05-28-2018, 09:04 AM
05-28-2018, 11:53 AM
(05-28-2018, 09:04 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]Im beyond everything I ever was.
Are u finding "A" Smooth?
05-28-2018, 10:06 PM
Yes, but not totally bump free.
05-29-2018, 12:24 AM
Day 5 version A
Im feeling spaced out after delving in some rule 4 stuff. Im back into the mental influence area and visions pop up. I know exactly why and what.This also pushes me directly into a whole new area of being a king. Im letting go and simultaneously rethrone myself or am rethroned. Powerfull stuff. Head on. No stopping.
Its mindblowing.
Im feeling spaced out after delving in some rule 4 stuff. Im back into the mental influence area and visions pop up. I know exactly why and what.This also pushes me directly into a whole new area of being a king. Im letting go and simultaneously rethrone myself or am rethroned. Powerfull stuff. Head on. No stopping.
Its mindblowing.
05-30-2018, 11:40 AM
Day 6 4 loops in the morning A.
Im currently on fire. Only thinking about sex, banging, pulling, being pulled. Nay, it transcends all. My fitness regime has shifted to sculp out in the name of sex. Like, bordeting fucktoy. Im not even sure what going to happen next. Its that powerfull. Its all a reality now to walk out, being pulled, having sex. It feels like crossing over into a reality of sex being akin to breathing. Absurd but loving it frankly.
Also, im expanding my wardrobe. I notice how my sense of matching clothing is lacking, like nothing concrete. This definitely needs some work. With fragrances I have grown lots, its as if there is a smooth input. Like working to concrete and thus sharing the knowledge. I could do sometging with this. Why does my mind throw up forex out of nowhere?
Im almost to sexy to write. Like total bliss and distraction but wanting to note it down still.
Im executing thats for sure now. Im sweating heaps and it aint stoppin.
Still, there is anxiety under the hood. Iritation, agression, anger, short fuse. Memories of D micromanaging and bs'ing through pathetic attempts of amogging. Still, I shutted him down last time, but knowing this trend its "A" stirring up shit internally. Other fragments, memories are taking the oppurtunity to surface through this like a door or wound.
Oh, and Im pretty violent tempered, like stupidity of people get on my nerves. Think having a totally non listening dog running hyper and wild across the streets. Yet the owners dont seem to care or make half assed attempts while doin nothing. It really pisses me off as the overgrown duracell driven rat could end up under my car for example, or the mouth of the neighbours husky.
This right now did in my mood. Oh well.
Looking at nice things directly sets in an knowing and momentum of attainability as well as mentally seeing it as complete, now and worn. My senses get directly pulled in and sucked into it.
Im currently on fire. Only thinking about sex, banging, pulling, being pulled. Nay, it transcends all. My fitness regime has shifted to sculp out in the name of sex. Like, bordeting fucktoy. Im not even sure what going to happen next. Its that powerfull. Its all a reality now to walk out, being pulled, having sex. It feels like crossing over into a reality of sex being akin to breathing. Absurd but loving it frankly.
Also, im expanding my wardrobe. I notice how my sense of matching clothing is lacking, like nothing concrete. This definitely needs some work. With fragrances I have grown lots, its as if there is a smooth input. Like working to concrete and thus sharing the knowledge. I could do sometging with this. Why does my mind throw up forex out of nowhere?
Im almost to sexy to write. Like total bliss and distraction but wanting to note it down still.
Im executing thats for sure now. Im sweating heaps and it aint stoppin.
Still, there is anxiety under the hood. Iritation, agression, anger, short fuse. Memories of D micromanaging and bs'ing through pathetic attempts of amogging. Still, I shutted him down last time, but knowing this trend its "A" stirring up shit internally. Other fragments, memories are taking the oppurtunity to surface through this like a door or wound.
Oh, and Im pretty violent tempered, like stupidity of people get on my nerves. Think having a totally non listening dog running hyper and wild across the streets. Yet the owners dont seem to care or make half assed attempts while doin nothing. It really pisses me off as the overgrown duracell driven rat could end up under my car for example, or the mouth of the neighbours husky.
This right now did in my mood. Oh well.
Looking at nice things directly sets in an knowing and momentum of attainability as well as mentally seeing it as complete, now and worn. My senses get directly pulled in and sucked into it.
06-01-2018, 08:31 AM
DMSI version A break
yesterday morning I ran my loops of A version. very tired, depressed right now like my subc is going tooth and nail, having lots of self judgment coming up, seeing myself as needy while it aint. like I said, negative judgment/trauma. the tiredness and depression also seem to cause a split. Like, not procrastination, but a fuck all and yet wanting to curl up and letting h/c ensue. At times I feel fake, like, flat, like, acting even. It all comes down with being okay with myself. like, those negative judgment aint what they are as I have glimpses of owning it fully, being a huge celebrity superstar.
Also, yesterday evening I had a shift coming through.
"fuck women, enjoy life"after noticing how Im somewhat still expecting things, like IOIs, looks and all, making me appear, atleast, according to my judgment, needy.
There is still insecurity in my psyche, in my mind, fear coming up and what not. Its brutal and last thing I want to do is standing in the way of h/c now. whatever.
Had a chat today with J. we spoke business, what holds me back and what not, the why's, which is the most prominent drive for me. to ask myself this. it sends up a whole mirage, tieing back to several other patterns and threads. Like, an now spotted huige ocean of emotion, an well of tears still there, the whole can of worms.
In other news, in a way, im feeling the struggle and the coming out of this is blowing me the f#ck away. nice. Its like being out of balance and having ties all ways, like a huge spiderweb, and re-centring kyself, being calm allows the current to flow.
I might contact some rule 4 stuff, but alas, I know the connection to em all. Its even making me want to bawl my eyes out, out of awe and feeling loved.
Im feeling young, regressing in age now, like a warm blanket being wrapped around me. why tho. an part of me calling out, crying out, being acknowledged? beautiful.
Now, im going to shed some tears. Shits goin way deeper then I thought. It might be a source as to why my body feels so ridden and stiff.
ps; next cycle 7 loops of A. possibly just masked this time.
yesterday morning I ran my loops of A version. very tired, depressed right now like my subc is going tooth and nail, having lots of self judgment coming up, seeing myself as needy while it aint. like I said, negative judgment/trauma. the tiredness and depression also seem to cause a split. Like, not procrastination, but a fuck all and yet wanting to curl up and letting h/c ensue. At times I feel fake, like, flat, like, acting even. It all comes down with being okay with myself. like, those negative judgment aint what they are as I have glimpses of owning it fully, being a huge celebrity superstar.
Also, yesterday evening I had a shift coming through.
"fuck women, enjoy life"after noticing how Im somewhat still expecting things, like IOIs, looks and all, making me appear, atleast, according to my judgment, needy.
There is still insecurity in my psyche, in my mind, fear coming up and what not. Its brutal and last thing I want to do is standing in the way of h/c now. whatever.
Had a chat today with J. we spoke business, what holds me back and what not, the why's, which is the most prominent drive for me. to ask myself this. it sends up a whole mirage, tieing back to several other patterns and threads. Like, an now spotted huige ocean of emotion, an well of tears still there, the whole can of worms.
In other news, in a way, im feeling the struggle and the coming out of this is blowing me the f#ck away. nice. Its like being out of balance and having ties all ways, like a huge spiderweb, and re-centring kyself, being calm allows the current to flow.
I might contact some rule 4 stuff, but alas, I know the connection to em all. Its even making me want to bawl my eyes out, out of awe and feeling loved.
Im feeling young, regressing in age now, like a warm blanket being wrapped around me. why tho. an part of me calling out, crying out, being acknowledged? beautiful.
Now, im going to shed some tears. Shits goin way deeper then I thought. It might be a source as to why my body feels so ridden and stiff.
ps; next cycle 7 loops of A. possibly just masked this time.
06-01-2018, 08:44 AM
When I was on "B" I was like on some kinda drug. I was feeling motivated and shit but when I was on "A" I felt like Shit. After 40 days on "A" I again jumped to "B" and I was feeling good again.
06-01-2018, 08:51 AM
A is impacting me like no other, the hardest break everrrrrrrr.
anyways, B was a thrill, but using A is for another approach this time. Im planning to switch it up. 2 cycles of A, followed by 14 days of B, and back again, if I aint executing then already.
anyways, B was a thrill, but using A is for another approach this time. Im planning to switch it up. 2 cycles of A, followed by 14 days of B, and back again, if I aint executing then already.
06-02-2018, 09:06 AM
Version A dsy 1
Watching a conversation between colgate and mystery ( Erik ) and damn, im buzzing. Its a joy to watch and so much is clicking, like coming home. Sex is great and its refreshing to hear the concepts such as humor, relief, captivation ( huuuuge one! ) stimulation. I always had a thing for concepts and pieces/chapters/key elements.
Whatever it is, euphoria is firing up. Also, after running the loops last night ( 8 loops, masked, sleepphones, not completely sure if all was "downloaded" in my mind due me turning in bed ) Im having a strong IDGAF attitude yet women open me. Probably trying to seduce me ( the smiles with the sparkles in their eyes )
Im having an returning interest in NLP and communication. Had it before but its now refreshing. The voice of Erik/Mystery "activated" something in me. Also listening to this convo shifts me in a bulletproof suave kind of sense.
"Its about removing discomfort"- Erik
Due to the h/c Mysteries words cut so deep through. Like now Im getting it on a deeper level, probably due to the h/c. Hearing the concepts of negging, self amusement, false time restraint, its something very lethal even. Im gonna have so much fun with this yet im seeing it all appliable everywhere else.
Tho DMSI has helped me progress so much further, and, not being about pua, I see the value. Its like the fun in all "everyone has an agenda" its an understanding I have now and its kinda funny to wirhness. Like an "aha" moment.
Its organic unlocking probably due to listening to the words of Mystery and colgate 3sr. An new appreciation. And yes, there was a "need" in reference. Due to avoiding pua I didnt face it, like avoiding it. Now, by listening, having these concepts and getting it. Understanding vs fear. It remained, I had partial things flow through my subconscious, which caused distortion.
Anyways, after running 8 loops last night, the impact is there but less taxing then I "expected" it to be.
Also the whole fun in story telling. Being enthousiastic about this. Its very positive.
Also, listening to them shifts me greatly. High value sets. Keep being bombarded with euphoric hits. I rather fail with a ten then succeed with a 7 same as the uncomfortable moments. Its all good.
Said video;
Watching a conversation between colgate and mystery ( Erik ) and damn, im buzzing. Its a joy to watch and so much is clicking, like coming home. Sex is great and its refreshing to hear the concepts such as humor, relief, captivation ( huuuuge one! ) stimulation. I always had a thing for concepts and pieces/chapters/key elements.
Whatever it is, euphoria is firing up. Also, after running the loops last night ( 8 loops, masked, sleepphones, not completely sure if all was "downloaded" in my mind due me turning in bed ) Im having a strong IDGAF attitude yet women open me. Probably trying to seduce me ( the smiles with the sparkles in their eyes )
Im having an returning interest in NLP and communication. Had it before but its now refreshing. The voice of Erik/Mystery "activated" something in me. Also listening to this convo shifts me in a bulletproof suave kind of sense.
"Its about removing discomfort"- Erik
Due to the h/c Mysteries words cut so deep through. Like now Im getting it on a deeper level, probably due to the h/c. Hearing the concepts of negging, self amusement, false time restraint, its something very lethal even. Im gonna have so much fun with this yet im seeing it all appliable everywhere else.
Tho DMSI has helped me progress so much further, and, not being about pua, I see the value. Its like the fun in all "everyone has an agenda" its an understanding I have now and its kinda funny to wirhness. Like an "aha" moment.
Its organic unlocking probably due to listening to the words of Mystery and colgate 3sr. An new appreciation. And yes, there was a "need" in reference. Due to avoiding pua I didnt face it, like avoiding it. Now, by listening, having these concepts and getting it. Understanding vs fear. It remained, I had partial things flow through my subconscious, which caused distortion.
Anyways, after running 8 loops last night, the impact is there but less taxing then I "expected" it to be.
Also the whole fun in story telling. Being enthousiastic about this. Its very positive.
Also, listening to them shifts me greatly. High value sets. Keep being bombarded with euphoric hits. I rather fail with a ten then succeed with a 7 same as the uncomfortable moments. Its all good.
Said video;
06-06-2018, 05:57 AM
DMSI is more then women, yet women gravitate. Its like being an eagle, getting launched in the stratosphere.
Anyways, I seem to let go of lots imside, aswell as internal calibrations, little shifts. Like being reorganized.
Also, older women seem to get seduced and yet im getting comfortable in being seduced by younger girls. Its set up now.
Also, last couple of days, DMSI is directing me towards what shannon has written. Its really letting DMSI do its thing. Not doing anything, purely being seduced while not doin anything.
Im also start to see pua as fun. Like, having that bonus of MM in your system, like fun instead of need. It gives room to play.
This older woman literally told me, its okay this way. We can have part 3 4 5 going, like wanting me in her vicinity no matter what. Dropping it. Apologizing herself. Not my type and thats fine. Just good vibes, love, amusement and dhv. Abundance and choice. Getting really aware of micro behaviour while DMSI gains power more and more till the point sex is at the tip of my finger.
Lots of introspection on A. Also, less and less giving a fuck yet allowing women in my life, being okay and relaxed with it. Similar to being grounded. Result of 9 loops.
Im also having a breakthrough, through mysteries work. Such as "beauty is common" and puts me in an polarizing state of mind. Same as DHV, celeb effect, IOD ( playfully fun ) and gaining deeper and deeper attraction understanding. And yet DMSI is doing its thing. What I like about Mystery, is the simple easy understanding way of delivery. Its easy to get. Getting toned doesnt happen overnight, and so it releases pressure ( which aint any different from anything else, such as the venusian arts )
Conscious thoughts of being an Alpha Male occur more and more.
Also, the IOI response for her IOI seems to allign with being alpha, non needy, celeb status, sexual comfort and abundance NGAF.
I see the pattern of many things, the calm confident and competence which gives answers to sticking point. Little calibrations, attitude and shifts, making me almost dreamy.
What I do realize, is the passiveness. What Derek Cajun has said about him holding e.c, and calling out gave me relentless eye contact. More forcefull and owning it in lethal ways. He was about holding, sexual face expression and going in. Even tho DMSI is about being approached, some things are there for me still to enjoy such as this. The little things, communication.
The material from Erik still applies and seems to blend and mix in witch DMSI..it gives me an extra edge and relentlessness. Its like newfound gold. Adjust it in DMSI frame and you got an lethal weapon.
Anyways, I seem to let go of lots imside, aswell as internal calibrations, little shifts. Like being reorganized.
Also, older women seem to get seduced and yet im getting comfortable in being seduced by younger girls. Its set up now.
Also, last couple of days, DMSI is directing me towards what shannon has written. Its really letting DMSI do its thing. Not doing anything, purely being seduced while not doin anything.
Im also start to see pua as fun. Like, having that bonus of MM in your system, like fun instead of need. It gives room to play.
This older woman literally told me, its okay this way. We can have part 3 4 5 going, like wanting me in her vicinity no matter what. Dropping it. Apologizing herself. Not my type and thats fine. Just good vibes, love, amusement and dhv. Abundance and choice. Getting really aware of micro behaviour while DMSI gains power more and more till the point sex is at the tip of my finger.
Lots of introspection on A. Also, less and less giving a fuck yet allowing women in my life, being okay and relaxed with it. Similar to being grounded. Result of 9 loops.
Im also having a breakthrough, through mysteries work. Such as "beauty is common" and puts me in an polarizing state of mind. Same as DHV, celeb effect, IOD ( playfully fun ) and gaining deeper and deeper attraction understanding. And yet DMSI is doing its thing. What I like about Mystery, is the simple easy understanding way of delivery. Its easy to get. Getting toned doesnt happen overnight, and so it releases pressure ( which aint any different from anything else, such as the venusian arts )
Conscious thoughts of being an Alpha Male occur more and more.
Also, the IOI response for her IOI seems to allign with being alpha, non needy, celeb status, sexual comfort and abundance NGAF.
I see the pattern of many things, the calm confident and competence which gives answers to sticking point. Little calibrations, attitude and shifts, making me almost dreamy.
What I do realize, is the passiveness. What Derek Cajun has said about him holding e.c, and calling out gave me relentless eye contact. More forcefull and owning it in lethal ways. He was about holding, sexual face expression and going in. Even tho DMSI is about being approached, some things are there for me still to enjoy such as this. The little things, communication.
The material from Erik still applies and seems to blend and mix in witch DMSI..it gives me an extra edge and relentlessness. Its like newfound gold. Adjust it in DMSI frame and you got an lethal weapon.
06-12-2018, 07:42 AM
Day 3 version B 4 loops.
on day 1, I executed directly. it was clear, like an giving way to DMSI directly, like "okay, have it your way"without me doing anything. execution.
now on day 3, im getting to the root. had my parents over as it is my birthday tomorrow. Im feeling very charismatic in my writing, its clear to me, like writing an novel and being almost enigmatic with it.
past girl, S, has added me on snapchat. I know her bf. I dont care. this round, DMSI is turning me into an in the flesh Hank Moody. the playfullness is there, aswell as the attitude, the laid backness, the welcoming of women,. on the first day the sense of women kept expanding. atleast 12 girls giving IOIs, almost like a classroom. Im more and more focussed on women, yet simultaneously IDC. Its like withnessing art, being seductive in vibe, in speech and having an IDGAf attitude, and at the same time not focussed on women at all, just being my playfull self, and things ahppen. on day 1, I had the genuine sense of curiosity of what was next without me putting in any expectations, just curiosity and going from there.
at certain places, anxiety keeps popping up, and Im harsh on myself because of this, this unroots lots of stuff, core isues probably. im also having urges to run AM6, which is not gonna happen, but the urge to do so, the taunting, is strong. the escapism is real.
In an sense, im already shifted into paradise. all kind of things are faced, experiences with women, atittude and what not, and when I decide to just not gice a fuck, momentum builds up. maybe, becuase I am an gemini by sign, im more in my head, idk.
My life is unfolding like a novel,cant escape the pussy, little vixens. Im not blind to the testing there is, but im having shittests being bounced of me more and more. yesterday evening I came to an conclusion around guilt and that it still plays an massive role, probably stemming from my past, and thus not giving an fuck has guilt popping up, like an subtle blend in when doing something. could be an stemming from my dad that is repeating and replaying. an old trauma coming up, although on AM6 this old wound was being dealth with, altleast, on an more surface level.
Whatever. its thugwar inside, in an way im hellbent executing, otherwise im more subtle executing. the mentioning of seeing and reading women aura is also something mindblowing to me, this morning when running my loops and reading about it, it ws a lightbulb moment. like an "yes, it totally makes sense", followed by an huge sexual surge filling my body, setting me on sexual fire. about the war inside, im between executing and resisting still. its causing all kinds of expereinces to happen. like, freeze responses an its pissing me off more and more. It even feels like its tearing me apart. internally being ripped and teared to shreds.
Im totally feel like Im being chased by women now. time to get more comfortable with it, intrigued even, admiration. loving women without me being needy at all. its like being an total shitlor along with an grin on my face.
When I lock with women, they feel it, they lock back eyes, and I want to be more confident in it. it feels out of character to me, to have this anxiety coming up, on AM6 it was an don't care attitude, perhaps, because things are being dealt with and sex plays its role, im facing some hard roots and issues.
Tbh, I feel in between 2 realities now, one where I am chased down by women constantly, on an continuous basis, on the other hand, im still having "hunter"traits going on. Like, "hunter"programming kicking in randomly. just get okay with it, being the chased.
So much more is currently happening, like the fluttering in my bodym, the energy waves going on, feeling and reading women energies and just goign full autopilot for example. the magnitude of DMSi is blowing me away.
Im so so close now, its absurd, all thats going on is sex now in my whole being, in my mind, my legs being numb and electrified with sexual energy, my dick tingling like mad. women lustingly lookign at me, and all is falling into place.
Oh well, im starting to get more nochalant, and this also causes more and more room fo women seducing me. DMSI is the real fucking deal,
on day 1, I executed directly. it was clear, like an giving way to DMSI directly, like "okay, have it your way"without me doing anything. execution.
now on day 3, im getting to the root. had my parents over as it is my birthday tomorrow. Im feeling very charismatic in my writing, its clear to me, like writing an novel and being almost enigmatic with it.
past girl, S, has added me on snapchat. I know her bf. I dont care. this round, DMSI is turning me into an in the flesh Hank Moody. the playfullness is there, aswell as the attitude, the laid backness, the welcoming of women,. on the first day the sense of women kept expanding. atleast 12 girls giving IOIs, almost like a classroom. Im more and more focussed on women, yet simultaneously IDC. Its like withnessing art, being seductive in vibe, in speech and having an IDGAf attitude, and at the same time not focussed on women at all, just being my playfull self, and things ahppen. on day 1, I had the genuine sense of curiosity of what was next without me putting in any expectations, just curiosity and going from there.
at certain places, anxiety keeps popping up, and Im harsh on myself because of this, this unroots lots of stuff, core isues probably. im also having urges to run AM6, which is not gonna happen, but the urge to do so, the taunting, is strong. the escapism is real.
In an sense, im already shifted into paradise. all kind of things are faced, experiences with women, atittude and what not, and when I decide to just not gice a fuck, momentum builds up. maybe, becuase I am an gemini by sign, im more in my head, idk.
My life is unfolding like a novel,cant escape the pussy, little vixens. Im not blind to the testing there is, but im having shittests being bounced of me more and more. yesterday evening I came to an conclusion around guilt and that it still plays an massive role, probably stemming from my past, and thus not giving an fuck has guilt popping up, like an subtle blend in when doing something. could be an stemming from my dad that is repeating and replaying. an old trauma coming up, although on AM6 this old wound was being dealth with, altleast, on an more surface level.
Whatever. its thugwar inside, in an way im hellbent executing, otherwise im more subtle executing. the mentioning of seeing and reading women aura is also something mindblowing to me, this morning when running my loops and reading about it, it ws a lightbulb moment. like an "yes, it totally makes sense", followed by an huge sexual surge filling my body, setting me on sexual fire. about the war inside, im between executing and resisting still. its causing all kinds of expereinces to happen. like, freeze responses an its pissing me off more and more. It even feels like its tearing me apart. internally being ripped and teared to shreds.
Im totally feel like Im being chased by women now. time to get more comfortable with it, intrigued even, admiration. loving women without me being needy at all. its like being an total shitlor along with an grin on my face.
When I lock with women, they feel it, they lock back eyes, and I want to be more confident in it. it feels out of character to me, to have this anxiety coming up, on AM6 it was an don't care attitude, perhaps, because things are being dealt with and sex plays its role, im facing some hard roots and issues.
Tbh, I feel in between 2 realities now, one where I am chased down by women constantly, on an continuous basis, on the other hand, im still having "hunter"traits going on. Like, "hunter"programming kicking in randomly. just get okay with it, being the chased.
So much more is currently happening, like the fluttering in my bodym, the energy waves going on, feeling and reading women energies and just goign full autopilot for example. the magnitude of DMSi is blowing me away.
Im so so close now, its absurd, all thats going on is sex now in my whole being, in my mind, my legs being numb and electrified with sexual energy, my dick tingling like mad. women lustingly lookign at me, and all is falling into place.
Oh well, im starting to get more nochalant, and this also causes more and more room fo women seducing me. DMSI is the real fucking deal,
06-13-2018, 05:35 AM
So last night I was getting to the root and still am getting to the root and asking why I am resisting still. Im executing for sure but still partly. It did send me into a massive panic like surge. Anxiety did rose, breathing became more shallow and fearfullness. Its like part of me rejects DMSI still, which, seems to be my inner child. By being completely calm and almost stoic communication takes place. Tonight I will again attempt to communicate.
In my communication with "N" Im having a desperation vibe coming up. Its like hellbent nihilism and desperation translating in an confusing form of neediness. Like proving myself, being loud, trying to overrule others in an sense of being heard.
Also, today ( day 4 ) I recognized the anxiety that is ever present in my body, and it became clear through being lifted out right in my awareness like a puzzlepiece to deal with it. This resulted in an more carefree experience in being now.
The getting to the root yesterday was pretty intense we're not done yet and Im pretty sure lots of DMSI stuff is happening to which im blind but instinctively know is happening. Im pretty sure im at something. Also it came through being inspired by KTrain on the forums.
Also, the urge to masturbate pops up randomly, yet im not giving in.
B is still great tho. Im debating of running an 5th loop.
In my communication with "N" Im having a desperation vibe coming up. Its like hellbent nihilism and desperation translating in an confusing form of neediness. Like proving myself, being loud, trying to overrule others in an sense of being heard.
Also, today ( day 4 ) I recognized the anxiety that is ever present in my body, and it became clear through being lifted out right in my awareness like a puzzlepiece to deal with it. This resulted in an more carefree experience in being now.
The getting to the root yesterday was pretty intense we're not done yet and Im pretty sure lots of DMSI stuff is happening to which im blind but instinctively know is happening. Im pretty sure im at something. Also it came through being inspired by KTrain on the forums.
Also, the urge to masturbate pops up randomly, yet im not giving in.
B is still great tho. Im debating of running an 5th loop.
06-14-2018, 07:01 AM
Day 5
I feel...different. even tho fantasizing is a closed escape, Im now feeling sexy and calm. Blissfull and NGAF. about the fantasizing thing. I stopped it consciously and now im flooded with a woman. A teacher who rubs her foot over my crotch and im feeling it physically. My crotch is tingling and im sinking in relaxation.
Women, in my presence, are acting feminine as a reaction my presence. Saw it with G at the gym. Indonasian girl. Calling me sir in a playfull way.
Another thing is, my undertone in talking is carried with a sexual sense. It is there and lots of sexy subcommunication /subtext. My communication and speaking is getting noticaly sexier. Like sexual emotional charged speaking to the female mind.
Another is, abundance of internal richess and potential. It fuelling and towering. Like an internal scourching the limited beliefs. Embrace it.
Also, im more and more starting to feel like a teacher.
Last night, after I set my buzzer, I slept through it. Found it this morning shutted off. Guess in my sleep I did shut it off. Is the second time and find it didnt wake me for my loops. Woke up, played a loop.
After that, my car had to go to the garage for the check up. Several girls beaming smiles, opening me. Not wholly celebrity but there was a seductive quality to it. I was enjoying myself and chatting them a bit up.
Also, my social handling was unfazed. Got myself a replacement car and felt unfazed. Like, alright, rental car, oh well" more of an smooth transition. I noticed while driving this, lotsa people looked at me while driving. Makes me wonder the status a car has in peoples eyes.
Also, when called for the reparation cost, there was a huge grin on my face hearing the amounts coming through in terms of money. I was like "bring it on" and was simply enjoying the conversation.
Whatever cleared last night/this morning I dig it.
Speaking with people, listening but not really paying physical attention, rather tuning in through hearing seems to 10fold perceived value and lowers the value of the one speaking. It stood out to me.
I feel...different. even tho fantasizing is a closed escape, Im now feeling sexy and calm. Blissfull and NGAF. about the fantasizing thing. I stopped it consciously and now im flooded with a woman. A teacher who rubs her foot over my crotch and im feeling it physically. My crotch is tingling and im sinking in relaxation.
Women, in my presence, are acting feminine as a reaction my presence. Saw it with G at the gym. Indonasian girl. Calling me sir in a playfull way.
Another thing is, my undertone in talking is carried with a sexual sense. It is there and lots of sexy subcommunication /subtext. My communication and speaking is getting noticaly sexier. Like sexual emotional charged speaking to the female mind.
Another is, abundance of internal richess and potential. It fuelling and towering. Like an internal scourching the limited beliefs. Embrace it.
Also, im more and more starting to feel like a teacher.
Last night, after I set my buzzer, I slept through it. Found it this morning shutted off. Guess in my sleep I did shut it off. Is the second time and find it didnt wake me for my loops. Woke up, played a loop.
After that, my car had to go to the garage for the check up. Several girls beaming smiles, opening me. Not wholly celebrity but there was a seductive quality to it. I was enjoying myself and chatting them a bit up.
Also, my social handling was unfazed. Got myself a replacement car and felt unfazed. Like, alright, rental car, oh well" more of an smooth transition. I noticed while driving this, lotsa people looked at me while driving. Makes me wonder the status a car has in peoples eyes.
Also, when called for the reparation cost, there was a huge grin on my face hearing the amounts coming through in terms of money. I was like "bring it on" and was simply enjoying the conversation.
Whatever cleared last night/this morning I dig it.
Speaking with people, listening but not really paying physical attention, rather tuning in through hearing seems to 10fold perceived value and lowers the value of the one speaking. It stood out to me.
06-14-2018, 08:26 AM
Just came back from the foodstore. Several women/girls full body scanned me. Felt this weird "busted" feeling come up. Wtf?
Also, after grabbing some food, random guy and I instantly went like we we're good friends dynamic wise. The blond girl behind the checkout lighted up like a christmas tree.
Leader of man attraction switch flipped obviously. Dhv.
Not motivated to approach or whatsoever. Getting more and more socially uninhibited and fluid, like with the guy from the car garage, from.which I just came back, before getting some food. Great vibes all around. Now, polarisation is probably happening already and girls check me out, but im now wanting some more agression in the mix. More of this alpha masculinity. Something that has come up today aswell, more agressively wanting to execute the script.
0 fucks given.
Also, after grabbing some food, random guy and I instantly went like we we're good friends dynamic wise. The blond girl behind the checkout lighted up like a christmas tree.
Leader of man attraction switch flipped obviously. Dhv.
Not motivated to approach or whatsoever. Getting more and more socially uninhibited and fluid, like with the guy from the car garage, from.which I just came back, before getting some food. Great vibes all around. Now, polarisation is probably happening already and girls check me out, but im now wanting some more agression in the mix. More of this alpha masculinity. Something that has come up today aswell, more agressively wanting to execute the script.
0 fucks given.