Ps; I seem to gain weight on DMSI 3.2 while 3.1 did burn it. Also, my skin is messy. When 3.2 was ran firstly by me, I noticed my skin was very glowy. Still at times, but idk, seems signature optimalisation as acne is breaking slightly out.
Sooo......DMSI 3.2 A is out, which is great. Havent ran it yet but I might do run it.
Im facing some heavy resistance. Its like a massive impact. Being on the edge of non functional. Tired as heck, felt bordering on panic attacks and just am totally out of it whole wise. Im not even.clear in whats been hit, only that im very hot right now. The glimpses im seeing, theyre magnificent. My mind is literally screaming at some points. Im just halfway shut down, total inward focus.
Came across some old stuff yesterday evening in terms of music. Goa trance, especially the artist called "goa gil". Spiritually wise, things spiked massively. Able to travel all kind of realities and stuff. I was craaazy
Anyways. Sexually wise, own everything up. Like literally. Im feeling like a beast emerging, highly charismatic in my writing at this point and totally unfiltered. Im starting to sweat aswell. My face burns like having some beta alanine.
Im owning everything up now and am right in yo face. Thats all.
DMSI 3.2 A loop 1
Ran my loop this morning. Noticed how I somewhat asking myself if I would function today due to the emotional impact.
Been pissed all day. Im realize my selfworth and value and wont compromise im furious. Little things set me off yet still feelin a bit weak. Just no playfull at all, pure inner workings. Women give me glimpses and watch me closely. Right now I aint afraid to show my moodiness. Im darn clear in my own vision, worth and way I wanna go.
Sucks to be those who walk in my way.
Also starting to chance my environment strongly. Intolerant to it. I cant handle the chaos.
After the clearing or whatever, I seemed to execute already. 1 effin loop. women melting when even looking at them, M sucking up to me, N liking posts on Instagram, other blodn woman, winking while smiling in love. 1 effin loop fam.
My inner drive, confidence, selfworth and autopiloting is skyrocketing. Im flirting and taking an backseat in this and it all unfolds. with M, we jived great, being in sync and stuff, which made her melt. she is also starting to get more and more open sexually wise and doesnt hide it.
I do notice today that my face is "vibrating/trembling"like my face structure is reshaped. one moment im looking slim, next moment less slim in my face. I feel the sub literally working right now.
Nice, may your run be awesome!
Your journal gives me hope. I'm just commenting to subscribe and say good luck bruh!
Thanks brother and glad my journal helps you!
Day 2 3.2 A 1 loop
Last night before bed the mental activity was high. I kept revisiting little things that pissed me off. The whole toxity in my life goin round, basically a loop feeding into itself.
It was tempting to not run just a loop to get this stuff being done with, yet I didnt and managed to get some sleep.
This morning I woke up and ran my loop. Not long into it, the violent anger popped up again. A is great tho. Feeling great now, incredible sexy yet having some avoidance patterns poppin up. Its prolly resistance. I have high hopes that A will deal with this. B side was drilling through already when I ran it, before I started A.
At the gym it was like ebb and flow. Seeing where I could be, magnificent. Only to dive back into it. From being reactive to the memories and flashbacks, only to swing to full self assuredness and back.
When I look in the mirror, its incredible how sexy I look. My hair is somewhat handled, yet without product. Combed only and its looking so good. Bit fuller/thicker and softer. My skin seems to glow and my resting face looks increfible sexy
At the gym, I was more touchy with G. Fumbling fingers. When we parted she reminded me for boxing tomorrow. I didnt promise her anything, and gave her a smile. It was like a bf/gf kind of vibe comin from her. She was beamin/smilin strongly.
Walked out of the gym, crossed paths with another woman who was directly looking down. Didnt say anything, didnt care. Yet, it was like those anime moments, when a new mysterious guy enters the scene and time slows down.
Anyway, the reactionairy patterns are radical. It reminds me of pre-AM in which I was lashy. Very ptsd like. Reading in the topic about SM3 and how one can become a deviant sexual person, dark, I recignize it in myself. I wanted to shred the toxic woman that comes to mind ( E ) to shreds. Like, destroying in the literal sense, unsparingly. When it truly kicks off, it does makes me worry due the intensity. I did notice some energy in my chest spreading, so I wonder if it isnt something else, like misunderstanding something.
At times, im internally silent and fully present. E.c is becoming almost pure consciousness. In the shower had an experience of something/someone stepping in, and all clicked, like, being carried. With the latest developments and experiences, this isnt that alien to me, but very confirming. Psychic communication and focus is almost instant and im loving it to bits!
Watching Grant Cardone on being the boss now. Its synchronistic once again. Also, investment and how to set boundaries. Im definitely to tolerant, atleast, it seems so. Im willingly to go where DMSI is leading me to.
I feel like everybody is chasing me lmao
Dont even have to do anything and "C" contacted me and invited me over for her bday party.
Just yet tiredness hit strongly, and I felt "N" being literally pulled to me. Like my 3rd eye went in overdrive and am feeling hot now, like sura fully active especially in my face. Im slimming down rapidly like being sculpted out. Im looking like a model.
"Non gym girl G" keeps also liking my posts online.
Other girl under the name "T" online also is more and more endearing and sucking up to me
DMSI is making me MSI in ALL WAYS POSSIBLE.
Saw "N" today and she responded harder then before. Like literally following me, so close to me that I wanted to escalate amidst of work with her. I felt the "pull", like everything hightened and brakes fell off. Still, in my mind there was some held back.
With C yesterday, she was serving me like a king. She had her ex over aswell at her bday ( ya rly ) but she also acted submissive, playfull. Playfull pushed her a bit, showing off her body. I didnt give a fuck yet am feeling regret now. Open oppurtunity. When leaving her, I found myself thinking " leave them craving for more" my bodylanguage shifted to strong alpha and king. It was like nothing.
I also notice im perceiving myself as tall and big in presence, like literally towering above people in height.
Im way off today. Even tho N is massively more compliant, submissive and close with me, I have seething rage. Felt my inner game was off, weak frame. Eye contact also weak. I ran A this morning, and each cycle of the innet turmoil is more and more intense. I feel purposeless at times.
I despise 9 - 5 strongly. I flow constantly and those that try to slow me down can gtfo. I am my mission and create freedom everywhere, whenever I want, wherever I want
I want to grow in creating freedom, expand social circle, contacts and leads. Im destined to flow, build empires and generate wealth, being at high end parties and making business deals. I feel it flowing in my veins.
I feel something pass. I even am running another loop of A now because it became unbearable. I deal with the aftermath later. The whole escalation stuff with "N", which grows stronger and stronger was met with stiffness ( badum tss ) like my body felt like it was meeting heaviness. Stiff, in a partial cage.
I dont tolerate bs. No longer will I be holding back. No 9-5, no old paradisms, no fucking prisons. I have a strong hatred to being told what to do ( hybrid is lovely tho ) in the sense that value is taken and not given back. I will not be used. Im done fuelling other people agendas without having myself being benefitted from it. I will not waste my energy on those 'expectations' and being good. Its clashing already. I am well aware of my words for some reason now. Those that buy into this prison, this invisible prison will meet their worst enemy.
Gonna look into Myers brigg personalities. It probably will shed clarity in personality types as I feel my own clearing up and crystalize as well as being sculpted out. This again will be a tool, usefull to handle different personality types.
Autopilot sniped this blond hot girl. Bf is currently looking like he could kill me lol.
Very succes driven. 0 tolerance to scarcity mindsets and expression. Feeling calm and blissfull after massive anger spurring last few days. Young hustlers podcast and cardone zone is my to listen videos last few days. Social media fires up strongly. Lotsa entrepreneurs that are following and leave likes. The shift is inevitable and incredible. I cant stop it. Had it on 3.1, my drive is huge and engaging now.
Want to rail women like a barbarian. IOIs everywhere I go.
Changes follow up quickest I have ever withnessed. Im now having my core breaking through the surfave
Milf at the order counter looked at me like resting bitchface idgaf. When I looked in her eyes, she gave this quizzled look
Now, I know when girls give these "fuck me" eyes and look at you dripping wet, but what this was about? IDK. Could be that I was to much to handle. My eyes are having this sexual look to them.
I catch myself shifting instantly and effortlessly.
Last night, when everything became very hard to bear, my head exploding, somthing shifted. I became consumed with sexual energy and flooded. One lipbite in a video was enough to just forget everything and I started to execute. It was like having eyes met and for some reason I did question if I sniped her, even tho she was live broadcasting from moscow. Russians man... hot yet having attitude. But this, this made me play with some mindcontrol/enter her head kinda stuff. It made me hard like a diamond.
Also, tindr is looked on differently. Its as if I realize I soon have to many women to handle. Like floodgates about to open. With some of them its on pretty much by mere looking at them. I know on a deep primal level theyre DTF. Like perfect instant match.
As a sidenote, when at the bday of C couple of days back, fragrances was a topic. Then my bday. Then asking about prices. Then " oh I know what to give you for your bday" on 3.1 she was fliopant, this was way out of character. Speaking bout a fragrance which cost about 40 euros.
Alright time for an update.
Just ran my loop of A to switch it up to evening. Yesterday was my break. I felt like a golden king, walking round, non needy, unfazed.
Now that I ran my loop, I feel golden. Non needy at all and see how this subs goin for me. Fapping, escorts, all of that, its an escape. Im hesitant to journal, unmotivated to do so. I see no poimt in it and rather bask and let the sub execute.
Yesterday, socializing was up. Had some great flow going on. Updated insta, and working with it to connect more. Going all out on it. Im feeling internally literally pike a millionaire and things start to manifest. When getting some food yesterday, the price was €5,=. Did pay 3,50 for it and reality bending seems to be the cause. When I say it starts internally ( as within, so without ) I mean it.
Anyway, played a bit with the women, short, somewhat older yet railable.
Me when paying "youre barely above the counter"
She all smiles " yeah, I need some platform *raises herself up a bit, and shows off*
Me: I figured so.
Subcommunication was sexual when doing this. Playing with girls of the bat is possible, like spinning them, aswell as fucking them in a very short timespan right of the meeting. Also having my more dominant side surface such as making and craving them for more and controlling the conversation without effort.
Im more stern in ways of holding my frame, like, not giving it away. Mission before niceness basically. Being nice to me translates a to much of an investment in the other frame. It comes eith territory to be honest with myself. To much waste of value. Dont be the biggest house in a 3rd world country as itll drag your value down. Im just honest with myself. Being aware of abundance and feeling it so. No damage control, let the chips fall where they fall and willingness to walk away. Now I am in the position to reject them. Not with my ego getting in the way, although there is something to say for ego. Im mightve ..
Am aware of what sources I allow in my reality and mind. Im associating with the high succesfull yet now my neediness is at a bare minimum. Im a celebrity, high status, confident superstar. I am.
When walking in venues, women check me out basically and with each loop its clear to me that the sexual drawing in getting stronger and stronger.
Im also detaching from patterns, observe, and flip yet non of this all matters at the moment.
Girl "A" contacted me yesterday out of the blue and mentioned she saw my snapchat, which was a gym snap. She send a bunch of smirk sexual emoticons and I directly kicked in autopilot. I didnt care tho. I was non needy, just some fun. That was basically it. The attachments that formed on 3.1 which caused bleed out where absent. Still no problem making it sexual tho. I went alpha up yet nocompensating compulsion. Just knowin im the prize.
My social flow is up and off. I flow at times, yet other times lil bit intraverted and patterns bit wonky. Not slurring, bit rather, lower confidence. Makes sense to me tho.
I have a growing sense that DMSI is upgrading me personally, readying me to attract. I deserve all girls. I attract them. This 2nd round seems to go even faster then the first in terms of growth. Feeling good, confident, abundant, h/c and improving me further.
Im also realizing my why. As to why entrepreneurship, my drive. Its clear to me now and all else clicks. Its wealth. Freedom. Value. I create. Im literally a creator from a core place.
Today I finally felt like crossing a treshold. Got obsessed with girls ( some hint to you Ben, as you came to mind ) and this is something worthwhile for me, as it is like accepting it all on a deeper level now. H/c succeeds. It connects me with my sexual nature on a deeper level and sets me more free.
Combacks are on point.
Jelousy is pretty much gone. Instead it feels DMSI is putting people out of the game like some de-selection with me being the prize and girls seeing me as the high status guy.
Conflict today at work, 2 guys almost got into a fight between eachother because one called the other out suddenly. I didnt feel a thing.
With N im developing a dom/sub relationship on onspoken levels. With me coming out to her as a dominant, she instantly gravitated and was the whole day around me. She ate up the whole sexual talk, moving herself closer to me, opening up more. Candle wax, scenes, settings, blindfolds, bondage, she was very much vibing with it, yet had this innocent feminine follow vibe with her.
Total non needy and composure was rock solid in this. Playfull sexually yet no validation seeking at all. Neutral in with or without her. DMSI is great. Im integrating abundance of options.
With this alpha frame, Im bouncing off any drama E gives, like, at all. Im playfully deflecting, neutralizing and dominating her. Also, I locked onto her pussy area, and directly went into the bubble so to say. I literally felt myself shifting abd thinking sbout railing her, sexual scenes flooded my brain. Point is, shes way to dramatic and obnoxious to me.
With M it was like the matrix in reaction span. Almost like martial arts. It was funny as someone considered pretty much sexual closed off a bit, she was doing everything to make it sexual. Like literally steering it to that topic.
To get some stuff at store close by, kids looked in awe. They also ignored me. Idgaf.
Walked out, a fit 8/10 gave me this feline smile, like glancing over while we passed. Soon all blocks are gone and all will into place.
The aura radiates. Like burnimg hot atm. My aura also seemed to fire at work. N and I were hella close. Lots of glance shooting, kino touching ( touching her hands, her leaning against me ) at times it felt like a bf/gf dynamic which was effortless.
Sleep was well. Woke up early. Couldnt sleep afterwards at all. I was wide awake.