Subliminal Talk

So much abundance I dont know where to start. Blissfull and sinking into it.

Also, im overcoming lots and at times I feel the h/c flow like an undercurrent inside.

Im more playfull with J, who opened me on facebook.

The group I joined, im willing to make a video response and to call in and connect with people to launch. The value is big. Im operating from an value giving place. Video making, calling into, engaging more, its all things that are adding up to me now, like, before it made me go hopeless, now im eager and filled with joy.

Also, came across a drug meme of food. I now have addiction surfacing and it is overwhelming me how DMSI is shifting it towards resources, wealth, women like its all the same.

On thing that irks me, is that I can even be more bold and I hold back. Comments that spike her emotions hard for example, its like a gap between current and where I can be. Thus being free. I want no guilt.

Im also revisiting an old wound. Childhood memories are surfacing and the thought of an 'missing link' is surfacing. Its tied with agression, standing and stepping up for myself. Like, for example, being tooled. Victim parts coming up and am glad its coming up.

Things keep progressing. Im gravitating to pornstar life *shrug* and am thinking bout gettin snake bite piercings. Also my eyes are beautiful.
Did read some guys post that if a guy date younger chicks, theyre side chicks. Shortsigthed and small thinking imo. It can be anything, like older girls. Even pimp your neighbourhood and country
Boobs. I like boobs. Before fake boobs were a turn off yet now its resolved. Her energy is everything that matters. Then again, idc? *shrug*
Having a event tomorrow ive been invited to. 2 chick come along with it. DMSI shifts my mind in banging both. Idc. Also dye manifestatiin a 3rd might come in. Social circle expansion all the way.

Im no lomger apologetic about my sexual being. For all I know im getting more fluid and am getting more rough, playfull, balsy. The moment an issue surfaces, its being dealt and being overcame shortly after.

Sexdrive is high, which is fine.

Got another dating mail in my insta dm. I really dig this life.

Also, Xander Corvus. Pretty awesome guy & pornstar. I aint fapping but they have interesting stories to reflect on. Im really sensitive when it comes to absorbing vibes, personality traits till the point of copying it and living it to gain depth. Idk why or how, its been an running theme for some time. In a way I can use it to mold character further.

Knwing talking about sex casually and openly like a business is easy. Huge grin on my face about that.
Also my dick is looking huge.

DMSI acts like a damn entity seducing through the aura making women dripping wet, freaking g*d mode while breathing. Just back to get some stuff, this girl gave the most submissive horny hi up to date. It aint enough..time to get some shit tackled ( addictions, when being nicotine free Im super grounded and fearless )

Just knowing while loving life and being and women fauning and falling in the aura wanting sex with me is golden.

Also, Im laughing randomly and super selfamused with all. If im nicotine free then stuff just skyrockets. Guess its a h/c fear response. It derails seriously. Its like being a massive sexmagnet. She was cute tho, but something seemed to cause me to not being fully comfortable ( no not the smoking, didnt smoke anything ) socially its fluid when paying and just small talk, no biggie.

Just the knowing, the p in v and so much more, sex on my fingertips and what not, its there. 3.2 is the real deal. Already looking forward tomorrows event, testing DMSI.

I know girls are everywhere falling for me, when im having no altered shit goin on. Then still but reduced and derailed. Whatever.

I dont know who tf I am anymore which is good.
Also, IDGAF about IOI cuzz I know theyre there. It gives women room to seduce which they already do. Everywhere I go.

Feeling really short fused. Really small things set me off in rage, ageession and wanting to lash out.
Muscles are twitching like some light seizure. Guess things are released. Im really going to push my.mind to the limit, my loops, to get shit done once and for all.

Shitton of hot women in this country that I aint even know anymore for which ones are manifestation or not. Doesnt matter, for all I know all are manifestation as that shit happens moment after moment subconsciously wise.

Anyways, I have no what I dreamed about, I do remember at one point I was soaking wet with sexual energy. Feeling very capable in a sense handling girls in a sexual way like some fucking p#rnstar. Im having more and more sexual dreams aswell, like instantly.

Oh well, yesterday felt like a bust and now having resistance to go out/back to that event. :/ like wtf, scarcity and emotions, feeling on the brink of crying.

Im not gonna stop DMSI.

Anyways, yesterday the resistance passed and I realized I could randomly start babbling about my cat oscar ( I dont have a cat ) and how he is a hot shot, thus being playfull, almost innocent and stuff, giving her an unlimited amount of things to progress on. Again, I can tell her how he is the boss of the neighbourhood, or silly, or any of that.

To come back to the event. I just finished a loop before and felt pretty much in my head. Music on in the car, volume high, cruising relaxed. Met up with a friend, with C and Jo, and it felt awkward. Thinkjng back on this feels like spiralling down. The f#ck is happening. When people engaged it went fluid. Anyways, the amount of hot women was ridiculous. No approaches but at least many positioning close, hairflips and shit. One girl was standing out, got my eye, and made me somewhat curious. Black lomg gair, toned, slim, B cup, deep clesr blue eyes. We met 2 times. Like, my eyes did trance out into hers till the point of closeness.

This happened countless times, eye contacting just dominating my will, relaxing and going with it. It felt beyond bs beliefs like 'oh perv this, judgment thst' just gazing relaxed and it was noticable to me. I grew more and more relaxed, realized I did try to figure out what front to take on ( bs crap ) and then let go, only to reground, recentre and feel amazing, like just present..lotsa boob display. Went to get some food, many girls ass bumping into me and shit...

Yet...

Idk. Something is missing.

Whatever. Had lotsa looks, but felt somewhat down, then IDK, then.needy. thats it. Validation seeking, neediness, subtle shit and just negative self beliefs in my internal being. It shows in my bodylanguage, or atleast did yesterday.

Got free drinks tho, before I knew it, it was handled by Jo and felt my pre-selection rise. Also hitting up the bartender, who I knew was met with no-nonsense attitude, minimal handling it off. Tgats my jam most of the time. Causal direction and leading stuff.

Another that now surfacing is "acceptation" im no coming to the deeper gist of it all. Like, childhood upbring, going way back. It might go even back to birth and on a deeper more "genetic(?)" level. :/

I feel the eub agressively trying yo execute. A whole well of public anxiety has broke open along with paranoia. My charm and charisma are akplifying and my eye contact is strong. Narcissism is very much present and frankly, IDGAF. Im going underneath the layer of social dynamic. Its like this layer is lifted up only to come to understand the "underneath" like the dynamics. My impulses are definitely up and im opening old wounds. Frankly I like the feeling of narcissism, of "feeling" surperior

Im questioning laws, rules, structures of society, of "sanity" of what is considered morally right and being "good" loadsa trauma stuff to work through. My eyes wt times are very intense and it shows in how people react. It feels right to be just this "mask" while underneath the chaos is rampant

Yes, last couple of days Im (re) visiting morr violent things and feeling almost okay with the agression is met with an "perhaps I should be concerned or something" faintly.

As I write this im feeling charmijg, charismatic, know people can fall into my frame, my influence. Its almost being okay into manipulating people for the sake of it. Its revealing to me.

Also, by visiting the more violent "thoughts" , along with these moments, I wanted to destroy things/people just for the sake of it.

Perhaps its part of the uninhibition process, the facings of paranoia and anxiety, part of wanting the drug, the nofap or a combo of it.

Im simply not there and yet highly aware. By the minute the momentum goes and grows and revelations pile up like a showing process in my mind.

Otherwise, im feeling like a g*d. By having this power.

Im feeling dizzy, whats going on in my mind is massive, and knowing having this choice to step over the line will not work in my benefit, it will result in an strong reduction of freedom. my intent keeps shifting, caught my eyes in an very, dead state for example and am pretty sure peaople pick this up, the agression only makes people very much qualifying themselves, like its some sort exertion of my will. which is nice. but still, I can see how people that are born without empathy/emotion/feeling or whatever you want to call it ( and right now, my intent is very straight forward and "pure") give into this. it very thrilling in an sense but also hyper shattering.

charm, charisma, witt, sophistication, knowing Im having this dark triad like mindset at this point, is putting me on the leading edge. yes, even elite maybe. girls eat this shit up, instead of being a passive soft wuss ( tho drake gets the panties wet as fuck ) and it can ll come down to manipulation in an sense. never thought I would write this, aswell as putting the "responsibility"of how people react out of my hands, iim unconcerned. will this put me into lock down? maybe. Perhaps. could be. idk. Probably.

And, oh yeah, it also makes me having my dads part of uprbring blend in, mom not so much, and lots of other factors, such as school, people, events, experiences. all is targeted. idgaf about h.c anymore, its unconscious present even. whatever,. ill keep running my loops tho. the amount of issues pile up, including rejection, which is a load of bs in the end but still, something surfacing in my mind, thus playing a role.

Im realizing that h/c is also accepting parts of myself, instead of coldly discarding them. embrace and amplify. I also am growing colder, or, coming to terms of discarding people on a whim. whatever. letting go is not the full picture , as it also is an "throwing the baby with the bathwater: kind of thing. very black white, but whatever. there isnt also any longer a frame of "approaching and opening"rather an process of flow with women. like, it happens automatically and thus the steps guide through my subconscious.

Accepting is definitely a part of this h/c journy. thus amplifying. am rather self-praise. my ego seems to definitely growing aswell.

Whatver is happening, coming to terms with paranoia, anxiety and triggers is a thing. to discard parts of myself instead of owning them, is an running away from personal power. embracing them is an extention and raise in power and all kind of goodies.

doing 7 loops during sleep, would you say your sleep quality is affected at all? Or you can't tell? Do you keep track of how many hours a night you sleep exactly (give or take)? If so, do you feel you need more sleep now that you're running 7 loops DMSI at night during sleep?

I sleep lighter but it seems to not really affect me functionally, other then that high loops like 7 demand processing it, thus having not the light processing of 1 loop. I take that for granted. I dont keep track, I know how much 7 loops take and calculate that. 1h and 3m is 7 hours and 21 min total.

No track of how my hours I sleep exactly. I set the sub and go with it.

Im currently being hit with waves of clarity and raw sexuality.
Im having the urge to travel, cuz, why not? Lots of hot women wanting me all over the planet.

Girl in the checkout row just yet had this fine ass. My mind directly went into "pound that ass"

Driving this morning and im about to manifest some twin sister thingie or something. Kinda hot lol.

Yesterday, vet girl with nice ass was leaning into me. Other woman and I had sticky eye contact.

No fucking clue whats keeping me back. These girls and women, there is a flooding goin and theyre are getting blatantly obvious in IOIs.

My eyes are opening up to DMSI life. Its everywhere.

Fucking brad pitt vibes lol

Millionaire mindset with a continuous flood of girls/harem

Having my instagram blowing up with modelling girls aswell.

Will run B for 8 loops upcoming 14 days.

Let the games begin.

(07-17-2018, 06:48 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]Im currently being hit with waves of clarity and raw sexuality.
Im having the urge to travel, cuz, why not? Lots of hot women wanting me all over the planet.

Girl in the checkout row just yet had this fine ass. My mind directly went into "pound that ass"

Driving this morning and im about to manifest some twin sister thingie or something. Kinda hot lol.

Yesterday, vet girl with nice ass was leaning into me. Other woman and I had sticky eye contact.

No ***** clue whats keeping me back. These girls and women, there is a flooding goin and theyre are getting blatantly obvious in IOIs.

My eyes are opening up to DMSI life. Its everywhere.

***** brad pitt vibes lol

Millionaire mindset with a continuous flood of girls/harem

Having my instagram blowing up with modelling girls aswell.

Will run B for 8 loops upcoming 14 days.

Let the games begin.

I may throw a dirt into it and please don't take it as a derail. It looks like you're getting exposed around a lot of women and your mindset being "I can pound 'em all". But are you having sex? Has any woman ever seduced you to bed?

No, I dont take it as a derail.

One woman has thrown herself at me, which was online. Turned out she had a kid and was in a 5 year long relationship, wanting me as her fun ( she went direct, gave her number ) was on 3.2

Other girl, J, approached me on facebook, told me she "crushed on my profile" and begun throwing questions. She dissapeared from facebook, her profile deleated. This was 3.2. She was kinda cute. She told she lived in my country and had a sister. Damn.

With A, who basically seduced me till the point of wanting me to fuck her ( she told me through playfull sexting ) but eventually kept the boat off. Neediness. This was on 3.1. On 3.2, spoke her and she tried to frame me in saying "you did miss me " never mentioned that.

But making me horny and seducing me into fuckfest? No. I feel slowly breaking through bs tho.

I'm curious. Are there genuinely more girls appearing in your life, or are you more focused on the ones already there? e.g. Before DMSI was there maybe two girls in your gym and now there's much more?

Yes, more are appearing, like out of the blue/manifestations. How it happens, no clue.