Day 5 2 loops version B in the morning.
Am dealing more and more efficient with what comes up. the skills are there and Im applying them. When stuff comes up, I dont get sucked in as much, I rather flip the script when it happens, like, facing it direct on.
Lots coming up today, more inward focussed and low energy to be social, which results in weak frame. its almost meek and a wallflower kind of frame. also, little things cause me to be started and jump, like being highly affected by it.
On the other hand, almost the whole day up till now, I keep being pushed towards having a watch of 300k on my wrist, the visualisation comes up on its own and sticks strongly, its amazing, pure diamonds. There is also an strong indicator that there will be a breakout close aorund the corner, Im almost transforming fully, reshaping, broken down and being build up.
Having sex in mind alongside communication ( rule 4 area ) is solidifying my mindset of women throwing themselves at me, like, right into my lap. its like sending out a call to the universze, but it is an more inward calling, which will result in guranteed manifestation of women. It is throwing my understanding of life upside down, complete renewal even, no matter what, my outlook is completely shifting, changing, bending. if all is energy, then.... Some deep stuff is now playing in my mind and coming to me.
Perhaps Im letting go of control. im firingup more and more. total bodybuzz. like, being a creator is never been this clear in an deep sense, to an extent that paradigms are shattered and smashed, the walls collapsing.
I also am starting to notice, smiling is an coping mechanism, when i ran Am6, not smiling gave an commanding presence and frame control.
When driving home just now, I had the resurfing thought of wanting to run AM6, or, atleast the memory of when this came up, and to me it is clear that is an escape/resistance.
100% execution is pretty much set now, if this breaks, and when the walls crumble down, 100% might aswell happen. Im pretty confident and sure/clear in that.
When feeling this, I noticed the IOIs, looks and all are starting to pile up. something tells me, the IOis will be way more Obvious, thus 100% execution if I aint already.
Whatever it is, the rough patches are definitely worth it. There is some massive stuff going on under the hood, I feel it.
Also, sligtht headache. Out of the blue, yesterday night, "N" suddenly send an goodnight snap with hearts. pretty amusing. come and get it lol.
Edit: Im letting go of all perceptions now. In my mimd there was this construct of "itll look like this/that" which is limiting. Let DMSI do its thing. Ill be in for a ride.
day 6
Broke nofap today, yet for some reason Im aware of many things to tackle head on, one is, being affected by my surroundings. I want to be 100% soevereign and rock solid frame. being the king I fucking am. This massive confidence comes up after the streak breaking. my mind is propelling massively right now, like going hard and freeflowing like a raging river/water stream. Some stuff seems to stem from my childhood, the whole being affected by my surroundings, being sucked into these patterns over and over again. I want to be this leader, this guy that lives his life, being inspiring, being fully free. I crave freedom which seems to lay at the core of it all.
Im tackling all addictions. Nicotine is still coming up at times, but is lessening.
I walk like a boss, a king, am thinking about wealth and why. at times I wonder why I have this inclination lately in designer and wanting to blow up. It seems almost like destined to be so, but its only the beginning. On AM6 I walked around with the mindset "no-one would mess with me"and take it from there, perhaps this is autopilot in a way that is pushing me, making me aware of my environment only to end into sex with women. I seduce wherever I go. I seduce E, I seduce P tho i dont care, I seduce T, whom I speak online, which is growingly clingy to me.
Perhaps this feeling way to awesome and the attitude is another escapism. Like, feeling so satisfied without women that im playing with them or downright ignore them, out of self amusement and dickish behaviour, only to feel sad afterwards.
I can close anything and everyone. E acted full on submissive, other woman, P, is firing questions to me, keeps telling me how she loves it to be with me. Im like, bich, im hyper focussed, who dis bich?"
Anyways, Im strongly craving the blow up, just for fuck sakes, and to take the whole country with me in the hype, the gig, setting dominance. Everything is possible, and, at times its looks like "big shotting"but yet, its honest to me, raw expression. Im destined for this shit.
Anyways, Im pretty much getting to the point that Im done figuring it all out and letting DMSI just do its things, allowing it and trusting the process.
Its hella confusing to me.
What the hell is even happening. its like im coping with the whole new level im at. My mind literally just to told "what is happening to me?" I want to fucking cry. so many things rolling now, its literally blowing my mind. Also, my game is on another level. Last few days I noticed how guys are just clueless, like displaying disdain and downtalking ( all for playfull negging, but this shit is just low value displayin ) and then walking away sour, or going blue pill full on, like, buying shit for a girl like she is some prostitute and the guy has no value to offer whatsoever, thus selling himself short through substitutes.
Enough ranting.
Day 6 continuued.
I realize lots but cannot put it right into words. It feeks like the last days I lived through a certain frame which now is shed again. Im thinking back at Duko Tugo.
In the mirror...im out of words. My face and body looks so incredibly sexy tho I havent hit the gym for some time now. My face oozes raw sexuality. Also, im integrating now DMSI. I attract 18 y/o girl next door type of girls. Also springbreak kind of girls. It comes down to dtf girls which there is an endless stream off it.
I belief im executing. Im literally feeling hot and heat coming from my skin/myself.
Im executing. Simultaneously writing this suddenly makes me sleepy. So yeah not hunting, but being hunted down by hot women. By being in an almost party mode with hit 18 y/o and so on. The thing is, I know some of these kind of girls. Sexual, great tits, feminine, submissive yet wanting loads of sex and seducing me if needed. It overrides them and gets them into their naughty state. No bs of "he needs to work for it" no, rather they want it and find a way. My inner is burning.
Summer is gonna be a massive ride. Sex will pile up.
Damn Shannon, you have outdone yourself. By integrating DMSI and dissolving limits, im a whole new man/guy.
Also, dressing differently does empathize me. Im looking like a fucking 10.
Wtf man why is it that my results are completely different. For me dmsi is doing fuk all while you get to live the rockstar lifestyle.
This is suicide inducing
So @
Kol, I am curious, what is your prior history before doing this sub? Did you do others? Would you already consider yourself to be fairly good with women before subs?
Where were you at before you started?
Before I started running ASC or came in contact with IML, I was one of those corey skyy guys. I rememver when doing affirmations in the mirror, writing down affirmatiins that women went crazy about it. Like the mother of a childhood crush of mine who, when her bday party was, kissed me on the mouth. I also pulled 2 girls there at the same time.
Another is going out with a group, and girls giving me looks, one grinding up against me with her ass.
In the past, I did had interest of girls. In my schoolyears as a teen, I was pretty much shy due traumas, yet I ended up always with girls around me. I dated one girl for about a week. At 19 I pulled one online, met up at some bungalow, banged her and lost my virginity. At my schoolperiod, it was always female friends, friend of my sister and I hokked up semiwise.
At work in the supermarket I had a girl follow me around. This was before I had trauma, dissociation, spiritual stuff break out. Playing around with buddhism, zen, opening up my crown which resulted in buzzing at my crown spot atop of my head. The girl followed me around back then yet my interest was at another girl. Anyway, the girl following me teased me hard, trying to get my attention, giving masdive flirty looks.
Whenever I went out, my sister got regularly asked if I was her brother. I hitted the gym back then 5 times a week and grew hard, and was jacked and toned.
When being out with other friends, I had 2 girls end up sleeping at our place. Didnt bang yet there was tension in the air.
Anyways, my journey here started with ASC, and the results were obvious. My journal is around here still. In that time, I rs-met with friends I gather to this day. They told me I had changed. The mom told me straight up that she would do me, if she was younger. I was also listening to Arash Dibazar back then aswell as mystery. After that I ran 2 runs of AM6 which changed me strongly. My journal is also around here on the forums. At the bungalow we checked in, the guys that were with me, started to tell me, when he called up 2 girls, that I shouldnt act on it which pissed me off, because I do whatever the fuck I want. On AM6 I banged one chick, and dated another.
It ended up him playing all niceguy with the girls, leading to nowhere, and with those 2 9/10 rich girls asking who I was. I didnt care. I remember that one guy brought his brazillian girl with him who was bitching constantly and being a huge brat. Constantly seeing bs to display. I didnt tolerate it so I told her to go fuck herself.
After that I ran AOS 4g due to resources. The girl I met up with who showed lots of interest while I was running AM6, didnt pull through when I ran AOS4g.
Then, I ran DMSI 3.1 which resulted me in having tons of IOIs, till the point of panic attacks at times. Every girl wad looking at me yet I couldnt pull the trigger due whatever reason. The friend of said girl from AM6 suddenly started to hit on me. Very sexual. Still is when we come across eachother online. The meet up was close tho. She even sort of put me in an positive spotlight.
3.2 is a whole other beast all together. This journal is evidence to that.
This sub, Im out of words. Im so ecstatic, progressing with T rapidly and college girls/girl next door/femimine girls are down right my alley. Im quickly building up.preferences yet am almost base instinct. The girl T, is infatuated with me. She literally told me straight up "you can eat me out" so logistics is next. This summer will be insane. Im also so self satisfied yet keep improving. This girl is dtf and in for lots of things.
Im also noticing how im still holding back which is a matter of lack if clarity. Its like DMSI even brings out the primal sex in girls, overriding all else. Im hyper sexual, wanting to control fully, bending her over and play with her fully. Like floggers and all. My fingertips make them quiver.
Another thing is, when im looking forward to updates in journals on here, it feels like being some company showing interest which carries over into strong belief that this is enough for people and businesses to invest in me. I truly believe that. Amazing. Manifestation? Aura? Celebrity effect? High value/value all around?
Niiice.
day 10
Currently planning tonight to go to the cinema with a group of friends. Right now its day 10, ran 2 loops of B this morning, still having the springbreak vibe goin round. I Feel like the popular guy at highschool, who deals in substances, who gets any women, and having everything down, yet im currently even growing and evolving further through this sub. everything is met with such ease.
Also, this morning and further the day progressed, some rule 4 stuff clicked, which opened another world to me, another person. Thisd has happened before, but it is reaffirming my creative core. Almost going an more omnipotent kind of core, immaterial. lets call it spirit. Now, this aswell is met with an whole other mindset, it was like 2 separated minds shared the body or something along the lines like that. Like, emerging anew and snapping out the cycle, feeling myself entering back into this world, grounding myself.
Not the first time it happened.
Im also starting to feel like a player, yet one who has fully accepted it and isnt needy about it. if she cant put up with it, fine. If she wants, all good, im rather positive. Also, having an more direct streak going on, being an asshole, or rather brutally honest.
My dominance is growing aswell as of late. Some stuff not so long ago is now met with acceptance from my part, embracing creativity in the bedroom aswell as other kinks.
Also, Im deepening out further my wardrobe, even tho my current orientation is almost street and causal, dressing up sharp in suit is another thing. anyway, Im all about fun now, nothing serious yet not afraid to put up boundaries and being socially dominant in smooth talk.
Women want me. Now bring it. Financially my flow is even growing more strong, solid. Creativity and the next steps are in progress, its like ultimate unshakable backup cuz I know its Always here anyways and I love that. Acknowledging is also somethign I love and works for me.
havent spoken "T" in about 2 days, not feeling any pressure and rather feel blissfull now, yet not lacking alphaness. Its more of an knowing, awesome, ecstatic and succesfull life, powerfull and super smooth confidence and living in my own world of awesomeness.
"live life for you"
Day 13 version B
Yesterday before bed, I kept thinking about "T". Not in a needy way but wanting to contact her. It did send me in a fight inside with my mind coming up with 'no's'. The urge to contact her is still strong and it uncovers something, like a wall.
Amidst this pandemonium, I suddenly started to execute hard. I was sweating and burning up. Closing my eyes resulted in feeling a row of hot women riding me, my body convulsing and grinding till the point I started to have auditory moans. It was intense yet so natural. My whole being felt electrified, unto deep levels. Almost fucking in spirit and the energetic body. I have no recollection of dreams but women and sex are on my mind and am still what I believe to be executing. I even started to breath more deep or shallow, like when having sex. It was liberating.
Lots of women as soon as I lock turning their heads. My drive to fuck is primal. E is supplicating strongly and socialwise Im incredibly unfazed. Like, no response of anxiety or tension go be found, almost non chalant laidback and sexual in presence. Im feeling like a damn magnet. P keeps telling she wants to work with me. Her ass is to be pounded, her face meh.
Other woman "Eli" is aswell supplicating.
Am about to kick of with "T" this evening. She lives about an hour drivin, when I told her to come over she was biting. Also, she was the one initiating, telling Im mysterious and she wants me. Dtf. Telling me it took to long that I did bite her hints.
In a way Idc to report this. Its like normal. Sex is normal. Its great to have women around you being dtf. Its only gettin better and better.
Not gonna doubt the inner, A can h/c me further. Am thinking about girl "A" with whom I was kicking of on 3.1. Who playfully teased me about me missing her ( her words ) sexual undertones.
Im about to let succes flow into my life. Its a given. My being. Wealth. It all ties into eachother and comes together. Its almost so similar. Also, being invited in places to bang.
Day 14 3.2 B
Something is happening and recognizing this is huge. At the same time im depressed which indicates the sub doing huge things.
Yesterday when getting "T" her number it went like this
"Im going to be straight forward, *inserts her phone number*
Since then im feeling inhibited as fuck. I feel some huge turmoil inside since then. In person Im all fine and all with that, but for some reason over whatsapp, im shutting down.
It does my head in like pua stuff has nested itself in my subconscious and now conflicts hugely. I dont get it.
Why tho.
Day 15 break dsmi B
Still having this turmoil and incredible tiredness. I feel like I can sleep for days yet this turmoil is also my drive to step up financially and creation wise. Im having several ideas to execute now. I dont do deadlines, I tackle head on. My drive is enormous but probably having some guilt surfacing. Whatever is happening, my texting feels totally off. Probably because I dont want to go through with T. Its a total 50/50.
Just back from the gym and I noticed the tiredness but I really didnt give a fuck. Girl with a guy kept breaking off and glancing my way.
Anyways, if this is resistance, im escaping into business and creating and leveling up. Im having concrete visions about it where I want to go and to be. Acknowledging this causes euphoria. Its an ongoing relentlessness and a really convenient way to not facing to issues. This could probably usefull for Shannon. Texting has really taken an nose dive and keeping it playfull is hard. Just reporting and stuff when she asks about things which pisses me off as I seem incapable to toy with her in a sense, thus it being very dry and "nice guy" like.
What the f#ck. My cockiness and greatness face to face is flowing strong till the point its easy to close but through text, its like trauma and total regression. My mind even wants to start version A already, like, an persuasive pull.
I am aware of there being fear. It surfaced clearly with realizing its fear. This does stirr up things. An fear of giving in. Losing all I build right now. Like, it comes close and is real and then "boom" it goes haywire. While before I didnt even mind to make it sexual. I really dislike my absense of leading. Its soulcrushing.
Edit: forgot to mention, I had a dream involving tons of darker rule 4 things, something thats still playing part in my life, and in which DMSI seems to have an hand in clearing things around it, thus losing some shackles. It came down to being explained things, and conversating in the dream was a bit like inception. Also, manifestations and what we were talking about was shown directly in vision and manifestation.
My sense in dreams seems also shifted, like walking the dream planes. Wonder if there is some dreanworking practice at hand without me being fully aware. Similar to knowing Im dreaming but accepting it aswell.
Day1 A 2 loops.
Currently on the brink of crying. Assasains creed revelations main theme hits like a bus.
As soon as I started my loops, I felt bliss.calmth and relaxation. A is really neat in this, and countless shifts are made. One is my nutrition has suddenly tightened up.
Some new guy at work. We did vibe directly. He proposed to exchange facebook. We clicked and talked about branding and sales, it clicked. He also has this entrepreneur blood.
Other woman, forgot her name, highly [rule4] came around multiple times. It seems DMSI cuts right through the layers and goes for the heart. Sexual tension, natural flirting, it went all automatic.
With N, she kept wanting me in her vicinity. Playfull, longing eyes, escalating would be really easy. She has the feminine innocense but clearly sees me as a leader. I aint responding to shittests and proceed like not even recognized. Lots of laughs and what not. Going where I am going. Her dressing teasy is a bonus.
We ended up exchanging facebook. We had some sexual banter. With her its like you need to remind her, she follows when asked/proposed. Happy to exchange facebook and I already told her "well, then WE should go instead" she was happy but didnt fllow through.
With K, who formerly I noted down as T, with version A, tension was melting away. I somewhat feel as returned without much confusion yet it does triggers me. Like, if there is/would be antisniper in this version it fires right off the bat.
Anoth older latina woman at work, sexual tension right from the start, our eyes were like glue to mine. Dat ass and femininity. Bit darker, with black lomg hair and this raw milf energy.
Im still nit fully sexually confident. On B it seemed to be lacking confidence, which didnt fell like me at all. Now its comin back, including the abundant buffet of women all around. Soon Ill end up with daily sex. Also am confident enough to phrase the conscious sentence about the script.
Turns out that all of this is being approached. Also I am being invited to hang out but am wanting this J.B celeb vibe. Its turning me into an social circle club king.
Dude, I absolutely adored the Assassins Creed 2 sound track. So much nostalgia listening to those tracks.
Day 4, verson A 4 loops
I feel euphoric and feeling myself becoming more and more sexy by the minute. Everything is possible. Holy shit. Not wanting to shoot myself in the foot ramps up momentum.
Last saturday I went through a city here in the country for clothing. Played around with the women at the fragrance store. Kept talking for the fun of it with one of them, only to open the next collegue of hers. Lots has happened last saturday, including goin pua for a bit
"What fragrance would you pick for a man?"
"Well, you are enthousiastic"
That kinda stuff.
One guy that came along with us has a gf since a few days. His attitude I can only explain as amog mate guarding. Not gonna happen bud. That shit neutralizes. I end up shutting him down multiple times when he tried to bs me and tried to amog me. Nucleair shutdowns, loud, direct and clear. Its the quikest way to get yourself cuttoff. To many women to count, lotsa people all around, one big social circle.
Also, at the levi's store, the store guy who tried to sell me those denim jackets after I made him aware went very intimate. I noticed it along with a friend who was along with me. Wtf.
Anyway, the girl at the fragrance store by who I checked out was taken aback by it. Could see how she took it negatively. The pregnant woman next to her smiled and winked. It was like I was a little kid in a store and opening everyone, something thats becoming very strong till the point im starting to feel it becoming to much. Like, involving everyone to the max and out of control. Lol.
To proceed further, got some random lapdance. Noticed the girl felt awkward doing so. Guess it was a challenge for her to do this as she was with a group.
We ended up in another clothing store. Friendly people. Airco down. People going out of their way serving me. Giving me soda and stuff. Im starting to see some pattern in this akin like mfing Justin Bieber and celeb status. It all starts from here. Not to say, my sexual tension feels intense like seeing in their sexual mind. The girl at the counter, cute as hell. Tatts, sexy and revelling in that. Her waving with some label, I waved back like "I dunno, im having jeans, who dis?" She broke out some great sexy smile and we were on. Damn closing and getting closed...holy sh#t!
Next another warehouse, gettin some sneakers. Petite girl helped me out. Cute as a button. Also bit playfull with her, cracking some jokes but know I can raise sexual tension on an instant. Anyways, she was eager to help, and yes, I know theyre having sales to make. Doesnt means it excludes sexual tension and interest tho. Its the core breaking through outer layers.
Im enjoying life like a celebrity without giving a f#ck. Yet I do give a fuck on another level. On an level of importance to me and myself. My value givin and sharin.
Tge gf of said guy was glued to me in the end. I dont give stuffies and try to buy my way into panties and shit. I aint that blue pilled, im the prize. Im value.
My friend, who was with me, noticed the amogging bs behaviour from the guy who was with us ( D ) and we were both tired off it. He told also that when we go to another city next time we leave D at home.
Crashed at C her house later that evening after we got some food tho. Hadnt seen her in a while. Still nice chick. But whatever.
Now, I just came back from the store to grab some food. Normally E is having a bit of an outward attitude in presenting herself. Now she gave me this strong submissive eyes and lipbite. Damn girl.