing-related.

Congratulations on the auditions!  Happy to see you're still around and journaling.  I'd like to run this program someday, or it's successor.  EPHRA has always been a great program.

Thanks. It's a good program from my experience, it does what it's supposed to but the going isn't always pleasant (then again, I'm running hardcore using the hybrid track at one full loop per day so your mileage may vary), although seems to me way less so than what some others were reporting on the newest OGSF.

I'm feeling optimistic about these auditions coming up, I will have had 2 (two!) practice sessions with a pianist friend who's helped me fix some stuff in the number I'll be performing. Feeling good today overall. I'm happy that I've got my, let's call them, metaphysical pursuits (what I call stuffies and thingies) sorted out and I've been doing a lot of progress with these so I guess results are only a matter of time and patience. Focusing on slaying it at the auditions at the moment, then it's back to attracting *the ladies* and sexual stuff.

Had a good night's sleep, dreamt a lot, some of it healing dreams, some seemingly unrelated but you never know. I dream a lot on this program and even remember most of it.

Can't wait to have a bit of a vacation, though. It's been a busy couple of months.

On my way to auditions. It would be nice had I had 1-2 more days to prepare, but I still did what I could. Spamming manifestation, success and singing related stuffies and thingies while commuting over there.

Deeams have changed a bit, maybe it's a sign something new is being worked on. ?