Quote:I've also found myself not liking sitting around the house it bores me and almost drives me crazy. The problem is i'm so used to sitting around the house all weekend I don't know what else to do. i'm at a loss as to what to do other than be on the computer, in front of the TV, at the gym or out drinking.
That's where you gotta ask yourself, what do I want? and then use the time you have to do things to get closer to what you want
Go find a place that you've not visited before, or not visited recently. Explore it. See who is there, what is available. You're going to be Indiana Jones, exploring the boring to find the fun.
Maybe it's a shopping mall, or a downtown area, or a club district. Or maybe it's a state park, a beach, a lake, or a local event like art & wine festival.
It's all about new things. Go enjoy them.
Thanks guys. I need to discover some new things I enjoy that are a bit cheaper as most of the things I enjoy aren't cheap
Anyway anxiety is huge today. Worst I've had since part way through AM. I just feel restless and unable to think straight. Shannon wasn't kidding when he said 5G is a different level.
Unfortunately not something I can afford to have at the moment. So i'm going to try switching to daytime usage as this has helped in the past.
Anxiety and restlessness can sometimes be counteracted by going out and doing something. Even if it's taking a walk, don't hide out in your room with it.
Thanks Sean. Only in my room these days for sleeping
I've found that if I socialize that anxiety the anxiety disappears almost completely.
So today I found myself a flat and will be moving out next weekend. I was so easily able to connect to the people there as I can with most people now. This will be the first time i've moved out without a girlfriend so its going to be quite a change truly standing on my own two feet for once.
Living alone was something I feared for a very long time. I'm currently renting a room in a house that has 5 other guys living here, and it's great.
I hope living alone is as good for you as it is me.
I don't seem to be as afraid of it as I used to be mainly due to AM I think.
Anyway had my first real dream on WM last night and it was around one of my bigger fears. The fear that other people won't like me. In the dream some of my old best friends who I haven't seen in a while were making fun of me and telling me how they hated me. I was walking around random places by myself and every so often they would be off in the distance yelling at me telling me how much they hated me and that I was a bad person.
Hi Jim,
I replied to your email to the store and reactivated your downloads but today I got a email saying it couldn't be delivered and i'm not sure why. Anyway, you will be able to get your downloads now.
(10-08-2012, 07:21 PM)jimbobday Wrote: [ -> ]I don't seem to be as afraid of it as I used to be mainly due to AM I think.
Anyway had my first real dream on WM last night and it was around one of my bigger fears. The fear that other people won't like me. In the dream some of my old best friends who I haven't seen in a while were making fun of me and telling me how they hated me. I was walking around random places by myself and every so often they would be off in the distance yelling at me telling me how much they hated me and that I was a bad person.
So there is a part of you that is telling you that. The part represented by your friends in the dream.
I see yet a lot of happening in those few days! 5g must kick ass, badly! Imagine, you got 6 stages of this jewel!
Yea man was some major changes in a few days.
So been having thoughts of quitting the last few days. I know its all resistance so trying not to even entertain the thoughts but I've been feeling quite shut down, very closed off. I feel like just staying at home and not going out and doing things. It feels like a big push to get out and not be a hermit at the moment which is strange as its almost the opposite of what I was feeling a week ago.
Have had a lot of girls smiling at me lately, most girls I pass in the street infact but have been sick this week and took my first sick day in two years the other day.
So this is aggressively attacking my fear of not being liked.
Had another dream last night that was so vivid I literally had to check my phone today to make sure it wasn't real. Last night I dreamed I got a message from a guy I met a few weeks back and became friends with, telling me to f*** off and calling me an a**hole for not meeting up with him cause I have been sick.
I also missed a day yesterday and these dreams were still coming through so was still processing the sub goes to show the power of 5G
(10-13-2012, 02:22 PM)jimbobday Wrote: [ -> ]So this is aggressively attacking my fear of not being liked.
Had another dream last night that was so vivid I literally had to check my phone today to make sure it wasn't real. Last night I dreamed I got a message from a guy I met a few weeks back and became friends with, telling me to f*** off and calling me an a**hole for not meeting up with him cause I have been sick.
I also missed a day yesterday and these dreams were still coming through so was still processing the sub goes to show the power of 5G
Definitely sounds like the Overcome Fear programming is being introduced very early in the program. A good sign. In fact, I'm hoping that stages 1-3 (or really the whole set) hammer that Overcome Fear programming in as much as possible because once that fear no longer exists I expect your overall success with women and with life in general to skyrocket.
By the way, are you using headphones or just playing WM on speaker?
Yea man. When not faced with massive resistance I can slowly start to feel a stronger sense of self building as well. Surprisingly more so than AM as well. When faced with the massive resistance I get needy and clingy with people and overly approval seeking as well. I suspect once this is handled a lot of things are going to change and life will take a turn for the better.
I also had yesterday thoughts of getting back into singing. It was always my dream to be a rockstar when I was younger and I have such a passion for signing. I'm also pretty good at it and have a good voice and a knack for writing lyrics and expressing my emotions through it but was just to afraid to fail at it or not be good enough.
I'm using through a combination of my phone speaker (Galaxy s2) and headphones during the week. Then in the weekends I use my speakers at night as i'm unable to listen during the day
Also am moving out into a flat today and while it still scares me greatly I feel I am now at a place where I can handle it and the people i'm moving in with seem like a cool group of people who off first meeting seem social and solid within themselves and amazingly easy to connect with (This may also be because of changes within myself).