Been watching thia and the inner changes are so huge right now. Also, Mandy is the type of woman I got the hots for. Total succes, high value class women with brains. Its a total shift of succes and outlook for me, life changing at the moment to see this all shift and click.
Even if I imagine myself in Grant´s shoes right now, I feel the pull to make out stroooongly with Mandy.
Sense of understanding in regards of misson has been skyrocketed, nuclear even. it all makes sense now and settles, like, its now clear to me, being the enginge, the beast, and having multiple purposes. Its when Im alligned with my mission, energy investment becomes without downside, such as tiredness and such. Its like the perfect flow of energy without resistance and allignment with my core. it makes me want to do stuff, productive. The healing of DMSI A probably has unlocked the beast in all of this, this understanding, sense and getting it. the why´s and all.
Why do I have such a love for Am6 of a sudden? I want to rip everything apart and sink my teeth deep. like a wild savage beast. Im playing way to nice, im getting more agressive, more and more this is building up by sacrificng nice for realness and this will cause sacrifices no doubtly. Im becoming very polarizing. I like where I am yet also dislike where I am. version A seems to hit hard at this point. Im way to filtered for my taste. Its like a kneejerk reaction and it always blows me out.
talking about taste, i want to have the most unholy, most raw sex there is, sinking my teeth in the flesh, destroying and using at this point, throwing her around and fully domineering her in bed without giving a fuck. Not a blind barbarian, yet fully in control and dom space. Likie a pure primal animal, fluidly and acting on instinct.
perfect.
For a long time, my go to IOI were eye contact as the primairily one, which was limiting as there are a shitton of cues. Now Im shifting to full body reading and emjoying it. I still can be amazed by female beauty, yet its more of an blend of meh and admiration. Like im highly solid in feeling alpha that way.
My inner changes are so radical that I literally feel untouchable, skyhigh in value. Also, sex is coming back to mind, as if Im shifting to that area. Its life itself basically now. This also translates in being unaffected and natural display of leader traits/alpha traits.
The untouchable, the unstoppability is met with so many more oppurtunities, it looks really good. A dam has been breached. I can see how im the centre of attraction now, like a gravitating field. I would even go as far to say that im moving to the mindset of "im getting away with all, nothing phases me and affects me"
Its truly life and world changing. Perhaps my ego is dissolving and am tapping into omnipotence.
Owning up unfiltered is something im working on.
After we lost everything we gain everything. I feel this to become true if it isnt already.
Im on my way to manifest an harem of women. When interacting with women my attitude is very high, yet calibrated and unaffected, causing their switches to flip and them to melt/getting attracted. Its very natural.
Life is one big social circle. Im getting looks everywhere I go and socially im even more at ease. Im feeling weird in a good way, cant pinpoint it other then to give in. At friends now, and feel isolated yet very centred and great. I dont mind. Had some anxiety calling bs of a friend this morning over text. Seems the isolation factor over text is an anxiety issue or rather cause it to stirr
If a womsn react closed off, im thinking its her loss. No loss for mine at all. IDGAF.
At times I worry at externals as a matter of validation seeking.
Also, sense of wealth improves greatly. Like yeah sure rent some hotel rooms and stuff, using venues to the maximum. Im leading in ease and great sense.
Worth niticing the experience of feeling so good, freely to pull, pure sex state being. Highly social. Sexual talk openly. Women excite me. Like really loving it/them. Its like pure magnetism. High player state but idc. Its like wildfire. Progression through feeling amazing. Pure in control of exciting choices.
Execution is real yall. One friend is more snarky and it doesnt phase me at all. Im to much value.
Awesome! Its getting more constant continuously.
10-5-18 1 loop DMSI B day 1.
Execution is granted. Ran B this morning after yesterdays break after running A. Lots of stuff coming up and came up,, almost like my mind went out of control causing thoughts to become really strong in imagery thinking, making all kind of weird correlations.
Anyways, B is relentless. Im already executing and executing harder and harder will be it. No doubts about that. I notice how several girls are competing on a subconscious level for me. Im excited, happy, non needy, amazed and buzzing greatly.
My eyes locking them make them cream their pants. The eye fucking, the shaking in their voice, the subtle switches of their attraction manifesting in sexy conversations..
Anyways, B is a relief. A has a strong impact. It makes me face stuff head on. Acknowledging causing it to break through. Im still having a certain war goin on inside but having re-occuring visions of being carefree and totally sexual entity. Im almost in girls their head through DMSI...
Im really wanting this healing/clearing to be over with. Like, clicking and having it an none issue, yet the healing and clearing is so sweet tho, like gimme more, heal me fufther.
Some parts of me still hold on. Like being totally on the spot and holding frame maximum causes still tension. Like slipping in and out of it. Its almost 2 different worlds. One is being totally IDGAF being leader, alpha and whatever. Another is almost like the opposite.
I want to freedom to escalate effortless and just without any doubt or insecurity poppin up. B might cruise me through this.
On A I had moments of pushing through, only to recognize the key afterwards, as if snapping out of hypnosis and hyperfocus.
I do also notice how many people live in limitations and scoff those seeing through them like it directly hurts and attacks their programming. Its really rubbing the wrong way on me. Also, as im growing, improving further, I start to see my immediate circle of friends are almost stuck in an teenage loop. There isnt vision goin on, im associating with the more succesfull, the higher ups, and tbh, im never a day off which is great and liberating. Just work on everything everyday. Their is so much greatness goin on, to go on with, and yet, their is a huge mefiocre focus and low energy goin on nowadays.
Anyways, Im getting off topic. I notice im maturing. Im seeing the stuckness of peoole around me, and dont want any of that. Im closing off chapters and recignize how im still modelling myself slightly after people of succes, while my core is omnipotent. Im already succesfull and all that. I dont need to deal with all kinds off people, no need to cause to think different, only to make me Sexually Irresistable. Its giving a sense of relief to fully embrace all of myself, all of it now. This is making me pretty much euphoric.
Im in this for myself. For it all and even something bigger then me, like expanding myself hugely and massively.
Day 3 DMSI B.
Ran B version this morning. Im going through lots of swings including cloud mindedness. Its like internal havoc is being wrecked. Insane horniness yet in lockdown.
Im growing in deeper understanding of abundance of women which is real clear to me when snapping out of this almost trance like state. Im getting very aware of the impact of DMSI, it will win out anyways. Im still liking B version pretty much.
Am again looking in updating my wardrobe. A theme on DMSI is that at times, music isnt doing anything at all for me, like at all. Nothing is satisfying.
Im very tired and cloud minded currently, like being constant on a pass out brink.
Im insanely horny. Im highly aware of selftalk aswell. My bodylanguage is straight up superstar/celebrity. Im walking with an sense of high attraction how im dressed now looks great.
Also, im getting impatient of not having sex right now. An anger perhaps with myself. The sense of powerlessness is a red thread it seems, trauma. Lots of other things are still in the depths of my subconscious being digged up. Like a huge lake/ocean is cracked open and touching upon it and going through this is met with an "floodgate" kind of response.
When talking with my psych yesterday ( whom I hired ) we came to the conclusion when going step for step back. We talked about dissociation, trauma, amnesia and this time I was aware how crisp and logical it all was in my communication and leading through this.
Abandonment, powerlessness, childhood that came up, flashbacks involving senses, other things that came up and I remember telling him how it went deep quick. We came to the conclusion of several things which are undoubtly faced and going to be faced. Im growing more ferocious on honesty to myself, being blunt open, and facing head on. Im even somewhat excited about it without nuancing. I want to go raw in it. There is a shitton to be written about this. Its like a snowball effect that piles up more and more stuff.
We talked about bodylanguage and because of DMSI impact we talked about the SMV, presentation, confidence, insecurities and the things I want to deal with. .
Also short term goals, long terms goals and how I see it blew my mind and how sure ( through reality bending ) it was in terms of succes, self providing, growth and overal my life.
Im growing stronger in massive action. It all is in conjunction, but now, im sort of feeling my subc wanting to flee and escape. Not a chance.
Underneath the stuff there is a diamond that women crave. Im thrilled and damn serious ( maybe not so, the cheeky ass mofo I am lmao ) that, I will he having to many women to deal with soon. Its like my whole body fires up as soon as I see a hot women. We lock eyes if that happens and they are damn hot. Its like a "ment to be" kind of vibe with immense raw animalistic magnetism. Even if she is some distant away, it is felt, right across the room. The horniness of today causes me to want to look up porn but its soon met with a sense of "it would be a waste" my legs go weak even at times like pre-orgasm.
Its like being a kimg amongst a school class at times. Like, being the master/teacher/succes guy, having those women wsnting you, almost like keeping this order a.k.a taming those girls. Been there before, in my 20s, naivity caused me to hook up effortlessly. Like my game came natural. Anyways, that was the past, now is now.
Nowadays im getting at this point of bumping into them, hooking up, banging, having several firms of relationships. Also, when I see some guys going nice guy, im a bit dying inside. Im free from outcome ( almost so aloof IDGAF ) but is just so obvious that my being screams "ooohhh f#ck no dude.."
Inwards something is about to crack. To snap. Like, my body/mind/subc is highly trying through several strategies to shutdiwn. When thats healed...damn. selfawareness probably.
Fucking DMSI... again thinkimg bit bout what Shannon has posted in the past on the forums in terms of relationship models, aswell as BlackDragon, DMSI goes like..."designed goals achieved" alongside euphoria.
Edit: externals are 100% seen, noticed and there. Deal with it, I got you - DMSI.
Man, The way u just wrote this post is as if u r on a bottle of Viagra..You really r Executing most of it... Keep Us updated
Hahaha thanks brother. I gave you a rep. Comment is straight up gold.
Day 4 B
Horniness ever increases and I am starting to think I limited myself through thinking only being approached was being legit. It doesnt really matter. Approach, being approached, transcend both, IDGAF.
Im starting to max out being the cause as my reality being dominant. All shackles seem to drop. Im already putting in the work of location and the moment I walk outside I might aswell get kidnapped or some shit. Still, im ballin so hard so unaffected, that im ceo status and am the sole end decider. Now, the fear thats left mightve fall away aswell, as I have at times to extreme aloofness even tho the girl throws herself at my feet. Its like an kneejerk reaction lf "dont show neediness, be cold as ice" weird, could be a calibration thing/process transformation.
Sex is very dominant in my mind, at times I have urges to rub one out and thats fine. Like constsnt sex on my mind, consumed by the sexual readiness.
The heavy experience last few days have caused a trajectory shift. I become basically aware that there is an total differentbdistinct reality, instead of changing the current one. More of an complete closing the chapter and dragged onto the next one, onto the next one.
HOLD UP!
I want to get my skills down more. My obsession increasing. When having this down, and are able to generate wealth ( which overwhelms in abundant possibility, holy shit ) then Im set. There are so many things im mastering. Set intent and know there is the backup. Same as with references, set intent, have it, know it, allign with it and flow. Total trust. Boom.
The high flow of succes, the mental visions of succes, weakth, cars, skills, living life high is flooding me now. Marketing myself will be easy as fuck.
fyi, im running 2 loops back to back B in the morning. Yesterday was my first day back to back and it made me feel overwhelmed and spaced out, like to chill to care, processing mode.
The aura is burning pretty hard now. Its nice.
On a sidenote; make capri-sun great again.
Edit: everything is coming together. Succes, sex, thriving, confidence, high self image, it ties into eachother. Having some fear coming up as I am steering to "bang everything in sightbwith a heartbeat" its new baseline and the energy flooding is huge.
Nothing phases me, seeing people getting in fights and shit, yet my sense of focus, composure and stability is unmovable. Im having better things to do and this simple tjing is something I enjoy the living shit out. I honestly feel im now at my core and ceo in ways that arent in stasis. Its rather fluid.
Im executing in that way. Feeling sexy as hell, playfull, lightmooded. Also, as my birthday is nearing, Im thrilled for it. Life is so diverse. Its beautiful.
Its rather an sense of me. Before CEO mindset was somewhat "grey, serious" and all that. Still is. But now im finding pride in my skills, drive, ambition, flow and insights. Its like an creative flow, one which is met with thriving, massive action, allowance of it and gettin out of my way.
It also gives a sort of lighter approach about my environment. It still is something of high priority, Now, its more playfull, almost light mockery without any internal wavering.
So much more is to come.
You've been on this just shy of two months right?
Yes, since the release date.