(02-14-2020, 07:08 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I took the time to listen and I have concluded that this goes too far. It will lead down a road of more and more inches make a mile. This does get into spirituality, which many cannot differentiate from religion. So while I don't have a problem with the message and it wouldn't be a problem at all if she wasn't talking about spirituality, I do have to consider the "give an inch, take a mile" aspect that will eventually result. Please take down the link.
No problem! I'll edit the post a bit as well.
Crapitty, it does seem like I've "overtrained" in my bardic practice because I feel muscular exhaustion in the face and lower abdomen (and in the face it feels serious enough that I'm worried I'm going to develop sinus inflammation, lol). So I have to take another day off today, even though I wanted to go and practice. Oh well.
Aaaaaaaaand my vocal coach is back <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Hot damn. Now we can work.
Came up with one hell of a program for that recital in September, dis gon be gud.
I blame the DRS.
Let's rock! \m/
Out of other things, the TAS sounds really exciting for me.
I'll probably purchase it and then put it to use if/when switching programs to something else from the current DMSI, as I'm mixing it up enough already as it is. Also, I'm not done doing the DRS dance yet.
One notable thing on the DRS front: I am noticing that all the wonderful peeps at that conservatory place (assorted sonnies, insecure competition and butthurt playah-gals) that I either knew for a fact or at the very least suspected (or had them feature in my "vision" thingy
- by the way, I still get these from time to time, it's like if someone's thinking of me in a fashion that would affect me personally in a negative manner, I get a glimpse of what they're sending my way and oftentimes a bit of their reaction to having it DRSed at them; the most recent example is that composer-pianist fellow right after I sent him a recording of Cesare Siepi and told him "that's the way we do it, man!"
I do only get these when I'm not otherwise mentally focused on anything that, well, requires focus. He appeared to have been frustrated in a "but, but, but... WRRRa, MY IDEAS ARE BETTER" fashion
eh, he's always been a smartass) are now either extremely wary when they see me (they get a somewhat worried look, and stop, f. in. fishing for intel to later use against me, lol) or are avoiding me completely in some cases. Good stuff! I think a month or two more of consistent DRSing should do the trick.
Had a thought go through my head, it went something like, "well, there's no stopping this train now" and I've go this snappy song playing on loop.
Those lyrics, doe.
Finally went out and purchased that teeth-whitening thingy I was harping on about back in December. This one has decent-to-solid reviews in the Interwebz, and whilst somewhat pricey, if it does what it's supposed to do then I'll be a happy camper. Also purchased a toothpaste that's supposedly going to improve the effects further. We'll see.
Suddenly and weirdly got the "good 'ol sentimental song classics" bonanza. Interesting.
Still DMSIng and DRSing with the best of them. Technically, I feel pretty good about myself and everything, as I had somehow managed to disconnect mentally and energetically from a great many situations and places (f. in. most noticeably in the professional setting of what I call the "Warsaw singing class" and now I'm a total beast when it comes to bardic stuff), whilst also noticing a pretty significant shift occurring in my approach to sexy fun times in egeneral (the point being, it's supposed to be so that I enjoy *myself*, lol, in short). All in all, feeling good, keeping on. The nearest DMSI break is going to be Friday - Monday.
Gonna wait with the purchase of the TAS to check out that other shielding option that's in the works, but I'll be buying it soon enough, I bet (I mean, it's the one I've been harping on about the most
). I won't be trying it out before switching programs to something else than the current DMSI, though, and still got some DRSing to do. So for the time being it's DMSI3.3.2+DRS.
(09-30-2019, 09:03 AM)Omni3 Wrote: [ -> ] (09-30-2019, 06:34 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]... "libidinal".
Noticing an interesting phenomenon. As I'm walking around town, doing whatever, I'll sometimes get this "pang" which is like "whuh?", which then makes me turn around or something, and usually there's an extremely attractive woman there, even if but for a couple of seconds. Mebbe it's the SRS letting me know "would you look at that!"
Or they're checking you out and as their energy connects with you and 'feels you out' you become aware of it on some level and turn and notice them..
By the way, from my recent experiences "strutting my stuff" about town it would appear to you were right in this. I've been getting more and more moments like these recently, heh, and I'm starting to think you were right in this - it's not the SRS, it's the woman's energy being projected at me.
(02-18-2020, 10:50 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ] (09-30-2019, 09:03 AM)Omni3 Wrote: [ -> ] (09-30-2019, 06:34 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]... "libidinal".
Noticing an interesting phenomenon. As I'm walking around town, doing whatever, I'll sometimes get this "pang" which is like "whuh?", which then makes me turn around or something, and usually there's an extremely attractive woman there, even if but for a couple of seconds. Mebbe it's the SRS letting me know "would you look at that!"
Or they're checking you out and as their energy connects with you and 'feels you out' you become aware of it on some level and turn and notice them..
By the way, from my recent experiences "strutting my stuff" about town it would appear to you were right in this. I've been getting more and more moments like these recently, heh, and I'm starting to think you were right in this - it's not the SRS, it's the woman's energy being projected at me.
Yes, I'd been getting massive DMSI like effects during my 6 month run of UMS - to the point I equated it becoming Alpha. I was aware of my energy 'shining' and drawing peeps to me from all directions, many caught DIHL. I shall at some point be running DMSI.
Keep on a strutting amigo.
Gonna be teaching that singing class tomorrow evening. Fortunately, I have no idea what I'm doing, so...
I guess I'll just wing it and pretend I'm a *maestro*, maybe some naive 18-y-o will take the bait, lol.
I am currently engaged in working on healing some pretty deep wounds I have noticed. That root/perineum stuff seems to be fixed for the most part already (I still sometimes feel it acting up, but only in connection to that further stuff) - and they're on the heart region (bottom right side of the heart mostly - these are related to being purposefully hurt by people I should have been able to trust, in theory - plus this bit/cord underneath the right side of my ribs, which seems to be related to feelings of loss and loneliness caused by the above) and a little bit around the liver region (these are related to the doubt/self-confidence axis) and I believe I'm making good progress. Just gotta keep cracking at it and gotta keep DRSing to be able to do so with as little hindrance as possible.
Ended up going to the library today and beginning to read creepy uncle Lacan's Seminar XX on a whim. Hahahaha, I love it, it's great. He's in good form in this one, lol. Also, I had this seminar's title going through my head afterward. *Encore*. Lololo. ENCORE!!!!!!!! Hahaha, I love it.
That was pretty fun, I think I actually gave the peeps some decent tips. Several 18-y-olds (and older gals as well) appeared to have been suitably impressed by my MAESTRO impression.
I also made some potato. All in all, it was fun, even though I've got a bit of an infection, but nothing I can't handle.
During the off days from DMSIng, I think I'll do some hardcore clearing. A lot of that shite/damage I've mentioned in my previous post is the result of outside attack, unfortunately. F. in. I did a pretty extended clearing last night and I had these "I'm going to die alone and unloved" unpleasant thingies coming up (from the heart region) and then I had a recollection of f. in. that lovely ex of mine yelling shit like that at me after another one of her gaming attempts (intended to "get me back") failed and I refused, lololololo. Eh, I'll keep throwing stuff at it, see what sticks.
Otherwise, feeling pretty good. These clearings could be hard-kore though, but I'd rather be free of as much gunk of this sort as I can, because I have stuff to do and 18-y-olds (and older gals) to bed, y'know.
Feeling very, very good today. Practicing my bardic skillz like a maniac, I think I've got it all figured out, just gotta work on making it habitual and as effortless and organic as possible. I now also feel confident that I can turn up my physical regimen up a notch without impacting my bardic practice negatively, just gotta remember to really stretch and loosen up before each session. On the DMSI front things are promising as well. Doing good work on resolving that stuff I've mentioned above as well. DRS is doing its job. Let's keep at it!
Also, a call out to my man, Tyson "Too Fa(s)t" Fury for showing how it's done.
I'm kinda proud of myself, because I predicted a Fury TKO or corner stoppage in the 8th, lol. One off, hahaha.
Hmm. Went to a little social gathering today; very promising stuff on the DMSI front as usual, and something that may be related to the DRS front as well - sweet little "O"'s older brother was in attendance, but he looked very, very off and at one point he simply got up and left without saying goodbye to anyone, even though I actually tried to check what's up. Weirdness! Never seen him acting like that. Also, one of my playah-gals who was in attendance as well was acting a touch differently than she normally would, and had some weird going-ons as well (looked as if she got hit by something serious several times at the very least; heh, those who can give it, really don't know how to take it, lol). That lovely ex of mine has made tremendous progress in not being an ass, hahahaha. Actually, I think for the first time she actually looked glad/impressed upon witnessing a fellow female hit on me, instead of angry and, erm, C U Next Tuesday-y.
I was kinda miffed in the morning because I skipped bardic practice, but I elected to rest up and let that infection clear up some more (my tongue and face are still a bit puffy, heh).
Lol, feels like I'm again under attack after having reconnected with my vocal coach, both from her (she's still got that control freak "I am the smartestest and the greatestest and you should do EXACTLY as I tell you" thing going - EDIT: which is seriously stupid as, technically, she works for me, not the other way around, as it's me who's paying her, lol) as well as assorted MAESTROS and sonnies who would really like to see my voice destroyed, lol. It's kinda annoying, because I can feel it happening the most whilst I'm running DMSI - it usually goes away to a great extent when I'm running the DRS. Also, certain sonnies and MAESTROS are right back to trying to work/con my vocal coach into ruining my voice as well yet again, lol. Some people.
Still, working on my self-confidence while I'm at it, because these attacks are only possible due to self-doubt. Because, seriously, I know what's what when it comes to my voice by now, like, for realz.
I hope that once I get my self-confidence levels to where they should be, such attacks will be way less of a nuisance (because they're seriously annoying right now - to the point of distraction).