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Friday ( tonight will be 4th session )
Im developing an more softside now. Like, justin bieber/the weeknd, giving me an almost golden boy kind of vibe/aura. I like it.
Also im trusting in DMSI and it feels good, just keepin my interference out of it like pushing the sub in a certain direction.
To not pollute Shannons feedback journal Im writing it down here.
Im having many fears coming up. One is the boundaries of me. Im hypervigilant on my thoughts at this point. Setting boundaries, tho at AM6, is revisited. Im not caring about women at this point, tho I have women seduce me even more obvious. One fear, which lead to more fears, is boundaries are set in an "high guard or else" out of fear Im selling myself due being brought up in an shitty way of mind. As a kid I was taught that, when being picked on, you need to let it go in one ear, let it out the other. Kids are still in developing stage, griwing up and oistening to dad ( atleast I did, correct me if Im wrong ) They havent developed logic. Their personality is still forming. Thats why, when enough trauma ( before age 7 ) their mind can fracture due trauma.
Anyways, im still experiencing this void inside. Many traits such as glib, charm, charisma, manipulation are merely met at an mental level. Almost non heart, but rather having no connection to it. Devoid of empathy nor care, only applying it without any empathic awareness to it. It just is usable like everything including rage
So thats that. Im sure there is some mechanisms/patterns going on behind it. In a way im thinking about embracing it. Like, no selling out, but owning it ( inner kid?) Or its an obsession going on and just move on about it.
It does also cause some pondering about being alpha. Not being toyed anymore, having no care in losing people, discarding people..in an sense it feels highly masculine.
Anyways, to the seduction part...
I cant really explain it ( ofcourse im running DMSI ) im causing women to feel things no matter what im dealing with. Ghosting doesnt matter. ( what?...) it by mere existing in MSI. its great. Im like a superstar/rockstar. Like in my earlier post about that golden boy aura. Its being a gravitational blackhole of sex.
Im being approached by several women today. Held a convo with one for half an hour at work, light, but she started to caress my arm. Another woman kept rambling about her bike. Older lady.
Girl at the checkout started re-adjusting herself.
When getting some fish, I had some small flirting time with the girl behind the counter. I noticed her attraction. Like I look at them, they lock back and fall in attraction. It state shifts me effortlessly.
Also, listening to an podcast of Arash now ( the real art of winning friends and influence people )
It skyrockets my understanding. Good for my mind.
Turned my loops on last night and in the first loop I saw myself being alike to an egyptian King/ruler aura wise. Its easy to manifest.
Also fell in some dreamlike state where hot amazon women seduced me and crawled on me and had sex with me. The hot feminine kind that is, tho with an hint of roughness. Toned and no nonsense.
Feeling oretty good just now. Thing really ramp up and my internal world is revolving around incredible high status, being an ancient ruler, king, calm and executing. Also before I ran my loops last night, my game has levelled up. Like an next level playing field of game, women, seduction and owning it. Very natural and "alpha", akin to Arash Zepar Dibazar.
I DO care about women or I wouldnt run DMSI. not in the needy kind, but more in the baby making kind. This is not to say im needy, I still will call them out and spike them if needed so. Still caring but also IDGAF.
Ego is another thing. Im getting aware of it. Each time this pattern seem to be rooted in perservation. The ego bringing me right back into "stasis" but not for long. Highly egoistic yet noticing im getting fed up by it and the tides are turning. Its like a flowing processing now without me being in its way which is great. Not fully there but im getting there.
Edit: Im accepting my ego and its so positive it gives a great sense of relief and gets the juices flow.
Met up with some guys yesterday ( im gravitating back to business and mastermind, having the right people around me is key ) and the girl of one of them, gf/bf status to them, couldnt stop looking, glaring, staring and sticking to me/at me. It shows such statusses say nothing on the raw level. Labels like bf/gf, whatever dynamic dont mean anything to me. Attraction, IOIs, flaunting, it all shows an way more deeper reality going on, on an primal level.
Lotsa positivity. Im directly polarizing with G, and it builds our sexual tension in person directly. I like it. She likes it. We all both like it. Great way to build raport.
Fuck the approach and being approached frame. Its limiting. Instead im "ending up" in situations of DMSI manifestation. Like full on autopiloting. Gives a whole new view on daygame tbh. Like, interest is spiked and having DMSI bring out tge steps. I feel it in my dick when a girl is attracted now. Im making small talk left and right like I know the people for years and no hint of anything negative is even there.
When I walk in some place I directly make it my playground to begin with. Like greeting for example, instant ice breaking and comfort setting.
With girls I feel directly the attraction from them.
When recognizing women keep coming in, for example, the gym, if its only 1 or 2, my mind shifts towards thus flow, thus breaking ( self imposed ) limits. It directly eases the tension if there is any and im doing my thing. Eye contact becomes relaxed and easily holdable.
I like B version thus far, even tho the tiredness, when ut hits makes me feel losing my mind sometimes. Its some anxiety trigger and reminds me of pre-subs.
Had a dream in which DMSI was instructing me the steps I think. I think it was a dream. Im not sure, but I noticed lots of limits dissolving, or atleast, partly recall something along those lines.
Feeling incredible horny this morning, but wont fap, even tho my mind is occupied with sex, its an perfect blend of IDGAF and giving a fuck, aswell as having the strong urges to execute and go into sex.
My mind feels more mature, I feel literally sexual energy flow through my body like a calm yet arousing rush.
Looking back on the videos of Arash, I notice how much my "game"is growing at this point. Many things are falling into place.
Yesterday, one girl that I still speak at times, which was my childhood crush in an sense ( and lawd, forbid me I wrote that fucking poem when I was 15 lmao ) threw out her facebook betabait. "where are the real men goneeee" It made me laugh so hard and realise how far out there I am to not even taking this cry of attention seriously, at all. Guess, the wall is hitting her hard and her biological clock is starting to tick more overt or something, anxiety flooring her hard. Several guys where swarming, and I aint one of them, good luck girl. I have way better shit to do, and those of value know this stuff, im more concerned with elite men, with guys that are mission orientated at this point, who are getting women, have quality, are having things going on, and are fucking alpha. Its damn clear to me how much masculinity I am oozing it this point right now, and lawd forbid I would give a fuck qabout it, but I wont, unapologetic to the max, knowing myself, my vibe and my power.
Whatever, im over and done with it, im way to strong at this point. damn.
Also, one guy seemed intimidated out of his mind this morning while we crossed sight or something, his eyes where reflecting pure terror.
Having again women popping up in my mind, one of them girl next door type. Fear is coming up yet agression seeks to give space to manifestation. Its a re-occurring theme having them pop up only expand in more and more women popping up in my mind.
This accompanies the superstar vibe of getting laid pike breath on an ongoing bases. I want it to turn physical. My subc might well being selecting already. It definitely feels so.
Mentally its like "making money like breath, having women like breath, changing my bodylanguage like breath, chajging my mindset like breath" yet simultaneously accepting myself 100% and going into my potential. Its like a layer thats being touched and am wondering how "resistance" has become another escape loop/cop-out. A way to keep the stasis. Not any longer tho.
Just in the bathroom brushing my teeth I suddenly felt/realized I had manifested a harem of women. I dont get it like how, which isnt strange to me, but a huge relief takes place, like waiting to click in place.
This is accompanied by an sense of "waiting" for my women to step in an claim their place with the king. Again im also appreciating softness. Not to mistake with weakness. Also im not waiting for it to happen. I know it will.
DMSI is now in my first loop overwashing with greatness/goodness. Like its ment to be.
My relationship getting/understanding is also skyrocketing. Lots of *click* moments, processes, skills and am listening with whole new ears to Arash Dibazar. Its clear as f#ck.
Last few days im consuming his material and brings about more deep changes, calmer state of mind, drive to learn, investigate, changing beliefs and dissolving limitations aswell as picking up lots of seduction naturally.
Im also developing an sense of "seductive language form" notice it for a couple of days. Almost the words following up in an sentence all are trigger points and seductive sugnals. The tone its set for example. Cant explain it really but an huge part of mind is growing in the area of sexual language through deliverance and yet playfull obviousness. An huge understanding in social dynamics of an instinctive level.
I find myself also thinking "just have sex" in its most direct way possible. Simple but effective. Brings me also by full being DMSI/integrated.
My speech is also way more direct, like an idgaf and saying the right thing tgen whatever it is. Not from a "right" right place, but from the seat of seduction.
In the end it doesnt fucking matter. Just have sex. End of line. I notice lots of black white thinking tho still. It one way or another kind of mindset.
Social confidence is way up. Lots of limitations are dissolving and dissolved. Tbh its like DMSI is tackling 1000th of things right now and dealing with.
Just back from meeting with friends and my drive could be described as "calibrated frenzy" strong, sharp direct dealing with in the most effortless way possible and coming from an huge sense of value.
I called one out before he got the chance to "jab" me. Like making an disrespectfull comment with me shutting it right down. Almost bordering agressive ( which is a valuable trait ) and dominant.
It generates outer respect to be this self respecting. Its an clear dynamic to me.
Then, 2 other guys joined, one who is a gym goer. The guy was ripped. Clear cut. I noticed that I directly went open with him amd worked the group of 5 people excluding me. One of them went round introducing ( good ) and I cant remember the guys name. As I was fearless in this, it was like the whole magic of social dynamics clicked. Seeing the matrix. What step to take next in a fluid natural way. This is causing me to be unstoppable. It makrs me want to step in the deep and go all balls against the wall. Reckless but calibrated and smooth. Huge sense of capability, deservedness and knowing to succeed. Like a lion going in and neing ballsy without heldback.
Also, on B, I recognized an low energy tying into beliefs. Not that it matters. Inject will, agression and presence in this. This in turn activates my body and energy. My mindset is constsnt changing for the better. My confidence and selflove growing by the second. Also I noticed s small "escape" kind of response, stemking from negativity. Directly flipped it. Why would you give up if you can go out and engage? No more spectator/observer, but a participant. Bringing my presence into game.
Some huge changes are made and Im getting more and more aware constantly like an imflux.
Women, wealth, im set. Alligned with it. Lots of worldviews are shattered like the concept of "vacation" what bs is that. Allign with money yo. Having women, lifestyle, everything to become MSI.
I m on a new level social wise. The dynamics and calibrations, perceptions and such. "Gaming" groups ( and yes I use the word game ) is great. Already im at an whole new step to go.
No matter what people say, idgaf. Im sharp in comebacks and my frame is strong. Like, little things that could be taken as a way to make fun off, are now handled in a frame of action, not reaction at all. I keep the frame.
Getting ripped physically wise is next. DMSI sems to focus me also on the external value. Like with the guy I spoke this evening, it showed value to me. The process is already going and already was before I spoke with the guy.
External things like the body is also a thing. DMSI is the whole damn package.
Besides all of this, countless other internal shifts are taking place and eventually its "just have sex" its really something pushed now. Just allow and let it go
I love this.
I notice that women stand body to body with me. Like just now, this girl couldnt stop giggling and had this trashy yet sexual vibe with her. It was like a bf gf dynamic and my comfort was high. Im releasing more fear right now. Its like a part of me is losing its grip after all this time. I could feel her heat coming from her, with her grey eyes. Ready to go/bang.
Im not even going to write anymore about what parts of me doing. I aint feeding it anymore.
"People are pro's in their anxiety, but totally lacking focus on confidence, they focus their light and scope in the wrong places"
Like other forum members, im done treating my life like a lab experiment. Its a slight shift in wavelength but its there.
Also, why is it, that I have difficulties to cut of friends for example? I mean, with internal change comes external change, and im definitely changing. Im not on the same frequency with them at akll, and they bore me. but still, there is this part of me, that clings to it, or, atleast, seems to cling to it. Then, there is the awareness of an huge lake of power by crossing it over, anhuge leap I would say, in communication jump. The attachment, the fear and all of that, brings tension in the body. Like, it decreaes my space. yet, I am aware, that, by growing to this, with this change happening, this awareness, it will expand my presence probably ten fold, if not 100 fold. instead of my energy becoming more compact, and, if you will, introverted/turned inwward, there is the awareness of taking the jump that wil expand me. so, the exansion/jump that is possible is Obvious to me, and yet, there is an certain fear underneath going on. im pretty much sure its fear. instead of stiffing up, rather, loosen up.
Agression, tension....
Reading an old SM3 journal in which Shannon lays down IOI descriptions and I am feeling hostile even looking at them. Its like alternating between aztec/mayan king and pissed off at anything IOI and in the process of uncovering something that was deep burried in my subc and is now surfacing
Like now my subconscious ( looked inward ) is truly magnificent. Women approaching, offering themselves to me, engaging in sex, naked, orgies, huge green hills, deep clear water and high value gold, lesbian sex and lustfull indulgences open world style. Pure lust, sex, passion. Even the fucking birds are banging.
High loops pay off it seems. My attention is instant. Where I focus on directly attracts and manifests including rule4 stuff.
Its like a crashing river ( DMSI ) hammering through.
Also, I seem to grow in realisation that I have to do absolutely nothing to have women at all, and have seks with me, like I dont even care and theyre still attracted. whatever it is, I keep running high loops from now on.
Edit: not gonna lie, im scared, and somewhat sad, I dont know why tho, but know im going through it now and its something that was present but so Obvious now. Im not gonna label it until it is clear to me. had thoughts of fear of succes today ( which seems to be a huge deal actually?! ) and am growing more masculine by the minute.. Also, today, I was aware how im pushing away, like some invisible force field. its doing my head in, confused and sad.
Guys look jelouse, girls follow me around at the gym.
Feel like being the biggest cock in the world and suck people right in like feeding lol. Getting used now to being stared at by people and have them throwing glances. It comes with it lol. In traffic its clear, abundantly.
My interactions become even more fluid. Im sweating hard and autopiloting more.
Im going hard at the gym and am tweaking my nutrition, big change im going back to keto like diet
My charm is high people get captivated, like girls getting bubbly and acting all giddy almost like mickey mouse lmao. Girls and women cant help but seduce me now, like the delivery of most mundane things is sexy and flirty.
Next up is them "sexing" themselves up for me like a good submissive good girl. Like, making themselves attractive. Been thinking the last few days about attraction and how it leads to a harem of girls totally taking care of their king. Like household and stuff. Cleaning. By themselves. Femininity.
The girl following me at the gym im feeling nothing towards her at all. Like total indifferent. Not my type at all. Not even close at the hot scale tbh.
Neediness is dead. No need to be opening everyone like choir. Seeing the abundance to it, the social proof but meh it has to trigger me i guess. Whatever.
Seeing use in financials. Having some breakthroughs in that area in cluding intent and vision. No matter what im building up further and am solution orientated
Had a dream involving my fear of the deepsea. In my dream I was swimming in some sort of hallway, the water seemed to come closer until I went down under. It was dark and the anxiety creeped up more and more. It slightly freaks me out to just thinking back to it.
then I woke up with anxiety for a bit.
Something huge is going on underneath the hood. I can feel it, like being pushed towards my goals and the goals of DMSI.
With girls, I notice as soon as my subconscious and genes have decided she is fitting to be mating material, im getting a huge buzz, and feel being pulled, and tbh, I wouldnt be surprised iif she does aswell. its an magnetic pull.
With hot girls, it feels like my new reality, like "this is it, homecoming" and those lower on the scale, dont really do it for me. idifference is pretty much the default then. im no monkey that entertains them at all. Its as if my baseline, the playground has leveled up, and those girls that are really hot, are my people so to say.
Mindblown.
Im deciding to through all face on. No more detaching, no more "hiding" just open facing it all without expectations but to process. Going through whatever it is and seeing what is on the other side and taking my lessons I learn along the way with it.
How to put this all in to words is something to yet come to terms with.
As I run my loops now on phone and have my first loop since switching from ultrasonic, and, right now, as I decide Im going through all of this, my mind expands and opens.
Im on my way to have 100% submissive girls who do everything for me right now and are okay with open communication and multiple girls. It is possible and possible to have girls taking care of you in that way. Its huge to me to come to these terms. Im dead on with this. Its like a massive internal shift.
This also feels like a sort of dream in an way. Like an persian prince. Im falling asleep like a king and my body responds to this vivid 3some bj, like really resonding to it in sexual detail. Falling asleep to 2 girls taking care and right now im getting very relaxed and sleepy with 2 girls around my cock. It is so vivid it again blows my sense of reality away. Its like opening the obliterating eye in some traditions.
Honestly. The sub makes me feel good and am conquering all issues like a king.
Running B. Im having not for the first time amazon like girls popping up in my mind. Also other type and sweet women voices. Its sexual, its violent ( in a good way, like fight sex or some shit lol ) and pure raw animalistic sex.
Shannon? I know 3.2 has loophole closed for fantasizing but this feels different. Like pre-physical manifestation. Any feedback on this?
Also can TID be tweeked in the sub so that people that run the sub will know when to take a break?
Im wondering if sniping through pictures takes place. Im finding no resistance but a huge pull with girls' pictures, like auto-locking eyes with them, like a bubble. This friends of a girl on instsgram drew me the fuck in. If so it accelerates to new heights with girls.
Also notice the sniper on the streets. Like sexual charge. Like Thor, Im able to channel sexual energy from my dick to my eyes. Its powerfull. Stopping women in their tracks and hot girls staring from afar. Lots of good responses from random women.
Also, im slowly regaining my sexual badboy/fuckboy edge.
Also, body appreciation knowing im getting ripped. Its a pull towards vision.
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