Subliminal Talk

Lots of fears around succes. Sub digging deeper.
Tears are shed. Been a while since this happened.
Its like hearing the haters in full force, audiable in my head, what is said, the naysayers, the beliefs my subc picked up. The limiting beliefs. Also fear around sticking to something. I thought it was because of my huge interest pool, jack of all trades and sticking to none. It seems to be a very clever escape machanism.
Also, succes, women, it ties all into eachother.
Also, I feel im hitting right into my core. Its fear, grieving almost. Letting version A do its thing now.

Tonight is break and I want to break down and be raw now. Like honest and real.

Im burning up, heat is emanating strongly from me like a mini heatwave.

My break was last night and, because of utter resistance, I decided to put on some asmr from an russian girl.
My whole body fired up, im pretty sure im snipeting her in some way, as I had the thought pop up, my eyes were totally locked and my body fired up completely, like being a manifestation of sexual presence.

This russian girl is hot and isnt afraid to flaunt and being perceived as sexual. Make it happen DMSI.

I also realized that, when comitted, or, alligned with my purpose, all else lines up. Its flawless. Thank you DMSI/Universe. Literally creating, in an limitless way, attracting what and who I want to attract, confidently.

Now, as I was at the gym today, it was empty. One guy was there and he ghosted me. Lol.

Now, after finishing my training, an girl, who I hadnt seen jn a while, was there.

Me: "been a while since I have seen you"
She: " yeah I work on other days"
Me: due to being out of it, placed my 2 euro vanilla protein shake order
After finishing, I payed.
Told her see you next time
Her: "I work on monday evening and thursday evenings" without me asking when she works.

Lol.

To come back to the movie, in which the girl approached me and we kicked off instantly sexual, till the point sexual tension was felt and banging would be a walk in the park, I was with a group, in which she was part apparently, there were nuggets of gold in that movie.

Kids suddenly awakening superpowers. It was great. One of the characters could literally control and dominate will, akin to being absolutely dgaf dominant. She said walk and keep walking, while the other was at mercy of her. Showed some damn strong frame. It made me realize the utter possibility of manifestation, reality bending, and the universe being fluid. It triggered my in some undescribable state. Like seeing it for what it is, high level energy manipulation, creation and manifestation.

I became limitless at some point and utterly relaxed in the chair. This made several girls respond on subconscious level, including the girl who was blatantly hitting on me, aswell as their friends. Another guy kept seeking my attention, another girl when walking in was utterly submissive when walking through those cinema halls. The girl helping me with drinks also was pretty cute.

Now, free drinks on the girl hitting on me, with whom I kept playing, well, it has be possible to have this on the more continuous scale tbh. Like more of an day to day occurance. I know it is possible.

The girl that ended almost on my lap last time, whom I didnt know her name, has added me on instagram.
She has send her snapchat and is sending me messages
"Do you think im hot"
"Will it become sometging between us"

Ten messages in a row. Shes head over heels, prolly sniped her which I suspected. Even tho shes not my body type, im attracted to her, like hunger.

Hot 8/10 sized me up couple of days ago, feeling DMSI like a entity penetrating her ass. She gave "the eyes"

Now, im having some h/c to do about direct communication, IDGAF attitude in convo and rejection. Shes feminine yet mental. Whatever. Its like im feeling so good i dont want anyone to take it from me.

One thought thst comes up not so randomly at times "I dont want/have time for this"

On another note, im feeling really cocky, cheeky, arrogant in an way, like no care in the world at all. ( mixture of Damon Salvatore and several personages from the series supernatural )

What a time to be alive. Having girls throwing themselves at me, being an stud and feeling raw power breaking through.

Also, last few days, I walk/bump into hot women, like an magnet. In the literal sense of tge word. C shown pure lust and hubger in her eyes, other girls aswell, and yet, im feeling so charged and unneedy Im almost cumming by how hot I am.

What a douche. Lol. The execution is real.

Also, what I notice is women stay stuck in my head, like "M" and this 8/10 from last time who gave me "the eyes"
Another is the 2 girls/set at the gym that kept looking over but didnt approach. Pony tailing their hair while I was in the zone training shoulders. It seems to magnify the snipers.

Sometimes it really "weird" to see girls go mental due the aura before your eyes. Aswell as slowing down time and see the slowing in their tracks while looking/gazing at them. Like literal slowing down.

I miss my cocky funny tho. Still an to much of an investment thing, prolly fear. Its all in a state of mind. Im already feeling cocky funny, but over text, just for shits and giggles, its a "afraid to lose" kinda thing. Hope DMSI A will solve this as I am confident in having the skills.

Sticking point. Face ro face it aint an issue tho.

'You're hot"
"I know. We should get a drink"

Lol

Edit: in my first loop now and im about to shed some tears. One part of me is callous and want to drink but this is like walking away. There is a lot of hurt surfacing, which, in turn, is about to clear up. Its like loads of covert memories come up now tied to this. Makes me remember some painfull memories aswell, mostly feeling wise

Acknowledgement is a good step. Pretty much tragic as it seems to be similar to am6 dark night of the soul kinda process.

Edit2: im seeing an stark contrast between a nice guy and a sexual beast. Being sexual, straight to the point, knowing you have options and being sexually spontaneous and fluid. Basically being in line with primal instincts.
Nice guy: inhibited and carefull, non exciting, being betabux and a resource.

This girl is already for skype sessions and what not. Its like I feel the aura raging, really fast. I cant help but escalate. Letting go result in such quick sex, and I feel I am creating all scenarios that overrides her whole.

@Shannon I understand that sex can happen is such a short time ( along with reality bending ) but I really hope there is an 18+ "limiter" on it, or I can see how lethal this can become. I dont want underage girls to be sniped and get obsessed in a very short time. Its like im overridden myself and execute so strongly as of now. Like only giving in will result in design goals.

Perhaps its fear, idk..but this intensity of the bat is something Im experiencing for the first time.

(08-22-2018, 10:31 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]This girl is already for skype sessions and what not. Its like I feel the aura raging, really fast. I cant help but escalate. Letting go result in such quick sex, and I feel I am creating all scenarios that overrides her whole.

@Shannon I understand that sex can happen is such a short time ( along with reality bending ) but I really hope there is an 18+ "limiter" on it, or I can see how lethal this can become. I dont want underage girls to be sniped and get obsessed in a very short time. Its like im overridden myself and execute so strongly as of now. Like only giving in will result in design goals.

Perhaps its fear, idk..but this intensity of the bat is something Im experiencing for the first time.

I took my kids to dinner the other night. There was a girl with her family that looked about 12-years-old. She wouldn't stop looking at me, smiling, and I thought it was because she thought my kids were cute - but when I looked into her eyes and smiled back, I could tell it was crushy on her part. Then she turned my way and spread her legs, looking again. Ai-yi-yi.

I had to ignore her from that point on, obviously. I think that's the answer, rather than adding a limiter. Now, if she had come over, stripped in public, and humped my leg...Well, I'd argue for that limiter, lol.

(08-22-2018, 10:31 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]This girl is already for skype sessions and what not. Its like I feel the aura raging, really fast. I cant help but escalate. Letting go result in such quick sex, and I feel I am creating all scenarios that overrides her whole.

@Shannon I understand that sex can happen is such a short time ( along with reality bending ) but I really hope there is an 18+ "limiter" on it, or I can see how lethal this can become. I dont want underage girls to be sniped and get obsessed in a very short time. Its like im overridden myself and execute so strongly as of now. Like only giving in will result in design goals.

Perhaps its fear, idk..but this intensity of the bat is something Im experiencing for the first time.

Depending on the country 18 is not always age of consent, in Germany for example the lowest limit is 14, even if there is an extra protection by law for people below 16. So if anything the limit had to be the age of consent. However, I had similar experience to RTBoss with underage girls and the easiest thing is indeed to ignore further going stuff.

Thanks @RTBoss and @"Mr. Anderson" . The girl is 16 tho. Last few days Im feeling like im executing merciless.

Like yesterday evening, I felt my mind becoming full centred, unfazed, non needy, fully solid, stable.

The icecoldness and cockiness as an merciless rejection is something im working on currently. Being an dick aint bad. Being a sexy dick aint that bad. Its almost like self preserverance in an way. Not out of fear, but out of grounded seof selection and solid sexual frame. Meanwhile im remaining and trucking in my ( ever growing ) sexy self. Im a stud no doubt. I know it in my core.

I want girls to match my value. Or, atleast, I think so. I dont like compromises. But im really annoyed by some DLV traits of girls and want me to ignore them totally, only to bask in my sexiness.

Another thing is, im experiencing some things that feel out there but are definitely DMSI related. Like my mannerism voice, but also growing fangs ( i aint a furry and, having an occult baclground ) and, almost feel myself sucking up other peoples energies.

Sounds far out there. Have no other explanation then to dive and digging deep into my instinct, primal depths and reotillian mind. Im done doubting.

Also, my cockiness, idgaf, playfullness and lots of MSI traits are amplifying and shing strongly through. Its like being a sculpture. This is my design. Like freefloating but solid and sexy.

I still have the stiffledness going on. Its as if im fighting ghosts. Like, im recognizing the illusion of it its as if they evaporate when recognizing them. It doesnt make sense to me how my subc still is terrified deoending on the setting and place. Like, it really ruins my mojo.

Guess I have work to do, to work through these issues tied to isolated events.

I haven't been growing fangs etc but can defo absorb peoples' energies on B. Much more instinctual too.

Got a lower voice and I move slower. If I move quick, its deliberate and almost like a dance.

Yeah, slower walking, head high, almost looking smug and self absorbed, like im flaunting being fabulous lol. Not bad.

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For me it is will. The thought pops up ( through whatever trigger ) and I feel animalistic traits kick in. Its like an sort automatic visualisation and inhale. Other thing is, I feel my teeth and the absorbing of energy feels pulled into my teeth ( fangs)

Another is absorbing peoples energy like their traits.

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