Subliminal Talk

(09-16-2016, 06:07 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Do you like your air fryer? I was thinking of getting one. Fried food without all the oil!? Win!!

Just got it today. I'll have a chance to test it out in a few days at the earliest. Gotta go by the store to get some chicken to fry, maybe some french fries too!

Try frying salmon too, healthier for you

I actually feel like my journey with E2 is coming to a close, which is nice. First time I felt that. At this point, I don't think that I have really changed as a person but that I'm better off emotionally now than when I started, which is what I like. I just felt like posting but don't really know exactly what I want to say.

I feel like I'm processing something subconsciously because it feels like there's a bit of resistance in the background.

I just wish that my thinking and processing speed wasn't slowed down. It makes it difficult to get through all the work I have at the moment.

I did a bit of research and I think that in the past I may have subconsciously believed that I wasn't worthy of attractive girls innately or that no one innately see my value without interacting with me. I think those were two major belief issues in the past and it seems like they are being removed.

Bad News
I thought today I would finally catch up with my work and have a chance to get ahead. Just as I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. A teacher surprises us telling us the due date for the first assignment of a big individual project. What a drag

The Good Stuff
Well I went to a writing advisor appointment today. They helped me with my short story that's due tomorrow. He really enjoyed it and said that there wasn't a dull moment the whole way through. It just always feels awesome to know that my creative work is appreciated. He gave me some suggestions for correction which were minor and even told me to schedule an appointment with him if I have another writing assignment. I'm glad he enjoyed it! I didn't expect this appointment to be as enjoyable as my last (I think I mentioned it a few months ago here).

I went to grab some food to go from the asian place on campus. The asian girl greeted me by saying "What do you want?!" in like a confrontational way. I was kinda thrown off by it. But I quickly realized she was just messing around. I was like "I want THE BOX" (they know my order). She held up the one I wasn't talking about "This box?!". This went on until she started packing the food. And then she asked if I was angry at her and that she didn't mean to make me angry. I wasn't. But I was like "I have too many things to think about to get angry over you". This was totally different than usual. Usually, it's like a normal place your order, pack your food and go kinda deal. I guess either she wanted to flirt or just have some fun at the end of the shift.

Well it's time for me to finish up the rest of the work I gotta do.

It seems like I'm still working through to establishing self-validation. I'm debating running the sub tonight to see if resistance would have passed by morning. There's that and I just don't really know how to handle my emotions towards some girls I know. Like I don't want to be emotionally overwhelmed. I think what's bothering me is knowing me where I have been with girls for all my life, especially recently, and being comfortable letting that go and going beyond all that. It's impacting how I feel about myself when I'm around girls I'm attracted to. It's like I don't want to feel that strongly because I don't want to risk the same things that happened in the past happening again. All of that at once is kinda emotionally overwhelming.

Sidenote
I found it really surprising that Shannon said that a program like DMSI could be best to improve someone's self-esteem, depending on what the root causes are. That's interesting. Even more of a reason to look forward to running it.

So pissed off, so stressed, I'm so fucking sick of the ups and downs. I know that life has ups and downs but it's the SAME OLD SHIT! IM READY FOR SOME NEW SHIT. It really pisses me off that I'm not up to my own standard in multiple areas of my life right now. I'm sick of it.

If I never actually accomplish the things in life I want to accomplish, or if I can't even be satisfied and fulfilled in my own life, I'd rather have never lived in the first place.

I want my suite mates to die. They're loud, obnoxious, annoying, and fucking losers that aren't doing shit with their life. I don't care how. I just want them dead.

Sometimes I just don't really know what's going on.

I miss my social fluidity and my social confidence. I'm not sure if it'll come back as long as I'm on E2. At the very least, I hope so after I stop running it.

I do see now that I haven't been "accepting" of myself while I do nothing to improve. It's hard for me to. On the flip side, it's was SO much easier for me to feel close joy on a daily basis while I knew I was improving. Sometimes, it was even euphoric. It's very hard for me to see exactly how much progress I've made with all the ups and downs. One day, I'm in a great IDGAF state, but I'm not able to work creatively, another day I'll feel good, have access to my positive creativity, but then it all goes down the drain when something triggers me, and then another day I'll just be in a terrible state, hate being around people, think of creative ways of killing people that irritate me, and have a strong access to negative creativity.

Honestly, while I've been running E2, I feel like I have more anxiety towards things that I didn't use to feel anxiety for. I just assume it's because I'm in a hypersensitive state while on it. The little things that I didn't think about that often but still bothered me before E2, I think about on a daily basis (unless I'm in a good state).

With Shannon saying that "E2 lets you know when you're finished", I really think that's unclear. I've thought about stopping E2 a few times to finish my clearing process with tapping (since it interferes with E2). But it's near impossible for me to know what's just my own thinking and what the sub is trying to get me to do. What I think I should do is wait until the next time I feel good again and then either lower hours on E2 gradually or just stop. Wait 2 weeks. Then either tap or do DMSI. But I have no way of knowing if this is "resistance", just my thinking, or what I actually should be doing.

Today wasn't as unpleasant as yesterday, but I really do miss my social confidence and social fluidity. It's just not the same right now.


Sidenote

I see how Shannon mentions 6G and how powerful it's going to be. I truly hope that it lives up to what both he and everyone on the forum expect. I expect any 6G program to be a lifechanger in 30 days. I'm hoping that for a sub like E3 when it comes out, it clears out everything from 6 months of use or sooner. Even if that means that the mind will take another 6 months after finishing the program to finish clearing everything, it'll still get done from 6 months of active listening.

(09-22-2016, 04:38 PM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]Sometimes I just don't really know what's going on.

I miss my social fluidity and my social confidence. I'm not sure if it'll come back as long as I'm on E2. At the very least, I hope so after I stop running it.

I do see now that I haven't been "accepting" of myself while I do nothing to improve. It's hard for me to. On the flip side, it's was SO much easier for me to feel close joy on a daily basis while I knew I was improving. Sometimes, it was even euphoric. It's very hard for me to see exactly how much progress I've made with all the ups and downs. One day, I'm in a great IDGAF state, but I'm not able to work creatively, another day I'll feel good, have access to my positive creativity, but then it all goes down the drain when something triggers me, and then another day I'll just be in a terrible state, hate being around people, think of creative ways of killing people that irritate me, and have a strong access to negative creativity.

Honestly, while I've been running E2, I feel like I have more anxiety towards things that I didn't use to feel anxiety for. I just assume it's because I'm in a hypersensitive state while on it. The little things that I didn't think about that often but still bothered me before E2, I think about on a daily basis (unless I'm in a good state).

With Shannon saying that "E2 lets you know when you're finished", I really think that's unclear. I've thought about stopping E2 a few times to finish my clearing process with tapping (since it interferes with E2). But it's near impossible for me to know what's just my own thinking and what the sub is trying to get me to do. What I think I should do is wait until the next time I feel good again and then either lower hours on E2 gradually or just stop. Wait 2 weeks. Then either tap or do DMSI. But I have no way of knowing if this is "resistance", just my thinking, or what I actually should be doing.

Today wasn't as unpleasant as yesterday, but I really do miss my social confidence and social fluidity. It's just not the same right now.


Sidenote

I see how Shannon mentions 6G and how powerful it's going to be. I truly hope that it lives up to what both he and everyone on the forum expect. I expect any 6G program to be a lifechanger in 30 days. I'm hoping that for a sub like E3 when it comes out, it clears out everything from 6 months of use or sooner. Even if that means that the mind will take another 6 months after finishing the program to finish clearing everything, it'll still get done from 6 months of active listening.

Great Journaling. It sounds like you are making a lot of Progress in 'Self-Healing.'

(09-22-2016, 04:38 PM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]With Shannon saying that "E2 lets you know when you're finished", I really think that's unclear. I've thought about stopping E2 a few times to finish my clearing process with tapping (since it interferes with E2). But it's near impossible for me to know what's just my own thinking and what the sub is trying to get me to do. What I think I should do is wait until the next time I feel good again and then either lower hours on E2 gradually or just stop. Wait 2 weeks. Then either tap or do DMSI. But I have no way of knowing if this is "resistance", just my thinking, or what I actually should be doing.

The way I see it if you have doubts about being finished you're likely not. I'd imagine when you truly finish clearing whatever it is that's holding you back you'll have a clear sense of not needing E2 anymore. I don't know if you can relate to this or not, but you know when you think about doing something or having a certain life and it almost feels like there is an invisible force holding you back from that? To me that's a clear sign that there are still things that need to be addressed. In my case I'll know E2 has done it's job when this anxiety I have is so completely gone I don't even think of having to manage it anymore or figuring out a way to build my life around it. I'll just create the life I want. Unlimited choice, freedom, and no excuses for why something can't be achieved.

(09-23-2016, 07:16 AM)mat422 Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-22-2016, 04:38 PM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]With Shannon saying that "E2 lets you know when you're finished", I really think that's unclear. I've thought about stopping E2 a few times to finish my clearing process with tapping (since it interferes with E2). But it's near impossible for me to know what's just my own thinking and what the sub is trying to get me to do. What I think I should do is wait until the next time I feel good again and then either lower hours on E2 gradually or just stop. Wait 2 weeks. Then either tap or do DMSI. But I have no way of knowing if this is "resistance", just my thinking, or what I actually should be doing.

The way I see it if you have doubts about being finished you're likely not. I'd imagine when you truly finish clearing whatever it is that's holding you back you'll have a clear sense of not needing E2 anymore. I don't know if you can relate to this or not, but you know when you think about doing something or having a certain life and it almost feels like there is an invisible force holding you back from that? To me that's a clear sign that there are still things that need to be addressed. In my case I'll know E2 has done it's job when this anxiety I have is so completely gone I don't even think of having to manage it anymore or figuring out a way to build my life around it. I'll just create the life I want. Unlimited choice, freedom, and no excuses for why something can't be achieved.

I know exactly what you mean about the invisible force. I've only had that feeling for two circumstances in my life.

1. A lack of having friends and never being popular (I'm pretty past this as I have a good amount of friends and have had my time of popularity and don't care as much about being popular)

2. Success with women. As I said earlier, my social fluidity and social confidence have been absent for most of my run of E2. But yeah, my original reason for running E2 was to remove this "invisible force" and be successful with women.

Do you think it's better to run E2 until I am successful with women instead of running E2 a predetermined time and going to DMSI?

My career is going up, I'm having more ideas for creative projects, I just would like to add sexual relationships with hot girls to the mix and maybe manage time better since I'm limited for the time being. I feel like I'm going to start getting diminishing returns on my E2 run. It would be amazing to be immune to feeling fear, guilt, and shame, but I feel that it would take at least 1.5 yrs to come close to that. I don't really have that kind of time and I'm sure E3 will be more time efficient when it comes out.

I plan on doing AM7 (hopefully it'll have E3) so that should completely take care of any possible insecurity I may have left.

(09-23-2016, 07:54 AM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-23-2016, 07:16 AM)mat422 Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-22-2016, 04:38 PM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]With Shannon saying that "E2 lets you know when you're finished", I really think that's unclear. I've thought about stopping E2 a few times to finish my clearing process with tapping (since it interferes with E2). But it's near impossible for me to know what's just my own thinking and what the sub is trying to get me to do. What I think I should do is wait until the next time I feel good again and then either lower hours on E2 gradually or just stop. Wait 2 weeks. Then either tap or do DMSI. But I have no way of knowing if this is "resistance", just my thinking, or what I actually should be doing.

The way I see it if you have doubts about being finished you're likely not. I'd imagine when you truly finish clearing whatever it is that's holding you back you'll have a clear sense of not needing E2 anymore. I don't know if you can relate to this or not, but you know when you think about doing something or having a certain life and it almost feels like there is an invisible force holding you back from that? To me that's a clear sign that there are still things that need to be addressed. In my case I'll know E2 has done it's job when this anxiety I have is so completely gone I don't even think of having to manage it anymore or figuring out a way to build my life around it. I'll just create the life I want. Unlimited choice, freedom, and no excuses for why something can't be achieved.

I know exactly what you mean about the invisible force. I've only had that feeling for two circumstances in my life.

1. A lack of having friends and never being popular (I'm pretty past this as I have a good amount of friends and have had my time of popularity and don't care as much about being popular)

2. Success with women. As I said earlier, my social fluidity and social confidence have been absent for most of my run of E2. But yeah, my original reason for running E2 was to remove this "invisible force" and be successful with women.

Do you think it's better to run E2 until I am successful with women instead of running E2 a predetermined time and going to DMSI?

My career is going up, I'm having more ideas for creative projects, I just would like to add sexual relationships with hot girls to the mix and maybe manage time better since I'm limited for the time being. I feel like I'm going to start getting diminishing returns on my E2 run. It would be amazing to be immune to feeling fear, guilt, and shame, but I feel that it would take at least 1.5 yrs to come close to that. I don't really have that kind of time and I'm sure E3 will be more time efficient when it comes out.

I plan on doing AM7 (hopefully it'll have E3) so that should completely take care of any possible insecurity I may have left.

You can always come back to E2. Maybe you just need some success with women to get it off your mind. The question you have to ask yourself is what's your priority right now? Your career or women? Though from the journals I'm reading DMSI seems to be having an overall positive effect on all areas of life, so it's not so black and white as it was in the past with these attraction subs.

I don't know how much better DMSI is with overcoming resistance compared to E2, but if that's your main issue which I suspect it might be, maybe DMSI will help you get over some of this stuff. A lot of guys having trouble with E2 I think are just resisting the programming, myself included. One thing that's been helping me. I sit down, breathe, and just relax my body fully while listening to the sub and I tell myself "I now allow any and all changes to be made to improve my life". And really feel that and be committed to it and trust in the power of your subconscious mind. Sometimes you need to put yourself into alignment with whatever the subconscious is attempting to fix, otherwise it feels like something else controlling you and that causes fear which causes resistance.

(09-23-2016, 09:01 AM)mat422 Wrote: [ -> ]You can always come back to E2. Maybe you just need some success with women to get it off your mind. The question you have to ask yourself is what's your priority right now? Your career or women? Though from the journals I'm reading DMSI seems to be having an overall positive effect on all areas of life, so it's not so black and white as it was in the past with these attraction subs.

I don't know how much better DMSI is with overcoming resistance compared to E2, but if that's your main issue which I suspect it might be, maybe DMSI will help you get over some of this stuff. A lot of guys having trouble with E2 I think are just resisting the programming, myself included. One thing that's been helping me. I sit down, breathe, and just relax my body fully while listening to the sub and I tell myself "I now allow any and all changes to be made to improve my life". And really feel that and be committed to it and trust in the power of your subconscious mind. Sometimes you need to put yourself into alignment with whatever the subconscious is attempting to fix, otherwise it feels like something else controlling you and that causes fear which causes resistance.

Yeah, I'm really looking forward to the full 6G release. I think it'll be great for me with dealing with resistance.

I don't really feel like it's an either/or situation between my career and women. I'm an actor that sometimes likes to write. Sure, when I'm filming for something, that's always the top priority, but there's still down time between jobs and when we're not filming. Memorizing lines isn't too much of a problem either. Right now, it's college classes that are sucking the time and creativity out of me. Too many, and a bad combination of classes contribute to this.

I actually started doing a basic meditation yesterday that I use to do before E2. I think it's been helpful. I just sit down, become present to what I'm feeling and just focus on what I feel without thinking. Shannon said meditation may interfere with E2, but at this point, I'm doing it because I know it works quickly and I'm ready to feel better.

Sidenote

I've been looking up the difference between sexual attraction and romantic attraction. The differences kind of surprise me. I think, for me, instead of separating the two, it's all one scale for me.

Some girls that are good friends of mine, I enjoy being around, hanging with 1 on 1, but don't think of them sexually. I'd never say I'm "romantically attracted" to them. I'd just say they're my friends. Hell, I enjoy hanging and talking with my close guy friends too. No "romantic attraction" there lol

Some girls aren't the type I'd usually go for but have a nice face and have this sexy feminine energy. I'm both romantically and sexually attracted most of the time. The ones that are hot, I'd definitely be sexually attracted and most likely romantically attracted unless their personality isn't the best.

Interesting discovery

Well today has been better than yesterday. That's good.

It just seems like my life overall is better when I meditate and I watch content from RSD. I know people have their thoughts about them, but they were the biggest influence on me changing my life. They're good for a laugh, engaging, and I enjoy learning what they have to teach. I have Shift but I never actually went through it. I started going through it yesterday and just reminding myself of these concepts, I felt better today.

Why I Enjoyed Learning Game
Back when I first got to college and very limited social skills, I knew that I would either sink or swim. I'd either die of emotional turmoil or I'd actually succeed in being social. I met someone who's one of my best friends now and he introduced me to RSD. I started watching their stuff. I was hooked hardcore. I got Foundations and started learning the basics. It took about 6 months for me to fluid and flowing. I didn't go out to clubs, I learned only from being on campus and socializing. I still remember my first approach to this day. The rush I felt after I did it was like I was finally turning my brain on for the first time ever. That moment was life changing. I never knew I could feel that good in my body. The following six months, I met many people. It got to the point that I knew I'd pass a friend if I went somewhere on campus, I could show up to the cafeteria and find a friend there. It was awesome.

On top of that, learning the theory of social dynamics, it was amazing. It really engaged me. I could talk to my friends about game/social dynamics and get into state just talking about it! It's the most intricate, interesting thing I've ever learned. It was fun for me to look at other people's actions and hear what they say and be able to see what's going on in the interaction. On top of that, I felt like I was the shit! I learned social dynamics from the internet! That was an epic thing for me. I changed SO MUCH in that 6 month period. I would LOVE to be able to constantly evolve like that every 6 months! I'd LOVE TO! Of course, I wasn't successful in actually having sex with the girls I wanted, that's why I'm here on subs. The thing is, I didn't even think about sex until after I started getting good with game. The thing is I ultimately think that RSD is one of the best things that ever happened to me.

Anyway, I still plan on doing meditation and seeing what I can learn from Shift.

Unrelated

I was curious why some people think that getting looks from girls is significant. I looked up on YouTube some pua who was recording while he was just walking and he pointed out some girls that looked at him that would make his approach warm. I laughed so hard! They just look at him and that's it! One of them kind of like smiled, but that kind of stuff seems very everyday to me, nothing of significance. Either I've been getting ioi's regularly or this stuff is being blown out of proportion.

I'd consider a real ioi being something like a head turning stare where their head follows you for at least 5 seconds or they just start a conversation and stick to you or they start touching you.